Hi everybody! Sorry it's been so long. I know I said I'd keep this story updated, and I definitely didn't, haha. But! I have begun to continue writing this story, and I'm hoping you guys will like it as much as I do. Anyway, the long-awaited next chapter! Onto Cain!
I can't do it. I can't hear this.
My fingers shake, as I forcibly move them to the 'Play' button.
Yes, I can. For Debbie.
I blink hard, my eyes stinging, and remove my finger from it.
This tape is all about Cain. What he did- what we did.
But I know what happens if I don't listen to all thirteen. Sighing heavily, I reach back to the play button, and press it down. Debbie's voice fills my ears once again.
"Well, well, well. Shocker you're on here."
I can't help but laugh a little.
"Alright, dad, I'm just gonna get right to the point."
I brace myself.
"Where do I ever start?" she laughs. "You gave me up! You were my dad, and you gave me up. Now I know you aren't only to blame for this, but aren't fathers supposed to love their daughters? Great way of showing you loved me, pawning me off to a foster family."
Oh, Debbie…
"I wont even get into the shit you put me through when everything happened with Sarah. I hate myself enough for that. I let her go because I was too irresponsible to care for her. I didn't love her. Sound familiar?"
I shift my weight on the bus seat and look out the window, listening intently to the tape.
"You must think I'm hypocritical. So mad at you for giving me up, when I turned around and did the same flamin' thing. I wonder why it turned out that way. Must run in the family. But the difference between you and I, Dad, is that I grew up, and I love Sarah. You… You never loved me."
I take a sharp breath in.
All this time, I never understood their relationship. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew Cain didn't care about her. I never in a million years thought he didn't love her.
I always thought, every parent loved their children. Even my own mom and dad.
But hearing Debbie say those words, it made it real.
"But you didn't stop there."
Here it comes.
"You stole my girlfriend. My flamin' girlfriend! For so long, I only thought that you couldn't accept that I loved a girl, but now I get it. You just hated me. I forgave you, because I got her back. But that doesn't change anything. All you ever wanted was to ruin my life. Well, congratulations, Cain. Job well done."
Debbie pauses on the tape.
That wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be.
"My lesson to you, Dad, is to love your children. Support them. Don't hate them. It only makes things worse."
I breathe out heavily, catching a few odd looks from other bus-riders.
"6 tapes down, 7 to go. Mom, you're next."
