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Author's Note: Go the Aussie artists…though few they are still awesome! (theyre mentioned in this chapter…if you were wondering)
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Chapter 8: Confessions
The sun came through the curtains but I was already wide awake. I know I should have been tired after a day like yesterday, but I couldn't get to sleep all night. I was so excited! Not that my hopes were up or anything but Edward did say I was unlike other girls and he enjoyed talking to me. That should mean something right? Many guys have often chosen Jessica or Alice over me but Alice was off the market and Edward said that he didn't really like Jessica, so did that mean I had a chance?
My
phone started vibrating on my bedside table and I looked at my clock.
7:00? Why would someone be calling at this early hour? Without
looking at the caller ID I picked up.
"Hello?" My groggy voice
surprised me. Maybe my body was actually tired but I just didn't
realise it.
"Hey Bella! Oops, did I wake you up? I'm so sorry!
Ohmigosh, I didn't realise it was this early. I'm really sorry!"
Jacob's chatty, upbeat voice came through the receiver. No matter
how much I love Jacob (as a friend of course), sometimes I just
didn't have the patience to endure his enthusiasm, especially at
this time when I started to realise the weariness of my body.
"Hey
Jake, how's it going?" I replied obligingly.
"Great!
Actually, I was wondering if you wanted to hang out today! I found
this really cute Italian restaurant that I just know you will love.
What about lunch? One o'clock sound okay?"
I sighed. "Jacob,
I'm really not in the mood today. I'm dead tired and I have a ton
of work to catch up on for tomorrow." Well the last bit was a lie,
but what Jacob didn't know wouldn't hurt him, right?
"Oh
sure thing. Never mind. Maybe another time. You rest well, Bella. See
you soon," he said with a hint of disappointment in his voice. I
may have whispered goodbye but I probably hung up before he could
hear it. I suddenly flopped back onto bed, waiting for sleep to
overcome me. Suddenly there was a loud thud from Edward's room
followed by a great crash then silence.
"Shit!"
I rushed to
his room, to find him standing amidst a pile of CD's scattered on
the floor, many with their covers broken. His hand raked through his
head and I didn't fail to notice how great he looked even though it
seemed he just woke up.
"Well, I guess I kind of dropped a few
things," he said, trying to make light of the situation.
I
immediately bent down to help him clean it up. He had an impressive
collection of CDs that he brought with him from England, and he had
bought some more to add to it, while here. I was proud to say that I
successfully introduced him to the great Aussie sounds of the
Presets, the Potbelleez and Sam Sparro. We worked quite quickly and
within minutes, most of the covers were mended and his CDs were back
on the shelf. We were lucky that Alice had already moved out most of
her stuff before the honeymoon meaning Edward could fill the shelves
with his stuff. I picked up the last CD. It was a homemade one that
had written on it with a Sharpie, Comps.
"What's
this?" I said, holding up the CD so he could see. His eyes widened
with surprise.
"Um, that? It's…uh…it's nothing. A
friend…gave it to me. Um…yeh…just put it there," he said,
just short of snatching it from my hands. This was the most
incoherent sentence I had ever heard him say and I was deeply puzzled
about what this CD contained and why it meant so much to him. There
was an unease in the air as we both tried to avoid each other's
glances, and I continued to ponder over the recent happenings.
"So,
your boyfriend calling you just then?" he cautiously said. It took
me a moment to register what he was talking about.
"You mean,
Jacob? No! Gosh No! You don't…wait you think? No! Jacob's just
a friend, actually an ex, but only a friend now!" I said, slightly
panicked that he even thought so. But comprehension did not seem to
reach him.
"That was the guy at the wedding right? I was talking
to him before you gave your speech and he said…"
"Well,
whatever he said it wasn't true. Before he appeared on my doorstep,
days before the wedding, I hadn't seen him since I dumped him and
ran away to Sydney. I clearly told him that I wouldn't get back
with him. Is that what he thinks? Why does he think that? I didn't
mean…" I just realised that it seemed I was really trying to
defend myself here. Wasn't this just making it way more obvious
that I liked Edward? I was trying so hard to prove to him, that I was
still single. What if he started to think I was just like any other
girl? I shouldn't care so much about this, but what if I never even
stood a chance now?
"But anyways the fact is, Jacob is not my
boyfriend and never will be. And I don't see how it even affects
you really." A little white lie to amend myself. I hoped it would
affect Edward because if I was single then…
"But I want it to
affect me, Bella. Don't you see? I don't think this has ever
happened to me before. From the very first time I saw you as Alice
walked down the aisle, it's just been….and when that Jacob said
that. Well I must say, in the hangover I had the next morning I all
but forgot that conversation. But then this morning, I hear you on
the phone with him, and it reminded me that maybe I was mistaken,
maybe I was too late or misinterpreted the signs. Because, Bella, the
last two weeks have been the best of my life. I have never felt so
happy in my entire existence. I can only put it down to you, Bella.
I have to admit, I was scared. I was scared that you didn't feel
the same way, scared you already was with someone. I was even scared
that you didn't even like me. But I don't want to miss my chance.
So I'm going to say it here and I guess I can handle the rejection.
I like you, Bella. I really like you, I…Bella, every time you walk
into the room, I catch my breath and my heart skips a beat. When you
smile, I get this warm, fuzzy feeling inside. I find it hard to make
anything I say coherent because I'm just mesmerized by your
gorgeous eyes. I have never seen someone so beautiful but you're
smart too. You're perfect Bella, absolutely flawless. And all I can
hope for is that you could overlook all my flaws and give me a
chance. Because I think you could be perfect for me." As he said
this, he'd been walking forward and now he stopped right in front
of me. I noticed some moisture in the corner of my eyes and realised
I was crying. Was I imagining things or was this really
happening?
Edward raised his hand, still slowly and brushed the
tears from my face. His eyes never left mine as he placed his hands
on either side of my face. Cautiously, he leant in and I closed my
eyes as his lips touched mine. In that moment, my heart all together
stopped. Call it cliché but I felt the fireworks around us. Edward
pulled back for a moment and looked into my eyes, hands still in
place on my face. I tugged at the front of his shirt and this time,
the kiss was more intense. His hands travelled south to my lower back
as I slid mine up and tangled them into his hair, pulling him closer.
His tongue grazed my bottom lip, and I met it with my own tongue. I
felt his hands go lower as he pulled me up so that my legs were
hitched around his hips and he was carrying me. Effortlessly he
pressed me against the wall and his hands at the bottom of my shirt,
travelling up and down my right thigh. The kisses grew more intense
and I seemed to sink into him. I may have let out a little moan as he
kissed my neck up to my ear. I brought his mouth back to mine, and he
came even closer, slowly moving his hands up.
Suddenly
there was a massive gasp at the door, and we both turned and look, to
see Alice wide-eyed with her mouth hanging open standing there.
Edward immediately bounced metres away as I fixed my shirt. This
moment was beyond awkward as Alice stood there, completely stunned,
obviously trying to comprehend what she just saw.
Jasper came up
behind her and looked from her, to me, to Edward, and back again. I
felt a hot blush come to my cheek as we all stood in silence,
avoiding glances and looking at the floor.
"Bella…" Alice
began.
"Ohmigosh! You guys are back! You were supposed to come
back tomorrow!" I said before we could delve into any embarrassing
conversations. I went forward to give them a big hug and I could feel
Alice was still shocked still.
"Let me make you guys something
to eat. What about pancakes?" I said, taking Jasper with me
downstairs, leaving Alice standing in the doorway and Edward in his
room. I took deep breaths. Edward liked me. And we kissed and it was
amazing. But what did this mean? Did he get the message that I was
into him too? Were we going to get together? But these questions
would be answered later. I knew I was in for an earful when Alice
came out of shock.
