I might have a reckless streak
At least a country-mile wide
If you're gonna run with me
It's gonna be a wild ride
When it comes to loving you
I've got velvet hands
I'll show you how a real bad boy
Can be a real good man
~Real Good Man-Tim McGraw
Don't own Twilight...*Sigh*
For this chapter Edward's hot and filthy mouth, and some sexin.
Ok, and now on to this crap nobody reads :)
I owe my soul to Luv'n Cullen especially this go around because she got the chapter back to me mere hours after I sent it. Even though she probably hadn't unpacked yet from her trip, and had to take care of a sick m.i.l.
Thank you very very much if your still reading this, or if you've just jumped on the band wagon. I'm awful at moving time forward when I write, but I'll do the best I can.
I'll just warn ya, it's a shortin' but a goodin'...at least I think so.
Chapter 8- Real Good Man
I gently slipped my arm out from underneath her. I held my breath as she turned over and snuggled deeper into the covers. I couldn't fucking sleep. All these thoughts racing in my goddamn head was driving me insane. I quietly unzipped the tent and stepped out. It was cold as fuck out here, but I guess four in the morning anywhere might be a little fucking cold.
I forgot my fucking lighter in the tent, and I wasn't too sure how sound of a sleeper Bella was. I didn't want to risk waking her up to get it. I mean, she probably needed her fucking sleep after last night. The fire still had a few glowing embers so I took advantage of them to light a cigarette.
I got the fire burning again, just enough to keep my fucking teeth from chattering. I was about to call one of the most no-nonsense bitches I knew, chattering teeth would not be fucking acceptable. I needed to show her I was serious or she'd just fucking hang up on me.
I slowly raked my fingers through my hair, more for fucking concentration than nervousness. I wasn't exactly sure what to tell Rosalie. I guess I should just be open and fucking upfront about it like I always am about everything else with her. It's just all so goddamn strange and it's just not fucking me at all.
I dialed Emmett's number and lit another cigarette, more to have something in my hand than for the nicotine.
I thought it was going to go to voicemail, but on the last fucking ring somebody picked up. I heard them fumbling around and I wanted to fucking laugh because I knew it was Emmett. He may be somewhat of a morning person but not at this hour. I was starting to wonder if maybe calling so early in the morning wasn't that great of a fucking plan. I didn't exactly have time to call last night after our…activities (She can go longer than 8 seconds by the way).
"Heeellloooo," he said groggily into the phone.
"Hey, Em."
"Edward? Why are you calling so early bro? Do you need to know which hole it goes in?" He yawned making the last few words barely audible.
I chuckled. "No, I've had that part figured out for a while now. Uh…I actually needed to talk to Rose for a minute."
"Umm…" he paused, "OK, I'll see if she'll wake up."
I heard the muffled noises in the background of Emmett and Rose talking and the phone rubbing up against fabric.
"What the fuck do you want at 4:25 in the morning Cullen?" she snapped into the phone.
I rolled my eyes. I should have fucking waited to call. "Just shut the fuck up and listen to me Rosalie Hale," I hissed into the phone. I was trying to keep quiet and not wake Bella, but still let her know I wasn't fucking around.
She laughed. "You've got a lot of nerve calling me before God's even awake asshole and then telling me to shut up."
"I need your advice Rose…your help." That might get her attention and make her stop fucking talking.
She was quiet for a few seconds. "I thought you might call. Go on. Tell me about it."
"What? How the fuck did you know I might call?" I asked. I hadn't even talked to her or Emmet in a week.
She sighed. "Does it matter Edward? It was something Emmett said last week. Just tell me the fucking situation so I can go back to sleep."
"I think I love her Rose." I tossed the half burnt cigarette into the fire and ran my hands through my hair and down my face. "Tell me I'm just being fucking stupid and that I should leave right now."
"Well you are stupid," she agreed. "But you were born that way and you can't help it."
"Rosalie," I growled.
"Alright. Well, have you told her how you feel?" she asked.
"Would I be asking for your advice on the fucking subject if I had?" I replied as calmly as possible. I didn't want to play twenty questions. I needed an answer.
"What makes you think that you're in love anyways? I thought Edward Cullen didn't fall in love?"
"I don't know Rose. I don't, but when I look at her I get this heavy feeling in my chest, and when we touch it's like goddamn electricity is running through my veins. She's not like any other girl I've ever met…she's fucking different"
She was quite for a moment. I probably shocked her fucking system with all the 'feelings' talk. That was another thing I didn't normally do. This girl was bringing out all these new and weird fucking sides to me.
"Do you think she feels the same way about you?" she asked.
"She hasn't let me see it if she does." I slumped down in my chair. "That's why I'm telling you this. What should I do? Do I tell her and risk scaring her off? Do I ignore what I'm feeling?" I was starting to freak myself out a little bit.
"Stop, Edward! Listen. I don't know Bella very well. I mean, the only time I've met her was at the one show and afterwards at the bar, which apparently she and I don't remember very much of, but I will say this. That night at the bar she was fine until I made some kind of remark about you being a bitch or something and not coming out with us. Then she downed probably half a bottle of Cuervo. I don't know why she would do that if she didn't care about you a little. I mean, I would personally drink myself into a coma if I had feelings for you, but that's just me."
"Rosalie, I will never request this from you again, understand? Tell me what to do?" I pleaded.
"You won't want to hear this seeing as how you're not one to watch and wait, but just let it play out. Give it a week or two. Don't push her and be nice, Cullen."
"I am nice, just not to bitches."
"You could always make her jealous too ya' know? See if that lights a fire under her ass," she suggested.
"I don't know about that." I shook my head. I wasn't big on jealousy. I'd felt that deadly sin too much for comfort before.
"You never know. Some girls are just oblivious to their feelings until the little green monster claws its way to the surface."
"Yeah, thanks Rose." I said, though I was a little disappointed she didn't offer any more insight into what I should do. I hated to fucking wait.
"No problem, and Edward, if you ever call me this early again, I'll rip you a new asshole."
"Noted," I said, as she hung up.
I turned the phone over and over in my hand and stared into the fire. Wait. I should just wait? I should just wait. I could do that, I guess. It would be a good exercise in self control, seeing as how I normally acted first and asked fucking questions later.
"Edward?" Bella called from inside the tent.
"Yeah, I'm here," I said unzipping the flap and slipping inside.
"What were you doing?" She asked.
"Cigarette," I shrugged. Not entirely a lie.
She sucked on her bottom lip and I felt my dick twitch in anticipation. She was wearing my Callahan Auto t-shirt, which was now permanently stained from the lasagna she had dropped a week ago. She pulled it over her head and tossed it into the corner. "I'm cold," she smirked.
"I feel like this is fucking déjà vu, Bella."
"Remember what you did last time to warm me up? Just do that again." She winked.
No fucking problem. I ran my fingers down her cheek bones and back through her hair. Her lips. Oh God her fucking lips. I sucked her bottom lip into my mouth and ran my fucking tongue across it, then traced the upper one lightly too. I wanted to taste every inch of her mouth. She wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me closer. I was on top of her, my fucking cock pushing into her stomach, trying to escape from my goddamn pants as usual. I kicked them off.
She ran her fingers through my hair as I nipped at her jaw and down her neck. My hands found their way under her fucking shirt and I rolled her nipples. She bucked underneath me, trying to find some kind of fucking friction. My mouth was watering from her laying there shirtless for me. I wanted to taste her goddamn tits bad. So I did. I sucked one nipple in and felt it pucker against my tongue. I licked and sucked the other and watched as it rose from the heat of my fucking mouth. Bella squirmed underneath me as I did.
I slid my hand between her legs and lightly pressed her clit with my thumb. She fucking moaned and writhed underneath me. I started rubbing her clit in little circles and slid my fingers inside of her. She was so wet and fucking ready for me. She wanted me. In this way I was sure of. I licked and bit and sucked at her as I pumped my fingers inside. I was dying to taste her but wasn't sure what her reaction might be.
"That feels so good Edward," she moaned. "But I want to make you feel good, too."
"You do make me feel good Bella, so fucking good."
She sat up, my fingers instantly missing the warmth, and pushed me back.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"You'll see." She winked and started kissing a trail down my chest. She circled my belly button with her tongue and licked down my happy trail. I fucking unconsciously thrust upward from the sensations her tongue was causing, and she took that as a fucking invitation to nip at my hip bones.
By now I think it was a little fucking obvious I was going to get my cock sucked. I just didn't know if I wanted Bella to do something that was one-sided right now. She wrapped her fingers around my shaft and licked the fucking tip. Fuck me, maybe it was ok this one time. She circled my head with her tongue and ran her teeth across the tip. I fisted the covers, trying to brace myself.
"Bella, you don't have to do that," I managed to choke out.
She didn't listen to me. She licked her lips and slid her hot mouth over me, taking in as much as she could. She fucking swirled her tongue around my tip and took me into her mouth again, my head hit the back of her throat. It was everything I could do to not thrust into her deeper. She gripped my hips with both her hands and started sucking me fucking faster. She was creating a goddamn suction like a vacuum and I could feel myself building.
"B-Bella," I stammered. "Stop." As incredible as her mouth felt, I wanted to be buried into her more.
After putting on a fucking condom, I picked her up and set her down on top of me. I slid into her until my whole cock was sheathed in her warmth. She rocked back and forth and I bucked my hips into her as I rolled her nipples with my thumbs.
"Oh God!" she yelled. God would definitely fucking hear her if she kept yelling like that and anybody else within a fucking five mile radius.
The combination of seeing her pouty fucking lips over my cock and now being buried inside her was the most fucking intense thing I had experienced in quite a while. It wouldn't take me long to cum. I pushed my hips up, driving into her. Over and over, and faster. I held onto her hips and pounded into her harder. She was so fucking wet and warm.
"Edward…I…I'm…" she sputtered.
"Just go baby, fucking cum around me," I growled. She was so tight and slick and hot. When she clamped down on me, I just couldn't fucking take it anymore. "Fuck, Bella," I moaned pushing fucking deeper into her. I could feel her muscles squeezing my cock. The feeling was just to fucking extreme. My dick spasmed inside her as I felt my fucking release pour out of me.
She collapsed on top of me and we both lay there for a moment afterwards, fucking sweaty, trembling, and panting. When I finally regained control of my breathing, I rolled over, taking Bella with me. She ran her fingers through my hair and hummed.
"Mother. Fucking. Amazing," I sighed.
"Agreed," she nodded sleepily. "I think you owe me a gift basket," she said with a yawn.
"I think your right. Sleep?" I asked.
"Sleep," she agreed.
She lay down and cuddled up against me. I hesitantly wrapped my arm around her. I didn't even sleep in the same bed with the other girls. Cuddling was definitely something I didn't normally do. It just seemed natural with Bella, though. I could get used to it.
When she was still and her body was heavy in my arms, I lightly kissed her temple. And only when I was sure she was asleep, I whispered in her ear, "I fucking love you, Bella Swan."
A/N
Hope everyones holidays were just swanky as can be!
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