Disclaimer: I own nothing but the plot line; the characters belong to S Meyer. All lyrics belong to their respective writers/artists.

AN: This is later the same night as chapter 7


EPOV

Lying in your bed with your naked body pressed against me and your sleepy sighs tickling my chest hair, I finally let the smile that's been blooming in me spread across my face. Damn I'm a lucky man, a beautiful girlfriend, a loving wife, 2 wonderful kids and a 3rd on the way. Fuck yeah I'm the man. This time last year I was content with just the perfect wife and beautiful children but now I can't imagine my life without you, I need you like a needle needs a vein. I love you.

I feel bad that our routine is gonna get a little fucked up but I'll need to be with Alice for doctors' visits and middle of the night crazy as fuck cravings, not to mention those damn pregnancy hormones, the wife can get a little insane when she's pregnant. And when the baby's born I'll need to be there to help Alice out, I don't even know why she wants a nanny that fat old cow just sits on her ass, eats my food and watches my TV. I look down at your sleeping face and smile, we'll work it out though baby coz this is love and we don't need anything else.

You took the news hard, I knew you would and I'm just glad I got to you before you read any of Alice's messages. My mood darkens and a frown forms on my face, I had no idea she'd been harassing you for months, you should have told me baby. Alice won't be contacting you again I made sure of that, I forgot how much of a scheming bitch she could be.

Squeezing you tight as you throw a leg over me my thoughts don't linger on my wife. You're stunning sweetheart and all mine. I wanna wrap the moon around us and lay beside you skin on skin, make love 'til the sun comes up and the sun goes down again cause I need you. I'm so in love with you and completely obsessed, you're my brand of heroin and I wanna smell that sweet addiction on my breath.

Looking around your small apartment I decide I'm gonna find you a better place, you deserve the best things darlin' and I can't fit that in here. I love spoiling my girls, my daughter's gonna grow up to be a princess and my bank balance winces at the thought of her teenage years, crap I hope I don't have another girl. I wouldn't have it any other way though, it's my job to spoil all 3 of you and I take pleasure in it.

My thoughts on parenting soon have me wondering if you'd ever want kids; it's not something we've ever talked about. I squeeze you tight again as a rush of guilt, sadness and anger flood through me both at the same time. Guilt and sadness at the thought of me not being able to give you something you want and anger at the thought of you having children with another guy. No, that won't happen, you're mine love and I don't share. I have to get up for a cigarette the thought of you with someone else has me so fuckin' wound up. I leave you sleeping like an angel while I step out on to the balcony and light up.

As the smoke flows from my mouth and curls away in to the cold night air I start to calm down. I start to think of the life you could have had if you'd never met me. You'd date someone and then when it got serious introduce them to your mom, maybe a year down the line you'd move in together and he'd propose not long after because you're such a catch baby and he just wants to make sure everyone knows you're his. Then after a long engagement you'd have the perfect church wedding and have kids not long after. Maybe if I wasn't so possessive, so addicted, so selfish, I'd let you go but I am all those things and you're mine so no, you'll never have that life.

Maybe I should feel guiltier about that but I don't and it is what it is. I need you like a lighthouse on the coast, like the father and the son meet the Holy Ghost. I need you and as long as I do I'll take care of you and love you and that will have to be enough.

Finishing my smoke, I through it over the balcony along with all thoughts of you and another and I climb back in to your bed. You feel so good tucked in to me it's maddening and the feel of your hot naked skin against my starry night coldness is making me hard. Your nipples pebble against my chest and your breath comes in little gasps and then you're awake and kissing down my body.

The look in your eyes goes straight to my dick, it's hungry and possessive and I know it's because of my great not so great for you news but then your lips are wrapped around my cock and my brain forgets how to function. There's no easing me in this time, you want to show me how good you can be and I'm ok with that as I'm instantly in your throat, your nose buried in my pubic hair and I'm cursing like I'm possessed. You're humming and moaning and sucking and grazing your teeth on me and I don't last long at all before I'm cumming hard down your throat. My whole body stiffens as you suck me dry and it's, you, are amazing.

Satisfied that you've made your point you snuggle back in to me and we fall asleep. I wish I could hear the thoughts running around in your pretty head love. If you could hear mine all you would hear is Bella, love, need, want, Bella, love, love, mine. Always mine, I need you.