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I wanna address something before you go on to read this I finished this story on 12/19/16 and on 12/10/16 Lena Oxton was conformed gay. I cried when I learned about it. Note I am not a lesbian but am in fact bisexual but it still means a lot to me. With that in mind please enjoy this chapter of step Ladder.
It was cold a different cold then that at Nepal but a cold that was sharp and cut through your skin. Lena and Siver where hidden away in silence. This mission was probably one of their most dangerous yet, they had come to gather some sort of information from talon. Of course Jack not sent only Siver and Lena but the two girls got split up from the rest. It seemed to danger to try and contact the others considering the hack Sombra was amidst the know talon affiliates.
Siver peak around from her and Lena hiding place. Siver looked serious the same way she did on the omic mission only weeks ago, the one where she was shot. Siver had just been let back on missions and this was the first one she was sent to. Siver turned to face Lena, Siver bore the expression of an emotionless killer but it was still warm and Siver like.
"Seems clear" Siver whisper as she reloaded her gun "I'll head out first, wait till I give you a single to follow"
Lena nodded; she found it endearing that Siver knew how to take lead. Unlike her and most of the other overwatch members Siver had no formal military experience. The only skill Siver had when she joined was a good shot.
Siver took deep breath letting it out slowly before she dash off in to the open world beyond the hiding point. Lena watched Siver move further and further away.
There wasn't a moment to think when a sudden shot rang out. There wasn't time to think when Lena noticed it happen. There wasn't time to feel when Siver hit the ground the light powdery snow flying up with the dull thud of her body. Lena didn't think as she jumped forward to Siver body. She stared down at a lifeless body a shot was made clean through her head.
Lena was in such a deep amount of shock she never even heard as someone approached her from behind. " 'ello Tracer"
Lena clenched her jaw when she heard the voice of Widow Maker. She spun around drawing out one of her guns. "You…bitch" Lena's voice was broken, sad and angry. She was shaking and could hardly aim her pistol.
Widow looked at the now dead Siver behind the young brit "She was important to you, no?"
Lena said nothing as she glared up at Widow she was read to pull the trigger the moment the bitch moved a finger.
"A shame she had to die…" Widow Maker teased Lena "She seemed nice"
"She was…" Lena chocked out "and you fucking murder her!"
"What do I say; she was in the wrong place at the right time"
With that Lena lost it she pulled the trigger and the gun fired.
Lena eyes snapped open in the moment. It was a dream. It took the brit awhile to get her braining's and realize that she was in her room, small and dark. It took her longer to realize there was no mission on talon and that Siver's arm was still hurt. It took Lena a long time to realize that Siver was only a few doors down in her room tucked in bed sleeping soundly for god knows how long.
Even still Lena's heart was racing her body drenched in sweat. Lena pushed herself up and looked at her alarm clock, it was 3 am. Lena pulled a hand through her hair; her hair was wet with sweat like the rest of her messy and mated. Her mouth was dry and her throat hurt. Lena brought her legs to her chest. Lena rested her forehead on her knee caps. The brit was glad she was alone because she broke. Her whole body shock and she sobbed, Lena never cries. She wanted to come off as strong someone brave and unbreakable. Yet she was crying now.
That morning Siver was up early. Today Angela was planning on giving her the clear and letting her back on mission and other duties. This wasn't a for sure but Siver could tell her arm was healed up and ready to go. Soon the only reminder that she got shot would be the scar on her left arm. And probably the occasional joke or comment about the time Siver got shot in the arm.
Siver made her way down to the medical bay. Her bare feet making small padding sounds as she walked. The whole way down she thought about how many times she had walked down these halls in the past few weeks and how many more times she'll walk down them in the future. A small part of Siver felt like she would miss this. But an even bigger part missed the trill of a mission.
Siver approached the medical bay door she stopped and knocked on the frame of the open door before walking in to the room.
Angela was sitting at her desk, a mug of steaming coffee sat beside stacks on paper work that had to be filled out. Angela looked up when Siver walked in. The doctor placed her pen down and took off her glasses.
Siver smiled at her "Here for my final checkup"
Angela nodded "Of course"
Angela made her way over to Siver, she grabbed Siver's left arm and looked it over. Angela did all sorts of things, the things she would do every morning to Siver's arm. "I still think you're lucky this wasn't any worse" Angela said.
"You say that a lot, really everyone kinda does" Siver replied she sounded calm about the whole situation.
Angela looked at Siver "You really need to be more careful on future mission" the doctor added the warning.
Siver nodded "Lena pretty much said the same thing"
"I'm not surprised, she cares about you a lot" Angela said as she went back to looking over Siver's arm "I mean she cares a lot about everyone in Overwatch"
Siver nodded.
"And I don't need to tell you she loves you" Angela added and Siver just nodded one more.
Soon Angela looked up from Siver's left arm again and for the last time. She gave a small nod and grabbed a nearby clip board. "I'll let Jack know you're in the clear and ready to take on full duties again" she said as she wrote stuff down. After Angela made her way back to her desk and started shuffling through the mountain of papers.
Excitement filled Siver as she jumped to her feet and thrusted her left arm in the air with a triumphant "yeah!"
Siver turned to Angela who was now working away. Siver have the doctor a soft smile that wouldn't be seen "Thank you Angela"
"It's my job Siver" Angela said without looking up from her paper work "But even still you are welcome"
Lena wasn't sure when she had fallen back a sleep, but she did. A small part of her wishes she had not because she felt like shit. Her head ached as well as her neck. Her mouth was sticky and dry and her throat burned as she swallowed.
She rolled over in her bed. She didn't much feel like leaving the warm comfy embrace of her comforter. Lena wished she could stay like this forever but knew that Jack wouldn't have it. Lena slowly pushed herself up from bed this only made her head feel worse. Lena thought about asking Angela to write her off her the day, but Lena knew this would lead to issues. The brit wasn't sick she just had one bad night was all. She just needed some ibuprofen and would be ready to tackle the day in a few hours.
Lena slowly got to her feet trying to avoid any form of head rush the last thing Lena needed was to pass out. And just as slowly as she got out of bed she made her way down to the medical bay. The cold floor felt like hell against her bare feet, but it also felt nice. There were also the bright florescent lights above head that shone down making Lena's head hurt even more.
Lena stopped a few steps away from the door to the medical room. She could faintly make out the voices of Angela and Siver. Lena couldn't bring herself to take another step forward. She didn't want Siver to see her life this. She much mind if Angela saw, the doctor has already seen Lena at her worse and lower. But Siver only ever saw Lena as someone strong and brave the unbreakable imagine of an Overwatch agent, or at least that's what Lena thought. So she stood in her spot unsure of what to do. She clenched her fist as she felt the sting of tears in her eyes and the taste of bile in the back for her throat.
Soon Lena noticed that Siver was about to leave the medical bay, and the brit panicked. She had to get out of the area as fast as she could, she'd just come back in a few minutes after she knew Siver had left. In this moment of panic Lena made what she would later realize was a terrible decision as she moved herself back in time a 'recall' of course. The moment she was realigned she felt ill. She placed her hand on a nearby wall and lowered herself a little breathing in and out slowly. When she had regained herself she went back to the medical bay.
Lena didn't knock she just walked in and the moment she did Angela looked up from her work.
Lena looked at Angela she wanted to speak up but couldn't she opened her mouth to speak but broke down in small sobs. Her body shook as she tried to speak "Sorry…" was all she could get out before Angela was at her side helping Lena down on to one of the cots in the room.
No one said anything as Lena cried, to Angela it was a heart breaking scene to say the less. Lena always tried to put on a brave face always was a pillar of joy in overwatch. It seemed that no matter how bad things got she would always be there trying to cheer the others on. But right now it seemed Lena was the one that needed to be cheered.
It took sometime but Lena finally calmed down, her eyes where red from crying and her cheeks tears stained. She was still sniffling. And she felt worse than before she stared crying.
Angela placed a hand on Lena shoulders her face baring a look of concern "What's wrong Lena…" Angela spoke softly.
Lena sniffed and took a deep breath before talking "it's nothing I just didn't have a great night…" Lena half lied, of course the brit didn't mean to it just happened.
Angela nodded not fully convinced "Is that really all that's bothering you?"
Lena shrugged and looked away from Angela "mostly, I mean I came here 'cause I woke up with a killer head ache"
Angela nodded "I'll get you something for that" Angela moved toward the cabinet where she kept some of her different medical drugs "Also would you like me to ask Jack if you can get the day off work?"
Lena shrugged "I don't know"
Angela turned back to Lena and handed her the pills "Well I certainly would recommend it" Angela said with a small sigh.
Lena dry swallowed the pills still not making eye contact with the doctor.
Angela went over to get desk and started writing something down, Lena could only tell because she heard the scratching of the pen on paper "You can stay here and rest up, I have paper work to fill out so it should be pretty quiet especially considering Siver's arm is better" Angela said and she finished up writing what Lena then guessed to be a note to Jack tell him Lena was to be off duty for the day.
"I'd rather rest in my own room" Lena muttered mostly to herself.
"Okay then" Angela replied "Have Athnea call me if you need anything, and I don't want to hear that you have been running around the base Oxton I want you in bed resting"
Lena was taken aback by the sudden use of her last name but nodded anyway "of course"
"Would you like me to escort you to your room?" Angela asked as she started making her way toward the door.
Lena shook her head and got herself on her feet "I'll be fine on my own."
Angela and Lena did end up walking together for a short amount of time until they made it to the end of the hall where the medical bay was. Lena turned into the hall where the female quarts were kept. And Angela headed straight to where she would find Jack.
After Siver left the medical bay she made her way down to the mess hall, at the time the only one there was Hanzo who was drinking, what Siver assumed, was a mug of coffee. He looked up at Siver as she entered the room. He raised an eyebrow and she watched her dig around the cupboards looking for something to eat.
"You're up early" He commented causing the short girl to jump. Siver swung around and shot Hanzo thumbs up.
"I sure am!" she said in a chipper voice then she turned back to the cupboards.
"Would you like me to make you some eggs or something?" Hanzo asked his voice showing his mild annoyance that the girl was causing.
Siver stopped looking but didn't turn to face Hanzo "Why are you offering to make me food…" She asked.
Hanzo pushed his chair away from the table and stood up "You're making too much noise"
Siver turned to face him and smiled. She jumped off the counter which she had climbed before "Well that's nice of you Hanzo but I can cook" She made her way to the kitchen and started making noise once again. Hanzo sighed and he sat back down in his chair in defeat.
It didn't take Siver to long to have her breakfast ready and by time she had sat down more people had join Hanzo in the mess hall. The conversation that where held where friendly, it warmed Siver's breast the amount of friendship and borderline family that the members of overwatch had and Siver wished that warmth would never fade. Siver had to admit she enjoyed the praise of being up before lunch and was just as happy to get the congratulations as she told them her arm was healed and she was ready to fight again. Even Hana seemed pleased that Siver was healed.
"Siver" Jack called causing her to jump, Siver swung around in her chair to face Jack. He didn't have his visor on which was even rarer than seeing Genji without his own mask on. Jack's stare was partly vacant as he was partly blind. This never seemed to bother the old solider as he claimed he was always able to see just enough without his visor. And everyone in Overwatch believed him.
"Yes sir?" Siver replied sitting up a little in her chair.
"As you know Angela cleared you are back on full duties" Siver nodded and Jack spoke "But I don't want you on missions just yet"
Disappointment hit Siver hard as she heard those words she opened her mouth ready to argue but Jack continued "I'm not finished" he started "I want you to do some training, I bet your skills have dulled a little being locked up in the base these past weeks" Jack voice was still rough as always but had a soft touch to it. This made Siver smile once more "target practice then go to the gym I'll give you a mission when I think you're ready"
"Yes sir" Siver said with a brisk nod.
Jack nodded back "that's all, I'm heading back to my office" He said then turned and left.
Siver took her dishes to the kitchen then went to grab her gun, she was itching to get some target practice in.
The room always had a certain smell to it, at first the sent made Siver anxious but the more time she spent in the cold prey room the more she got used to it. She sort of missed it. She looked around the room and smiled. Siver called the setting of training she wanted to partake in, she started simple. She aligned her gun with the first dump and shot it. She missed the feel on the slight gun recoil in her hand. She kept this up shooting each dummy as it came up her shots getting faster and faster until she felt like she was in the midst of a battle. All the sounds around her became faint and was replaced with a sound akin to the ocean the scent of guns was gone the dark of the room and the cold fell it carried all faded away in to Siver's shots.
Soon the first round was over and Siver returned to the world she was breathing heavily as she had forgot to breathe during the exorcise.
Siver did a few more rounds before heading to the gym she wasn't sure what she was going to work on but felt doing everything she could was the best.
When Siver entered the only one in the room was Zarya. The Russian women smiled when she saw Siver and Siver smiled back.
"Hello Siver" Zarya said as she dropped the weight she was lifting.
"Hey" Siver replied as she got ready to work.
Siver and Zarya rarely had conversations perhaps it was impart because when Siver first joined she was scared of the Russian. Now it just seemed the two never had any time together. But now they were together Zarya lifting more than Siver would ever dream of. The conversations where pretty unforced and mostly about missions. Siver enjoyed these types of conversations the most.
"It hurt didn't it" Zarya asked as she eyed Siver's scar.
Siver covered it with her right hand and shrugged "Yeah, I mean I guess it's all a blur really. Can't even recall the face of the omic that shot me"
Zarya made the unimpressed 'tch' sound as she put her weights away and started stretching "Terrible things omics" She said.
Siver shrugged unsure of what to say.
She didn't hold the same beliefs as many members of overwatch, still she understood why so many would hate the bots they destroyed their homes.
"I should get going though" Siver said pointing toward the door.
Zarya nodded and Siver took her leave.
The rest of the day seemed uneventful Siver. She would often find herself in the odd conversation with someone and she had her daily cigarette with Jesse but that was it.
It wasn't till Siver was getting ready to settle in for the night when she realized she hadn't seen Lena yet. Siver sat on her bed a little worried until she checked her phone there was one message from Lena. It was a simple message saying 'I won't be around the base much today love feelin a little under the weather but I'm fine!'
Well that's what the text was supposed to say, Lena signature of texting was auto correct hell.
Siver laid down in bed and sent Lena a fast text back 'night and love you'
Siver soon drifted off to sleep.
Lena shot up in bed, the dream the same one she had the night before. Lena sat quietly shaking trying to get a hold of herself. Lena grabbed her phone hoping the internet would offer some type of distraction but stopped when she saw the text from Siver. Lena wasn't sure why but she felt the need to text her girlfriend back and did.
'Siver? You up love'
Siver was awoken by the sound of her phone going off, she lazily rubbed her eyes and looked at the screen seeing it was a text from Lena 'sort of' Siver hit send and laid back down keeping her phone in hand.
Lena texted back 'mind if I join you in your room?'
At this point Siver sat up again and switched her lamp on. 'Sure' she sent the text fast and waited for the sound of Lena at her door.
It wasn't long until Lena knocked on Siver's door. Siver didn't bother telling her to come in Lena just did. Lena looked tried her hair was a mess and she had dark circles under her eyes. Siver scooted close to the wall and patted the other side of the bed.
"What's wrong Lena" Siver asked as Lena joined Siver.
The two embraced each other "Just been having some bad dreams" Lena said in a defeated tone.
"Oh…" was about all Siver could say she wished she could have offered better words.
Lena gave a small equally defeated laugh "yeah"
Siver stopped thinking for a moment before she spoke again "Would you like to talk about it?"
Lena stared back and siver for a moment then nodded "yeah…I think I would.."
Siver nodded "Anytime you're ready"
Lena told Siver every detail of the dream, Siver listened and it wasn't long until Lena had broken down in to tears again. After she was finished Siver hugged Lena. Siver tried to hug her as tight a she could.
"I'm sorry Lena" Siver whispered.
Lena looked down at Siver and smiled "You don't need to be"
Siver looked up at Lena; oddly Lena was smiling a little.
"I just wish I could protect you from everything" the brit said before kissing the top of Siver's head.
"I know, and I want to protect you as well" Siver replied.
The two laid down in silence, the only sound was the soft hum of Lena Chrono accelerator, a soft hum that lulled the two to sleep.
First things first, I lost internet so this ended up being late but I finished it late as well so…yeah :P. and this is a LONG page and probably the longest thing I've ever wrote. I reached my first word goal of 15k which makes me happy also I actually was really anxious when it came to this chapter I wasn't sure if I wanted to write it cuz It's just sad for being sad. And it's ooc! My wrist hates me for writing this much as well which is fucking funny to me. The dream idea came to me when I was bugging a friend saying the saddest way Siver could die was if WidowMaker killed her and I was like shit I need to write that!. Not much else to say about this one I guess um yeah. I have a twitter (where I post little progress updates and other overwatch stuff) and a tumblr where I reblog Overwatch and cats. Maybe drop a review? I hope to have another page up later this week and I have no idea if I'll have one for Christmas week end. UNTIL NEXT TIME!
