HOLY SHIT! I fell asleep! Not good…not good! Thank god it's not light out yet…how long was I asleep? I look at my phone. Thank god…I've only been asleep for about 20 minutes. I slowly creep over to the door. What an idiot…he didn't even lock it. He must've been too nervous to lock it…if that makes any sense whatsoever. I slowly sneak into his medicine cabinet and find a bottle of benedryl. Heh heh, perfect. I open it and take about 5 pills out and put it back as if I never touched it. I slowly walk up to his room and slip them into his mouth.

He's got tons of drool in his mouth so I think he'll be fine. I slip one into his open mouth. He closes his mouth and swallows it. I slip another one in his mouth. I'm sure he's fully swallowed it. Another one. Another one. Another one. Damn. I'm out. Fuck fuck fuck. What do I do? I start shaking. I run over to the cabinet and grab another handful of pills. I stick them in his mouth…now twice. I think I've stuck more than twenty in there now. I think I'm okay. I put the pills back after sticking one more in there. I leave very nervously. I run back to the gang and they are all there…counting money. They look back to me.

"Aye man…it's da killa!" one of them shouts out. Man…I want to see Sasuke. I want him so bad…you have no idea.

"You kill him?" the leader says.

"More than twenty pills…think that's enough?" They smile and pat me on the back.

"Go home." My eyes widen…so bossy. I haven't seen my mom in a long time. It's making me kind of depressed. I nod and start walking home. She doesn't even care if I'm home or not. I want her to just notice me. She never even knows I exist. My cell phone rings. It's Sasuke. Yes! It's Sasuke. Maybe tonight…I can ask him if he wants to…God. I'm getting hard just thinking about it. I pick up my phone.

"Hello?" I sound way too excited. Bring it down a little Naruto.

"Hey…Naruto…I wanted to tell you that you can't sleep over tonight." I'm walking back to my house while listening to Sasuke talk.

"Oh…why?" I hear a voice in the back round. It sounds like….Gaara. Sasuke's shushing him while laughing a little. Why would Sasuke lie to me like that?

"Uh…I'm busy…what do you want?" What? Why is Gaara there then? I swear…if Gaara touches him…I thought Sasuke loved me. I feel like I'm going to just…no…don't cry Naruto.

"Busy with Gaara…?" Gaara stops laughing. He stops laughing. Not so funny when you're figured out…Huh Sasuke.

"Uhh…Naruto…how'd you know Gaara was here?"
"I didn't…you just told me." I make sure my voice sounds like I'm laughing so I don't seem like such a jerk.

"Uh…right….uh…are you mad at me?" Am I mad at him? I don't know that answer to that question.

"Am I on speaker?"

"No."

"I will be if you do anything with him." I hang up. I don't need that. Sasuke

always knows the things that make me begging for more. It's so annoying.

He knows that whatever he does he can still take advantage of me. I walk inside. My mom is home. Her car is here anyway. She better be home. I walk over to her room. The door's open. I hear noises. It sounds like a guy is in there. I open the door fully and peek to see my mom in the bed with a man under the covers. I can see their feet hanging down. Ew…the one time she's home it's to have sex with some guy. Gross. Hey, it's not the worse I've seen.

I walk back out and into my room. I'm thinking about Sasuke a lot. Why can't he feel the same way about me? Why does he always have to mess with my emotions like that? I mean, he doesn't see me hanging out with Hinata, does he? No. So he has no right to see Gaara…even if they are going out. He totally ignores me all the time for Gaara. I want to be Sasuke's first…not Gaara. This is an outrage. I swear if Gaara and him do anything I won't talk to Sasuke ever again. My mom's bed is banging against my wall and I hear her laughing all sexually. I take off my shirt and pants so it's just my boxers.

I hate my life…I truly do…I lay down on the bed. Everything seems to be going to wrong…nothing ever goes right. Nothing in my life has ever been good. I bet Sasuke just lied to me about liking me, just to get me off of his back. It's really hard to sleep when you hear banging noises on your bed. I really wish Sasuke would call me back. I hung up on him…he should call me back if he really cared…man, I hate my life. I bet I'm not good enough for Sasuke. I pick up my phone and call Sasuke. It rings once.

"Hey Naruto."

"Hey…what happened to Gaara?"

"He left…"

"Oh…well can you talk?" He's sounding really sexy right now. Then again…he always sounds sexy.

"Uhh…sure." Speaking of sex…he sounds like he's having sex. Like he's talking in a moaning voice. It's really hot.

"What are you doing?"

"Lying down…you?"

"Same…" Damn…he grunts a little. Fuck.

"I'm so tired…" He sighs. Now he's sounding like he's moaning. Oh god. Here we go.

"What are you doing?"

"Stretching…why?" Damn. That didn't sound like stretching. I wonder if I slowly approach him to let him know I want to have sex…just to see his reaction and if he wants to do it. My hand slowly drifts down my boxers. Here we go. I start to slowly jack myself off and…damn it feels good.

"Sas…uke…" I moan out. I go faster…and faster. He sighs.

"Oh…I see how it's been all along…you know…you're just like my father." He hangs up. What?! I'm nothing like that rapist! Damnit. I finish up and call him again. It rings once. I hear someone pick up, but doesn't say anything.

"SASUKE! What was all that about?! What's wrong…you…you don't find me…attractive? What?"

"I don't want sex…ok?"

"But…why? Don't you want to loose your virginity?"

"That's already happened…and it was the worst ever."

"But…but…shouldn't you really want to do it with someone you love? Like me?" He's quiet. I honestly don't know what I did wrong. He sighs.

"I guess…"

"Does that mean you'll do it…with me?" I sound so pathetic…

"I don't know…I'm still deciding…"

"Please?" He sighs.

"I'll think about it, okay?" Well…I guess this is the farthest I can push him. I mean it's not like I can force him into it or anything. I sigh.

"Alright, good enough I guess…"

"Now can I go to sleep? I'm exhausted."

"Yeah sure…I love you Sasuke."

"I love you too, Naruto." He hangs up. My mom is still at it. I don't know how I'm going to fall asleep.