Unfaithful

Authors note: So the first lemon was in and I really enjoyed the reviews although I do understand that I did get just a wee bit uncomfortably descriptive… sorry to the people who don't much care for that stuff. Oh and I've also realised as I've read all the chapters that I tend to repeat myself. That as well I am sorry about. My writing patterns are much the same they just vary over time because my writing skill gets better. Also I don't sit and write an entire chapter at a time XP. I'll sometimes sit and write one measly paragraph before heading out the door and on my good days I'll write like 5 pages XD.

Also sorry for no warning in the beginning of the last chapter… I kind of felt bad about that and I really hope you don't judge the story to harshly because of a lemon scene. I did say there would be lemon in this story somewhere though so hopefully you didn't mind it .

Hinata: 18

Neji: 19

Gaara: 18

Sakura: 18

Shikamaru:18

Temari:20

Chapter 8: Kiss me

He was too late. Of course he was too late. Maybe he should have just listened to the Shukaku and tore that bloody Hyuuga's head off right at the minute he touched his precious Hinata. That would have at least been a little bit satisfying. This… this was just anger enraging.

Still, he knew he had more then one chance to claim the indigo haired mistress as his own and no one else's. He would never ever let Neji have her. Not on his life. He found his challenge and he wasn't about to back down yet.

(pause)

"I was never connected more with Neji until that very point in time that he claimed me as his own," I bit down on my lower lips embarrassedly. "I was his, even though I wasn't fully in love with him. I gave up my freedom to fall in love to make him happy and his happiness brought me my own happiness. His pain was my pain."

"But this Gaara character," Kira spoke up gently. "Didn't you say that you fell in love with him as well?"

"I was getting to that," I grimaced lightly as the memories flew through my mind. "First let me explain a few things. Those two days after that fateful night, Neji and I had been literally inseparable."

(Start)

"Neji put me down!" Hinata chuckled loudly as he spun her around in the air easily, wind flying lightly through her hair. She loved the sensation of flying like this for it felt almost freeing like she never had to return to the ground where things would once again be hard and hate filled. Hinata of course had never seen Neji more happy as he rested her back down on her feet, the sand soft against her bare toes. The sun was slowly hitting the rim of the wall that surrounded Suna and she was sad to see it go for it meant that the two days were up and that Neji would be put to work and she wouldn't see him much in the next three months. Neji of course seemed perfectly at ease just standing there, his hands against her waist, eyes staring out as the sun slipped slowly past the giant wall.

The last two days had been surprising nice, Neji by her side for almost all of it. They walked around town and Neji pointed out familiar places that he knew of from the one time he travelled to Suna for a mission, and they played a few games of chess after dinner as well. He also started training with her too during the day which was weird since normally he trained alone, and at night she slept in his room instead of her own, collapsing out of exhaustion after such a long day. Neji of course let her sleep without a word, wrapping his arms around her softly, protectively and fell asleep beside her.

They had just finished training today as they stood now in the sand just inside of the wall in a deserted area behind some buildings where is seemed pretty content and quiet enough for them to stay and train like this. Since no one seemed to bug them Neji was a little more prone to be closer to her, his arms holding her tightly, face nearly inches away from her own, his eyes directed towards the falling sun. Suddenly, with a flicker they directed back towards her own, a smile gracing his beautiful features.

"I never thought it was possible for you to look even more beautiful," he breathed out gently and she tensed softly. He hadn't even made any kind of move towards her romantically after that night except of course put his arm around her when they slept, but this was brought on a little strangely. "But I was wrong."

He leaned her in gently against the large wall, his hands gentle against her sides. Her breath hitched at the way he moved his hands softly up her sides then slowly behind her back.

"N-Neji shouldn't we wait to we're back at the room?" she choked when she felt his lips against her neck. "Nobody even knows about this yet…"

"Let them come," love bites were now visible across her delicate flesh, bright against the paleness. "Status doesn't matter anymore. The clan doesn't matter anymore. This is just you and me." he stressed the you and me, dragging the words out softly.

She blushed but let him continue. She had her needs but so did he and this was just one small thing she could do for him, and it wasn't like she hated it or anything. She was just self-conscious. If anyone came along at that moment then she would probably explode…

"Neji! Hinata-chan! Gaara's wants all the shinobi to get there rest… huh?" Hinata turned crimson at the sound of her fellow shinobi's voice. She looked over Neji's shoulder to see Sakura standing in the alleyway leading to deserted area, her face showing shock, jade eyes wide. Neji turned as well to see the pink haired shinobi standing awe struck. "Oh… I'm sorry if I interrupted something… um… yah…" she turned to leave quickly, her own cheeks bright in embarrassment at the site she had wandered upon. She really shouldn't have been so surprised but she had thought that they both agreed to run instead of meeting the expectations of the Hyuuga clan…

Hinata wanted to go run after her and explain things but what was there to explain? It wasn't like she could make up an excuse like Neji tripped or something because there was marks all down her neck. Neji backed up a bit from her but still had his hands around her softly.

"Hinata, is it ok that she knows?" his voice was calm, stoic. The voice that she had heard so many a times.

"I-I don't know," she choked and silently rested her head against his chest, no other words spoken. If Sakura knew then everyone did including Gaara. Suddenly her cheeks burned. Not again. Why did his face keep haunting her thoughts like this? Hadn't she made her decision? She thought that maybe after the moment she connected with Neji that the thought of the red head would disappear and that the feelings she felt whenever he came close would soon be the feelings she felt towards Neji…

She squeezed her eyes shut, nose scrunching. Maybe it took a bit more time to forget. She couldn't be expected to forget after only one night with him right?

(Break)

"I'm sure that's what I saw," Sakura turned lying on her back, her nose scrunched in concentration. "Is it really possible that they are… you know… together?"

"With the circumstances they both are in I see no problem with them trying to do what the clan wishes," Shikamaru yawned resting his face against his hand, his body slouched over against his desk. "They are being told that it is what they have to do so of course they aren't just going to push the idea out of their heads right away. First instinct is denial. Second is anger. Third is anxiety and confusion. Fourth is acceptance. Right now they are confused about what they must do and they have chosen to at least see how it feels to be 'together' even for a little while. I see no problem."

"Still," she grimaced looking up at the white washed ceiling hands tucked easily behind her head, pink tresses falling off the edge of the bed. "It just doesn't seem right, not to be mean or anything. They are cousins after all…"

"I would leave this to Neji and Hinata if I were you," Shikamaru warned his voice now slightly serious. "I know you have a tendency to be irrational. Neji is a full fledged Jonin and I know he would be able to keep a level head about this."

"But Neji is lifeless!" she sat up quickly. "Put in a situation like that I don't think that he will know what is best for Hinata's sake!"

"And what is best for Hinata sake?" Shikamaru raised an eyebrow curiously. "If you haven't noticed it's not what best for her or for Neji. It's what's best for their clan. Don't take this to heart Sakura. There is nothing we can do."

"You're… right…" she stood up and walked to the door silently. "I'm sorry… I just don't understand why this is bothering me so much."

She then opened the door and walked out without another word.

When she got to her room she closed the door easily and collapsed onto her already made bed mind boggled. She could see the scene run through her head easily. She had been searching for them for over an hour and when she finally felt Neji's chakra which was slowly calming which meant he must have finished his daily training. She didn't sense Hinata's chakra till she was much closer but even still she had never expected things to be like that…

The one thing though that bugged her above all was the look in Neji's eyes. Hinata's were surprised and shameful which was to be expected from the Hyuuga heiress but Neji's eyes were bright with insatiable lust. Of course she dared not say this to Shikamaru. That look… it couldn't have been from just experimenting… maybe Hinata's but not Neji's.

(Break)

Hinata stirred lightly waking from a night of heavy sleep, her eyelids drooping slightly as she peaked them open to see Neji's arm wrapped around her easily, her face pressed lightly against his naked chest. She blinked in realization and remembrance of the night prior and the blood rose to her cheeks as she pulled the sheet around her. It was there second time last night which was a lot different then the first time. Neji had of course been as slow as he was the first time with her, making sure she was alright and that he wasn't doing anything wrong, but the pain she was anticipating never came. In fact she enjoyed it a lot more this time around. Still, she was just as surprised and shocked as the first morning she had woken up in his arms. Shocked and embarrassed really, he cheeks bright and eyes wide as she pulled the sheet to cover her body which of course woke Neji up.

It was still slightly dark out and she knew his mental alarm clock would wake him now since for he would be informed of his duties. Another thing she wasn't looking forward to. If days were going to be empty and pointless in a place where flowers would wither and die the minute you left them out in that sun then she would rather be working on missions. Maybe she should go speak with the Kazekage… Gaara… about getting a position as a shinobi for the sand just in case things didn't work out… of course they would work out with her and Neji. It had to. Suddenly she felt Neji's arm tense softly signalizing that he had awoken. She blinked lightly and looked up to see Neji's silver orbs staring down into hers ever so softly. Her heart started to reel again. It seemed he was becoming more comfortable with showing her the emotion in his eyes especially love which never seemed to leave them when it was just her and him. Then again there was always something new in his eyes too, like right now it was happiness.

"Hinata, you're awake," he murmured gently kissing her forehead. "I wasn't expecting you to be up already."

"I guess my own internal alarm clock set itself so I could say bye before you go on your duty," she chuckled lightly, her lips gentle against his collarbone. Last night, after training, lust had been the thing in his eyes and she obliged willingly. He needed her and so she was there. She would always be there for him no matter what. She was his and his alone and that was how things were supposed to stay.

Neji stood up gently the only light in the room emanating from the dimly lit sky. It would be an hour till sunrise but the sky was no longer blanket dark and speckled in never ending stars. She rested her head back against the pillow closing her eyes again making it look as if she were only merely trying to go back to sleep but in reality she just didn't wish to see him naked. It wasn't like she hated seeing his physique and all it's just seeing it made her feel so small and insignificant. There was one thing she did notice that ran through her mind throughout the last two days and if was always the question 'why me'. of course Neji had answered that question already and truthfully but the thought that he chose her still seemed too perfect in a way. Why was she so lucky to get a knight in shining armour when she wasn't the blond-haired blue-eyed princess that he so rightfully deserved?

Sometimes is was a bit to much to take, like at this moment, her eyes shut tight.

Neji of course changed quickly and he was done in a matter of 5 minutes. She was signalled that he finished when she felt his lips against her cheek very softly.

"Daisuki, Hinata-chan," he murmured before pulling back.

She opened her eyes surprised just to see him staring down at her lovingly. She smiled lightly a blush emanating on her cheeks.

"Watashi mo daisuki desu," she pulled the sheets up more trying to cover her embarrassment, which of course wasn't hard since it was still dark in the room. Neji kissed her softly and departed.

"Sayonara Hinata," he waved with a kind smile leaving the room.

"Sayonara… Neji-kun," she then closed her eyes again and tried to let sleep wash over her once more but none was to be found.

(Break)

After lying in her bed for almost an hour she decided to get up. It was pointless just lying there and she knew if she didn't make a move at some point in time she would find herself lying there for hours in the same useless trance. Silently she grabbed a towel from on top of her desk and wrapped it around her and then took out a fresh pair of clothing out of her drawers and walked down to the washroom at the end of the hall. All her fellow shinobi weren't here so the washroom would be free unlike the other two days were the washroom was being used almost constantly. Also she noticed only the four of them were ever in this hall. She rested her towel and fresh pair of clothing against the sink and turned the water on letting the hot liquid cascade over her hand signalling that it was hot enough. She then stepped in, the water soothing out all the kinks in her body.

Finally after over a half an hour she decided to get out and dried her hair and body easily. Looking in the mirror she saw a new Hinata. Not the Hinata she had always known. It was the Hinata that did not have the innocence she had once had and was now an adult. Even still, when she looked into her eyes, she knew she wanted to be innocent still. She didn't want to be an adult…

She quickly adverted her eyes trying not to concentrate on it too long for fear that it would end up in bringing her even more misery. She grimaced as she pulled on her fresh clothes then brushed through her hair quickly.

Finally after exiting the shower she looked at the time and blinked. It was 9:00. She had never been this late before, always up by 6 and out the door by 7. 9 though was a whole different matter. She had never felt so utterly… useless.

Suddenly, as she was about to open her door to walk into her room, a messenger shinobi burst into the hall, his face blank and deeply tanned, equipped in the Suna's tradition shinobi gear.

"Miss Hyuuga," the man stated formally. "The Kazekage-sama wishes to speak with you now if you would please make your way to his office."

She was a little surprised at this as the blood returned to her pale cheeks but she quickly bowed her head to the messenger.

"Please lead me to his office if you could," she asked politely, her sense of direction terrible. He nodded a little surprised at the curtness about her and quickly started walking back towards where he had come. She followed behind almost instinctively tossing the towel in her room before shutting the door easily. Her hair was still wet and hanging limply down her back in long tresses but she wasn't worried about that now. On the contrary. She was only worried that she was about to come face to face with Gaara once more except this time he was not the Gaara she had seen sitting in the Anbu outfit or the black morning glory from her wild dreams. No, this was the Kazekage Gaara. The Gaara who to him she was only another shinobi.

Her heart pounded wildly within her chest, mind reeling over the possible reasons why he had called her down so abruptly knowing it had to be something big if he had to tell it to her in person. It wasn't like a kage to just randomly call someone to their office just to tell them that their fellow shinobi would be back in a matter of a couple hours or something of the sort. This had to be something a little larger then that.

Suddenly they were standing in front of an overly large door obviously leading into the Kazekage's main office. She smoothed her hair out through her fingers suddenly feeling self-conscious once again. Although she knew this would be the Kazekage Gaara that she was about to see she still knew that that 'other' Gaara was still buried within him and that scared her more then death.

"Come in," the deep almost demoniac voice boomed and the messenger opened the door without a second thought stepping inside to bow in front of his Kazekage.

"I brought the Hyuuga girl," the messengers voice became even more hard and tense at the sight of the Kazekage. That's when she realized the true harshness about it all. Gaara has once been a blood-lusting monster and they all, deep down inside, still feared him somewhat. She suddenly felt bad for the fiery-haired male sitting at the desk in the back on the office.

"You are dismissed," suddenly her eyes looked directly at the red-head who waved his hand gracefully towards the messenger. The shinobi left but Hinata suddenly felt like a deer in headlights. She had expected things would be… weird but this was a little overboard. He had a pair of glasses sitting lowly on his nose, his eyes scanning the paper in front of him easily, his Kazekage robes fitting loosely around him obviously pretty hot underneath since it was the desert. His aquamarine eyes flicked over the paper easily as if he was taking in every possible aspect of what he was reading for future reference when needed. His hair was a mess atop his head, shaggy and un-kept, and his skin was paler in the candle lighting of the room. He seemed very tense and disconcerting for his stature enough to make her feel informally dressed and wishing she could have at least had the chance to dry her hair.

It was different back in Konoha where it was Tsunade who ran things and she was never very kept herself let alone making everyone else feel like they weren't.

"Ohayo gozaimasu," Hinata whispered lightly bowing her head to him.

"Miss Hyuuga, I believe you know why I called you here this morning and I correct?" Gaara asked lightly flicking his eyes up to meet hers easily but they weren't the eyes she had remembered. They were hard as concrete and cold as ice. He removed his glasses putting them back in their place at then end of the desk.

"I am sorry but I do not know why," she said embarrassedly bowing even lower till she was looking directly at her feet. If she was a little bit embarrassed before then she was fully and utterly embarrassed now.

She heard the his chair shift against the ground and the gentle footsteps walking towards her. Her urge to look up was great but she dared not in fear that he would be looking down at her angrily or worse, disappointedly. Anything was better then to disappoint someone.

Suddenly she felt her chin being cupped in his palm her face being raised so she had nowhere else to look but his eyes which were not like iced concrete any longer but scorching hot and melting into her.

"There is no reason to be afraid of me Miss Hyuuga," he whispered gently. "I'm not going to bite."

She blushed even brighter as she pulled away from his hand a little to sharply. It was a little reassuring knowing she was still talking to the Gaara that had once annoyed her to the point where she was seriously considering beating him up.

"To be frank I only called you down to discuss matters on you and your cousin becoming shinobi to the sand village but I've had word that you and Neji have become closer," he sat back down folding his hands together gently. "I just want to see if the rumours are true myself before I go on assuming something that I do not know all the details about."

"Rumours?" Hinata's cheeks reddened even more, her whole body suddenly breaking out in sweat. Did it really travel that fast? It wasn't like she had been seen doing much… other then Neji passionately kissing her against the wall… damn.

"Don't worry, the rumours have been cut off before they could spread any further, of course if that is what you wish. I have already spoken to your cousin this morning to confer with him and he said they he was more then willing to leave here in three months when the time comes. I just want to know personally from you if you think that you are going to follow up with what the Hyuuga elders are asking of you."

Hinata felt suddenly cornered. She had contemplated this somewhat but she wasn't expecting that Neji would be so forward about it. If anything at least he could have said that he would think about it a little more and confer with her on it… but he had just gone right ahead and said he would be willing to marry her when they had only been really a 'couple' for no more then a week. How deep did she get herself into this?

"I don't really know how to answer that question to be honest," she said a little sharply, the words rolling quickly off her tongue. "I believe this is something I should probably speak with Neji about before I come up with any decisions."

"Very wise," he said suddenly returning back to his own world once more. "Very wise indeed. An answer on gunpoint like that would make you a great asset I would believe."

"Hmm?" she murmured confused tilting her head to the side.

"Hinata Hyuuga, I would like to offer you a position as a secretary to me for the next three months," Gaara smirked lightly. "It is your job if you wish to take it and you wont have to feel bad if you wish to leave Suna in three months but then at least you will be making some kind of an income while you're here and you wont have to be bored doing nothing as well as the fact that you will have a settled job if you do wish to stay here after all. The choice is yours."

Hinata blinked utterly surprised. She hadn't been expecting that at all and suddenly she realised that Gaara had only been testing her. She was speechless but managed to pull off a muffled 'yes'.

"Then be back here at noon so we can discuss your training, and don't eat before then," he put his glasses back on and started reading his papers once more.

Hinata looked at him surprised and confused once more before leaving finally dazed.

(end chapter)

Authors note: So yah. I was thinking that I wouldn't have those little 'Kira Hinata' moments that often until I get to the really important parts… which I must not discuss yet since that would be spoiling some of the future content XD.

Gaara: I swear, the next chapter better be my turn with Hinata or I'm going to tear some heads off.

Ed: I think about it. It's all about the storyline and it doesn't necessarily go back chapters so don't hurt me alright?

Hinata blushes.

Neji: I will fight you till the ends for her Sabaku!

Gaara: like you could even come close to winning Hyuuga.

Kiba: Sooo boring. Get to some good stuff would yah?

Tenten: he does have a point. This is terribly boring.

Hinata: I liked it Ed-kun…"

Ed: See! Someone likes it other then me… hopefully there will be more but that's one so far!!

Suke-chan: peace out and R&R!

Ed: what the hell are you doing here Al?

Suke-chan: Nothing…