A/N I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING! I ONLY OWN THIS PLOT! Sorry I didn't update sooner guys. I've been away for my Grandfather's funeral. I want to thank TwilightElena for her idea in this story and helping me overcome the writers block I had.
Once they got upstairs Elena broke out crying. Stefan pulled her into his chest letting her cry into him. He knew that things were only going to get worse before they got any better.
After a few minutes Elena stopped crying. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to cry all over you."
"You don't ever have to be sorry for crying Love. I love you and I'm sorry this is so hard on you."
"When will she calm down?"
"Soon, I promise."
Elena sighed. "I'm not sure I want to go back down there."
"You don't have to. You can stay up here until she has calmed back down."
Elena just nodded. "How long till the blood is out of her system?"
"48 hours the longest. After that we can try giving her the animal blood. If she refuses that we try a blood bag."
"If she refuses that?"
"Look, Elena there is only so much we can do. Jenna has to make the final choice. We can't force it."
"So you're saying Jenna may choose not to drink at all…like you did?"
"I'm saying she may refuse to drink anything other than your blood."
"If she does…what will you do?"
Stefan sighed. "You won't like my answer."
"You're going to stake her?"
"No, Elena listen to me. I don't know what's going to happen these next few days but the one thing I can promise you is that Jenna will not be staked. We will keep her in that cellar until she agrees to use the blood bags or even the animal blood."
"Ok, that's not too bad."
"Elena, if a vampire doesn't feed for two week the body starts to shut down. She will start to desiccate and mummify. It's incredibly painful and I'd hate to see Jenna go through that…."
"But...?"
"But… if it means keeping you safe then I'll do what I have to do."
"You really think Jenna will let herself die just because she can't drink my blood?"
"I don't know. I really don't know Elena. I hope not but I'm not making promises."
Elena sighed and nodded. She looked down at her feet then back to Stefan. Her eyes filled with tears. "I'm scared Stefan. I don't want to do this anymore." She whispered so softly only a vampire would be able to hear her.
Stefan pulled her back into his chest. He just held her close and rubbed her back as she cried into him. Elena ended up crying herself back to sleep that night and Stefan hated it. He only hoped Jenna would handle this better than he did. He hoped Jenna agreed to drinking from the animals blood, or at least the blood bags.
24 hours has passed and Jenna was still suffering through withdrawals. Ric came to check on her. "Hey, how are you feeling?"
"My head is pounding. I feel like my skin is on fire. I have this hunger inside of me that I've never felt before in my entire life."
"That should pass. Just another 24 hours and you'll be able to have blood again."
"Really?"
"Yeah, blood bags or animal blood. Your choice."
"Both of those are gross. I want Elena's blood."
"That choice will get you to stay in her longer. You can't have Elena's blood Jenna. You're slowly killing her, don't you see that?"
"I can save her, I'll just feed her my blood. I saw Damon do it to those other guys I almost killed and to Elena."
"Yeah and she hasn't forgiven him for it. She doesn't want this Jenna. She doesn't want to be used as some toy or some fountain for you to drink off whenever you feel like it."
"Don't you think I know that Rick? I know but I don't know what else to do. I didn't want this. I never wanted to be a vampire. I would have rather be dead than be a vampire. Now that I am I hate my life. I hate having to drink blood to survive I hate not being able to go out in the sun light and I hate that every time I'm around you I want to feed off you. I hate my life Rick. I hate to say that but it's the truth and I know it's not Elena's fault but I have to take it out on her. I…I want to die. I don't want to be like this."
"Jenna you'll get through this. I promise. I love you and I'm going to be with you every step of the way as you get through this I promise."
Jenna just shook her head. "I haven't had vervain in a while. I could easily be at those bars and snap your neck."
"You won't. It's not in your nature to kill Jenna."
"What if you're wrong Rick? What if one day I slip up and I kill someone? What if one day I turn into one of those horrible vampires and I just kill a ton of innocent people? I don't want that day to come! That's why I drink from Elena, I know I love her and I know I'll never kill her, drinking from her keeps me full enough so I don't drink blood from anyone else. If I can't drink from Elena I won't be able to control myself and I'll kill someone. I don't want to take that chance Rick. If I can't drink from Elena I'd rather be dead. I hate this life as a vampire and I want to die."
A gasp was heard and Rick turned to see Elena standing there. He sighed. He knew she had just heard that.
An hour before with Elena,
"Do you really have to go?" she asked hugging Stefan.
"I haven't been hunting since before everything happen with Klaus, I need to get my strength back up. I won't be gone long I promise. Just stay up here as long as possible. Rick and Damon are here if you need anything. Rick is downstairs with Jenna right now."
"What if Damon does something stupid?"
Stefan chuckled. "He won't. I promise. Just stay up here all right. I don't want Jenna to upset you."
Elena nodded and let him go. Stefan left and Elena sighed. She went into his bedroom and sat down on his bed. She decided to catch up on some homework to distract herself from going downstairs. He was right if she went downstairs Jenna would just say something to upset…so why did she want to go down there so badly?
An hour passed and she sighed, she looked down in her lap at her math book. She had been working on the same problem for the past half hour. She sighed, she knew she'd never be able to focus if she didn't go down to see Jenna, maybe she could just go down an listen to what she was saying to Rick then come back up? Yeah that would work! She climbed off the bed and headed down the stairs.
She stopped when she got close enough to hear Jenna speaking "If I can't drink from Elena I'd rather be dead. I hate this life as a vampire and I want to die."
Elena gasped. She saw Rick looking at her. She turned and ran back up the stairs, tears streaming down her cheeks. Out of everything Jenna had said that was the very worst thing in the world.
She ran back into Stefan's room closing the door and throwing herself onto his bed crying into his pillow. She suddenly sat up when she heard the front door open and close. She quickly threw her books onto her lap and wiped her tears. Stefan would be mad if he found out she didn't listen to him. The door opened and she looked up and smiled fakely at Stefan.
"Hey, good hunt?" she asked.
"Normal, nothing new or too exciting. How'd everything go here while I was gone?"
"Same, just doing some math homework."
If they tears stains on her cheeks didn't give her away the salty tears on his pillow did. Stefan knew she had been crying, he just wished he knew why.
"Have you been crying?" he asked.
"What? No, I haven't been crying. That's..that's crazy."
He vampire sped over to her, and took her face into his hands.
"Hey look at me."
She looked at him and could tell he knew the truth. Sighing she pulled her face away. "Ok, yes I've been crying but it's my own fault. I should have just listened."
"Listened to who?"
"Listen to you."
Stefan sighed. He understood what was going on."
"You went downstairs?"
She just nodded too ashamed to look him in the eyes.
"What did Jenna say to you."
"Um…she…she didn't. It's what I overheard her say to Rick."
"What did she say Elena?"
He could hear it in her voice, she was close to losing it.
Her guard dropped and she finally let her feelings out. "She wants to die Stefan." Her voice came out in a whimper and she started to cry. "She doesn't want blood bags or animal blood. She wants my blood or she wants to die. She hates her life Stefan, she wants to die. She wants to die."
"Oh Baby," Stefan cooed. He pulled her into him and allowed her to cry into his chest. "Come here."
Elena cried into his chest. He rubbed her back and soothed her the best he could. If Jenna didn't drink the blood there was nothing he could do. If Jenna really wanted to be dead, there was nothing he could do to stop it. He just hoped that Jenna changed her mind in the next 24 hours otherwise Elena would never recover.
48 hours later it was time to feed Jenna the blood. Everyone went down to the basement
"Ok, Jenna all of Elena's blood should be out of your system by now. It's time to make a choice. Blood bags, or animals blood." Stefan said.
"Neither, I want Elena's blood." Jenna answered.
"You can't have her blood."
"Fine then I'll just wait in here until my body starts to shut down and I'll begin to desiccate and mummify. "
"No, Jenna you can't. You'll die." Elena begged.
"So, it's what you wanted all along. I would have rather been killed by Klaus than be tortured in here. At least Klaus would have been fast and painless."
"Jenna you don't have to die. You can live off human blood and still live your life as normal. I've known very good vampires who do that." Stefan said.
"Yeah, because Damon is a really good vampire." Jenna laughed.
"I'm not talking about Damon. I'm talking about someone you've never met before. Her name is Lexi and she drank from human blood but only from blood bags never from the human. She was my best friend but also one of the kindest vampires I'd ever met. You can be like that too Jenna but you have to drink from the blood bags you can't drink from Elena or from any human."
"I don't want to drink from anyone or anywhere except Elena. So until you give me that I'll just rot away in this cellar slowly and painfully dying."
Elena looked down at her feet. Maybe she was being over dramatic, Jenna had been drinking from her for two weeks and she survived, Jenna never drank till the point of her death so what harm could Jenna really do? Maybe if she just told Jenna to feed her blood after she was done it would be easier to handle. Maybe there was a better way to help her Aunt. She slowly reached for the handle. She jumped when Damon grabbed her wrist.
"What are you doing?"
"Letting Jenna out, she can drink from me, then feed me her blood to heal me. I'll be fine."
"Then you'll always have vampire blood in your system. What happens if you die?"
"I'll be a vampire but what are the odds of me dying? Klaus is dead, the tomb vampires have been destroy and you love me too much to kill me."
" You never know Elena are you willing to risk it?"
Elena looked down, she didn't want to be a vampire but she was willing to safe her Aunt at any cost.
"Come on my Lovely, let's go upstairs. Damon will stay down here with Jenna." Stefan said.
Elena sighed and nodded. She followed Stefan back upstairs. Stefan may not stake Jenna but if she didn't feed soon she was as good as dead and that was the one thing Elena was trying to avoid.
A/N next chapter is some much needed Stelena fluff! Also Jenna finds a way to escape who will her first victim be? For updates and sneak peeks at my future work find me on facebook at hopelessromanticgurl.
