I must have fallen asleep at some point holding Tris' hand because at the sound of the door opening and closing I spring up from where my heads rests against the bedside. My body feels stiff but I figure it's something I'll get used to as I don't plan on leaving her side any time soon.

Both Zeke and Matthew come into the room. When I told Cara I wanted to see them both I hadn't meant at the same time, but it doesn't really matter. Zeke looks stunned, watching Tris' chest rise and fall with each breath, hearing the machine beep in time with her heart, a colour to her skin that marks her as very much alive.

"She looks good for someone who was dead a few hours ago," Zeke says. I stare daggers at him. She may be breathing now, but it still hurts to think there was a time where she was not. Even now, my greatest fear is losing her and using that final sounding word still feels too harsh. "No offense, just saying it as it is. I expected it to be worse."

"You should have heard the screaming," I mutter. I don't think he caught it fortunately. "Matthew, I uh… Cara probably told you what happened to Adam. I was wondering if you could be in charge of making sure she's recovery properly and pain free until Adam is more in his right mind."

Matthew looks grim, "I saw him, he was following her like a lost puppy. Frankly, I'm wondering how he was a doctor in the first place, it is like he lost his marbles with his memory. I won't claim I am any doctor and if any major complications arise I'll be next to useless, but I can certainly help to a degree. I know why you did it, but you couldn't have waited a few days?"

"And risk him running out of this room and contacting someone outside straight away? No, I couldn't."

I look to Zeke who has hardly moved, "It worked Zeke, she is perfect. We could do the same for Uriah. But if we do you need to decide soon. I don't want this knowledge escaping to anyone and to do that means destroying the evidence. I've wiped the memory of one person already to ensure this. After your decision all the serum, the research, it will all be destroyed."

I watch him gulp. He walks up to the bed, rests his hand on her leg. She twitches slight at his touch and he flinches back. "Wouldn't that be a bit hard considering you already pulled the doctor out of the picture?"

I'm about to answer but Matthew gets to it before I do, "I believe Christina and I could do it without him, we did it together during the deer tests in the first place. I'd still want a real doctor on site to keep him stable, but we can do it before they get to the room so they will never know any better. I'm not entirely sure if Adam will be up to it so soon, but we can get someone to come in from the city."

He looks at me for a long second, then to Matthew, and then to Tris. I think he would have said something but Tris choses that moment to make a whimpering noise in her sleep. My attention is immediately back to her, but I saw Zeke's face pale before I give him my back and hear him quickly leave the room.

I run my hands gently down the side of her face but can't see any sign of pain or discomfort from Tris, I deduce that it was probably just a dream. I want to start after Zeke but I don't want to leave Tris' side, especially not after that. Matthew must have noticed my apprehension because he says, "Give him a bit of time and space to think, I'll go talk to him," and follows Zeke out the door.