"Why are you telling me this?"

Kate feels her voice shaking, feels James whispering secrets to her until the very second he's gone, diving off of the helicopter with a shit-eating grin.

"As soon as we get to the boat, we'll go back for him," Jack says, and she knows he means it just as much as she knows it'll never happen.

That's when it hits her how truly screwed she is, how much they both love her and she loves them, and the degree to which neither of them will ever understand, won't get what they all mean to each other.

Sawyer is gone. Sawyer has a daughter named Clementine in Albuquerque who needs her help, and Kate's pretty sure she knows Clem's mom.

Kate sees Jack searching her frozen face for clues, for hope of his own in the ten freaking seconds they've all had to digest this.

She prays she's managed to hide what she's just realized: That she is well and officially screwed for the rest of her time on the planet.