AN: Just to warm you this chapter is a little long, but really I think it's worth it. I hope you like the chapter, it has a lot of romance in it but nothing about Jacob today for those who are curious. Anyway please review I love you opinions.

--B.T.--

Diary: 2/13/09

Everyone has their own problems, but I'm starting to think mine are just a little stranger than most peoples. And I'm not just saying that because my sister and sort-of boyfriend are vampires, and became I'm friends with a wolf-shape shifter. No, I think my problems are currently revolving around my love life. I do love Jasen. I love his voice, his walk, his eyes, I even love the way he's so handy. He is strong and sturdy and makes me smile. I love how he's so protective. But I know something is missing and when I ran from him it was hard, but not as hard as I thought it would be.

Then my other problem is that I have been feeling strange lately around Andy. I don't know why but he makes me feel happy. He's more than just a sturdy pillar to lean on when I need him, he's my friend. He doesn't just make me smile, he makes me bust out laughing. And when everything else seems wrong he still fills me with warmth. I'm worried that he doesn't feel the same, and what will I do if Jasen finds me? Could I just leave? Andy is my best friend, I tell him everything, and what would I do without him? All these questions have been haunting me for the last few days.

Not to mention that a few days ago I kind of started a strange new intimate friendship with Jacob, who is a shape shifter that turns into a huge wolf. Can you imagine! I'm friends with a wolf! So that's my update.

P.S. Beltane is coming soon, despite all the chaos I need to gather my supplies and prepare my rite.

Pro plenus luna

Before the full moon

Aurora: First Period Art

I sat down next to Ashley and flipped open my notebook, waiting for class to start. I tried to ignore the girl next to me as best I could but she demanded attention.

"Hey, hello, are you listening?" she said.

"Yeah, I'm listening," I said annoyed.

"Ok well the next dance is coming up in a week or so and I wanted to know if you had a date yet." I bit back a groan. I liked dances, but not dancing in front of people.

"Um no, not yet." I don't even know if I'm going." I said hoping she would drop the subject. She smiled just a little bit, and giggled. I knew something was up.

"What do you know that I don't know?"

"Nothing, well not really nothing, but it's not important." She said innocently.

"Ashley tell me."

"Well--" she stretched out the word like she was thinking about it. I already knew she would tell me. "Ok, I herd two things about you and the dance. The first is that there are at least four guys who want to ask you. The second is that their having a king and queen because it's a spring dance and they wanted something interesting to do."

"Ok I'm not so happy about the first one but how does the king and queen thing have anything to do with me?" I asked her.

Again, she gave me an evil smile. "Apparently Andy is up for king, and your up for queen. " I could swear my heart stopped beating. Me? Dance with Andy? In a room full of people? That was not a good idea at all. I would only make a fool out of myself and Andy too. No way could I go to the dance. Before Ashley could question me about what I was thinking, class started and Mr. Weller started talking about shading.

As I went to lunch I started noticing some strange things. The most concerning was the stares I was getting, most likely caused by the voting that would happen in the cafeteria. Luckily, I managed to get to my spot at the lunch table without being questioned about my opinion on the whole ordeal. People filled in one after another and I waited patiently for Andy to show up. Lately we were always getting our lunch together, so I usually had to wait because my class is closer than his.

He appeared at the door and I smiled when his eyes found me. We met up halfway across the room, but instead of turning and heading toward the lunch line like we always did, he grabbed my hand. I looked at him a bit surprised.

"Come on lets go for a walk. I have a packed lunch me can share. And I'm sure you want to get away form all the gossipers for a wile." He said, flashing me my favorite lopsided smile. I couldn't help but smile back at him. He knew me so well.

We walked out of the lunch room still holding hands, and ignoring all the curious looks that came our way. Once we reached the parking lot he steered me left towards a grassy hill by a patch of woods.

"Let's sit here," I said. He nodded and placed the lunch bag, which he had picked up outside the cafeteria doors, on the grass. We sat down and didn't say anything for a moment. He was still holding on to my hand and I didn't' want to pull away, not yet. He seemed to understand and smiled at me. He leaned a little closer and for a moment I thought he was going to kiss me, but then he started to say something. I waited but he looked away from me and leaned back so he was laying on the grass, dropping my hand.

"You don't want to go to the dance do you." He didn't say it like a question, but I shrugged anyway. His lips pressed into a small frown. "Would you go if I asked you to go with me?"

His question took me completely by surprise. He was asking me to the dance? He waited for my answer patiently as I thought about his offer. "You really want me to go to the dance with you?" I asked him curiously. His frown grew. Then he stood up suddenly and walked a few feet away, standing with his back to me.

"That's what I've been trying to tell you Ray. If I could be with anyone, I want it to be you. You're my best friend but. . . "My breathing stopped from the look he gave me. I had hoped so hard he felt the same and now, standing there, he had the power to crush me or make me very happy. Somehow in the midst of the excitement I had stood up, and now I found my self just inches from him. He stepped forward and I put my hand on his chest. His lips moved down to skim my nose, then he tilted his head to whisper on my ear.

"I know that I'm not as strong, and I haven't gotten the chance to save you form harm. But if you would give me a chance." his voice was smooth as he whispered in my ear. Then he looked me in the eyes and I could have sworn me knees went weak. My arms went around his neck and suddenly we were kissing. He was all muscle. Lean broad shoulders, his arms were around my waist pulling me closer. My hands we in his hair, our mouths pressed together. He lifted me off the ground and I wrapped my legs around him. His hands sent tingles along my skin as he traced cirlces with his thumbs across my ribs, making me brathless.

"Wait," I gasped. He pulled back a little, breathless just like me.

"What's wrong?" Andy asked, worry on his face.

"We're in front of the school" I said. He shook his head and chuckled, a deep ringing sound that vibrated through my chest. Then realizing my legs were around his waist and how very closely I was pressed to him I blushed and started to get down.

His arms tightened around my waist and I looked back up at him. "Were are you going? You still haven't answered my question. Will you go to the dance with me? He smiled. I sighed, I couldn't' refuse him though.

"Yes I'll go with you, but I'm terribly shy about dancing just so you know." I told him. Andy's smile just grew. Then he leaned down and my whole world disappeared as he kissed me.

When I got home I went straight to my room. I needed some time to think about what had happened with Andy at lunch. When I opened my door though I was taken by surprise, on my bed was a small package. I looked around, my door had been closed and Charlie had left for work before I had left for school. I looked around my room alarmed everything looked the same but as my eyes swept over the window I noticed it was open just a hair. I walked over to it and brushed my fingers along its edge.

Jasen! I could feel his energy. He had been here while I was at school today. I threw my scenes out across the woods and house, trying to see of he was waiting for me somewhere. No one was around but Eve and Alice down stairs, whose feelings and auras were changing with whatever it was they were talking about. What I did find though, is that my wards had both all off.

I walked over to the package and removed the brown paper. Inside lay a sapphire stone in the middle of a silver rose. It was the same necklace my mother wore as the high priestess of our coven. With the necklace was a note with Jasen's light handwriting on it. As I read it I could hear his voice.

I see you've taken to a new family. I know you must miss your mother so I found this for you. Also I see that Eve is back so you don't have to worry about her anymore. I'll come to visit you soon, but for now I have some arrangements to make. Don't worry we'll be together soon. I'll make sure nothing gets in our way.

I went cold as everything the note said finally set in. Jasen was back and he was going to take me, whether I wanted to go or not. And what did he mean by making sure nothing got in our way. Did he know about Andy? I collapsed onto the floor and my stomach heaved. I felt cold hands on my neck pulling my hair up and I knew Eve and Alice had come upstairs to see if I was ok. Tears streamed down my face and I did the only thing I could think to do. I prayed to the goddess that Andy would be safe because if Jasen hurt him, it would be my fault.