This is the next chapter of my story, so yeah. I wrote the songs in this one by myself, so the lyrics are written out. I can't exactly write out what it sounds like, so make that up in your head. Maybe somehow I can record myself singing it an post it somewhere. Well, enjoy this chapter and the music that I wrote for it.
Chapter 8: Hurry up and Save Me
I said my goodbye
Many years ago
I tried and I tried
But you'd never know
That I would never forget you
No matter what you say
I'll always love you
Whether you feel the same
One too many heartbreaks
More than just one heartache
Never again
Will I ever
Learn to trust you
One too many heartbreaks
I'm falling apart
I guess I now know
To never give my heart…to you
I lifted my hands off the piano after the final chord of my new song. What would I do with myself? It was the same cycle over and over again. Somehow, Edward would break my heart, then he would mend it, saying he loved me, then only to break it again. The next heartbreak would come—and I didn't want to be there for it.
You might say that I'm being an idiot for doing this, but I have my reasons for everything. You might say that I'm pulling an Edward by doing this, but I know it's what I need to do, before my heart gets broken again.
We used to hang out
A long time ago
Back then it was so easy
To be with you, I would know
I thought that we had forever
But boy I was so wrong
I'll never forget you
Whether I want to
One too many heartbreaks
More than just one heartache
Never again
Will I ever
Learn to trust you
One too many heartbreaks
I'm falling apart
I guess I now know
To never give my heart…to you
I added another verse to my song. It was amazing how easy it was to create music when you felt a strong emotion. I wanted to get away from the pain. I was sad, angry, depressed, shocked, and even suicidal.
I'm falling down
Never coming up
So sad that I
Just gave up
Somebody told me to never lose hope
But maybe it's just a lie
So now I'm going to just forget
And never think about you again
One too many heartbreaks
More than just one heartache
Never again
Will I ever
Learn to trust you
One too many heartbreaks
I'm falling apart
I guess I now know
To never give my heart…to you
I needed somebody to end my pain, for somebody to end the endless cycle of love and unloving. I needed somebody to destroy me and end my existence. I only needed to find somebody to do it. I didn't have to worry about anybody coming after me. The only fortune-teller I knew was Alice, and she told me that she couldn't see me. Aro would definitely not kill me, neither would any of the Cullens. None of the rest of the Volturi either—they loved me. James, Victoria, and Laurent would gladly do it, but they were long gone. I just needed to find a person willing to kill somebody like me. That was my challenge. I sighed and got up from the piano.
My guitar was sitting on the sofa, glossy, but old. Jane had got it for me a few years after my change. I had taught myself how to play it, it didn't take very long, considering that I was a vampire. I strummed around a little bit on it, playing random chords. There was no melody to it, just one chord followed by another. It could've been one minute or one hour, but the melody started to weave it's way through the chords, and soon the song became an actual song, not just a compilation of chords.
How come you always leave me?
Standing in the dark
How come it always seems that
You can break my heart
Every scar is perfect
Very well made
You really are good at
Making me want to go away
I think that I would like to try
To get away from it all
I want to spread my wings and fly
Jump into the sky
So let my fly….
Let me soar to the sky…
Spread my wings out
Never touch the ground—again
There is the sky…
Even though it's grey
It's the one place where I am free
To fly
Somebody who could kill me, somebody who could end my pain, that person was out there, I knew it. He or she was somewhere in the large world. They could be in Argentina for all I know. I could always throw myself into a fire, but then I wouldn't exactly burn. For some reason vampires only burn when somebody completely tears them apart and tosses the pieces into a fire. Only if somebody else does it.
This was the time that I cursed this life. It was so hard to end it. I couldn't be poisoned, I couldn't be shot. I couldn't be too tired, too hungry, I couldn't even die if I didn't hunt for centuries. I couldn't get my head chopped off, or be hanged. I couldn't suffer from no air, or toxic fumes. Acids couldn't corrode my skin, and I couldn't get a disease. The only way I could end myself was from somebody else.
Life was so easy as a human, and it seemed so long ago. If felt like centuries ago I was riding in the car with Renee headed for Forks. I know that if I'd never gone to Forks then I wouldn't have ever known about vampires, fallen in love at the early age of seventeen, and suffered though all this. Surprising how one decision can change a person's life forever.
The lamp goes off at night
The room is black
I can't see anything
Where I'm at
The hole begins to form
In my soul
There's a pain in my chest
And it won't go…away
I think that I would like to try
To get away from it all
I want to spread my wings and fly
Jump into the sky
So let my fly….
Let me soar to the sky…
Spread my wings out
Never touch the ground—again
There is the sky…
Even though it's grey
It's the one place where I am free
To fly
But that one decision led me to Edward—something I don't regret, even if he did hurt me, three times now. Falling in love is the most magical thing in the world. It's the one thing we all want. Somebody to love us, and care about us, and somebody to tell us three simple words everyday. That was the goal in life, to fall in love. The goal of just about everybody. I reached my goal, but it backfired on my. Now I'm nothing.
The wind in my hair
The breeze through the air
Birds under me
That's how high I'm flying
I've got a long way to go
Until I hit home
Soaring higher, flying faster
No one's going to stop me so…
Let me fly…
Let me soar to the sky…
Spread my wings out
Never touch the ground—again
There is the sky…
Even though it's grey
It's the one place where I am free
To fly…
Yes, I'm absolutely nothing.
***
Rosalie's POV
I swear my brother was the most ignorant fool to walk on the face of this planet. His problem? He was too moral, to gentleman, too based on beliefs, too sensitive for his own good, And now he's lost the woman he loves again. Bella went off to get herself killed. Alice said that it hasn't happened yet, that she can't find anybody to do it for her. She's got us all tickets to Volterra to try and stop her before it's too late. We're all boarding our flight right now, and Edward is getting impatient
"How long is the flight, Alice?" He asked
"Edward, we'll get there" Alice said "It's faster than running"
"This reminds me of when she had to save me. Is this the way she felt?" Edward asked
"I'm no Jasper, but I'm pretty sure" I said "I'm still angry with you, and I would be giving you a good yelling if we didn't have to go and save Bella right now"
"I'm sorry" Edward said again
"Sorry doesn't cut it, bro" Emmett said "I'm not going to lose my little sister because my brother thought it was wrong to hook up with her after just getting his wedding called off."
"Why is she getting herself killed anyway?" Edward asked
"She doesn't want to wait for another heartbreak" Alice said, as we all put on our headphones and listened to the song that came on
Time moves on
But your heart is always broken
We all make mistakes
We all do wrong things,
But that doesn't mean that you can't fix it
Get out of the dark and back to where you were
She still loves you, and you still love her
Just tell her, I love you, I need you
Get down on your knees if you have to
Just tell her how you feel about her
Leave her a rose and a letter
And soon all will be better
Just tell her you love her…
Just tell her
Wow, how much this song fit right now was impressive. I sent a glare at Edward, who had taken his headphones off and was holding his head in his hands. He must feel so bad right now. I currently was regretting how nasty I was to Bella back in the past. She was the glue that held our family together. The missing piece of the puzzle. No puzzle is complete without it's last piece, and Bella was that piece. Bella was the sweetest, most caring, most selfless girl I have ever met. And I am vain and selfish. I am ashamed.
Tap on her windowsill
Look her in the eyes
Hold her hand and comfort her when she cries
Put her in your car, and drive through the night
Take her to a fountain and make a wish
That she will forgive you.
Time moves on, time moves along
Just tell her
Just tell her, I love you, I need you
Get down on your knees if you have to
Just tell her how you feel about her
Leave her a rose and a letter
And soon all will be better
Just tell her you love her…
Just tell her
That what you said was just a lie
You didn't think, oh sigh
Just tell her what she means to you,
Then beg her to forgive you
Don't be a man stuck in the dark
Come out and grab her heart
Just tell her I love you, those three words that lead to I do
Edward, you need to tell her everything. I said in my head, hopeful that he could hear me. He looked at me and nodded, then went back to his sulking. The ride to Italy was going to be a long one, we all just hoped that Bella was going to have trouble finding somebody to kill her. We were the only ones who can save her. Her cell phone didn't work, nobody knew her email, nobody knew the number to the Volturi, all we could do was wait and hope for the best—and for this blasted plane to just speed up.
Remember all the songs you wrote
All the times you said hello
Every kiss and every touch
Every moment that you were in love
Just tell her
Just tell her
How much you really love her
Just tell her
Just tell her
The world will end for you without her
I'm no miracle worker
It's all in the fate
Go up and say
You are my soul mate
Just tell her
Just tell her
All your dreams that you have had
Just tell her
Just tell her
Just tell her, I love you, I need you
Get down on your knees if you have to
Just tell her how you feel about her
Leave her a rose and a letter
And soon all will be better
Just tell her you love her…
Just tell her
I crossed my fingers
***
Emmett's POV
"Five minutes until landing" The flight attendant announced. YES! We could finally go and talk some sense into Bella. C'mon stupid pilot, just land the darn thing already!
"Patience Emmie" Rose said to me, putting her hand on my arm. I took a deep breath and waited for the plane to touch the ground so we could get out of here, steal some fancy car, and drive off to the Volturi as fast as we could. Carlisle and Esme were also getting very anxious, I could tell. Carlisle was out ticket into the castle, if he didn't come, I doubt that we would be let in.
At last the plane landed, as it stopped by the terminal. The stupid flight attendants told us to wait on the plane for a few minutes. Ugh! That was it, I was going to just get off of this thing.
"Emmett, don't do that, it won't end well and we might be too late getting to Bella" Alice said. Oh right, she could see the future. I counted the number of seats in the first class area, I picked at the seat coverings, and I waited. Finally, the flight attendants told me I could get off. My family was the first one off. We had no luggage, no carry on items. Just ourselves, and our determination.
"Quickly!" Rosalie said
We pushed our way through the busy airport, through people walking too slow, through moms trading pie recipes, through men watching ESPN on their phones, and though a happy couple kissing. Didn't these people see that we were in an emergency? Alice went and stole us a Ferrari and a Porsche. We loaded the cars. Me, Rosalie, Alice, and Jasper in one, and Edward, Carlisle, and Esme in the other. Rosalie and Edward were driving, and they were all pushing the cars to the top speed.
We had to slow down when we got to the gates of Volterra. The guard at the entrance let us in after a hefty bride of ten big ones. Good thing it was cloudy out today, we could make it there without attracting too much attention. We parked the cars in the spaces closet to the beginning of the city, and we all climbed out and began to walk as fast as a human pace would allow though the streets. When we got to the drop in the road, we all dropped down one by one and ran at vampire speed to the entrance into the castle. I had never seen anybody in my family run so fast, it was amazing.
Felix was at the door, and when he saw us he smiled
"Carlisle Cullen, what brings you here?" He asked, beaming
"No time to talk, Felix, we need to find Bella" Carlisle responded
"Oh, what has she gotten into now?" Felix asked
"She wants to get killed" Edward growled "Now let us in"
"Oh!" Felix said, his eyes bugging out. He opened the door so fast that I almost didn't catch it. We flew though it and began to run, following Bella's scent. Edward led the way, since he knew that smell the best, and we were close behind him. Along the way we bumped into Aro, and Edward quickly put his hand into Aro's to show him our mission. Aro was shocked and then led the rest of the way to Bella's room.
We stopped outside a set of double doors, as Edward pushed the doors open with so much force that they broke. Here goes nothing.
END OF CHAPTER
This was definitely my favorite chapter to write. So? What do you think of my songs? Am I a good songwriter? I would sing them for you, but you cant hear me, =). Please review on this chapter. I would greatly appreciate it. Bye!
