AKK I'm sorry for not updating in so long! I've been super busy, but I have been writing as much as I can. Screw homework, I'm going to write FanFiction. :)
Hylla: So glad you like it! :) It kinda...just came to me. Haha I love writing the cliffhangers, but sometimes I'm not sure if they get annoying. I mean, I read them in other stories, but I find them interesting, because for that time between the updates, you can imagine whatever you want.
SaneLilies: It does? That's awesome! :) Haha you must read on and find out what happens! It will be interesting, I promise you. And I hope you love it! :)
ASilverShadowhunter: Why wouldn't I use your translation? It was perfect. Haha there will be Wessa and Jessa in here, kind of. As for the cliffies, I can't tell you what happens. ;) You have to read it. Haha, the actual filming is coming faster than you think. Mostly because I cut out a year of what I was planning to do for a plot, because the days are moving too slow. Like, not the events, but the days. It's very unproportional, actually. See, math word?
The-Final-Hope: Aww I hope you have a good time at school. I lost a bit of my life when school started. Not that I had any to start with. ;) I'm kidding. But seriously. Have a great time at school.
Ink2parchment: Read the answer at the bottom of the responses to find out. I forgot to write It in the bottom of the last chapter. Sorry. And thank you! That means a lot! :)
Rainbowchameleon: Read the not at the bottom of the responses. I really should have put the translation in the bottom of the last chapter. Sorry. :/
TheMusicalDevil: Jessa! No. Your hopes will be crushed in this chapter. I'm just kidding! Well, not really. Well, kind of. It depends on what you think will happen in the next chapter. So yeah. I'm not going to say anything else. Read on! :)
mezzogal: Jem is just a sweeheart, isn't he? He's adorable. But then again, Will is sexy. I LOVE YOUR INSTAGRAM POST! Haha have you been having better days? I know what you feel like. I'm having a sucky time at school. :/ But it's getting better.
TessaElsaHerondale: Gosh I can't keep up with your list of ships! ;) I'm just kidding. I'm a super fan of both Jessa and Wessa, as you might have figured out from my pen name. And I'm so glad you love it! :) Well, I would have to say, this chapter took even longer. I'm sorry. I have been working hard on my new story. :/ Which you have checked out! THANK YOU SO MUCH! :)
HAHA you'll have to find out of Will is jealous. But remember, he's there with a girl, who may or may not be his girlfriend. Mwhahaha. Read and find out. And thank you so much! :) Enchanting...wow. I am honored. :) You are too nice. Really. What did I do to get a reviewer like you?
SilverJem5: The translation will be after the responses. Sorry, I forgot to include it in the last chapter. :/ Haha yes, there will be a little bit of Jessa in this chapter! But mostly Wessa. :/ Don't worry there is serious Jessa coming up later in the stoy! :)
IluvMagnus101: Haha no problem. Psh. I can totally wait. No I can't please update now. ;)
Jess (Guest): Aww, well I hope you still enjoy this chapter. It's a bit more Wessa, but I can assure you that there is Jessa in the future. Would i really leave JESSA out? That's crazy. And thank you! I hope you enjoy my new story! :)
Infinitemaddys: You never know. Will is there with a girl, too. Who is she? :) You will find out.
Angelic (Guest): Haha your wish will maybe be granted. :) I don't know, you have to read. I hope you lIke it, though! :)
TRANSLATION FROM CHAPTER EIGHT: "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen."
Understanding And Dates
"Will!" I stand up, and he starts towards me. I stay in place, staring at the girl who he had came in with. She looks confused, and a bit awkward.
"Hey Tessa," he greets me, as nonchalantly as ever, and it makes me angry.
"What are you doing here?" I say, and he looks puzzled.
"What do you mean?" he asks, "I came to watch a movie with Cecily. Oh, Cecily. This is Tessa. She's going to play the main character in Clockwork Angel, with us. Tessa, this is Cecily. She plays my sister in the movie-" he notes as if it's dreadfully important, "-but she's not actually my sister. Hey, we can all watch the movie together, now!" He sounds unusually calm and contented, a slight smile plastered on his face like he's oblivious to everything that I'm feeling.
"No, we can't," I say with gritted teeth, "Anthony and I are leaving!"
"What? But isn't the movie just starting?" he wonders, and I glare at him, wondering if he really is as oblivious as I think. "Wait! Explain why you're leaving!"
"Explain why you let me kiss you, if you have a girlfriend," I complain bitterly; angry tears fill my eyes and I wonder how I have gotten so attached to someone I have only known for a short period of time, "I thought you were acting weird about it being on the news, and I guess this is why."
Realization dawns over him, and he looks from Cecily to me, "Wait, you thought - You know, Cecily isn't my girlfriend," he gives her an awkward look, "No offense Cecily, but you're only fourteen."
Cecily smiles, and I notice that her teeth are perfectly straight, and a dazzling shade of white, "None taken," she replies.
"I'm sorry, Will," I mumble, feeling utterly stupid and childish, "I just thought..."
"It's fine," he says, before I can finish, and then he tips his head towards Anthony with a raised eyebrow, "So...do you want to explain this guy?"
"Oh! This is Anthony. He's my best friend since eighth grade," I tell Will, and he grins.
"Now that we've gotten this all straightened out, what say we watch the movie?" he remarks, stepping in to wrap his arms around me in a hug. I relax comfortingly into his embrace instinctively, but I don't notice him leaning down to brush his mouth against mine, his eyes only slightly parted.
In an instant blur of fear as he kisses me, I pull apart from him, pushing away from his chest.
His eyes fly open and there is shock clearly etched on his face. "Tessa?" His eyes glitter with hurt. "What was that for?"
I grab my bag, and Anthony's wrist, backing away. "I'm sorry, Will. I just, can't right now," I try to explain, as I rush down the aisle, pulling Anthony behind me. I see Will try and catch up to us, but we catch a cab right as he gets out of the theater door.
All I see when the taxi pulls away is his stunned expression, looking wistfully after us with Cecily at his side,
When I stumble through the door of my house, I collapse hopelessly onto the couch, and Anthony sits down next to me, and pats me on the shoulder awkwardly.
"I really messed up, didn't I?" I ask, covering my face with my hands, "God, I'm so stupid. Why did I kiss either of them?"
"You didn't know. Look, I'm a guy, but I have no advice to give you this time. You're too deep into it. Honestly, from what's happened to you, it's obvious that both guys like you. You either have to choose one, or none. If you choose one, you hurt one's feelings, and their friendship, maybe. If you choose neither, you hurt both's feelings, but you keep their friendship intact." He tells me, his voice steady but laced with concern.
I groan, "Maybe I should quit the movie. It would make everything so much easier," I sigh, pressing my hand to my face and pushing my hair from my eyes. Suddenly, my phone breaks the silence with a vibrate and I reach to get it. Clicking it on, my heart contracts when I see a text, my teeth instantly biting worriedly at my bottom lip.
Will: Can you tell me what's wrong? Please? I'm worried about you.
Me: I'm sorry for running away. It's complicated.
Will: Okay. Just know if you ever want to talk about it, I'll be here.
Then I get a text from Jem, serving to confuse my matters even more.
Jem: Hey, what's up? You busy?
Me: A little, why?
Jem: Just wanted to see how you're doing.
Me: Thanks. I have to do something, so I'll talk to you later, okay?
Jem: Sure. :)
"Anthony...What do I do?" I ask helplessly, clutching my phone. Glancing down at it, I cringe and toss it across the room where I can't see the flashing lights. "Why does it have to be like this? What have I done to deserve it?"
Maybe nothing," Anthony comforts me, "Maybe it's fate."
The next day, I get a phone call from Betty, the publicist who dealt with the "Wessa scandal".
"Hello?" I answer, placing my book to the side of my bed.
"Tessa? This is Betty. I need you to check Twitter." she tells me, and I pick my laptop up from the floor. Logging in, I see that one of the trending feeds is a series of posts from Jessamine Lovelace.
Will's ex.
Crap.
I click one of them, and there is a paragraph of ranting on about Will and I. The next post is no different. It goes on for more than ten posts, and I finally stop reading them when I realize that I've gotten myself dangerously into the middle of Will and his spiteful ex.
"Betty? What am I supposed to do about this?" I ask, my voice shaking after reading all the hating comments on the posts.
"Honey, you're going to have to just ignore them. I know they hurt, but be the bigger person, and don't let the remarks get to you." she advises, and I take a shuddering breath.
"Alright. I'll do that," I tell her, and thank her for letting me know about the problem. She tells me it's just her job, then she hangs up the phone, leaving me hanging on an end tone.
I let out a huge sigh, and lie down on my bed. What is wrong with this girl, anyway? Can't she just accept that Will doesn't like her?
My phone rings again, and I pick it up without checking to see who it is, a big mistake, "Hello?"
"Hey, you finally answered," a male voice, that I had been avoiding all day, says from the other side. Crap.
"Hey, Will," I greet him, and I can't help but feel overrun with guilt and regret, "What's up? Anything new?"
"Not really. I was just calling to see how you were. I mean, since you kinda were acting a little weird, yesterday," he mentions, and I cover my face with my hand, "You're okay, aren't you?"
"Just...a little stressed," I reply, "Have you been on Twitter recently?"
"Oh god," he groans, "Don't even get me started on that. She's...taking this way too far. I don't know what to do."
"Betty just called me," I inform him, "She advises us to ignore it. I'm fine with that, since I don't really use my Twitter."
Will laughs, "I wish I could do that, but my Twitter has been spammed with hate for the past six hours. I don't get it. I'm perfectly fine for years, and Jessamine is seen as the, excuse my French, bitch, but once she starts Twitter ranting about me, everyone starts to hate me!"
"I'm sure it will blow over," I reassure him, and he lets out a short laugh of disbelief.
"Not if Jessamine sees how much response she is getting. She'll keep going, and going, and going." he reminds me, and I sigh. He's right.
"I'm super sorry about this Will. If I had never kissed you...this...never would have happened," I tell him, and feel a stab of guilt about Jem.
"No, it's not your fault. It's mine, for dating her in the first place. Did I tell you-" his voice lightens with a small edge of embarrassment and amusement, "-I used to a bit geeky, with nerd glasses and suspenders? It was a short phase, but she used to parade me around in front of all the quote on quote, 'desirable', guys that she wanted to impress."
I hold back a laugh, imagining Will in nerd glasses and suspenders. It's kind of hot, actually. Just imagine it...
"Tessa?" I hear someone ask, and I snap back into reality.
"Yeah? What?"
"Did you hear what I asked?" he asks.
"Sorry. No, can you repeat it?" I say, trying to put the image if a sexy nerdy Will out of my mind. It's quite hard, actually.
"Do you want to go out sometime? L-like on a date?" he stutters, and for some reason I find this adorable.
Before I even know what I am saying, I am agreeing, and hanging up the phone, a happy grin plastered across my face.
I have a date with Will Herondale. I have a date with Will Herondale!
Then, it dawns on me.
Fudge.
Jem.
"I don't understand," my mom repeats, her voice compacted with all the worry she can muster, "Why do you want therapy?"
I sigh, trying to explain, "I need to be able to voice my feelings to someone who will listen to all of it, and give me advice."
"What about me?" she asks, "I could do that for you."
"Mom. It's really personal stuff," I tell her, and she sighs.
"Alright. If that's what you want, I'll sign you up," she agrees, and goes to get the phone. After a long conversation with a local therapist, she informs me that my first appointment is in a week.
And it's the first reasonable thing that I've done in a while, and it helps me take my mind off things.
I go to bed early, because for some reason, I'm super tired. When my phone begins to ring at near ten, I barely decide to answer it, and I only do because it could be someone important.
"Hello?" I mumble, closing my eyes and leaning back into my pillow.
"Tessa?" a voice asks, and I don't recognize it, since I'm practically asleep.
"Who is this?" I reply, and the person of the other side clears his throat.
"This is Jem," he tells me, and my eyes fly open. I'm no longer sleepy, but I'm somewhat terrified. Scared that Will might have told him about the date.
See? This is why I need therapy. I have some major problems.
"Oh, hi Jem! " I reply, as cheerfully as I can, without giving anything away.
"Hey, I hope I didn't bother you. I just wanted to ask you something," he informs me, and I frown. Should I tell him that I was sleeping?
"Nah, I was just sleeping. Don't worry about it," I reply, and I hear him sigh with...relief? It's hard to tell.
"Well, I'm so sorry I woke you," he apologizes, and I tell him not to worry at all. I lay back in my bed, clutching the phone to my ear, and snuggle back down into the blankets. I'm tired and I'm falling asleep with him on the phone, but I smile because it's Jem. I'm lucky to have a friend like him.
"What did you want to ask me?" I question, and I hear him take a deep breath, and murmur something to himself.
After a long silence, he swallows and I can hear the apprehension and eagerness in his tone. "Will you be my girlfriend?" He blurts out nervously, his voice shaky but determined.
I widen my eyes.
Fudge, again.
So, what do you think Tessa will do? What will she tell Jem? Or Will? Or both?
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