Last Chance
Kitty sat by the campfire, eating her dinner quietly, as the other boys and girls did the same. Everyone was far to exhausted from the days events to be to talkative, which was nice since it gave Kitty and the others time to enjoy the nature that surrounded them. Dinner for the night was oatmeal and bagels, since everyone was far too lazy and tired to put an extra effort into making a hot meal.
"I'm so tired…" Steph commented, as Kitty nodded her head in agreement, as she took another mouth full of oatmeal before placing her spoon back onto her bowl.
"God! Another day like today and I may have to throw myself off of the nearest cliff!" Kitty commented, as she listened to the other campers' grunts of agreement.
"Fortunately for you…we only have 3 more days of this before we can go home" Jean encouraged from behind a now tense Kitty.
"Hey Ms. Grey" The other campers' greeted, as Kitty soon found herself staring into her bowl of half eaten oatmeal.
"Can I sit here Kitty?" Jean asked, her eyes falling down to study the apparently inattentive girl. Kitty kept quiet for a moment, before opening her mouth to respond to Jean's question, when one of the campers' interrupted her chance.
"You can sit here Ms. Grey!" Exclaimed a now very excited Brian. Kitty rolled her eyes as she watched the boy's face light up at the possibility of Jean sitting next to him.
"Sure Brain, if that's ok with you…" Jean replied, eyeing Kitty one more time, before moving to sit next to a flushed Brian.
"I'm totally cool with it!" Brian replied happily, as Kitty watched on.
Jeez Brian! Why don't you cum all over her now? Kitty thought to herself, as she began stabbing her drying oatmeal with her spoon.
As Jean took her seat next to Brian, which was directly across from Kitty, she couldn't help but eye the girl closely, smiling at the girl's comical expression. There was a moment of silence, as the campers' enjoyed the clear night air, and the crackling of the campfire. After a moment more of the deafening silence, it was Kitty who broke the silence.
"We need more wood…" Kitty began, as she put her bowl on the ground, and then rose quickly, as the others watched her intently.
"Yeah…we're running low" One camper remarked, as the rest of the campers' nodded their heads in agreement.
"Yeah…you better hurry and get some wood before the fire goes completely out," another added.
"Ok, I'll be back" Kitty replied as she dusted herself off and pulled out her mittens from her jacket pocket.
"Steph, do you want to come with?" Kitty asked, but just as Steph opened her mouth, another voice filled Kitty's ears.
"I'll give you a hand" Jean offered, as she placed her food down on the ground, and quickly moved to stand next to a flabbergasted Kitty.
"No…that's ok, Steph will come with-"
"don't be silly Kitty…students aren't allowed to be running around the woods at night anyways. A teacher has to be with you to make sure that you don't get lost…or hurt" Jean explained, as the others watched in interest.
"I'm sure I will be just fine!" Kitty replied with determination, as Jean shook her head and shrugged her shoulders.
"Those are the rules Kitty…don't like them than that's your problem" Jean answered, as she watched the angry look on Kitty's face.
"Fine!" Kitty exclaimed angrily, as the others watched on with baffled looks. Kitty turned her attention away from Jean, and began walking away from the campsite to enter the darkened areas of the woods. And as Kitty walked by the picnic tables, she grabbed for her flashlight and continued on walking, as Jean followed her in close pursuit. Argh! Does she have to follow me so closely? Kitty thought to herself as she suddenly became aware of Jean's tall stature from behind her.
"Kitty…" Jean called out, her tone solid but not nearly as powerful as Kitty's arrogance. Kitty kept on walking, ignoring Jean, her flashlight on and guiding her towards the heavily wooded area, where she hoped to find some loose branches or pieces of wood to bring back to the campfire. "That was pretty cold back there…" Jean stated knowingly, her hand reaching out to grab hold of the girl's arm. After fazing out of Jean's hold, the young girl kept on walking.
"When are you going to stop doing that?"
"When you stop fazing every time I touch you" Jean replied, as she moved to walk next to Kitty, who bent down to grab for a piece of wood from the ground.
"Whatever…" Kitty replied, getting up from her crouched position, the piece of wood in one hand.
"Are you going to be this cold for now on?" Jean asked, taking the moment to talk to Kitty one on one, since the girl was still standing in one spot for the moment.
"I don't know…"
"Well don't be! I don't want to have to deal with your attitude anymore. Enough is enough Kitty!" Jean finished with an authoritative stance; as Kitty gave the older woman one last look before moving forward in search of more wood.
"Did you practice that? Or did you just wing it?" Kitty asked, as Jean struggled to control her growing frustration with the girl. After taking a few deep breaths, Jean struggled to regain control of her already frail emotions.
"Kitty…I'm sorry for what I said to you earlier. I shouldn't have been so mean-what I said was inexcusable…" Jean began, as she watched the young girl's small body in mild interest.
"Are you just saying that because you have to…or are you saying it because you actually admit to having feelings for me?" Jean stopped dead in her tracks at hearing these words from Kitty.
"I don't have feelings for you! That's completely inappropriate-"
"Oops! There's that word again! 'Inappropriate'…don't worry Jean I'm pretty sure that we covered that earlier." Kitty interrupt smartly, before adding. "Oops! Sorry Ms. Grey! I forgot about one of your rules…it won't happen again!" Kitty continued with the same mock serious tone.
"I'm serious Kitty! I'm getting sick and tired of that attitude of yours!" Jean began, as she moved to face Kitty, who turned to face Jean with a plain expression.
"Well I'm getting tired of yours! You think your perfect? Well I think your wrong!"
"Oh really?"
"Yeah!"
"Then what is perfect to you? Is it you and me in bed? Is it me wearing that see through lingerie and giving you that commitment ring?" Jean began as Kitty looked up to the sky and closed her eyes in disbelief.
"The lingerie was a joke! I told you that…those rings were your gift" Kitty explained as she moved to the side to collect another small piece of wood. "Can you carry that please?" Kitty asked, as she handed the piece of wood to Jean, who took it forcefully.
"That wasn't a funny joke…" Jean stated seriously, her long red hair moving slightly with the wind.
"You thought it was funny"
"no I didn't!"
"Yeah you did! I was there remember?" Kitty shot back with a chuckle, as she bent down to grab another piece of wood, which she tried to hold under one arm. Jean closed her eyes for a moment, as she tried to sort out her puzzling emotions.
"You really like me?"
"I think it's pretty obvious that I do…"
"Why?" Jean asked, dead serious now, watching as Kitty flashed her a curious look before looking away.
"That note explained it all…if you read it that is" Kitty began, before adding questioningly, "did you?"
Why would you ask that Jean? You knew that Kitty would turn it around on you! Just say no. Tell her that you didn't read the note…maybe it'll make her turned off at the idea of being with you Jean thought to herself before answering Kitty bluntly.
"No"
"No?"
"No…I didn't read your note. I didn't want to know about your feelings for me," Jean explained untruthfully, as Kitty eyed her closely.
"You're a shitty liar you know that?" Kitty responded with a smile, before walking past Jean towards the direction of the campsite.
"I'm not lying Kitty"
"Yes you are"
"how the hell would you know?" Jean questioned in annoyance, as she tried to catch up to Kitty.
"Because…when you're lying you do this thing with your nose. It's really cute actually…you like, scrunch it up and stuff. And you always cross your arms over your chest when you know that you have to lie…its kinda of obvious actually" Kitty explained, as Jean watched her with a look of shock.
How did she know that? Not even Scott could tell if I was lying to him…and we've been together for years! Jean thought to herself, before accidentally voicing her other thought, "Scott and Logan could never tell if I was lying…"
"That's because Scott only cares about besting Logan. And Logan only cares about what's hidden underneath your clothes" Kitty explained as she struggled to balance the two pieces of wood she was carrying under one arm. Jean watched Kitty was a look of shock, as she silently pondered how the hell Kitty would know such things about her and the two men fighting over her.
"How do you know these things?" Jean asked, stopping to grab for another piece of wood.
"What can I say? I'm an honor student…" Kitty reminded with a chuckle, as Jean couldn't help but smirk at remembering just how smart the young women actually was.
Forgot how smart she is Jean thought to herself, before finding herself walking alongside Kitty, past the tents and over to the campfire.
"Thanks for the talk Ms. Grey" Kitty responded plainly, as she moved to drop the two pieces of wood to the ground, before taking her seat next to Steph.
After sitting by the campfire for another hour or so, the campers returned to their tents and prepared for bed. And as Kitty left the campfire, and entered her tent, she quickly got her sleepwear on, shivering at the feel of the cold breeze against her body.
"Kitty can I come in?" Steph asked from outside the tent.
"Come on in!" Kitty replied as she waited for her friend to unzip the zipper to the tent, and then enter.
"I hate how cold it gets at night!" Steph began as she soon began to change into her sleepwear.
"I know…during the day its warm and then at night its like sub zero temperatures!" Kitty replied with a laugh as Steph nodded her head in agreement.
"So…what's going on between you and Ms. Grey?"
"What?"
"You know…you and Ms. Grey. What's going on between you two?" Steph asked again, glancing at Kitty for a moment before looking around her for her sweater and sweat pants to wear over top of her sleepwear.
"What do you mean?" Kitty asked, struggling to control the nervous hitch in her voice.
"I mean…you two used to be close and really friendly to each other. But now…it's like you two had a big fight or something and you totally hate either other!" Steph explained as Kitty continued to give Steph a 'deer in the headlights' impression.
"I don't know what you're talking about…" Kitty responded as calmly as she could, as Steph gave her a look that let Kitty know that she wasn't fooling anybody.
"Did you guys have a fight?" Steph asked, watching Kitty for a moment as Kitty struggled to find the right words that wouldn't make Steph anymore suspicious than she already was.
"I guess we had a little argument-over something really stupid. I guess you get to learn a lot about a person when you have to be around them for long periods of time without a break in between…" Kitty explained, which earned her a nod of agreement from Steph.
"That's true. You learn a lot about the 'true' colors of a person when you live in close quarters with them" Steph agreed, as Kitty sighed in relief that the semi interrogation was somewhat over.
"Ok, well…I think I'm going to go out and brush my teeth and junk…I'll be back later" Kitty explained as she grabbed for her toothbrush and moved to exit the tent. As Kitty stepped out of the tent, she grabbed for her shoes and skillfully put them on without having to attract dirt into the tent as well as getting her feet dirty. As she made her way to the picnic table to grab for a cup of fresh water to wash her mouth with, she noticed a tall slender form standing close by. That better not be Jean… Kitty thought to herself, as she continued to move behind the campgrounds to brush her teeth in privacy. "Shit!" Kitty began, when she realized that she forgot her flashlight in her tent.
"Don't worry…I'm watching you" Jean responded gently, as she brought her flashlight to rest on Kitty's tense form.
"Thanks…" Kitty thanked gloomily, as Jean moved to stand next to the girl.
"You know you shouldn't be out here on your own. Buddy system remember?" Jean began as Kitty rolled her eyes in annoyance.
"I can take care of myself Ms. Grey!"
"Oh yeah, that's right, I forgot! Kitty Pryde is an honor student! She's way more likely to survive any kind of danger than anyone else!" Jean replied sarcastically, earning her an even more annoyed look from Kitty.
"Whatever…" Kitty responded bitterly, as she began to brush her teeth, her eyes averted to the ground and away from Jean's. As Jean watched Kitty brush her teeth, she held herself and shivered slightly at the feel of the cool breeze against her body.
"Can you hurry up please?" Jean asked, when she felt that she could turn into an ice cube at any moment. At hearing this, Kitty began to brush her teeth at an even slower rate, as her eyes moved to lock onto Jean's now annoyed face.
"Brushing your teeth slower now?"
"Uh huh" Kitty responded as toothpaste began to leak out of her mouth, causing Jean to cringe in disgust.
"You're such a bitch you know that?" Jean replied without thinking, as Kitty chuckled lightly. "I'm sorry…I didn't mean to call you that" Jean apologized, as she watched Kitty spit the toothpaste out of her mouth, before rinsing her mouth with the water before spiting that out as well.
"Whatever…" Kitty responded, as she turned to leave before Jean's hand stopped her.
"Don't faze! I just want to talk…" Jean replied quickly, knowing that Kitty would faze out of her hold as soon as she felt her touch. "You're friend…she guessed that we're not getting along because of a fight"
"yeah, so?"
"So…I propose that we put a lid on these arguments so that no one else will get suspicious" Jean finished knowingly, her eyes searching the young girl's closely.
"I have a better idea"
"What?"
"You admit to liking me…and these stupid fights between us will end!"
"What?"
"You heard me. Admit to liking me and I'll stop being a bitch…" Kitty began before adding, "Lets end this sexual frustration and have what we want to have. Each other…" Kitty finished, before fazing out of Jean's hold, once again. Jean watched the girl longingly, her thoughts caught between wanting to kiss the girl, and running as far away from her as possible, but she just stood there and watched this sexual grin form on Kitty's face. "Come on Jean…I know you're tired of this game, just as I am. Just admit it! You like me…in a more 'loving' way…"
"I told you to never call me by my first name!" Jean retorted, as she fought to control the urge to do what she knew was wrong. To grab the girl and bring her deeper into the woods, were no one could see, and do things to her that would blow the young girl's mind.
"Why?"
"Because you're a child and I'm an adult! You don't care about me the way you think you do. You see me as a sexual toy-"
"What?"
"Yes! You see me as your sexual toy! You get off on the idea of being with someone older-someone you can manipulate into being what you want them to be! You see me as a ball of yarn that you can't wait to unravel…" Jean finished, watching as Kitty's sexual grin turned to a deep frown.
"I don't see you as a sexual object. I really care about you-I know everything about you. I know things that Scott doesn't even know…Jean, I'm in love with you" Kitty explained, as Jean shook her head violently from side to side.
"No Kitty. What you feel isn't love…you need help Kitty. Lots and lots of help, if you think that it's ok to treat people like sexual object…to push me to the limit for your enjoyment!" Jean finished with a tremble in her voice, as she fought to maintain the urge to hold Kitty, to feel her skin against hers, to give in to what Kitty offered. Kitty watched on with a hurt expression, tears swelling in her eyes as her bottom lip trembled violently.
Oh God Jean! Only you can hurt me so badly… Kitty thought to herself before attempting to regain control of herself. "Jean…I know you feel something for me. We felt it the first time we met, the first time we touched, the first time we talked. I know, that you feel something for me that terrifies you. I understand that, because believe it or not Jean…I didn't plan on falling in love with you. And I tried to get you to understand how badly I need you. And I would love, more than anything, to keep trying to get you to realize that my feelings for you aren't about lust! They're about love! But I can't keep putting myself up for you, and keep getting knocked down. I can't handle anymore of your hurtful rejections…cause when you say anything hurtful to me, it really does feel like I'm dying. I can't take another rejection from you Jean. So, I'm giving you one last chance. If you agree to face the fact that you're in love with a 17 year old…then you'll make me the happiest girl in the world! And I promise to love you all-day and everyday for as long as you'll have me. But, if you reject me again, then I promise to leave you alone…but when you reject me and then realize later that you are in love with me-don't even think about trying to get back with me, because I wont take you back!" Kitty began, pausing for a moment to control her falling tears, before continuing. "So, here's your chance. Choose now, because I wont ask again. Do you love me?" Kitty asked, holding her breath as she waited for Jean to answer.
"No…" Jean began, her eyes refusing to look Kitty directly "I could never love you like I love Scott" Jean answered, consciously making sure that she wasn't giving off any signs that she was lying. Kitty nodded her head, a few stray tears falling from her eyes, as she turned to face the direction of the campsite. And as Jean brought her eyes to the ground, she couldn't help but feel heaviness in her chest, and a feeling of nausea in the pit of her stomach.
"…Liar" Kitty muttered, as she slowly made her way further and further away from a stunned Jean Grey.
