Disclaimer: If I owned NCIS, I would not be in college and working minimum wage.

A/N: So sorry for not updating, but my health has been horrible for the last few weeks. I finally feel well enough to sit down and write. Enjoy

~Forensichik13

Halloween Hysteria

Previously:

Tony grabs a blanket, pulls me into his lap, covers us up, and hold me while I cry myself to sleep. I don't have any nightmares because my big brother is here to protect me. I feel loved in his arms but his back is going to hurt in the morning.

Halloween 2013: Abby's POV

It has been almost two weeks since I told Tony my secret. It feels much better knowing that someone else knows this secret besides Fornell, Mike Franks and myself. However, I still feel horrible and I want to tell Gibbs I really do. Unfortunately, I know how much Kelly means to Gibbs and if I told him; I know he won't believe me. It would be a huge slap in the face for me to tell him. I know that he wouldn't listen to me. The problem is October 31 is my (Abby's) birthday and I know everyone will have black roses for me and I just can't bring myself to celebrate. It's hard because I'm still Abby, but I'm also Kelly. I have two birthdays, two sets of parents, a family here at NCIS, but I have also lost so much. I lost being able to grow up with my father, him taking me shopping for my prom dress, him teaching me to drive, sending me to college. Gibbs missed out on all of those moments that every father looks forward to spending with their daughter. I have had so much respect for Mike Franks and Tobias Fornell, but I am also so angry with them. They lied to Gibbs for years (and to me, but it is better that I didn't know until the Naval Yard blew up and I got my memories back), I just can't wrap my head around the fact that my …f-f-father's mentor would allow Gibbs to mourn for a daughter that is alive. I'm so worried about Gibbs' reaction when this all comes out, it won't be nice, it won't be calm and polite, it will be anger, yelling, and violent. I haven't told anyone this: I fear that Gibbs will reject me, when this secret comes out, that he will feel so betrayed he won't want to be my father that he will hate everyone who knew this secret and didn't come straight to him. I fear that I will lose all 4 of my parents, instead of just 3. It was hard when Gloria and Mike died. It has been so long that I have come to terms and accepted the fact that they are no longer alive. However, I didn't remember Mom.. Shannon dying, so I'm still trying to come to terms with her violent death and mourn for a mother that I just now remember.

Tony's POV: NCIS Bullpen:

Abby…Kelly…Abby is Kelly Gibbs…Kelly Gibbs is Abby…Abby is Kelly and Kelly is Abby (now my head hurts). That is what has been going through my mind for the last two weeks, since she dropped a metaphorical bomb on me. The happiest goth you will ever meet is Gibbs' daughter. It blows my mind. However, I see the similarities between the two of them: their mutual love of caffeine, their care for others, dedication to their jobs, their rules, need I continue. Gibbs and I have worked together for so long and normally I would never keep a secret (especially one this big) from Gibbs, but the consequences that will come from this secret, the emotions, the everything. I can't be the one to tell Gibbs this. Abby shouldn't be the one to tell Gibbs this. If anyone is going to tell Gibbs this, it needs to be Fornell. I love Abby and she is like my little sister, I would do anything to protect her. I fear that at the end of this there will be two people hurting, the man that I secretly look up to as the father I never had but always wanted, and the sister that has a very special place in my heart. I know that Gibbs is worried about Abby, that he knows something is different about her, and that he wants to protect her. They have always had a sort of father-daughter bond. Isn't it ironic that they are actually father-daughter.

Today is Abby's birthday…Abby's not Kelly's… and I fear how Abby is handling this. She has been so numb and only really broke down once (at least that I know of, anyway), I worry that she may have a nervous breakdown. Just please don't let it be today of all days and not in front of Gibbs.

Gibbs POV:

Today is Abby's birthday. She is 35 today. I've been so worried about her, ever since the bombing she hasn't been acting right and now DiNozzo is acting weird. He and Abby have always had a relationship, similar to brother and sister. I noticed how DiNozzo seems to study me carefully, as if he is analyzing me, trying to compare me to someone. That goofy grin that normally stretches across his face is absent, he isn't pranking McGee or annoying Ziva (much), and everytime I tell him I'm going to see Abby, he loses a little color. He knows something, and obviously I'm involved somehow, but why won't he come tell me. I do know one thing, Abby is not in any danger, because DiNozzo would never screw over his partner/family and Abby is family. I am just going to sit and wait until either Abby or Tony comes to me and tells whatever is going on, I just hope that its nothing I can't handle.

Abby's POV: Her Lab

Today has done nothing but grate on my nerves, when I pulled arrived at NCIS this morning, people gave me birthday wishes, McGee and Ziva dropped by with black roses, as did Ducky, Palmer, and later Tony. Tony told me to relax. I just can't relax the day is almost over it's about 3 pm and Gibbs has not come to see me yet. He always comes and sees me on my birthday. He couldn't have found out my secret, he can't reject me, I need my father, I want my father, he's so mad at me because I kept this secret from him, he hates me, Tony, Mike Franks, Fornell. He hates us all.

'The edges of my vision start to go black, I know that I'm panicking, my breathing is rapid, and pulse is racing, but I just can't calm down. My vision is growing darker and I know soon I will meet the unforgiving floor of my forensic lab.'

Tony's POV:

Gibbs hasn't been down to see Abby yet, the case that we're working on we're so close to solving I can almost taste it. I just need to down to Abby's Lab and ask if she has the final test results that will allow us to make a final arrest and allow Gibbs to go see her. I know that he hasn't forgotten about her, he just really wants to close this case.

"Boss, I'm going to go see if Abby has the forensic results we need to finally close the case" I call as I walk out the Bullpen.

"DiNozzo", Gibbs starts looking up at me from the files on his desk, "tell Abby that I would like her to meet me here after she done giving you the evidence, then have legal get a warrant so tomorrow we can make an arrest."

"Yes, Boss." I answer back.

I wait for the elevator and travel down to the lab. I can hear Abby's music blasting as usual, before I even get near the door, but something is on the floor and I can just see it. Those black spiked platform boots, I would know those boots anywhere, but what are they doing in the middle of the lab and not on Abby's feet. I'm really worried now.

"Hey Abs, Gibbs wants to know if you have the…." I trail off in horror, my yell falling silent, just as I walk in the door and see Abby lying on the lab floor. She is not moving.

My hand fumbles for the controls that will turn off the music and after successfully shutting it off, I stumble quickly on legs that don't want to support my weight over to Abby. I check for her pulse, which she has, and her breathing, which she is. I just don't understand why she's on the ground, and then it hits me like a ton of bricks. She finally had a panic attack, the fact that Gibbs hasn't seen her yet on her birthday, the whole your Abby and Kelly thing, plus everything going on in her hectic life has caught up with her. Sending into a panic attack that knocked her out on to the cold laboratory floor.

Pulling my cell phone out of my pocket I quickly dial Ducky's number.

"Anthony, my dear boy, how can I help you?" he asks politely.

"Abby is unconscious on the floor of her lab, she is breathing and has a pulse, but she won't respond." I hurriedly explain.

"I will be right there, don't move her Anthony, it would be unwise and could injure her further."

"Understood, thanks Duck."

Oh crap! Gibbs doesn't know and now everyone is going to worry about her. This day just can't get any worse.

Bullpen: Gibbs POV

Tony has been down with Abby for more than an hour, I called legal to ask if he was there and was told he hadn't arrived yet. I don't believe in coincidences, something has happened. Abby could be hurt, Tony could be hurt, and they both could be hurt. I was just about to go look for them when Palmer walks in.

"Agent Gibbs" he says nervously.

"Yes" I reply tersly

"Dr. Mallard and Tony are with Abby because she… um… she… sir… she passed out in the lab and hit her head on the floor" he stammers out while looking anywhere but at me.

"She what?"

"She passed out, sir"

"I'm going to check on Abby" I hastily call over my shoulder as I speed walk out of the bullpen forget the elevators, stairs are faster.

With Ducky, Tony and Abby: Tony POV

Abby was on the floor for a good hour Dr. Mallard waiting patiently beside her for her to regain consciousness. I paced the floor nervously, forgetting to alert Gibbs or anyone else. I hear a soft moan and look to the floor, as Abby slowly starts moving and shifting, before shakily raising a hand to her head.

"Oww, what happened" she mumbles before it all floods back.

"Abigail you need to lay still, whilst I examine you. I would hate to miss something and then you have an injury or problem later on." Ducky softly explains.

He completes the examination in about 15 minutes and declares that other than a bump on the head, she should be just fine. Abby looks at me and around the lab, and then she starts crying; I got down on the floor and pulled into my arms softly whispering words of comfort into her ear as she sobs and mumbles somewhat coherently. We were not expecting the doors to the lab to open. An angry and worried Gibbs walking in; He spots Abby on the floor and drops to his knees in front of her. She goes stiff when his hand makes contact with her back. She panics, fighting me and forcing me to let her go as she scrambles back into the corner of her lab.

"Sorry, sorry, sorry, D-Gibbs, I'm sorry." She hiccups

"Abs, what do you have to be sorry for?" Gibbs questions looking extremely concerned.

"You hate me, You hate me, I-I-I made you hate me." She babbles

"Abby, I don't hate you, I could never hate you." He patiently explains but she's not listening

"I'm sorry Gibbs, I love you, please forgive me, don't hate me, don't leave me, please, please, please." She cries hysterically.

She shakes her head rapidly back and forth continuing to mumble to herself, but this time we can't make out the words. She snaps out of it, looks at us with a horrified expression on her face and flees the lab. Gibbs and Ducky just stand there stunned, watching the doors that Abby just fled through.

Gibbs POV:

'Abby is sorry? She thinks I hate her? What do I have to forgive her for?' This doesn't make any sense Abby out cold on the lab floor, then crying, scared of me, and then running away. She has never acted like this before, and people wonder why I am so worried about her. This isn't the normal Abby, this isn't my Abby. Is this all because I didn't come see her yet for her birthday, I was hoping to cook her dinner and take her bowling.

"DiNozzo, what is going on?" I demand

"Sorry Boss. I wish I could tell you really, I do. But I don't know anything and even if I did. This is not something that I am able to tell you. Abby is fine, she is just upset and missing her parents, the last few months have been rough on her on all of us really. She'll be back to her perky gothic self in no time." He explains quickly before leaving to go find Abby.

"Duck" I say turning to him

"Yes, Jethro" he answers

"DiNozzo forgot rule 7" I explain

"Rule 7?" he askes

"Always be specific when you life" I reply.