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Bella POV
The next morning, I quickly showered, dressed and packed. I wanted to get the Hell out of the little hotel room and out of Arizona. I messed up the devil's trap on the floor so that it didn't resemble something that would make the management call the police and nodded my satisfaction at it's normalcy. It would pass in any case.
I hefted my bag with me to check-out of my room and then hit the Continental Breakfast for some fuel. For such a small hotel, they had quite a spread and I enjoyed myself immensely. I knew that such a luxury would be scarce as I got back in to hunting, so I would enjoy the little things. I enjoyed a cup of coffee as I booted my laptop up, scanning the headlines along the way to Bobby's house to see if there was anything major needing attention. The world was full of the "big bad" and I was going to stop as many as I could before one "ganked" (Dean's word, not mine) me one day..
I raised an eyebrow as Sammy came strolling in as I sat down with my fresh waffle and a new cup of coffee. He gave me a small smile and held a finger up with a gesture towards the free food. I snorted out a laugh and nodded back, spreading a hand out as if to say "be my guest." I was acutely aware of his movements even as I kept my eye on the news ticker I had tacked to my desktop, enjoying a game of Spider Solitaire casually as I munched away on my food.
"Mornin' Bells." Sam greeted. I looked up and couldn't help but return his bright smile.
"Mornin' Sam. Where's your brother?"
He rolled his eyes, "Are you serious? Dean? Up in time for breakfast? That part hasn't changed, Bells."
I nodded, "Yeah, well I'm already checked out. I'm not above leaving him here for some shut eye after breakfast and you two catching up."
Sam frowned, "Don't be like that."
I clenched my fist hard enough to break my plastic fork and scowled at it before turning my heated gaze to my 'twin' as he dug into his own waffle. "Be like what? You act like we're supposed to be this amazing team who is finally reunited to take down Big Bad and save the world. Cas said it was all about you and Dean. The Winchester Brothers. Nothing about little Bella Swan, okay?"
"Look.. I know you're really upset still-"
"Upset? Upset doesn't cover any of this. I can almost get over the fact that no one came to rescue me from my psychotic mother, but Dean went to Hell.. Was no one going to tell me ever? Like at all? You guys can't expect me to just get over years of abandonment and then gloss over that fact. Add to that you've got a fuckin angel on the books, a mission to save the entire world, and your brother is locked up tighter than Fort Knox. I can be whatever I want to be. See you at Bobby's."
I slammed my laptop closed and shoved it in my side bag, moving swiftly out of the lobby. I took my phone out of my pocket and began scrolling through my music as I made my way to my car.
I should have known better...
*OOMPF* Hot coffee all over my shirt..
"Jesus Christ! What the fuck?"
I heard the all-to-familiar husky laugh, "Where were you going in such a hurry, Hells Bells?"
I glared up at Dean, "You're supposed to be asleep."
He raised an eyebrow, "I am? I could have sworn we were supposed to be heading to Bobby's."
"You're a late sleeper.." I mentally slapped myself for that weak statement.
"There's a thing called an alarm. Besides, this way I get to eat a bit before hitting the road. What's got you so pissy?"
I glanced down at my soaked shirt, now-empty coffee cup on the ground and back up to Dean, "Ask your brother. And you owe me a fuckin coffee at some point."
I pushed past him to my car and sighed happily as I slid into the seat. Alpha was the only thing that had never let me down. I plugged my phone into the AC Adapter and activated my Pandora app since I was about to be driving. That's the great thing about the new burner phones these days, you could still have all the great things about a plan cell and there's no trail leading back to you.
I turned my key distractedly as I reached into my bag for a new shirt. Alpha had been my home-base several times so I was more than comfortable inside. Perhaps a little too comfortable.. I pulled my soaked shirt over my head and was about to pull my new one over when I heard a strangled, choking sound from beside me. I smirked and slipped my shirt on before shifting to look.
Dean stood there with a bag in his mouth, a coffee in each hand and eyes wider than Texas.
"Cat got your tongue there, Dean?"
He held out the fresh coffee and I took it with a nod. He shifted the bag to his hand and cleared his throat, "You just flash everyone some skin when you feel like it?"
I rolled my eyes, "You act like I was nude." I smirked and gave him a sweet voice, "Haven't you seen a bra before, Dean? Perhaps one with the boob-meat inside it?"
He growled, "Of course I have! But damn, Bella! You never know who's watching.. Pervs everywhere."
I raised an eyebrow, "Like you? Or are you just jealous?"
I was baiting him and he knew it. He opened his mouth to reply but Sam walked inbetween us, "Ready to go?"
I smiled sweetly and closed my door before sliding my sunglasses onto my face, "I'll see you boys there."
Dean POV
I frowned when Bella simply took off. I'm sure she knew where Bobby's was, but that wasn't the point. She was pushing us away.. And us included me.. And I didn't like that idea.
"What did you do to her?" Sam asked, sliding into the passenger's seat and giving me a pointed look.
"Me? Why does it have to be me? She told me when she ran into me, literally, that I was supposed to ask YOU why she was so pissy."
He laughed, "I made her pissy because I talked to her about you, man. So whatever you did to her, you should tell her you're sorry."
I shot him a glare and cranked the radio up before speeding out of the hotel parking lot. The faster we got out of this cop-having town, the faster I could gun Baby and hopefully catch up to Bella.
Sam occupied himself by reading a book along the way so I was left to my thoughts. Normally, I would enjoy having a drive without a lot of chit-chat, but today I really would have been happy for the distraction. If I was really the reason for Bells being so torn up, that would suck. I know I'm not the most eloquent and respectful person, but I do care about people.. Very few people, but people.
I wanted to make Bella happy. I know she was sore at us for leaving her with her mom, but we were just kids when she was taken. As far as we all knew, Bella was living a great life with her mom. She was getting to be a normal kid with a stable life. We missed her, and we were sure she missed us, but I also thought that after awhile Bella would forget all about the adventures we used to have in the backseat.. She had grown into a beautiful woman and my ego appreciated the fact that she still had an interest in me.. But was it the me now? No. Of course not. I had to face facts- Bella and I knew nothing about each other any longer.
Sometimes I wish that Cas had just left me in Hell.. I didn't deserve-
"You don't think you deserve to be saved?"
I jumped, swerving and causing Sam to bump his head against his window. He glared at me and I glared at Cas, "Cas! What the hell, man?!"
He simply blinked in that clueless puppy sort of way before repeating, "You don't think you deserve to be saved?"
"Stay out of my head, Cas!" I growled, "You may have pulled me from the hot box but that does not give you free permissions to go digging around in my brain."
"Dean. I do not think you understand how this is all meant to work."
"This?"
"Your life. God's plan has always been for man and woman to come together in a union. You seem to see Bella as a suitable mating partner and the same with her. Why do you not choose her?"
I could have banged my head against the steering wheel, and would have if I wasn't driving.
"Castiel.. Hunters do not get to have that life. I saw what happened to my mother when my dad tried to have that.. When he tried to give Sammy and me a real life. You think I want to risk that?"
"Everyone dies, Dean."
"Everyone doesn't die the way a hunter dies.."
I met Cas' eyes in the mirror before he repeated, "Everyone dies, Dean."
Then the backseat was empty again.
Dean glanced over at his brother and Sam just shrugged and turned back to his book. On one hand, he was smart to say nothing but half of Dean wanted to open up..
Dean nodded to himself, "No chick flick moments."
He turned the radio up to a volume that would occupy his thoughts but not disturb Sam's reading and drove on.
