A/N: This will probably be the last update for the next week or two., but I'm going to try to get the next chapter of Fall Into Me out before I go. I'm going on vacation and all the stuff that entails. Happy reading.

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Chapter 8

February 1, 2011

I had told Kurt the beginnings of my plan to begin to take down Immortal. He had listened intently and actually been more supportive than I expected. He knew the feelings that I had toward Immortal. He did say that he was a little worried about my safety because of this, but I think he wanted to be there to protect me. If I didn't have to do this behind his back then he could actually do his best to protect me from they physical backlash that was bound to come from this. Then he gave me the oddest piece of advice in his life. He told me to talk to AJ. Before Kayleigh he had done everything in his power to make me stay away from AJ, and now he only encouraged me to talk to him about Kayleigh.

And even more odd I took his advice. I called the man that I could barely speak to about our daughter and told him that we might have a common goal. It was all kind of surreal actually. We couldn't talk about Kayleigh without fighting, but we talked about this for a long time. It was our longest conversation since Kayleigh was born 13 months ago. Hopefully this was the beginning of us working together toward a common goal.

I knew that I needed to tell Matt that I was working with AJ an that I wanted to take Immortal down. I knew that AJ would rub it in his face the first chance that he got. AJ was helping me do something that Matt couldn't. AJ would look for any chance he got to win me back in his mind although I could honestly say that now I didn't' want him. Not only was AJ going to rub it in, I wasn't going to keep any secrets in this relationship. In all my other relationships there had been secrets and I wasn't going to partake in that this time. I wasn't going to intentionally destroy my relationship that way.

February 3, 2011

I couldn't believe what Karen and Jeff were trying to pull. As I watched more and more of her segments I couldn't believe what I was seeing. They made it seem like Kurt and I had no contact with Kyra and Kody and that was completely ridiculous. Kurt saw them at least 2-3 times a month and was in contact with them pretty much every day. (Given the fact that they lived so far away I think that's pretty amazing. Some parents can't manage to do that with their kids in the same city.) Kurt was an awesome father. He puts his kids first in everything that he does no question asked. I talked to them close to every day, and while I wasn't down there as much as Kurt I was down there once every 4-6 weeks typically. I generally didn't go when my dad went seeing as I had so much time with him and didn't want to detract from their time. And it made it easier for mine and Karen's relationship at first even though it had been strained for a little while before this.

I was also kind of concerned with the way things seemed on tape. I didn't really like the way that Karen was interacting with them, and I definitely didn't see the man that I had once respected, and cared about like another father, in Jeff. He felt so different than he had been before Hogan and Bischoff convinced him that Dixie stole his company. It felt very odd at how things had changed so much in the last year.

Honestly I felt bad for the kids. I know that Jeff's girls weren't really my sisters, but they had nothing. Kyra and Kody know that I love them more than anything and that Kurt loves them more than anything. I emailed and chatted through im's and Facebook chatted with the elder two regularly, and they didn't seem to like this much. They didn't like that so much dirty laundry was being aired publicly. I had to agree with them. For once I wished that the adults in that house would behave like adults rather than scorned teenagers. It was getting to be old pretty quick. I felt myself get agitated even more quickly. I really needed to work on keeping control of my emotions.

"Babe, chill. You're getting yourself all worked up. You'll have your say later," Matt reassured. I knew that he was doing his best to be okay with this. Amazingly I thought that if I wasn't so torn up by the emotional crap that was going on he'd be okay with AJ and I working together. It was good to know if AJ and I could ever get on the same page with parenting. Matt didn't seem to be threatened by AJ at all.

"How's Kiki?" I asked. I knew Matt had been looking out for the fast moving toddler much of the evening (she took to walking about a month ago like a fish to water) while I was in meetings and what not. This was going to be an amazing feat of organization not only for the take down, but to keep myself connected with Matt and the rest of our makeshift-ish family. If I could make the through the next few moths life would be good.

Thankfully as of right now most of my work was going to be organization, being a backstage liaison between They and the rest of the locker room that may be against the Immortal regime, and that type of thing. I was really happy that it was all behind the scenes stuff right now for the most part. I may have a few incidents were I catch the camera, but otherwise no one knows about me and what I'm really up to. Right now for a while it will just be that AJ really wants to spend more time with Kayleigh to explain my presence backstage. That is unless Immortal sees through the attempt at subterfuge and brings me into this. It wouldn't surprise me if they did. I don't really like that many of them. Any of them I was friends with before have pretty much lost all my respect by selling out. They have changed so much that I don't even want to know them anymore.

"AJ picked her up a bit ago. He was actually really civil with me and everything. It was kind of really what you had always envisioned," Matt said. I probed his eyes to see if he was just trying to ease it for me or if what he said was mostly accurate. His eyes always told me the things that I needed to know. I came to the conclusion that for right now we were trying to work it out for Kayleigh.

Honestly I really wished for the type of relationship that Matt and Kourtney have for AJ and I. It would be so much easier on Kayleigh in the long run if she saw AJ and I and whoever we were with as one single unit rather than pieces. I wanted what was best for my daughter.

"That's good. Maybe he's realizing what he was missing. I just want everything to stabilize and be good for her," I said. Matt knew that I had been agonizing over what to do with the situation. I had considered getting a lawyer and going for full custody, but that didn't really seem like a very good idea. I wanted Kayleigh and AJ to have a relationship, and honestly I didn't have a good reason to keep Kayleigh from AJ. There wasn't anything he had done that made me question Kayleigh's health and safety when they were together. "Did he say when he was bringing her back?"

"He said that he was keeping her for the night. He seemed more serious about it than I had ever seen. I think hew as worried that something might happen tonight and that you would be needed elsewhere," Matt said. I couldn't believe how awesome Matt was about this. He was absolutely behind me with this. I felt like he balanced out my feelings of anxiety and what not about everything with his take things as they come attitude. He always had a plan for the worst, but always, always expected the best.

By the end of the show I was smirking. They had revealed themselves, and I was backstage trying to recruit more allies. The more allies we had the more successful we would be taking control back from Immortal. It was fun knowing all the secrets before everyone else.