With the exams coming up, my schedule is consisted of studying, studying, and more studying. Yuki needed me to tutor her so our Class would not have the lowest class average after exams are over. I also know that Yuki doesn't want to work at the ball so with her pleading and use of the puppy eyes, I am tutoring her. Fortunately, Headmaster relieved Yuki and I of our duties as the only members Disciplinary Committee for this week. It also helps to know that the Night Class' lessons are cancelled.
That means I won't see Kaname as well. I may have seen him on Monday but it was for nearly forty-five minutes. We didn't do anything other than talk. It was actually nice and we had quite a bit in common despite being fated enemies. Our talk was much more fascinating than I would like to admit. Which is why those forty-five minutes weren't enough. I longed for more time with him and when I realized this, I had to make myself leave. I shouldn't want to become closer to him. I really shouldn't. He is someone Yuki cherishes a lot. She loves him. And I am her friend. What I am doing is betrayal. I still feel horrible about sleeping with him despite how good it felt. I want to think of the times he's touched me as accidental but Kaname was serious. Just as he's serious about how he feels about me. His blood tasted that way. I start to wonder if Kaname and I can really make this unusual relationship work.
For now, I can't worry about that. I need to focus on passing my exams tomorrow and Friday. Not that I am worried about passing them in the least or anything. I can't afford to let myself slack off. But all of this tutoring Yuki and studying as much as I can is giving me a headache. I need to find some time to unwind completely.
When lunchtime rolls around, I realize this is when I can relax. I know just the place and I start to head there, with my bento lunch in my hand, when I hear Yuki calling out to me. I turn to face her and notice she is with Wakaba.
"Zero, I was wondering if you would like to join us for lunch?" she asks while I briefly glance at Wakaba for a moment. She seems uneasy with Yuki asking me this.
"No, but thanks for the offer. I feel like being by myself for today," I answer. "Just to clear my head." Also, Wakaba seems to be uneasy around me as of late. I can't deal with those emotions with my own being so close to being unraveling. So I need this time alone to get myself together.
"I understand. This week has been stressful for you so far but I thought I should ask since you've only been around me." Yuki shrugs. "Well, see you later, Zero."
I watch Yuki wave at me as she leaves with Wakaba. Once she disappears from my sight, I head towards the area between the Sun and Moon dorms. I am surprised to find it is nice outside when I exit the school building. The weather is a clear, sunny day with no clouds in the sky. I figure it will be very cold tonight. For now, I can take advantage of the brief springtime-like warmth. It really feels nice out here. I revel in the feeling as I try to find a spot under one of the trees I wish to sit under.
I sit under one of the thickest trees in the area and from here, I can sort of see the Sun and Moon dorms in either direction. The area itself is filled with trees and it serves as a natural wall, adjacent to the stone one, between the two dorms. It's out of the way, quiet, and hardly any students pass through this area around this time. It's the perfect area for me to sit and eat my lunch. I will be able to relax a little. At that thought, I open my bento and start eating. I slowly eat since I have plenty of time and I'm not that hungry. My bento lunch is a simple one consisting of a few onigiri. These aren't particularly filling but it's good for lunch. Besides, I want something else more than food…
em'I shouldn't think about his blood... Becoming dependent on that isn't a good thing.'/em I take out the blood tablets and plop several into the bottle of water, watching the water onigiri, I drink some of the water. It's sweet. Before Kaname gave me these, regular blood tablets tasted like fermented paste. And they always made me sick. With these special blood tablets, I have no side effects and they actually curb my cravings for blood. Though, I still want Kaname's blood. At least I'm not inclined to drink from him first and ask questions later as opposed to before.
Well, I can do without it for this week. I am doing pretty well with not desiring blood so often. Not even Yuki's blood. It's refreshing to not be ruled by the one instinct consistent of a vampire. I almost forget what I am for a while. And I feel almost human. It is a surreal feeling.
I finish off one onigiri then pick up another one to eat when a gentle breeze ruffles my hair. At the same time, I smell a vampire nearby. My body doesn't tense or even shift into offense mode. I know the identity of this particular vampire. He is risking a lot by being here during the day. I open my mouth to speak to him as soon as he approaches my location.
"You shouldn't be out during the day, Kaname." I warn him, feeling a brief sense of elation in my chest. Why is he risking some serious burns by coming out here?
"I have a pressing matter to discuss with Headmaster. Then I sensed you were out here," he explains.
I sigh at this excuse. "And you risk harming yourself for the sake of a problem?"
"I'm fine. It's not like I will turn to dust in the sun when I step out into it," Kaname confesses as he sits down on the other side of the tree. In the corner of my vision, I see a black parasol. At least he is being careful.
"It would have been better for you to go see Headmaster at twilight." I casually point out as I set my food down then cover it. "If you went now, the Day Class students would be all over you."
"You do have a point." I couldn't help but chuckle then shift along the ground until I am on the same side as him.
"So why come out during the day?" I ask when he looks into my eyes. The blood red color of his irises oddly shows quite vibrant during the day. I never thought I would see that.
"I think you should know the true reason, yes?"
Of course he would answer my question with a question... It appears he is trying to dodge my questions but I know that isn't the case. I know why he is out here. That feeling of elation...no, euphoria flows into my chest. He is outside in the middle of the day because he wanted to see me... While I am surprised, I am kind of glad. We haven't seen each other in a couple of days. It shouldn't be much of a difference but I'm stressed out. And Kaname being here and talking to me is surely making that stress go away. I'm wondering if this is another of his vampire powers as our faces grow closer to one another.
But I realize Kaname has been just as tweaked as I am. Seeing him stressed out is almost hilarious. The guy seems so normally controlled.
"Some sort of stress reliever would be nice right about now. That's why you're here, I assume."
"Possibly."
"Then what do you propose we should do to remedy the situation, Kaname?"
When I repeat Kaname's words to me that Saturday, I expected for him to grow more frustrated or even slightly offended. But it didn't happen. He touches my cheek, his hand travels down to the nape of my neck so lightly. I shiver at this gentle touch as he proceeds to lean in closer and our lips meet. My mind is telling me I could stop. And I should. Not only because we are outside but because we shouldn't do this again. He's not mine. Yuki is in love with him. What Kaname and I are doing is wrong. I keep thinking this as Kaname parts from my lips and goes for my neck. I realize I had moved closer to him when I feel his body heat seeping through my uniform. His fangs nip at the sensitive skin, resulting in me releasing a shuddering sigh. My mind is telling me to stop but my body and heart is rejoicing at each sensation from Kaname. Whatever thoughts I have in my head along with the guilt, goes away. Kaname's fangs pulling at my skin cause a delightful sweetness to run down my spine. I pray for him to sink those fangs deep into my neck. He needs to stop teasing and just get on with it.
"Stop being an asshole and just do it," I command, growing frustrated at him.
"Someone's impatient," Kaname comments. "Would you like it if I just took you without reserve?"
"I'll allow it this time." I answer, making my impatience known. "Besides, you're one to talk."
Kaname just laughs softly before licking my neck and pulling away. I look at him questionably albeit with frustration. He knows how to rile me up to where I will end up losing myself before bringing me back to reality. Asshole. Sometimes I hate him yet, I don't hate him.
"We shouldn't do this out here. Assuming we have enough time, we should go somewhere more private." He suggests as he fixes his clothes then grabs his parasol.
I rise to my feet as well when I know where we should go. "We can go to Headmaster's private quarters. From then on, we can do what we want."
"Of course."
Provided we don't destroy anything, of course. He wouldn't like it if he found part of his house destroyed because of a moment of passion for two vampires. It might happen but Kaname and I should be able to control ourselves. Plus, we need this. Sex is a great way to increase one's good mood and reduce stress. This time, I am allowing Kaname to do what he wants. It will be fine this time.
I gather my stuff and my bag before walking to Headmaster's place, knowing he won't be home. Kaname follows me but is smart enough to keep his distance from me. He is travelling under the guise of the trees for part of the way. Good thing because the Day Class students would go crazy if they saw him. And it would be even worse if they see him with me. So it's best to arrive at our destination a couple minutes apart.
When I arrive, I remove my shoes then leave the door unlocked before heading to my room. I set my bag on the floor close to my bed and shrug out of my jacket. Unlike my bag, I put my jacket and necktie, after I removed it, in a chair by my desk. I will have to go back to class after this. I sit on my bed when I hear the front door open. He's here. I can hear his footsteps zeroing in on my room bit by bit. I am waiting, eager for his touch.
Kaname enters without knocking since we're the only ones here. His hands reach for me just as mine reaches for him, our clothing is removed carefully. At least he knows not to tear what part of my uniform I have on to shreds this time. I show his clothes then same kindness as I remove them hastily. Our clothing ends up in a pile on the floor while we lay down on the bed, fully naked. He gets between my legs just as I lay down on my back. I said I will allow him to do what he wants this time. And I don't intend to go back on my word.
Finally, Kaname resumes his touching he teased me with earlier. This time, they intensify, along with his fangs nipping at me. I want him to feel what I am feeling when I reach between his legs and touch his hardening dick. He shudders and moans slightly at the feeling. Making him feel the way he makes me feel is so satisfying. His fingers reach between my legs and he slides two of them inside with little effort, my hand stops its movements for a second then resumes stroking him. I want Kaname to lose control of himself. To not hold anything back in this moment.
After a few minutes, Kaname removes his fingers in a hurry, lifts my hips, then he enters me without any reserve. There's pain but I don't mind. I said this is okay. I need this. We need this. The pain soon turns to pleasure when his fangs sink into my neck. At the same time, his hips begin thrusting into mine and my hips meet his in tandem. My voice can be heard yet I feel no shame about it. Each thrust wipes my mind clean and sends an indelible sweetness all over my body then down my spine. The sensation of being bitten while being fucked hard is indescribable.
My body feels like a livewire.
—
"So what is the answer to question number 4, Yuki?" I ask after going over the notes for our Japanese history class with her. We are studying at Headmaster's home because it's quieter and if we happen to talk about vampires, no one outside of the secret will hear us blatantly talk about it.
"It's Heian-kyo, right?" she answers, unsure if the answer is correct.
"Yes, but elaborate on that answer. This exam isn't multiple choice like the other ones."
"Hmmm…" Yuki's eyebrows knit together in attempt to think of her answer more clearly.
I lean on my hand as I glance at my notes for a moment. Yuki should get this answer correct since we went over this several times this week. At least she is starting to understand the subject after breaking it down to her. With my help, she may actually pass this exam and her GPA won't go down. Now, she just needs to get at least half the questions right on this quiz I am giving her... And she is currently on question 24.
"Heian-kyo was the capital of Japan during the Heian period. And it's where the modern day city of Kyoto resides." She answers more thoroughly, surprising me.
"That's right. You're getting the hang of this," I assure her.
"Good, because the Class Rep being onto me so often is so stressful. He should at least understand I have Disciplinary Committee duties along with school almost all the time." She sighs, seemingly solemn.
"He thinks because you're the top student of our class and have the same duties as me, you should have top marks, too..." I note before adding, "However, I am a vampire hunter also. How I manage to keep my grades up is perseverance and make up classes."
"Oh yeah, you were out sick at some point. And falling asleep during classes."
"Yeah but about you not being up to Class Rep's standards… People are different. Not everyone has to get perfect grades. That means you. Just get a passing one and you'll be fine."
I glance at Yuki who is staring at me with a stunned look on her face. It causes me to frown, thinking she might have seen a ghost. First there was Kaname's weirdness and now Yuki. I realize it had to have been something I said.
"What?"
"Hearing words of encouragement from you of all people is surprising, is all." I can't help but raise an eyebrow at this notion of hers.
"And you think I'm not capable of that?" She giggles at my question.
"Well, considering your track record of being a stick in the mud sourpuss—"
"Alright, alright. Let's get back to studying, Yuki." I remind her before she gets ahead of herself with teasing me.
She chuckles then pulls her notebook closer to herself. "Okay. I am determined to get a good grade on this Japanese history test. And my other exams."
With that, we resume studying and quizzing each other for this test. To my surprise, Yuki actually got more than half of the questions correct during my quizzing her. It gave me a sense of accomplishment knowing I have helped Yuki understand a subject during our crash course of it. She really is learning and it is a good thing. This week has been stressful but thankfully that hard work is starting to pay off. Taking the time to relax during lunch and with Kaname's unexpected encounter with me has done the trick. Not to mention that we had sex. Thinking about that makes my face heat up slightly. It isn't so embarrassing as opposed to the fact I allowed my sense of self be swept away by another moment of passion. Glad his fang marks have healed.
Even though my actions during that moment was out of place, I feel relaxed and very good. Almost as if I am floating.
I turn my attention to my notes in attempt to rid my mind of the vivid, recurring memories of Kaname and me. Something relating to tomorrow's exam flashes in my head. I open my mouth to remind Yuki of this important detail.
"Gentle reminder, this particular test is worth 40% of our final grade." I say, not worried about it.
"Oh, right... I wonder if I will do fine," she murmurs. "I wish to avoid working at the ball. It is the first time I get to attend one. And Kaname will be there."
She blushes then sighs. I feel a strange feeling in the pit of my stomach when she says his name in a tender way. I ignore it as I listen to her talk.
"I haven't gotten around to asking him to the ball because lessons are cancelled for the Night Class. And going to their dorm scare me."
"Let me guess. You want me to go with you to the Moon dormitories."
"Please, Zero? We're practically done with studying and I want to be the first to ask him." She pleads, claps her hands together in front of herself as if she's about to pray to some god.
"I'll go with you." I offer, thinking it would be a better idea if I accompany her. "Kuran would like it if I came along as your bodyguard."
"You… actually don't mind?"
I shrug, feigning indifference. Honestly, I am not okay with Yuki asking Kaname to the annual ball. But on the other hand, things are better this way. Despite being with Kaname physically, our relationship is nowhere near as special as his and Yuki's relationship. Kaname's heart is with Yuki. In reality, it belongs to her. The realization of that leaves a heavy sensation weighing down inside my chest. Worse than that feeling I had in my stomach. What the hell is wrong with me?
"Are you sure you don't mind, Zero? I mean, I could go by myself..." Yuki is hesitating when she says this.
"It's fine. The second time you went there, I came to get you when I heard Kuran tell you to have me come with you." I answer. "Trust me. He would be relieved to know I am accompanying you to that place."
After reassuring her, Yuki sighs heavily with relief and smiles at me. "Thanks, Zero! I owe you one."
"Don't worry about it."
I gather my stuff and place it into my bag before strapping it on my shoulder. Yuki follows suit and straps her bag on her shoulder, too. We leave Headmaster's private quarters then make our way to the Moon dormitory. The other vampires should still be sleeping in. So intruding on their sleep might be an issue. At least I know Kaname might be awake. He is probably buried in paperwork right now.
The night air is chiller than usual with Winter approaching. My breath is visible due to the dropping temperature. I figure it's going to snow soon. I don't mind it but the frigid cold is sometimes bothersome. It has forced me to actually wear my uniform properly quite a few times this month. At least after exams are over, I won't have to wear this damned uniform for two weeks.
"I'm glad lessons for the Night Class are cancelled because Kaname gets to rest then," Yuki says with elation in her voice.
"I wouldn't know about that. He's pretty busy with some obligations and paperwork right now." I inform her before I could catch myself.
"Is he really? How do you know?"
"I bumped into Kuran while I was having lunch. He was on his way to see Headmaster about something when we got to talking." Well, part of that is true.
"What did he want to talk to Headmaster about?"
"It wasn't my business to ask nor my problem. Besides, I urged him to go back to the Moon dorm so he wouldn't be hassled by the Day Class. It was around noon after all." Well, he went back after we... I try not to think about that while talking to Yuki. It would give away what I really did with him.
"He risked going out in the sun?!" Her eyes widens in mortification then she stops walking. "We have to check on him now!"
"Shh! We're supposed to be in our dorms by now. We're not the only ones of authority here." I whisper as I look around. No one is outside. Not even the dorm presidents. Well, at least near the library we passed moments ago. I let out a sigh then began talking to Yuki in a hushed whisper.
"I said I will go with you to where Kuran is. And I intend to. We just have to be quiet and make it quick, okay?"
"Okay."
We resume our walk towards the Moon dorm. Our conversation about Kaname has long since ended and it's been quiet between us. I think Yuki senses the conversation was becoming tired so she kept quiet about Kaname. We had been talking about her asking him to the ball or something related to that since before we left Headmaster's place. That weird feeling in my chest gradually faded away. And I feel like I can breathe.
It's eerily quiet as we are meters within the Moon Dormitories. Maybe the vampires emare/em asleep but with this kind of quiet going on, that isn't the case. We're being watched. At least emI'm/em the one being watched. I know the reason. Goddamn, I can never catch a break. I really don't want to have to deal with a group of angry and jealous vampires tonight because of exams. Hopefully, I won't have to.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Yuki asks after noticing my growing anger.
"It's nothing. Let's go inside." I answer briskly before opening the door.
Yuki goes inside first and I enter soon after her, closing the door behind me. We go to the second level and I go to Kaname's room with Yuki close beside me. She timidly knocks on the door and almost immediately, Kaname beckons us to come in. I allow Yuki to go in first before I go in after her, closing the door behind us.
I look to where Kaname is and he is sitting at the table a few feet from one of the windows. There is ample amount of paperwork on it and he really seems tired. However, he seems to be fine with what he has to do. Just like I had been earlier. He is more relaxed now. We're the same... I try not to show my embarrassment when it gets to where I can barely control it.
His eyes meet with mine as if to guess what I'm thinking and I notice how his kids lowered slightly. He is reveling in my embarrassed demeanor. His feelings for me may be something tender for me but he is still an ass. He chuckles when he sees me glaring his way before his eyes shift to Yuki.
"Hello, Yuki. Zero. What brings you two here at this hour? Surely you should be asleep by now," he inquires, getting to his feet. I briefly see him grab a folded piece of paper on the edge of the table and place it in the left pocket of his pajama pants. He approaches us as Yuki fidgets with the hem of her skirt.
"Yuki wishes to ask you something," I answer casually then gave Yuki's back a gentle nudge.
"I— Well, if you didn't plan on going with anyone else…" She utters in a quiet voice while glancing at her feet. "Kaname sama, I was wondering if…"
"Yuki, do you intend to ask me to the annual ball?" he asked, already figuring out her intentions. That strange weight presses on my chest like it's crushing my heart as it did before.
Yuki nods quickly to Kaname's question. "I-I do... I wanted to ask if you would go with me? If you have someone else you are going with, then that's okay."
"I don't," he answers. I could have sworn he just glanced in my direction just now. "I will go with you to the ball, Yuki."
How strange. I don't have any intention of going to the ball nor ask to go with anyone. Yet I feel so disappointed Kaname has accepted to be Yuki's date to the event. I really wonder if something is wrong with me because I am having such an onslaught of emotions I haven't felt so intensely before.
"Ah... Thank you, Kaname sama!" She let out a sigh as she tucks some of her hair behind her ear. "Also, we're sorry for intruding."
"Not at all. I figured you and Kiryu would come here tonight. It's nice to see that my assumption was correct." He chuckles.
"Well, we better get back to our dorms. Exams are tomorrow and Friday," I chime in then start to turn for the door. I wish to get out of here as soon as possible.
"Kiryu."
I turn around and Kaname holds out his left hand towards me. In that hand is that note I noticed him pocketing a minute ago. Not wanting Yuki to see the note, I grasp his hand with my own left hand and he pretends to shake it.
"Thank you for accompanying Yuki to this place. I hope we can find some time to talk again. It was pleasant." Kaname says then releases my hand. I clutch my fist, hiding the note he slipped into my hand then slid it into my pocket.
"No problem. I offered to come here with her. And if you do want to talk, you know where to find me." I assure him. A small giggle comes from beside me. Yuki must like the fact we're talking civilly.
With that, we leave Kaname's room with a short goodbye. Yuki is in a hurry to leave the dorm when she practically darts out of the dormitory entrance. I follow close by so nothing will happen her. There are still the same amount of pairs of eyes trained to follow me. It is well past the point of annoying. My mood is already awful and these vampires are really pushing it. For the time being, I try to get Yuki back to the Girls' dorm safely. Part of me thinks the excitement of Kaname accepting her invitation to the ball is clouding her other senses. She would have sensed the vampires who are watching us by now.
When we arrive at the Girl's Sun dorm, Yuki and I say our goodbyes then I watch her go inside. I begin making my way to the Boys' Dorm, knowing I am going to be ambushed by these vampires at any moment. The note Kaname discreetly gave me is still in my pocket. Obviously, I know I shouldn't read it until I am alone which isn't the case right now. The air around me bears a hint of malice and I reach into my jacket and pull out my Bloody Rose. I point it directly at Ruka Souen who is most likely leading this angry group of vampires. Close behind her is Kain, Hanabasa, and several others.
"What do you want, Night Class?" I spat at them.
"We want to know why Kaname sama's blood has been shed twice," Ruka demands. "Since you tend to dislike him, we figure you are the culprit."
"So instead of asking Kuran yourselves, you all decide to come after me with every intention to kill or seriously injure me," I guess then scoff at their excuse, resisting the urge to turn the safety off. "That's real noble. If I happen to survive your impending onslaught, I would like to see how you'll be able to explain your actions to Kuran. I'm sure he would emlove/em to know you also killed a human out of anger."
Ruka's eyes narrow as she begins to advance toward me. "You insignificant—"
She stops cold as soon as I click the safety of my gun to off. "Kuran is fine. You should be able to sense that. I have no intention of harming him at the moment. Nor you and the rest of the Night Class if you don't piss me off. Or try to kill me. Whatever comes first."
"Ruka, we should get back before Kaname sama suspects what we were up to." Kain suggests, pulling on her arm slightly. "You put that away, too, Kiryu…"
I look at Kain like he had spoken another language before I, against my better judgement, turn the safety of my gun back on then put it away. I am being too nice to these creatures despite what they've planned to do. I let out a small sigh.
"Go back to your dorm before I change my mind."
"Kaname sama doesn't need to know of this moment." He says as he tries to coax Ruka and the others to go with him.
Eventually, the Night Class leave while grumbling to themselves. I'm sure they would have enjoyed ripping me a new asshole if they had gotten the opportunity to. Well, they had it but I would have put a bullet in them before they could try. Not that I care but it's good I didn't have to fight them. It would probably put a negative dent in my progress of getting close to Kaname.
I resume walking to the Boys' Sun dormitory after watching the vampires disappear from my sight. The aura they brought with them has dissipated as well. Now with that out of the way, I can just think about the exams and passing them. I try not to let myself think about the moment when Kaname had accepted Yuki's invitation to go to the ball with her. It's best if I just...clear my mind of that.
My mind is more preoccupied now that I don't have to deal with the Night Class. Whatever is going around me has gone unnoticed. Before I knew it, I am at the Boys' dorm. I enter and quickly go up to the second floor then I go into my room. It's empty which leads me to believe my roommate must be studying all he can before the test. If he was here, I would have left and gone back to Headmaster's private quarters. Not that I dislike my roommate but because after tonight's events, I rather not deal with anyone for a bit.
I set my bag by the foot of my bed then change out of my uniform and into a dark grey T-shirt and white pants. The note I received from Kaname is still on my uniform's pants pocket. I almost forgot it was in there. I hurry and fish it out of the pocket then go to sit on my bed. I stare at the note for a long moment then unfold it.
I find myself reading it in my head and imagining Kaname's voice reading the words aloud.
emZero, I figure you must be confused with my actions and choices I have displayed this evening. Please read why I have done what I have done then you can burn the note. Or do whatever you wish with the note./em
emI knew Yuki would desire to go to the annual ball with me. Though, I admit I had not completely anticipated she would ask me tonight. I accepted her invitation because I know how you feel. You also know how I feel. So to keep up appearances, I will have to attend the ball with Yuki. However, should the opportunity arrive, you will be the center of attention./em
emI do apologize for the emotions you're experiencing on my behalf. My feelings for you have not changed./em
Once I finish reading the note, I stare at it, unsure how to feel. My emotions are all over the damn place. Kaname… Our relationship is definitely not normal. That is if anyone who is fairly observant sees how we are together. They would see I am hesitant and unsure of my feelings for Kaname. And how Kaname is leading a double life with a vampire hunter. No doubt if anyone finds out, it would spark a lot of controversy neither of us are prepared to handle.
The note is still in my hands when I get some kind of bearing on my feelings. I fold it back up then stuff it deep into one of the compartments of my bag. I throw myself onto the bed then cover myself with the blankets. As soon as I rest my head on the pillows, a drowsiness starts to take over. I willingly surrender myself to its comfortable embrace. My final thoughts were about Kaname...
—
I have felt it for a long time. That feeling was always there. It is still there. A vicious vampire who has gone insane bares her fangs at me. With the intent to either kill or torture me. She's coming here. I have sensed it since I parted ways with Kaname earlier today. He probably senses my uneasiness but I believe I have hidden it well from him. He doesn't need to know everything about my feelings. At least when it's about that woman. This is something I will need to handle on my own with no interference from anyone.
Her death is something I long for. I just know I have to kill her. She brings nothing but misfortune wherever she walks. That woman has to die.
Once Shizuka and I are face to face, I will exact my revenge for murdering my family and ending my human life. After I succeed with killing her, I will figure out the next step. Whatever that next step is, I have no idea. I will most likely consider ending my own life after that.
"Do you really think you are capable of going through with it?" her voice comes from behind me. I turn around so fast it should have gave me whiplash. Shizuka is standing in front of me, smiling wickedly.
I pull out my Bloody Rose, click the safety off, then point it directly at her heart. She doesn't even flinch in the slightest.
"What will you do once you actually kill me? Will you end your own life and leave the one you love behind?" she asks then reaches to touch my face.
"Don't touch me—!" I protest with every intention to throw her off. But I couldn't move.
"I gave you life as a vampire. I am your master, your creator. You cannot kill me." She coos.
"Fuck you. I'm not your servant," I hiss at her.
She just laughs at my words as she lightly touches the left side of my neck with her fingertips. The feeling of them on my skin is like ice and I shiver uncomfortably. It isn't because it's cold. I just don't want her touching me. Her touching me only brings up feelings of revulsion and anger. Shizuka notices my obvious displeasure but doesn't stop. Her eyes narrow as if she sensed something. Then her expression turns angry. What the hell is up with her?
"Kaname Kuran has bitten you here, yes?" I couldn't stop the small sound that escapes from my lips when she said his name. "I will take that as a 'yes' from you."
"I have no idea who you are talking about. Kuran has never touched me." I lie, glaring at her.
"I smell him on you, Zero. From how strong his scent is, you've been quite a naughty boy," A smile appears on her face again. "Shall I recreate that feeling?"
My eyes widen at her words and I know I should run away now. However, my body will not move no matter how much I will it to. No... I don't want her fangs to pierce my neck again.
Her fangs sink into my neck and I feel like I have been dunked in ice cold water.
…
I hear someone shouting "don't" as loud as they were able. When I realize the voice belongs to me, I cover my mouth quickly. It's too late. Someone heard me. The entire class heard me, the teacher as well, and they stare at me as if I had randomly burst into flames. After a few moments, I realize I am actually in Trigonometry class in the mist of an exam. Granted, I have already finished my own exam. Everyone else is still working against the clock to finish... and I had disturbed them.
I feel a sense of embarrassment along with rising mortification. Having a nightmare while in class is not normal. With everyone staring at me, I almost started to say something very unpleasant. The teacher is present so I can't tell my classmates to stop staring. I just glower at them while touching my neck with my fingertips. It feels clammy but I don't feel any fang marks. It really was a dream even though it felt real enough for it to not be a dream...
"Is there something about the exam you find offensive, Kiryu?" the teacher asks as he gives me a stern look.
I shake my head. "No, sir."
"Then you should get back to work on it before class is over," he suggests.
"I'm already done."
The look on the teacher's face is almost hysterical. He is shocked and probably offended that I finished the exam in the first place. Maybe even more because I slept in his class a few times. I understand but my grades have been great this semester. I refrain from smirking when he comes over to where I am sitting to see if I am lying. I just sigh as I prop my elbow on the table. When he flips the three-page exam over and flips through it, his expression turns to one of defeat. He just murmurs "don't fall asleep in my class again" to me before resuming his position in front of the classroom. He sets the completed exam face down on his desk. I am not going back to sleep anytime soon. Not sure if I can anyway. Class will be over in about twenty minutes.
With tomorrow being a half day, I might make time to see Kaname. Whether or not he can sense Shizuka coming here is something I wish to know. Unfortunately I have to study tonight for the last exam tomorrow. Then we will hear which class will have to work at the ball from a class representative. Again, I know I will be working as security there along with Yuki. So, being forced to work because of a failing grade or if Headmaster asks us is no difference to me.
Either way, I will be at the ball and most likely hating every moment of it.
I stare out the window on the far left side of the classroom in a daze until the sound of the bell sounds, signalling for everyone to go to their dorms, or the library to get as much as they can before the last two exams tomorrow. I'm pretty sure I will be studying with Yuki tonight. She wouldn't like working at the ball even though she has dialed back her excitement for that and going with Kaname. It stings a little to think about but there isn't anything I can do about it. Especially after I practically allowed it to happen. It's my own fault and I have to live with it.
I pick up my bag and leave the classroom, ignoring the stares of my other classmates. The fact I freaked out in the middle of an exam will be the talk of the school within minutes. It is none of my concern right now.
The nightmare I had during the exam is still bothering me and I touch my neck again to feel for fang marks. Again, they aren't there... She didn't bite me recently. Kaname is the only other vampire who has bitten me. But he is the only one who has bitten me out of respect and care. When I think about it, I can trust him over that woman. I don't want her fangs to pierce my neck ever again. Unlike when Kaname does it, her biting me sends an all too uncomfortable chill down my spine. It leaves my body feeling cold as death and as if something is very wrong. For ttfour years, I thought vampires subconsciously made their victims feel so much dread as soon as their fangs pierced them. At least Kaname didn't feel like that and it's a relief.
After leaving the main building, I start to make my way to Headmaster's place but I feel someone watching me. Before I reach the thick area of trees, I stop walking. I would like to think I am paranoid. I'm the farthest from that. I feel it now more clearly now that I am awake. I'm sure it is here. That familiar presence.
Shizuka.
She knows I am staring at her when she lets out a humorless laugh. My hand is already in my jacket, clutching onto Bloody Rose. I have the safety off and I wish I can pull it out but it's still daylight. It's too much of a risk to kill her. Surely she knows this too. She walks out to where I can see her, avoiding the sunlight. I expected to see her the way I always remembered her.
When she steps into my field of vision, I saw a young, slender vampire girl with long hair going to the middle of her back. It is framing her face like it would a porcelain doll. The girl's eyes seemed innocent but they weren't. I knew the vampire using her body. The moment she opens her mouth, I knew.
"It's been a while, Zero."
Author's Note: Hello, everyone! I am still alive but unfortunately, my laptop is not working anymore. In other words, I lost all of my shit. Including this chapter, chapter 9 and chapter 10... I also have no Wi-Fi at my house so me updating this fanfiction through my phone will not happen as often as I want. Also, replying to your comments will be more difficult... (As always, I like reading your comments. They are so nice!) I gotta conserve my mobile data as much as possible because it is limited. Even with rewriting this chapter by phone, it needed to be posted.
I should note that the season in this fanfiction is Winter but I based it on the recent Winters in the part of the country I live in. While we do have our cold days, there are also unusually warm ones. In January of this year, we had 70° F weather! So Zero has a relaxing day outside because it's a nice, warm day. He likes days like that. Also, he is very introverted. :)
With Zero and Kaname's relationship is growing on an emotional level since they talked, they might actually get to the point they can really say those three words to each other. I wish to write that when the time comes. But~ I want them to convey their love for one another through other forms of communication. It's important for them. Plus, Zero would want to show his feelings to Kaname (when he's ready) before he says "I love you." ;)
Oh, I know Ruka has some positive character development in the manga regarding Yuki and probably Zero but she kind of portrays herself as a bitch on wheels. (That was what me and my friends thought when we first read VK in our high school days.) I understand it was because she loves Kaname though being jealous is not a good thing. That is how I will portray her as I see fit. She may or may not accept Zero's relationship with Kaname when the time comes. It depends on how things go in this story.
This chapter was fun but the drama is coming. (Other than Shizuka because, you know.) So, watch out for that. As usual, thank you for reading this chapter. I hope it was decent despite my having a crappy month. See you all next time!
