Monday comes, and Karkat goes to school as he decided. He wouldn't have had to worry as much as he did though, because John isn't there at all. At first he's relieved. Then he starts to worry, why isn't John here? Did Karkat hurt him so much that he doesn't want to come? Or is he trying to do what Karkat asked for since the troll said he doesn't want to see John ever again? After the two first periods Karkat starts to wish that John was actually there. It would be easier to deal with that than to worry about whether or not John is okay. Or, damnit, wondering how far from being okay he is. He had come back to Dave crying after all. And even if John could be a little childish sometimes Karkat knows that if the human was crying after that then he really messed up. Yeah, the great leader keeps messing up all the fucking time.
As lunch comes, Karkat is starting to feel more and more alone. No matter how much he has pretended to dislike the presences of John and Dave he can't lie to himself and say that he doesn't miss having them around him between the classes. He looks around all the tables to locate someone to sit with in the cafeteria. He ends up with Nepeta and Equius, because Nepeta wouldn't let him walk by their table without sitting down when he was all alone. She is okay company though. Karkat can't stop himself from wondering if she ships him and John as matesprits. Probably not, since there's no way that ship would sail.
Karkat eats his food in silence, barely hearing what Nepeta and Equius are talking about. His thoughts wander off to John. The human boy he is red for. He doesn't like the thought, but it's not like he can change the way he feels.
Suddenly, someone sits down beside Equius, on the opposite side of Karkat. The cancer troll looks up to look into the face belonging to none other than Dave Strider.
"Nepeta", Dave says quietly, and shoves a note across the table to the catlike troll. She unfolds it, reads it, and then squeals happily. She reaches across the table and attempts to hug Dave, but the human pushes her away. Though, she doesn't even frown at it, she just smiles happily and looks down at the note again. Then she looks at Karkat. Then Dave. Then the note again.
"What is on the note, Nepeta?" Equius asks his moirail.
"It's a secret", Nepeta giggles. She quickly glances at Karkat, but when she notices him still having his eyes at her she quickly looks away.
"See you later", Dave says and stands up. As he starts to walk away Karkat wants to ask him about John, but he doesn't. That wouldn't help him at all because it would either seem like he does care about the human or as if he's wanting to see how much damage he made. Yeah, so fucking great.
John is still laying in Dave's bed. He should've gone to school, but didn't feel like it at all. He doesn't care if he's dad or friends will be angry at him for it. He needed, still needs, some time for himself. Besides, Karkat said he never wanted to see him again. If he went to school, the troll would see him. A part of John wants to pester Karkat and ask him if he meant it, but that would for sure only make the troll even angrier. That was something he didn't want. John doesn't want Karkat to hate him. Being hated by someone that means that much to him is the worst thing he's ever felt and he's not sure how he's supposed to live with it. He still has Dave, and Vriska, and Rose, and Jade... but they're not Karkat. The angry troll is unique, as are the rest of his friends. But the cancer troll is very special. He makes John feel different. The human doesn't exactly know how to describe the feeling, but he knows it's more than what you feel for just a normal friend.
The sound of the front door being opened makes John sit up in the bed. It must be Dave. Dirk came home earlier this morning, said hi to John, and then disappeared into his bedroom. John doesn't even want to know what the older Strider is doing in there. The door to Dave's bedroom is opened, and Dave walks in. He looks over at John, his poker face on as always, and sits down beside John in the bed.
"What did you do to piss Karkat off that much?" Dave asks.
John really didn't expect this. He looks at Dave with a shocked expression, unable to answer the question.
"If he hates both of us he'll never hang out with us again", Dave continues. "Which is really sad."
"Yeah", John agrees.
"Do you know why it's sad?"
John's expression turns from shocked to confused as he shakes his head. He doesn't feel like talking about the troll at the moment. It makes him sad.
"Because I love him", Dave admits.
John stares at him in disbelief. He opens his mouth to say something, but doesn't know what, so he just sits there with his mouth open and his eyes widened in shock. This can't be real. Normally, he would probably have made fun of Dave, then gotten serious and tried to help him figure out a way to get the troll to like him back, or at least find a nice way to say that Dave doesn't have a chance. Now, he just doesn't know what to say. Or feel. Or, he just doesn't know anything at all for the moment. Nothing. Blank. Brain dead.
"John?"
But I also love him...
A/N: Seems like Dave and John have a problem? Huh? xD
this story gets a real few views... like each chapter has less than the previous n the difference is quite big... should I even continue writing it? Cuz it seems like the readers are losing interest in it ):
