A/N…bit of an epic on this one…trying to get some of the angst out of the way as I DO want to have some fun with this one…so…tried to get the darker stuff out in one go!

Callie and Arizona had sat together at the kitchen table for more than an hour. Callie held her wife as she cried, then sat with her and just held her hand as she stared into space, before softly starting to cry again. Suddenly, Arizona had turned to Callie and shaken her head as she said boldly "No more tears….what's done….is….done….so, no more tears….for now at least….I'm ok" she sniffed loudly and sat up straight in her seat before nodding slightly and looking straight into Callies eyes. "I'm ok….I'm….okay, as long as….as you meant it….when you said….you believed me…and when you said…you….you wouldn't leave…"

"I meant it" Callie had said quickly, reaching for Arizonas other hand and clasping them both in hers. "I meant every word…."

Arizona had nodded again and briefly looked at the floor before pursing her lips together and giving a soft sigh. "Do you…do you remember what you said to me…when you told me about Sofia?"

"Uhm…."

"You said….you said that you had to start making plans…because in about 7 months there was going to be a new life that…that depended on you. Do you remember?"

"Arizona?"

"And….and you said….you said that you wanted your plans to include me, so you asked me…if I was in….or out"

Callie gave a small chuckle. "This is kinda different honey…I mean….back then…we weren't married…hell we were barely back together….and it was Marks kid! It was a lot to ask of you …a whole lot….I didn't want you to feel trapped in a life you hadn't asked for….hadn't expected…."

"It's not so different!" Arizona had cut in. "It's not. Callie…we….we are still fragile…I know, I know…we're getting better all the time…..but….we're still fragile. So….so I'm offering you a chance here….I'm giving you a choice. Because this time, I have to plan…I have to decide….and I need to know…are you in….or do you want out?" Finally she lifted her head again, her watery blue eyes looking straight into her wifes soft brown gaze. "Because….I love you…I do…but….I love you enough to set you free. You didn't ask for this….you shouldn't be….trapped into this….this wasn't part of your plan….so…I'll understand if you want to leave…I will. I will….understand. Or…are you….are you …."

Callie had smiled and shook her head as she quickly said. "I'm in Arizona….I'm in! Ok? I told you…I meant every word I said before. This isn't your fault…YOU didn't do this to us…you didn't plan it; you definitely didn't cause it…. And you didn't choose it….you certainly didn't choose it…. So…it is a little different than with me and Mark….although I didn't exactly plan on getting pregnant…and it wasn't as if I chose to sleep with him it just sorta happened cos I was drunk….and miserable…missing you….and Mark was hot…and uh….uh, I 'm rambling….sorry!" she had grinned and shrugged shyly before continuing. "My point is…I'm your wife…and I love you….and I am here….every step of the way for you….! We….we made a commitment to one another Arizona…do you remember our vows? We said I choose you…..I choose youI meant it then, and I mean it so much more now baby." She had reached up to cup her wifes cheek, gently stroking a tear away with her thumb, "We are….we are different people to the two women who stood in front of Bailey that day…life, has changed us…we have… we have had some horrible things happen to us, painful things….bitter things…our lives have changed…WE have changed. And yes…it broke us….the plane crash…..losing Mark, your…your leg…losing the baby….the cheating…it all….it all broke us….and we…I stepped away. But you know what I learned?"

Arizona had swallowed slightly and shook her head as tilted her head a fraction nuzzling into Callies hand

With a small hiccup, Callie told her. "I learned that…even though I have changed…my love for you hasn't. It is still the most important thing in my life….YOU are still the most important thing in my life. I don't function unless I am with you…I am stronger with you by my side…and I know…I KNOW you feel the same. So….so yes, we maybe fragile….that's because both of us are still…finding out who we are now…But the love we have for each other…that never faded, it never left…and it never changed…that's why it hurts so bad when we get things wrong! I can't promise that we won't have arguments or fights in the future….we are both too stubborn to always agree…so I can pretty much guarantee there will be arguments….and incredible make up sex to, if we're lucky!" Callie had grinned and given a small wink making Arizona chuckle, "And I can't guarantee that there won't be times when one of us…or both of us will want out…and maybe….maybe one day we will wake up and decide that…that we can't be married to each other anymore…it happens….it happens. But….MAYBE…just maybe….we will just talk to each other…work through the arguments…. Work together, grow together…."

"Have incredible make up sex….and still make hot hot love to each other for the hell of it?"

Callie had grinned widely. "Exactly! And we get our happy ever after. We…we win!"

Arizona had sighed happily and stared at her wife. "You're awesome!" she had whispered. "And…I love you"

"I know….and I love you to!"

With a small sigh Arizona had reached up and taken Callies hand in hers before leaning forward and whispering. "You're gonna need to be awesome….we are gonna have two babies keeping us up all night…and no Mark to bail us out!"

Callies smile had faltered as she sat up straight and drew in a shaky breath. Her eyes had widened as she looked back at Arizona and asked quietly. "Is it too late to change my mind….did I say I was all in? I might have meant….I'm thinking about it!"

Arizonas eyes had wrinkled as she studied her wife, before she started giggling at the trace of mischief in the brown eyes looking back at her. "Come on" she had finally whispered, "I think I am done talking for tonight…we both need to sleep….we can talk some more tomorrow…or the next day…"

"Or the next…" Callie had agreed as she allowed Arizona to pull her to her feet and guide her back to the bedroom

Despite the exhaustion the two felt, and the dramatic turn their evening had taken, they had slowly drifted into each others arms….and with a tenderness that they had not shown to each other for a long time, they had slowly and gently made love to each other….falling asleep together as they felt the last ebb of passion sweep through them, their arms and legs entwined and bodies melded so close together it was almost impossible to tell were one ended and the other began

[xx]

Arizona had been told to rest after her fainting session in the OR, Webber had only allowed her home on the proviso she take a day or two off…so Webber had arranged for her surgeries to be rescheduled or cleared. He had tried to do the same for Callie, just to try and let her have some time to be with Arizona , though Webber thought it would do them both good to rest he had no idea that the two of them really needed the time whilst they tried to accept what was happening in their lives….! But Callies first surgery for the day could not be cancelled….she was scrubbing in on a case with Meredith Grey, and needed to be there to reset the ribcage after Meredith had removed two tumours from inside the chest cavity…Cardio were on stand by should the tumour have attached to the heart…and that would mean Callie would be in surgery for longer than she hoped…if the tumour wasn't attached, she would be three hours tops…she could manage that…and afterwards she could go home…all her other surgeries cleared for two days, and her on call shift covered by Dr Sayed.

So, this morning ,reluctantly, she had crept out of her bed as soon as the alarm started to ring….tiptoed around as she showered and dressed, and kissed Arizona, telling her to go back to sleep as her wife mumbled and stirred in her sleep and reached out to pull Callie back into her arms. Callie had stood and looked down at her wife and felt the familiar butterflies in her stomach. With a small sigh she bent again to kiss her wifes cheek before turning on her heels and tiptoeing out of the room, and out of the house, leaving a note for Arizona telling her to stay in bed until Callie got home.

She walked into the hospital and headed straight to the coffee cart, it was still very early so the area was practically deserted so she placed her order as soon as she got to the stand, closing her eyes she let out a long sigh as she shrugged her shoulders to try and shake free the knots jumping slightly as a voice boomed behind her. "Need me to fit an IV for that coffee Torres?" Callie turned and smiled quickly at her friend. "Hey Bailey…you know….tempted to say yeah! Hey….where's my daughter?"

"Ben is getting her ready for kindergarten as we speak. You look like hell by the way!" Miranda said with a look of concern

"Why thank you….remind me why we're friends again?"

"You love my charm!" Bailey chuckled as she placed her own order at the cart and turned to look back at Callie. "How is Arizona?"

Callies eyebrow shot up and she shifted from side to side as she asked. "Arizona? Uhm….why…..why do you ask? I mean uhm...what…what have you heard?"

Mirandas mouth gaped open a fraction before she spluttered. "Jeeez! How many Coffees have you have already? I was just asking cos I heard Arizona fainted in the OR! I was just worried is all!" Her eyes narrowed as she leaned forward to study Callie closely before quickly asking. "Ok, ok….so you look like hell, and Robbins flaked out…what's going on. Is she…is she ill? Oh my God…is Arizona ill? Can I help? What can I do? Is she getting treatment? Who is her doctor….. "

"Relax!" Callie muttered as she put her hand on Baileys arm. "Relax…she….she is fine….she's fine"

"Then what the hell is going on?"

Callie took a deep breath and shook her head slightly. "I…I wish I could tell you…I do! But, it's complicated….and uh….I have to go…I'm due in surgery…."

"No you're not"

"Yes…I am…I'm not trying to avoid you, I am due in surgery!" Callie looked at her watch and added, "and I'm gonna be late!"

Bailey chuckled. "You due in with Grey?"

Callie stopped and looked at her before nodding

"Umhmm" Bailey smirked, "then you're not due in surgery…patient spiked a temperature last night…too risky to operate….so you're off the hook!"

Callie sighed and closed her eyes, letting her head drop back as she let out a soft groan. "Dammit… cudda stayed in bed!"

Bailey grabbed her coffee and grinned. "But you're here now….and I aint due in surgery till midday…soooooo….you got time to fill me in now huh?"

Chewing in her bottom lip Callie was torn. She knew Arizona wouldn't mind Bailey knowing…at least she thought she knew…Bailey was a good friend to both of them, but it was all still so raw…so new…she didn't know if she was ready to talk just yet. "Uhm…it's…it's…."

"Complicated!"

"Yeah" Callie sighed and nodded. "Really….really complicated"

"Uh huh…and you don't think you can talk about it just yet right?"

"Right"

Showing more strength and speed than her small frame should allow, Bailey reached up and grabbed Callies arm, and started to drag her to one of the small conference rooms of the main entrance. As she clicked the door closed behind them she forcefully pushed Callie into a seat, waved her finger into Callies face and hissed. "Talk Torres….for your sake, for Arizonas sake…talk to me. Cos whatever it is…I might be able to help!"

Callie gave a short laugh and shook her head. "Oh I wish you could Miranda…but trust me…you can't…you can't. No one can"

Miranda sat down and took her hand. "Then just talk to me…because from the circles under your eyes and way your hands are gripping that coffee cup…you need to talk…so please…trust me…talk to me…let me help in that way at least. Please"

Callie took a deep breath and whispered. "Arizona is having a baby"

Miranda shook her head a fraction and then smiled. "Well…uh yeah….I mean…that's why I had Sofia last night right? Cos you were expecting your call from your surrogate? So…it worked? She is pregnant?"

"It worked…yeah" Callie said quietly

"So….that's good news right? Great news in fact!" Bailey frowned, "so I was kinda expecting you to be grinning like a Cheshire cat…or singing…or something….Callie?"

"Robyn IS pregnant…and that IS great. But it's not what I said. I said ARIZONA is having a baby. My wife…is pregnant"

"I…uh…Ari….uh….she…wha….what?"

Callie gave a bitter smirk and whispered. "Surprise!"

Miranda sat back in her chair and gave a small laugh. "Surprise indeed!" With a quick shake of her head she looked back at Callie and with a deep frown on her face whispered. "How?"

"Ah" Callie shook her own head sadly, "that's the worst part"

Bailey sat there and listened as Callie told her about Arizonas trip to San Francisco and all that Arizona had told her the night before. As she listened she reached forward and took Callies hand in hers, her own expressive eyes showing her pain over what her friend had been through, and what both of her friends now faced . As Callie finished Miranda quickly brushed a tear from her cheek and took a deep breath. "Has she uh….has Arizona been tested for…uhm…well…."

"Alex took the test…so yeah, she is pregnant"

Bailey shook her head. "Not what I meant. A guy who does this, more than likely done it before…he didn't uhm…use…protection…so uhm…he could…he could have…."

"Oh God" Callie groaned…"I didn't think…hadn't thought…."

"You uh….you should get tested to" Bailey said softly, "just in case"

Callie looked at her wide eyes and her lips tightened as she gave a small nod

"Is….is she keeping the baby?" Bailey asked softly

"WHAT?" Callie gasped

"Well….uh, it may be…too much to ask….considering….and with Robyn pregnant to…."

Callie shook her head and gasped. "I…I didn't even ask!"

Miranda patted her hand. "It's too soon to be making any decisions like that huh?"

"It didn't even enter my mind! I…I didn't think! I mean…it's her baby….it's part of Arizona…I….i will love this baby as much as the one Robyn is carrying…but…" she looked at Miranda and scrunched up her face, "do you think Arizona will feel the same way?"

"I don't know baby" Miranda told her softly, "only she knows that. You two need to talk…and you need to listen…and support her no matter what she chooses….ok?"

Callie nodded. "Of course….of course I will….of course" She closed her eyes and rubbed at her temple. "I just can't believe this is happening Miranda. We….were just putting everything behind us…Arizonas nightmares had faded…we…we were happy….we are happy… how can this be happening to us….why us….why?"

Miranda stood up and wrapped her arms around Callies shoulders and gently kissed the top of her head. "I don't know baby girl…bad things happen to good people. But you two are strong…you're strong…you'll get through this….together. You will be there for Arizona…and I will be here for both of you…ok?"

"Ok" Callie nodded as she sniffed loudly and rubbed the tears away from her eyes. "Grrrrrrrrr, it's just….so may things inside me ya know. Part of me wants to run away and hide, another part of me wants to yell and scream at the world! I wanna just….hold Arizona and tell her that everything is ok…but at the same time I wanna get on a plane and track this guy….and beat him to a pulp with my own hands…."

"Only if I can hold him down for ya!" Bailey chuckled as she sat back down. "Look, you….you do look like hell Callie….I'm guessing you didn't sleep last night…so….why don't you…." She stood up and dragged Callie to her feet …."go home, have a nice long bath…go wrap your arms around that beautiful wife of yours and climb back into your nice warm bed….I will get Sofia…Ben and I will keep her tonight…you two…you need a little more time to let all this sink in….and you need to just….hold each other…hold each other tight, until it does"

Callie reached down and hugged her friend again as she whispered "Thank you" With a small smile she turned and went to leave the room….stopping in the door way as she saw Karev walking to wards the coffee cart Alex looked up and saw her staring at him, he waved and started to walk towards her, hesitating s fraction as he saw the odd look in her eye

"Run away Karev!" Bailey hissed from behind Callie

Alex looked puzzled. "Did….did I do something to annoy you?" he asked

Callie leaned forward to glare at him. "I don't know Alex….did you? Did you do something to annoy me? Did you?"

"Uhm….Callie?"

Callie reached out and prodded at his shoulder as she hissed. "When I asked you to keep a check on my wife I didn't mean check her out …and I sure as hell didn't mean sleep with her!" She knew her anger was irrational, but she was tired, and emotional, and Alex….Alex had been there that night…and Callie hadn't

"WH….WHA….WHAT!" He stammered.

"Yeah….what he said!" gasped Bailey

"You slept with my wife Alex….you've seen her naked!"

"KAREV!" Bailey gasped again

"Wait! What…she….she told you….." Alex was backing up but Callie stepped closer to him. He put his arms up to hold her back. "Th….then if she told you …you know we…I…uhm…we didn't ….I couldn't...I mean….I don't think…I wasn't able…I don't…I'm sure…uhm" He swallowed and nodded quickly as he again pushed Callie back a fraction. "Arizona is hot Callie…you know that…and yeah….yeah I checked her out…and yeah, I made a pass….I tried to flirt ya know….really tried….more than we normally do….I mean , she opened the door and she was in her panties…and hey….what man could resist…so yeah…I tried

"You did WHAT?" her eyes bulged a fraction and her nostrils flared, "you tried to hit on my wife?!"

He gasped and frantically looked around him before reaching out and pushing her back into a small conference room, slamming the door in Baileys face as she went to follow them in

"Well yeah….she's hot…and I'm…I'm a man Callie….Arizona…she's hot! " He shook his head and glanced. "But you know what she said to me hmm? You know how she shot me down? She told me it took one word to get her into bed…well…no….she said it took one word to get her…get all of her…and that one word? CALLIE….the one word and the one person who gets Arizona Robbons….is you….so I tried…and I crashed and burnt….and she has been teasing me every day since….because she is my friend….my best friend. We flirt, and we tease….it's what we do"

Callie had stopped and was taking deep calming breaths as she watched him straighten up and run his hands through his hair as he sighed deeply before looking at her. "Listen…I …I won't deny that when I first clapped eyes on Robbins I would have loved a chance to…to….well…..anyway…. and I am safe in saying pretty much every guy at this hospital would say the same. BUT…. I know she loves you….and I would never hurt her…." He lowered his voice and bent forward to whisper, "and I sure as hell wouldn't take advantage of her…I promise you…I wouldn't"

"You say you don't remember that night!" Callie muttered tonelessly

Again Karev ran his hand through his hair. "I…I don't…I'm sorry…I don't. I keep trying…because…I keep thinking…if I hadn't been so drunk, if I hadn't been ….so out of it…then maybe I could have stopped it…I could have protected her… but I didn't…and I let her down…I let you both down….and I let her get….get….hurt"

Callie looked at him and saw the pain in his eyes. Her own irrational anger at him instantly faded away and she found herself reaching to rest her hand on his arm as she whispered. "You're not to blame Alex…this isn't on you… "

He stared vacantly passed her shoulder as he muttered. "I was so drunk….I couldn't possibly have…even if I had wanted to…and if SHE had wanted to….I don't think I could have…Callie" he looked at her, his eyes narrowed as he swallowed slightly, "I have NEVER been that drunk that I can't remember the night before…never! And I don't mean…that the night is a bit vague…I can't remember a freaking thing beyond sitting down and swiping Arizonas drink as she went back for one last dance before we both called it a night. I felt fine up till then…just fine! I had been drinking…but both me and Arizona had been drinking water to….so we weren't being stupid…and I remember Arizona was still ok….merry…and happy….so happy…but she didn't seem drunk…we were laughing and joking around…we said…one more drink, then call it a night…but she went back for one last dance first…and I ….I had the drink that the weirdo had bought for her….next thing I know…I'm waking up in Arizonas bed!"

"You think the last drink was spiked don't you?" Callie asked quietly

Alex looked down at the floor and nodded. "Yeah, yeah I do….looking back…racking my brain…I do…and I swear to GOD…if I ever catch up with that Scott guy again, I'm gonna kill him with my bare hands!"

"Cos you think, after he spiked the first drink….."

"He did it again, once her realised his mistake" Alex said softly, "and it played right into his hands….cos he had an even better excuse to get her upstairs….and it took me out of the equation at the same time….he had a clear field!"

Callie nodded softly and whispered. "Son of a bitch….oh, that son of a bitch"

"I wanna kill him Callie….if I ever see that freakin' bastard again I swear…..I swear" Alex groaned and thumped the desk before taking in two deep steadying breaths before turning to look back at Callie. "Does…does Arizona ….does she know….what he did….does….does she know?"

Callie looked up sadly and nodded. "Yeah….she knows…think she has always known…. think she had put two and two together almost the next day….but pushed it out of her mind….just forced herself to….to not think about it…but now….now"

"Oh….yeah….now" Alex whispered

"Now she can't deny it happened…." Callie finished, "and it is all….a little overwhelming right now!"

Alex stood to hug her briefly and said. "For both of you huh? If I can help….if there is ANYTHING I can do….I'm here…I'm always here for you….both of you"

Callie smiled at him, and whispered "Thanks"

Alex went to say something else but was interrupted by his pager going off. "Crap….NICU….gotta go!"

They both stepped out of the door together. Alex quickly turned and looked at Callie. "I'm sorry I didn't protect her Callie….I…I will never forgive myself for that…I'm so sorry!"

"Alex" she shook her head but he turned to walk away before she could ay anything else. He had only take five or six steps when Callie creased her eyes into a frown and with a quick shake of her head she called out to him…"And I haven't forgotten you have seen my wife naked Karev….you and me…we need to talk about that!"

She could hear his quick chuckle as he waved his hand before disappearing around the corner. She gave a small laugh herself before turning around….and coming face to face with a very confused looking Miranda Bailey. "Karev? Slept with Arizona?" she muttered

Callie sighed. "It….it just keeps getting better doesn't it?"

"Oh…..yeah!" Bailey said hesitantly. "Better and better! Go home Callie…Arizona needs you….and you need her….go home"

Callie nodded and hugged her again before turning and heading back to her car, grabbing her mobile from her purse on the way and dialling home she grinned as a very sleepy voiced Arizona picked up. "Hey honey," Callie grinned as she heard Arizona whisper "Calliope?"…."Surgery was cancelled….I'm coming home….meet you in the bathtub?"

Arizona gave a soft chuckle. "Oh….absolutely!" she replied…"I love you!"

"Love you to baby"