Hey guys Im sooooooooooo sorry! I left my laptop charger on the train coming home from uni so then my laptop died with all my work on it and I've only just managed to get another one!
I got some really great reviews of the last chapter so thank you! I wrote this on a train out of wales, when I had already been up 3 hours, (It was 7am) so I'm sorry if my spelling or grammar is a bit haywire!
anyways review and let me know what you think?
Also, this chapter is a bit heavy and angst-y… just to warn you. Oh and there's a little secret that Bella tells Edward. Did you guys see it coming?
AND! (This is IMPORTANT!) There are a few… sexual references in this chapter. I don't outright talk about it… but it's implied. So yeah… I WARNED YOU. So don't get all on my case :P
I do not own Twilight.
Chapter 8
EPOV
I couldn't believe it; I had been staring at her for hours and I still couldn't believe she was here. We had checked into a hotel, since we had things to talk about and the graveyard wasn't exactly the ideal setting. But we had spent the last few hours in silence; the only sound our breathing as our lips moved in synchronisation. She was the first to break the silence.
'Edward, we need to talk. Figure out… what happened. I mean I know what happened to you, obviously Carlisle saved you and I'm guessing you've been with him ever since. But… you don't know about my past…. There are things I have to tell you…' She seemed so… nervous? I hadn't seen her like this before… she was usually so confident.
'You can tell me anything my love.' I replied kissing her temple. Her eyes closed and she leaned into my touch; I couldn't help but smile. She did the exact same thing when we were human.
'Okay… well this is going to be hard for me… I… I've never told anyone… but you deserve to know.'
'Okay what is it love?' I was starting to get anxious. I had this awful feeling in my gut that I was about to find out something bad.
'Okay, so you know what happened after we got married, we spent the weekend… together and then we had to go back to how things were. Two months later you caught the influenza, and then died. Well... those two weeks right after your death were awful… I couldn't sleep… I was barely eating anything… I simply didn't want to be if you weren't alive. But I couldn't bring myself to end it all…. It was like there was something… telling me not to. That there was a reason I was still alive. So I stayed alive; barely. But then… two weeks after your passing, I went for a walk in the woods when it happened. I had been having stomach pains on and off all day, and at first I thought it was my monthly bleed coming early… but I hadn't had my last two so I was beginning to worry. And then I got a horrendous pain in my abdomen. And… I felt like… like I needed to push… like something wanted to come out of me… so I pushed and pushed… but then…. Oh Edward….' She was sobbing her way through at this point and I was frozen in horror. I had a feeling I knew what was coming. 'I was pregnant Edward! But it didn't survive…. It was a little tiny thing… barely recognisable as a baby it being only 2months…. But still…. I knew… I lost too much blood…. I thought I was dying… but then there was this horrendous burning…. Next thing I knew I woke up like this…' And then she broke down sobbing. I couldn't focus. I couldn't breathe. A baby. My son or daughter. 'I'm so sorry Edward…. If I had known… I would have tried harder I swear it! Oh our poor little baby… I killed it! And I am so sorry Edward!' At this I drew her tightly to me. Sobbing with her.
'It's not your fault sweetheart, I don't blame you. It just wasn't meant to be. These things happen. It's alright. It's going to be alright.' We rocked back and forth for a while; sobbing out our grief together.
Eventually, we both calmed enough to be able to speak coherently.
'Isabella, love- wait. Do you prefer Bella or Isabella now?' I was confused as to what to call her. I thought she preferred Isabella, but she went by Bella in school.
'Erm… Isabella… when it's you anyways. No one else has called me it since we were human.' Hmm… I kind of liked that… I was the only one who called her Isabella. I smiled.
'Okay, well then, Isabella, I don't blame you for what happened. I am a little upset that you didn't take better care of yourself, but I can understand how you felt. I don't blame you at all, love. Things like this happen all the time. We'll get through it together. I love you.' I immediately felt her relax against me.
'I love you too, Edward.' I sighed. Sweeter words had never been spoken. We then spent the next few hours getting… reacquainted. We could talk about the rest in the morning.
So…. What did you think? Did you see that coming? Was it convincing enough? Let me know what you thought. I actually got a little choked up writing this one. (Which is not good- if you look like you're about to cry on a train people look at you like you're crazy- trust me on that lol)
Anyways review and I should be back… Sunday I think… maybe tomorrow if you leave me enough reviews ;) haha
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