I have terrible writer's block, but I managed to squeeze this out!

We arrive at the "stop" in a half hour. I was sitting quietly by Ava, waiting for the train to slow enough for it to be "safe" enough for us to jump.

When I was a little girl, I had always wondered about the Factions. We had a computer, I needed it for my homework after the library was bombed. I went online one day and researched which faction I'd like to be in. I had always wondered about the Dauntless ways. The other kids in my grade were mostly Dauntless, anyways, and I had wondered about them.

Ava looked like a ghost again.

"Ava, what's wrong?" I asked, one of the only ones talking.

"When I was little, I heard my mommy talking to my dad. She said, if I ever chose another faction, she wouldn't know what to do," (otherwise known as suicide in Amity or Abnegation) she said.

"Same here. She- what am I suppost to do? Sorry- I," and she shooshed me, knowing what emotions I was capable of.

A tear rolled down her cheek and I wiped it off. She was red now, knowing of the inevitable, and I teared up. I stood up and pushed my way to the private car, with no one in it. I sat down, and started to cry, rather loudly. How could I know? My mother always played so strong. She was the strongest person I knew...

I pushed the pain away, into a big bottle inside of me. I had been diagnosed with depression a few years ago, so I had been taught how to cope with it. I was not accepted by other children in Abnegation because I had emotional problems. Every Tuesday morning, for an hour, I'd sit in the counselor's office and just talk. Ava knew; she accepted me and tried to cheer me up.

I ran through the train and heard silence. What was wrong? I looked out a window and saw a dead body, a girl, zoom past. She jumped off, and ended her suffering. I wished I was brave enough to do the same.

I shed a tear, a singluar tear, for her. I took a pen and wrote her name on my wrist; she was the first Dauntless girl who talked to me. The first person who ever talked to me.

It was first grade, and I was sitting alone in the back.

"Hi! I'm Alana. I'm in the Dauntless," she said, making no sence. I laughed and corrected her.

"Anyways, I'm Abigail, the Abnegation girl. Will you sit by me?" I asked. I was assuming she was moving towards me anyways, with all her books in her crate scooted across the floor.

"Sure," she replyed. We talked for weeks, but then her mom pulled her out of our class because I was her best friend, and I was Abnegation. A "stiff".

That was the day that changed my life.