Can You Look At Me Now?
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APOV
"Umm ain't he with you, I mean ain't you and him like married or whatever you bloodsuckers do". I smiled and said "nope" making a little pop sound with the P. Feeling the excitement of the coming of my new love and adventure. " life seems to be taking me down a different path Jacob".
~end of APOV~
JPOV
I grabbed the bag Alice gave to Bella, and I smiled. I noticed a bit of curiosity from her I wondered what was sparking it, I will have to add that to the growing list of things to ask her about later. "lets see what kinda discomfort Alice bought for you this time".
A look of worry crossed her face but then she smiled and walked with me as we went to the house. I was not sure where the rest of the family was but I was glad they were giving some space, I could feel Bella walking that thin line of overwhelmed .
As we walked up the stairs I knew there was something making her slow her pace, as I turned down the hall to head to my room, she stopped in the middle of the hall I turned the it dawned on me this is the way to Edwards room as well as the stairs to my room.
"Bella… " she blinked a few times and looked up at me I reached over and took her hand in mine and gave a little nod, I lead her past his door and up the stairs to my room. Once she got to the top of the stairs and looked around the open loft area, she smiled a little bit.
" Oh so what you the resident bat in the belfry now" she let out a carefree giggle and I could not help myself from a little smirk as well. "yeah well ya know… ahh you can change in here" I lead her to my Alice inspired closet and opened the door turning on the light, " I'll wait out here". I slowly let go of her hand, not ready to lose her warm touch just yet but I had to pace myself.
BPOV
I wondered what was going on around here, even for a family of vampires things were strange, why was Jasper here with me without Alice, why did everyone just kinda bail when we were outside. We headed in the house and started for the stairs once we got up there and turned toward Edwards room I stopped what was Jasper thinking, as I looked at the door I felt myself splitting open again but before the hole bust all the way open and I could turn to run Jasper turned to me and gently took my hand.
It was almost like an instant repair, I let him lead me right past the door of evil and we headed up a set of stairs I had never been on. At the top of the stairs was a very big open loft type area I wondered what this room was, I looked around the décor and I noticed right away along the wall were six different guitars and this room was different then the rest of the house, it did not have a wall of glass instead there were paintings drawing and … lots of band posters covering the emerald green walls, but still ..no bed.
He lead me over to a giant ass closet, this is more like it he opened the door and turned on a light and told me I could change in here. I took the bag and walked in closing the door lightly I took a second to look around, and this closet was filled with jeans and tee shirts.
I ran my hand over the shirts noticing most where vintage band shirts I could not help myself I leaned in and smelled one of his shirts, he smelled of summer rain, dragons blood ( A/N- we are just using this is a reference, not that Jasper is burning incense, this is Bella talking about his natural essence ) then it hit me I spun a few times and noticed it was only Jasper's clothes in here, what has happened in three years.
I pulled the things out of the bag and rolled my eyes with a grown when I saw what the evil one has picked out for me. There was a green fairy like baby doll top with a long cream gypsy like skirt. I got dressed with out bitching cause I know if I do she will hear me and I am not ready for Bella Barbie just yet.
I pulled the shoes out of the bad, they were green flats, at least she remembered I can trip over air at any giving moment. I quickly threw my pj's into the bag and walked out of the closet. Jasper was leaning on the wall, I must be losing my mind cause I swear I just saw him check me out.
JPOV
" Why miss Bella Swan, you look positively , breath taking" I saw the blood pool to her cheeks and it was then I wanted to see how red I could make her, I smiled. " here Bella sit down I know we have a lot to talk about", I motioned for her to sit on green corduroy love seat. She slinked over I am sure to make sure she does not fall flat on her face over nothing, she sat her hands resting limply in her lap she looked up at me with her doe like eyes goddamn I thought I was going to melt right then and there, where the fuck was I going to start.
"I can sense you are confused Bella, what would you like to know first". I could feel her emotions bounce from wonder to awkward to nervous as she thought about how she wanted to go about this. " well, I couldn't help but notice that Alice has no clothes in here, and it seems she is letting you dress yourself" .
Bella was a lot more observant then Edward ever gave her credit for, I knew this was a fine line I needed to walk here, so I thought my answer out before spoke. " well to be blunt about it, Alice and I have come to a point in our lives were we are going down separate paths". She looked around the room as she processed this information biting on her lower lip slightly I had to look away for second to control my lust for her.
'Come on Jasper head in the game,' I kept trying to tell myself. She looked back to me " what path does your life seem to be taking you Jasper" . I felt my insides jump and I smiled a little bit, " well I am hopin to find that out soon here darlin" . I heard her heart flutter for just a second then she got control again, and she nodded slightly.
I had a feeling the next question was not going to be as simple. She took a long breath and released it slowly and she locked eyes with me, I braced myself. " Where did you go, and why are you back" , her tone was bitter, angry and hurt all in one, but as she looked in my eyes I felt a need coming off her, it was like a pull for me to be next to her. I moved over to her and sat down, with my weight on the cushion she tilted toward me.
" Well lets see here, Rose and Emmett went on like their hundredth honeymoon, somewhere in Asia, Alice was off seeing every major shopping port in the free world, Carlisle and Esme were living in New York, and me…I was up in Denali working on some things". I could tell she was getting peeved at my lack of explanation, but I was not ready to give full details just yet. " As you can tell, my control has improved a lot, as I am sure you have noticed things around here are a big different, this is me Bella, the real me, I finally found out who I am in this life".
She looked at me her eye brows pulled down tightly in the middle a look she often gets when she is flustered she said " ok, but what about the rest of my question, why did you come back" . She was getting tense and fast, I could not hide things from her like my dumb shit brother did she deserves better then that.
" We came back because we needed to"…. I sighed and looked away from her,
" because I needed to".
I knew she was picking up that I was upset and unsure, because she felt like she needed to comfort me I looked back to her locking our eyes once more, at that point I felt like all my insides were coming undone at once, it was then things were set in stone for me, Bella was my soul I have been missing for so long, I wanted to give her everything possible my love for her was pouring out beyond my control, and I realized it was affecting her when I saw her warm eyes tear up.
BPOV
" Jasper" I kept my voice soft not trusting it to not give out on me, and plus I was hyperaware of a house full of super hearing, " I really believed that these feelings did not exist anymore, I am still not sure what is going on and I don't trust my heart anymore but I cant sit here and deny this isn't happening right now".
I could not hold in the urge to reach over, my hand was shaking as I touched the side of his face, the power I felt when our skin met this time almost had me pull away but he leaned into my touch his eyes closed as I felt the first warm tear roll down my cheek. I pulled my hand away his eyes still closed he spoke in a whisper " I know you're a little confused, but the emotions are real Bella I can only hope you will explore this path with me."
"Jasper, I have been threw so much and I am a different person now... I am defective its just…" he cut me off by grabbing me by the shoulders and staring me in the face. " Bella, you are anything but defective, yes its true you have changed on the outside, and its also true you have been hurt by not only Edward but the whole family, but you Bella angel are still the most beautiful soul I have ever encountered". My was spinning at this point, damn they are back, and I think Jasper just confessed his love for me. I don't know if I am ready for this, how can I trust they are not going leave the sad pathetic little human behind again, what if Edward finds out and he makes them leave again. All these thoughts swirled in my head at once the hole in me chest started to pull at me again.
JPOV
As she sat there I was just slammed with her emotions I cant blame her for what she is feeling but when I did see Edward I was going to punch him, how could he break such a wonderful spirit ." Isabella Marie Swan, I am not Edward please understand the family and myself can not call ourselves a family without you he had us convinced it was better for you and we needed to set aside our own feelings". I reached over and tucked a stray hair behind her ear and she leaned into my touch this time I stroked her cheek with my thumb.
"I wont and cant leave you…. ever, I give you my word", I saw her wince slightly and she looked over my shoulder past me. "Bella I really mean ever, no matter what happens you are stuck with me I gave a little smile hoping I was not about to be shot down. She looked back into my eyes, " Jasper how can you stay that to me now, sooner or later you will get distracted, and you will realize I do not belong in your world just like Edward did".
I suppressed a growl I am going to have to find out exactly what happened the night we left.
"Bella I have felt for you from the first day I saw you at school, do you remember your birthday"? she gave a weak nod.. " when the first drop of your blood was spilled its true I wanted you, but I wanted to have you forever right then I was going to change you to make you mine, that is why Edward reacted the way he had he saw it in my mind, but at the time I was confusing love for bloodlust".
I am not sure where the I got this sudden burst of confidence but I leaned in my lips just barely touching hers I whispered," miss Bella, may I kiss you"? She barely nodded and I pressed my lips to hers I pulled back because I was afraid she was not breathing anymore and her heart rate was insane I kept forehead pressed to hers and felt the heat from her flushed cheeks as she took in a breath.
I grinned with satisfaction and was about to say something when her stomach did the talking for her. She pulled back and wrapped her arms around her middle and blushed even harder, just then I heard what could only be described as a heard of cattle barreling to my room and there he was Emmett standing at the top of the stairs with a doofy ass grin holding up a happy meal box in one hand and a drink in the other, now I know where the confidence came from.
" Here I come to save the day" he was singing very off key Bella was laughing and I could not help myself either even though I knew encouraging him was a bad idea, he kept singing. " ba-da-bababa.. I'm lovin it ..I have come to feed the human, even though I cant see how she can eat this shit .. Dude have you fuckin smelled this, I have ate cow but …ewww" .
He walked over and sat on the floor in front of a still laughing Bella he sat like a kid in school if I had a tail I am sure it would be wagging.
