Chapter Eight: What Would Have Been-

Tohma's POV

Eiri-san, I apologize. There was nothing we could do. My choppers weren't fast enough, K-san wasn't fast enough, I wasn't there enough.

If I had all the speed known to man, to make you happy, I would have dived down and saved him. I would have jumped down the cliff, and if my legs were broken, I would have crawled to him to get him away from the fire. I would, I know I would have.

But we were not fast enough. Even you, as you struggled from my hold, from Mika's hold, from Tatsuha's arms, from K-san's grasp...you could not have stopped the sudden flames that decided to take him that day...if we had let you run, you would have been engulfed also.

That's why we held you back, because we rather have held you back and let him die than allow you to be taken...and all that, after our desperate cling on you, you still died somewhere inside.

It hurt me that we had preferred to save you over him, but you were family and you know what hurts me darling Eiri-san?

To see you lost in that confusion that followed in the aftermath.

To see that glazed look whenever we speak now, to read the occurrence in your past life written on your novels.

To know that your muse has always been, subconsciously, Shuichi-kun and your treachery.

AN: This was a little pointless but it'll come hand later, that's what I thought… well I've already posted this chapter on another site, so I might as well put it here right? sigh I'm still waiting for my muse because the chapter after this is the last one I'll be posting….and please review? Oh- and try not to throw darts on my face (cough-Earnest-Kevin-cough)

thank you.