A/N: Thanks again for all the support, I love you all so much!
This chapter... yeah, it's fluffy, but no direct Jisbon. I hope that makes any sense to you :D.
And sorry for the end of this chapter, I had to punish Jane a bit :D.
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine.
"So, Mister Jane, where is Agent Lisbon?" Dr. Vince asked. Jane shot him a look, before finally saying, "she couldn't come."
The psychiatrist nodded.
"Very well then. Mister Jane, could you tell me why you are here? We didn't have an appointment, did we?"
Jane shook his head.
"No, we didn't."
"Then why are you here?"
"Because...," he said, but he couldn't say it. He was holding back tears at the memory of last night.
The psychiatrist saw.
"Are you and Agent Lisbon having some difficulties?" the doctor asked, and Jane bit his lower lip. He slowly nodded. This was nothing for him. Why was he so emotional over a woman all of a sudden?
"What happened?"
Jane looked away from the man, and got up.
"I... sort of promised her that I wouldn't... talk to Charlotte again-"
"Charlotte is your deceased daughter, if I'm not mistaken?"
Jane nodded.
"And you saw her?"
"In my mind only, because Lisbon couldn't see her. And I couldn't touch Charlotte, so she must've been fake."
The man wrote some things down.
"Go on," he said, and Jane did.
"She got back to work yesterday, after being away from it for a day to look after me. I promised to try and ignore Charlotte in the meantime. But she came to me, and she talked to me-"
"What did she tell you?"
Jane stared out of the small window.
"That she was there to... make me happy again."
"And do you have the feeling she can do that?"
Jane huffed.
"Since I saw her, she caused me nothing but pain, so no, I don't think so," he said, and Dr. Vince nodded in understanding.
"And do you have any idea why you see Charlotte?" the doctor asked.
Jane huffed again.
"Would I be here if I knew that?"
"I guess not."
Jane sat down again.
"Could you tell me what I can do against it?"
"I could, but I shouldn't. Like I told Agent Lisbon, you need to find out why all this is happening yourself. Find the reason behind this all, and-"
"I don't have time for that!" Jane roared, and the man looked wondered by this outburst.
"Now, tell me why not?"
Jane looked at his lap.
"Because Lisbon told me she didn't want to talk to me before I was healed," he murmured, and the doctor wrote it down.
"Can you describe your relationship with Agent Lisbon?"
Jane sighed.
"Are you focused on getting us together or what?" Jane asked, and the man raised his arms in defense.
"No, by no means, no! I was just interested in it, since you seem to be having more trouble with Agent Lisbon ignoring you than your current case of hallucinations."
Jane swallowed, and then closed his eyes.
"I'm right, aren't I?"
Jane nodded.
"How much does she mean to you?" the doctor asked, his voice calm and sweet.
Jane looked up, and swallowed again, in an attempt to get rid of the lump in his throat.
"She's everything to me. I don't care about myself, only she counts. I want to protect her so much, with all my life. I want to treasure her, make her feel perfect and loved. But I know that's not possible with me."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm me. I'm Patrick Jane, Red John is chasing me and he's destroying everything and everyone that makes me happy. He wants to punish me. Teresa's life will be in great danger if I will ever start something with her."
"But would you want it?"
"With all my heart. I would want nothing else."
"Have you told her?"
Jane shook his head.
"No, but she knows."
"Are you sure? Did you two talk this morning?" Dr. Vince asked, and Jane once again bit back his tears.
"No."
"So how exactly is she able to know how much you care about her, if you keep pushing her away?"
"I don't know, okay! I'm afraid that she'll push me away if I tell her about my feelings for her! I'm afraid it will destroy what we have now, this friendship that I really need especially in times like these. I can't tell her."
The doctor closed his notebook, and placed it on the desk behind him.
He focused on Jane again.
"Great work, Mister Jane."
Jane frowned.
"Do you realize what you just said?" Dr. Vince asked, on which Jane shook his head.
"I have the explanation behind all this. You are in love with Agent Lisbon, but you're afraid that if you admit these feelings, she will leave you. You created Charlotte in your mind to help you cope with said feelings. You locked them away for so many years, but now, you suddenly couldn't cope with them anymore and you thought of this. My guess: if you admit your feelings to Agent Lisbon, Charlotte will disappear because you won't be needing her anymore," the man explained.
Jane's face showed wonder. That didn't sound that surreal.
He got up, and went to shake the doctor's hand.
"Thank you very much, kid," he said, and before the man could protest on the name Jane gave him, Jane had left.
He was going to tell her. She had left for work that morning, but he was pretty sure she wouldn't stay there the entire day.
When he arrived at her apartment, she wasn't there yet.
He awaited her in the living room, Charlotte all the while talking to him. He ignored her, though.
But it had almost been three hours when Jane started to feel impatient. Apparently, he had guessed her state of mind wrong.
And then, he started to worry. Maybe something had happened to her? He jumped up, into the kitchen. He had no idea what he was doing, neither did Charlotte.
"Teresa is dead, isn't she, Dad?"
Red John had her, he was sure of it. Red John had gotten hold of Lisbon and he was killing her right now. He was so stupid. He had lost everything now. Lisbon was his reason for living. She was his air, his water, she was what he needed to stay alive.
"What are you going to do Dad? Are you going to punish yourself now? You should, really. No one can help you-"
Jane grabbed a knife, and smashed it into his lower arm with all his might. It didn't take long until he collapsed and passed out on the cold kitchen floor.
A/N: Okay, so Charlotte may have been acting weird at the end of this chapter, but hey, she's not real, Jane just made her up and since he is so sure Lisbon is dead, Charlotte is too. And I don't know why I punish Jane like this, but since it's MY story, I can do whatever I want :D.
There's still one chapter to go, I hope you still have interest in this story!
See you tomorrow for the big finale! And oh, please let me know what you think in a REVIEW, thank you!
