Hey guys! So, what a lot of you have been waiting for ... a new chapter! I finally got the time to update, I'm so sorry it's taken such a long time. I tried to write a long one for you, I hope you like it! Love you, Sydney
FABIAN'S POV
I got to take Nina home just a day after the incident. The Doctor said that everything was fine, she'd just have to take a bit of time off from being incredibly active, which was fine by Nina, since she'd been so tired.
"Ready to go home?" I asked her as we got into my little car.
"Yup!" she answered excitedly. Even just one night in a hospital room full of beeping and constant nurses can really make someone miss home.
We drove for ten minutes, Nina watching the scenery intently as she did every ride. She never really got used to the landscape.
"There's so many farms!" my beautiful girlfriend observed, her eyes trailing one farm after another. I could only imagine she was counting cows.
"Yeah, there are." I chuckled.
"I've always wanted to live on a farm." she said.
Her telling me this gave me an idea, and I pulled into a farm that Joy, Patricia and I often visited when we were younger.
Harrison Farm.
"Where are we going?" Nina asked, her voice getting higher and more excited as we drove up the drive.
"The farm, since you like them so much. Patricia, Joy and I used to come here a lot." I told her.
"Thank you!" she squealed, kissing my cheek quickly and getting out of the car. I've always loved it when she gets excited.
I followed Nina up to the shop, where the clerk was selling all kinds of fresh produce and little homemade gifts. The walls were all wooden, as were the floors, but they were freshly polished and gave off the illusion of an old country store. I suppose it really was one. Hot cider was heating in a pot on an old cast iron stove, and the scent filled the air like it would on the cool Fall days I missed so badly.
Nina looked awestruck, walking through the aisles and telling Nikita about all the different kinds of foods. I think she was trying to educate our daughter before she even arrived. Tom, the store owner, was sitting in his normal spot behind his counter.
"Fabian! Good to see you, boy." he said in his thick Irish accent. I shook his hand, saying, "good to see you too, Tom. How have you been?"
"Well, well, thank you. Life's the same, you know? In and out, farm all the time." Tom replied. He tried to act bored, but I could tell he really loved his life.
"So what about your life, how is it?" the man asked.
"Uh ... interesting. I met a girl." I answered, a smile playing on my lips when I talked about Nina.
"Oh, did you?"
"Yes, her name's Nina, and she's in here somewhere." at that moment, Nina came up behind me, tapping my shoulder and making me jump. Tom laughed hysterically at my grunt.
"Still jumpy, then?" he snickered. I nodded.
"Tom, this is Nina, my girlfriend." I introduced Nina to my friend, and he smiled widely, showing that toothy grin of his.
"So this is her! The famous Nina Martin!"
"Yup! I'm her!" Nina giggled. I took her hand in mine, and she squeezed it.
"How long have you two been together?" Tom asked, stacking crates of corn behind the desk as he did.
"It'll be exactly three years this Spring!" Nina said excitedly. I kissed her quick, it seemed like the right time to.
"Wow." was the answer we got.
For the next few hours, Nina and I wandered the snowy fields and ate Honey Sticks, which were Nina's favorite snack as a kid.
"It's really beautiful here." she noticed.
"Just like you." I whispered catching her lips and connecting them to mine. I can't lie: I wanted Nina to be my wife.
We made our way back to the car, but as Nina got in, Tom noticed she was pregnant. I expected him to slap me, but all he said was, "good job son. You really picked a winner", shook my hand, and walked away.
"Thank you for today." Nina told me as I drove us home.
"You're welcome." I smiled.
The rest of the ride was silent as Nina fell asleep in the passenger seat. She's so beautiful when she sleeps. The way her hair falls into her eyes, the way she smiles ever so slightly when she's dreaming, the way her hand falls on her arm ... she's flawless and perfect, no matter what she says.
NINA'S POV
I woke up to Fabian whispering in my ear, "we're home love". Opening my eyes, I realized we were in his car in front of the house.
"Morning sleepy." he said.
"It's not morning!" I laughed. Fabian rolled his eyes and got out of the car, running over to my side and opening the door for me. He held out a hand, and I took it.
"My queen." he crooned in a posh tone.
"My king!" We smiled and he walked me inside. It seemed nothing would hurt us that day.
And then the fight began.
It started out by the two of us bickering a bit over the baby's room color, but escalated quickly. Soon we were screaming about Nikita, arguing over whether or not it was right to bring her up together. We both thought it was, but we shouted anyways. I guess we both needed some kind of release for our stress, and that was the way to do it. I really don't think it was.
The fight ended with me running to my room crying, and Fabian sighing and going downstairs. I knew he didn't want to fight with me.
That night at dinner, we didn't speak a single word to each other. I longed so badly to reach out and grab his hand, to hold onto him like we were the last ones alive, but I couldn't without some kind of explanation. I could see the guilt in his eyes too, every time he looked at me it was there, shining like a fire. A fire that I wanted to keep in my heart forever, keep it there to stay warm.
We didn't sit on the couch together during homework time. He sat in the armchair and I sat with Amber, ignoring the fashion tricks she was telling me. I wanted to be there against him, so badly.
He didn't kiss me goodnight. That's what hurt me the most, and I cried myself to sleep.
The next morning, everything happened all over again. We didn't speak at breakfast. I sat with him in our classes, but we didn't talk, even though I kept sneaking glances at his beautiful face, and I would catch him looking at me too.
"Why don't you just make up?!" Amber screamed in the middle of class, "you're fighting for no reason! Is that really how you want to live?" when neither Fabian or I spoke, she sighed and went back to working.
That evening, I was arranging Nikita's room when someone knocked on the door.
"Come in." I yelled, expecting it to be Amber or Patricia.
Instead, Fabian came in, carrying his guitar and looking extremely sad.
"Hi." I muttered. He didn't say anything, but started strumming the guitar.
It's cold tonight.
It's the middle of December
without you to hold, I'll die.
Can't we just remember all the times we've had together,
how my love is forever.
I'm sorry for that fight.
It's two a.m.,
I'm still awake.
I wasn't aware of how badly my heart could break.
I miss your laugh,
I miss your smile.
I want your touch 'cause it's too cold to sleep tonight.
So stay awake with me.
Baby, I'm sorry, baby I miss you.
There's no limit to the things that I'll do.
And do you remember the time that I told you that I love you?
I promise I still do ...
They can't break me
if I'm already broken.
My heart's in pieces,
and I'm still always outspoken.
Without you here,
I'm nothing at all,
I promised that I would catch you when you fall.
And did you see the first snow
out your window?
It's just getting colder and I still want to keep you warm.
And away from my storm.
Baby, I'm sorry. Baby, I miss you.
There's no limit to the things that I'll do.
And do you remember the time that I told you that I love you?
I promise I still do ...
I can still feel your hand in mine,
feel our hearts beating out of time.
I'm not ready to let us go.
I can see that look in your eye,
when you said we were over,
what you meant was come closer
to me.
Baby, I'm sorry. Baby, I miss you.
There's no limit to the things that I'll do.
Baby, I'm sorry. Baby, I miss you.
Every breath I take is only for you.
And do you remember the time that I told you that I love you?
I promise I still do ...
I promise I always will ...
more than anyone else in the world.
"I'm so sorry, Nina. I really am," Fabian smiled at me, and a tear slid down my face, "are we okay?"
I nodded, and we kissed. My heart healed with every move.
"I love you." I said.
"I love you too."
Oh My Gosh I finally updated! :) WOOP WOOP! So, I hope you guys liked that, tell me if I can improve on anything. I absolutely love hearing from you guys, so tell me what you think! Oh yeah, I wrote the song too. It doesn't exactly have a title, but don't you think it's a bit Ed Sheeran-ish? Anyways, tomorrow's my birthday! And I have my laptop, so I'll try really hard to update as often as possible. Like, at least once a week. I love you all, thank you so much for your amazing reviews! Love love love, Sydney :P
