Harry Potter My Way

Chapter 8

Severus walked over and threw back a pain reliever potion down his throat. Sighing when it began to work, he was annoyed with the boy. Turning around acting more like himself he threw his student a glare from his death eater day. It did not seem to work on Harry, Harry knew more about him than anyone else. Not that Severus knew that Harry knew.

"Well?" snapped Severus when he did not receive an answer.

Harry just glared at him his green eyes alight with anger. He could not believe that the man had not taken him in. To think he could have been brought up in the Wizarding world? And not abused either, he knew the man would never abuse him.

"I hate you, and to think my mother trusted you!" shouted Harry.

"What the hell are you going on about boy?" snarled Severus. He was getting annoyed with the conversation. He had no idea what Harry was blabbing about, and he did not like being told that Lily should not have trusted him. That was of course technically what Harry had said to him.

Harry sank onto the floor surprised to see his mother's diary was in his pocket. He did not remember putting it there. Looking up at the man, Harry was confused to see Severus confused. Hope rose in him, the hope that the man did not know but if he did not know then how? You needed to be there when the godson is christened so something must have happened? More determined to find out what was going on he blurted out.

"Why did you not tell me you were my godfather?"

"What? I'm not your godfather, Pettigrew was Black is" snapped Severus. He had been disappointed when Lily had not chosen him to be godfather of her child. He knew he did not deserve that kind of precious gift from anyone. He was just a death eater, dark wizard and spy.

"No you are, unless my mother decided to lie in her own personal Diary" said Harry somewhat sarcastically.

"Look maybe she changed her mind, I'm not your godfather" said Severus sadly. He had wanted to take Harry in when James and Lily had died. Everyone thinking him a death eater he would never have been given the boy.

"You are she even talks about the christening!" said Harry.

"What?" asked Severus. He was confused, either Lily was delusional or he had somehow lost his memory of that event. Or thought Severus angrily 'he had been obliviated of course he did not jump to conclusions. He wanted to make sure that Harry was not making a mistake.

"Mum, she spoke about that day clearly. Sirius and all the others were obliviated to not know you were there" said Harry. Still sitting on the stone cold dungeons floor, and did not look as thought he wanted to move any time at all.

"What exactly does she say?" Asked Severus curiously

Harry lifted up the book, opening it at the right page he began to read. His voice flowing over them both, so much emotion flowing through his voice as he read his mothers words That made him realise that he had once been cherished and loved.

"Dear diary, Today is the day my little boy, Harry Potter gets christened. Nothing could make me happier! Sirius and Severus are going to be his godfathers. It took a lot to convince Severus to agree, he was scared he would get found out, and put us in danger. I told him we would obliviate them and I am going to stick to the promise."

Harry shuffled to the next page it was obviously it was after the church.

"Oh Harry was such a good boy for us today, he did not even cry at all. I love his eyes, they always shine with such green it's startling, and to think mine are like that. He is my beautiful baby boy, I'm so proud of him. Everyone is obliviated, apart from Severus, James and I as well as the headmaster.

The church was beautiful and so was the day the pictures with Sev with Harry are safely tucked in a vault in Gringotts, I don't want my friend endangered. And Gringotts is the safest place in the world. I just hope it stays that way, well goodbye for now I have more pictures to develop. We tried to put Harry in Peter's hands, he doesn't seem to like him, poor man he never is well liked. Lily Evans" finished Harry.

"No" was all Severus could get out. There was only one person who knew about him attending or the fact that he was made Harry's godfather obviously from the diary's say was Dumbledore. He did not want to even think that the man had obliviated him.

"What do you mean no! You think my mum lied in her diary?" snarled Harry. Not understanding what Severus was saying no to.

"Shut up and let me think" snapped Severus. Hating the fact that his 'godson' thought the worst of him. He had known the headmaster was manipulative, but to remove someone's memories. It was illegal and highly dangerous; he had broken a man's trust by doing that. Not that Severus had trusted him that much to start but it still hurt the man.

"I don't remember it, seems a certain someone has obliviated me" said Severus. Who seemed to deflate sitting down he sighed, he sat on his potions chair, which was stiff and the colour is black.

"obliviate?" asked Harry confused.

Severus' head snapped up, realising his godson did not know he rolled his eyes irritated.

"It means someone has removed your memory from your mind, makes you forget anything." said Severus.

"Someone can do that?" asked a shocked Harry. He had only after all been in the Wizarding world for five weeks. He had learned a lot but they charms are not learned until seventh year. Along with the potion that takes ten hours of memory away.

"Of course they can" snapped Severus. Forgetting he was practically speaking to a muggle born. Lily and James would be horrified if they knew what had happened to their son. The last Potter heir raised by muggles knowing nothing about the Wizarding world was a disgrace.

"Sorry" said Harry. It was a slip of the tongue, he always apologised when he got shouted at. He hated when he done that, it was annoying. There was nothing he could do it was just instincts. He was so used to apologising to his uncle for things he was supposed to have done.

"Why are you apologising for something you did not know?" asked Severus across from Harry.

"Sorry for asking" shrugged Harry. Like he was going to tell the man the truth, please as if the man would care anyway' thought Harry bitterly. No one did not really, His teachers from his other school didn't he had watched as his uncle paid them off and he was beaten. Before they ignored Harry like everyone else, they would call him a freak just like his uncle were there was no one around.

"Fine, there is nothing we can do right now. I will make a potion that will check and break the spell. Even after it's broken I cannot be nice to you so there is no point to this" said Severus.

"You don't want to knowledge this?" asked Harry. Hiding his hurt behind his iced over heart, He was used to being a disappointment and a freak why would he think the man would want him if all he knows is hurt pain and disappointment.

"We can't it's too dangerous" said Severus. He may be Harry's godfather but he would never be given custody of the boy. He was just a death eater; he would then be thrown in Azkaban. He would never legally be the boy's godson.

"Fine, who is Sirius Black?" asked Harry. This was his last chance to get away from the Dursleys and stay in Hogwarts. If he did not find someone to care for him he would not be back to Hogwarts. He knew that the headmaster would force him back unless something was done. And that was the last thing he wanted, forced back to the Dursleys he had sworn he would not let anyone to push him around. That was a promise he swore he would keep even if it killed him.

"Sirius Black betrayed your parents, and killed your other godfather he was a death eater" said Severus.

"Oh" said Harry. There was nothing else he could say. Getting up he walked away never once looking back at the man. What was left of his heart was iced over that very moment his heart became cold, hard and unfeeling along with his feelings and himself.