I looked up as Alice handed me my letter, It felt like part of me was coming home. Only a mother would know how this would feel when their lost child reappears in any shape or form.

I forced my voice to come out crystal clear as I began to read;

(Esme's Thoughts) (Letter)

"Dear Esme...

Today I made my final decision to send you a letter. I figured even if you and the rest of the Cullen's hate me I should write a goodbye to the only true mother I ever met. I know the chances of you reading this is minimal and if you read it and laugh... well I guess I deserve it."

NO NO NO my sweet baby girl, I could never laugh at you sweetheart. I would never hate you either your my sweet innocent baby, and what about Renee.. she's your mother sweetheart. Even if I hate that I know its true.

"It's true I had Renne but she wasn't a mother to me, she didn't look after me the way you did, she abandoned me as soon as she could. Then Edward bought you in to my life and I found it so hard to let you be a mother to me even if I knew in some way you were the best Mom I met. But then you did the same as Renee... You left me.

I don't blame you, If I was you I would leave me. I'm just a plain human who knew that having vampire's 'love' her would one day hurt her because she would ever fit in. But for some reason I felt protected by you all, like you might actually care for me and how I feel. The way a family should make there children and brothers or sister feel."

NO BELLA! I would never really leave you im so sorry baby I wish I was there with you now. You will never realise how much you saying I was the best mom you met meant to me. How could you think you were plain sweetheart, did you not see how much every member of this family lit up when you came in to the house? I know I did...

"When Edward told me the truth and left me in the forest I realised that the family I found were the same as my biological family. I cried out for Edward... My big brothers Jasper and Emmett. My sisters Alice and Rosalie and for my newly found parents... You and Carlisle. I found myself back in my room three months later catatonic, I believe is what they called me.

In a week Charlie is going hunting again and I am going cliff diving. At least thats what I will say... really I am going to jump off that cliff to kill myself. I wanted to say bye to you momma. I loved you and as much as I want to deny it knowing you will be laughing in my face for this letter I still love you."

You will never realise how much we all wanted to be accepted by you as your family Bella... please sweet heart dont jump. I will stop you.. don't do the same stupid thing I did to myself.

"I tried to carry on for Charlie and to let you know I would live for you. I rode motorbikes with strangers to heard Edwards voice... A Cullen voice... I built bikes with a shape shifter and rode them till I fell and hit my head off a rock to hear him... But now I have lost that voice again and I know I cant live without him. Without all of you."

Your so strong baby girl, Please baby just hold on till I can get there... as soon as this meetings over I will be there baby.

"I have been trying to protect everyone I love for so long... Maybe not always from supernatural influences but from themselves. Now Victoria is back, she wants to avenge her dead mate. She wants to stop the pain she feels... The loss of a mate. She will hurt people I care about because of me. If I am dead this wouldn't happen. You wouldn't have had to leave Forks to find a new home and start again so soon because of me.

I am sorry for sending you this letter knowing I was just a pet to you, a mere distraction to cause you and your family fun. I got your address off the internet ... Bye Mommy.

Love Always

Isabella Marie."

As I read the end of the letter I knew my heart break was apparent in my eyes as Carlisle's hand wrapped around my shoulders and pulled me in to his lap to comfort me.. How could I do this to my baby? What sort of mother would let her child live through pain alone?

I vowed when my mother left me to Charles's wrath I would never let that happen to a child of mine but am I not as bad as my own mother? I left my baby girl to fend for herself after she finally began to trust us all.

Hang on Bella.. Im coming for you.


Bella sighed, she was working on the last 3 songs she had to write for the family.

With an awkward sigh she began Emmett's song :

Tall, dark and superman
He puts papers in his briefcase and drives away
To save the world or go to work
It's the same thing to me
He's got his mother's eyes, his father's ambition
I wonder if he knows how much that I miss him
I hang on every word you say, yay
And you smile and say, "How are you? "
I say, "Just fine"
I always forget to tell you, I love you, I love you... forever

I watch superman fly away
You've got a busy day today
Go save the world, I'll be around
I watch superman fly away
Come back I'll be with you someday
I'll be right here on the ground
When you come back down

Bella let out a soft giggle, this song described Emmett exactly how she wanted it too.


Bella smiled and began to work on Alice's song knowing how special this song had to be.

I come home in the morning light,
My mother says "When you gonna live your life right?"
Oh,mother,dear,
We're not the fortunate ones,
And girls,
They wanna have fu-un.
Oh,girls,
Just wanna have fun.

The phone rings in the middle of the night,
My father yells "What you gonna do with your life?"
Oh,daddy,dear,
You know you're still number one,

Bella giggled, this was defiantly a song she could imagine Alice singing.


With a sigh Bella began to work on the last song she was going to write, Edwards song.

She had decided not to write him a letter because it was too painful. His Bella was dead.

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye,
Not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any sins,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,


AN: Hey guys, Basically I decided to post a chapter every hour starting now and ending probably at 11 o'clock.

So this was Esme's reaction and the last 3 songs, Basically I had some people saying no lyrics some saying all lyrics so I split the middle and put a few of the lyrics so you can choose if you want to find it or not.

The songs In this chapter are:

Taylor Swift - Superman

Cyndi Lauper -Girls Just Wanna Have Fun

Adele - Do you remember