You can do this. You are the Avatar. You are the bridge between the spirit world and this world. You can do this. You silently kept repeating in your head. As you stare into the sea of eyes. So many eyes. How can there be so many eyes. You flashed back to when you first saw so many eyes staring at you. It was the afternoon when you arrived in Republic City. When you told the city that you were the Avatar … and you were here to stay. That you weren't afraid of Amon. That you weren't afraid of the Equalists movement.
Oh how wrong you were. How very wrong. Amon proved you wrong.
But you had to over come your fear. You had to bring Amon down. If you didn't then the world would be out of balance. You were the Avatar and you have to bring balance.
But you have yet overcome the fear of public speaking. You weren't used to it. You were used to the masters, and White Lotus of the compound. After all you grew up with them. You knew them. You trusted them. But this sea of people … you don't know. Expect for Tenzin and his family. Mako and Bolin. Even Chief Lin Bei Fong. You search desperately to find those eyes. The eyes that would smoother your soul.
You couldn't find them. You feel the sweet fall slowly down your back. You just prayed that no one could see how wet you actually were from where they were silently staring back at you. Why were they silent? They should be talking. Someone should be talking. Tarrlok should be talking.
"Avatar Korra will be speaking once she forms her thoughts." Tarrlok's voice echoed through the speakers.
Oh so he's waiting for you to speak.
You can do this. You are the Avatar. You are the bridge between the spirit world and this world. You can do this. You are the Av …. I CAN'T DO THIS. Aang help! Your eyes swim over the sea of eyes desperately trying to find one familiar eyes. Just one. You found warm and gentle brown eyes. You knew those eyes.
You stepped up to the mic. You open your mouth to speak. You close it once more. You suddenly couldn't speak. Not one word. I can't do this. Retreat. Get out. Go!
You were about to flee for your life when …. you caught the sight of bright emerald green eyes staring into your soul. You got this. You can over come whatever is standing in your way. I believe in you Avatar Korra. You open your mouth and start to speak. You couldn't take your eyes off those green eyes.
Off of Asami.
Off the woman whom has stolen Mako from you. The only man you have ever fallen in love with. She stole him from you even before you had your chance with him. How can you compete with her? She has it all. Money, pose, a normal typical childhood. She grew up in Republic City surrounded by people. While you grew up in the Southern Water Tribe …. in the middle of no where. With metal walls surrounding you. You grew up alone in a compound. You were the only child among a select group of adults. How could you even think that Mako would even be slightly interested in you besides as friends.
You lost the contest even before you knew Mako existed.
You wanted to hate Asami Sato. You really truly did. Even though you just met her. Like said perhaps four words to her. You really, really wanted to hate the woman. But you just couldn't. Even through your heart broke knowing that Mako was falling in love with her. That he would never be yours. You just can't hate her.
Your spirit has never felt this calm before. Not even when you were looking into your mother or father's eyes when you had to talk to the adults in the compound. You didn't feel anxious at all. You felt confidant that you were saying the right things the right way.
What is it about Asami's spirit that soothes you like this? How is her spirit calming your spirit? How is it that it feels so right that her spirit is intertwined with yours? So deeply intertwined. How is it that you aren't scared of what this means? That you finally felt the source of the peace you always felt since you entered this world? How you felt this spirit within even while you were growing in your mother's womb.
You knew that you didn't have time to discover the answers to this mystery. At least not while Amon remained a threat. You promised once you have neutralized Amon … then you would seek the answers that you desperately needed.
You stopped speaking. You heard the cheers and the clapping around you. But those eyes spoke more to you then any other person alive. You believed what the spirit in those eyes spoke to you.
You had to stop Amon for this spirit. You had to protect this spirit from Amon. You vowed that you will over come your fear of his power of taking away bending …. your bending …. so you could protect this spirit whom was counting on you.
You are the Avatar. You are the bridge between the spirit world and this one. You are the protector of this soul whom desperately needs you. You are the Avatar.
Author's Note: I wanted to dive into Korra's thoughts on her speech at the gala in b1. Especially right after meeting Asami. After realizing that Mako was interested in Asami and not in her. Sorry if this was all over the place …. but remember early on in b1 Korra had a fear of public speaking …. so her thoughts would be in turmoil whenever she was forced into the situation.
