BPOV
I was so tired, we got back to Jake's and I went straight into the bathroom, to shower, this time I remembered my clothes. I pulled on my shorts and a t-shirt and went to Jake's room and collapsed on the bed, I was immediately out.
I woke up the next morning, and looked at the clock. Six in the morning. I groaned. I wonder where Jacob is? I got out of bed and walked into the living room. There he was, in all his glory, half dressed as usual, sleeping on the couch. I can't believe I love him. Who would have figured, that one week I would be marring a vampire, then the next week, I would actually be a werewolf, and in love with his mortal enemy. I need to go for a walk and think.
I went and wrote a note for Jacob, that I would be walking on the beach, and to not worry. Then I was out the door, once in the woods, I phased and ran. God. It felt good, to just run. Wait, what is that noise? It sounds like crying, this early? I thought I was the only one that pathetic. I phased back to my human form and got dressed. I see a girl sitting on a log on the beach. Leah. I walk closer. She looks up at me and glares.
"What do you want leech-lover?" She says with malice.
"I want to say I'm sorry." She looks at me with a look of shock.
"Let me explain. I hope I can ease some of your discomfort. I want to let you know you are not alone with what you are feeling. I know that is no consolation, and you can hate me all you want. But I am only going to say this once, and I hope you can understand. Will you hear me out, without interrupting just this once? Then if you want you never have to talk to me again." I waited for her answer and she nodded. So I sat next to her and continued.
"I think I understand how you feel. I thought I did before, but now I know for sure. You are mad at me for you having to deal with this life. I love a vampire, and that said vampire took your love away, only your love is still here, but you have to sit and watch him love someone else, because of what he is, he has no choice. Then you get thrown into this whole werewolf mess too. All because the Cullans came back for me. You were the only girl in the pack, now your not. It makes you feel like your not so special anymore. I want you to know you are not alone." She had a look of shock on her face, so I let it sink in for now. Then she nodded that I can continue. "When Edward left me in the woods that day, I thought I was dying. All of a sudden my world was ripped away, I had everything planned out, I was going to graduate, then Carlisle would change me, then Edward and I would live for eternity together. I was so in love. Then all of a sudden it was ripped from me. I was told he didn't love me, that I was only a measly human, a distraction, it will be like he never existed. I was crushed. It would never be like he never existed. All my plans revolved around him. Now that I think about it, it was pretty pathetic of me to rely on him so much, but I couldn't live without him. So you see I understand how you feel about Sam. You and me, we are not that different. We have both been through some hard times." She nodded, she had tears in her eyes, and I did too. I put my arms around her.
"When me and Jake started to hang out, it was nice. I started to think that maybe I could love again. But it wouldn't be fair to him to only give him a piece of my heart, when Edward had a bigger piece. Then when he phased for the first time, he told me he didn't want me. I thought I would die. He was my sun, he kept me together when the world was falling apart around me, then he ripped it away. In my eye's he was the same as Edward. Of course he came and told me what he was, well I guessed, but anyway what I am trying to tell you is don't give up on love. Look at me, look at Jake, Me the love of his life broke his heart, married his worst enemy, tryed to turn myself into his enemy, and look, here I am living with him, we imprinted on each other, I've been told that is pretty rare. I guess what I'm trying to say is, La Push is a very small piece of the world, you have to go out and look for your love, if you just sit here you just gonna be miserable and make everyone you love and who love you miserable."
We sat there for an hour, just crying on eachother's sholders. When we were all cryed out, she looked at me and said, "You know, if you weren't a leech-lover, we could have probably been good friends." I laughed and she did too. Then I got an idea.
"How would you like to designate one day a month to 'Wolf-Girls Night Out' It will be Emily, Kim, You and Me. When Clair gets old enough she can come too. We can start his Friday, it's only 2 days away." She smiled and jumped up. "I'll go call Emily and Kim now, thanks Bella, you know your not so bad." I laughed and we raced to Jake's house where we split up and she went home. As I was opening the door my cell started to go off, so I stepped back outside and answered it. It was Alice.
"Alice? Is everything Ok?" I said wondering why she would be calling me.
"Everything is fine, I just wanted to know if you wanted to go shopping, and meet the new girl?" I laughed.
"Well it's only been 1 day, but she will be ok by tomorrow right? She didn't have much blood left in her so that will speed things up right? I have patrol again tonight, but I really need more clothes, and I also have a couple errands to do, so how's tomorrow? I can meet you at the border and we can meet the new girl afterwards?" I said actually excited for once.
"That would be great. Don't worry it will just be Me, and Rose, and you."
"K talk to you tomorrow." I hung up and went in the house. Jacob was in the kitchen attempting to make pancakes.
I came up to him and said, "You know I think I will live with cereal this morning." He laughed and said, so you had a little heart to heart with Leah?"
"How'd you know?" I was surprised.
He laughed. "When you took so long, I got worried so I went and looked for you, I over heard you conversation. You really are something else Bells. Only you can turn Leah from a cold-bitch to a blubbering idiot, then you decide to go shopping of all things with our arch Nemesis." He was clutching his sides trying unsuccessfully to not laugh.
"Jacob Black, Leah is not cold hearted. I would think you of all people would be simpathetic to her. You know what she went through. She just needed to understand that she is not alone, and yes there is someone out there for her, and Alice is still my friend, she will always be my friend, remember I'm Switzerland." and with that I walked into the bathroom and locked the door and took a shower.
Jacob didn't say much to me the rest of the day well he tried but I ignored him. Patrol was pretty uneventful. And sleep that night was well non existent. The talk with Leah opened up some old wounds, and I layed in bed crying, trying not to disturb Jacob who was sleeping on the couch. I was in a ball, crying when I heard the door open, and felt the bed shift. I felt his arms around me, and I turned to him and cryed myself to sleep in his chest. He never left me, he just rubbed by back and kissed my head every once in a while. I knew I could always count on Jacob to be there for me when I needed him.
