Sorry for the lack of updates...on everything. I've been busy with exams and life and...everything. So I'm trying to update all my favourite stories so that I won't be maimed by my reviewers and readers. Sorry if this seems kinda short. But the chapters hve been written for about 5 months and I'm kind of umwilling to change them in case I ruin the flow of the story becuase it has been a while since I last looked at them. But if this chapter is unliked, I'll re-write it and the rest of the chapters and post them up soon. There are only (at the moment) just 2 chapters left of this story. So this is the beginning of the end. Heres chapter 8.

Disclaimer: I dont own anything bar the plot. I tried buying Sora and Roxas from Squre Enix but they wouldnt let me have them. Apparently they dont do I.O.U's.

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Chapter 8: Broken and Numb

I should have left. I still have a chance. I can get away and wait until this blows over. But no. I haven't moved.

Namine phoned Roxas and he said he was coming over. Then I sat on the couch and haven't moved since. Most definitely an idiot.

So here I am, Namine sitting opposite me, and we're waiting for Roxas. I have no idea how I'm going to handle this situation. I wish this is a nightmare and I'm going to wake up before Roxas gets here.

"What do I do after this?" I look up at Namine, her head is in her hands.

"What do you mean? What am I going to do after this? My best friend is about to find out that I've loved him for 2 years."

"My boyfriend is about to find out I love his brother but I still love him."

Yeah, she wins.

"Just tell him straight out. It's the easiest way."

"How did I get myself into this situation?"

"You cant help who you fall in love with." My heart beats increasing. Its either nerves or anticipation. Roxas is going to know.

'knock knock'

Oh dear god. I'm going to need a miracle. Namine stands up and smoothes down her dress. She walks to the door and rests her hand on the snip. She breaths in and opens the door. Roxas takes off his hood and steps in. The way he looks. That warmth in his eyes makes me fall in love with him all over again. But I know that in a matter of minutes, that warmth is going to be shattered.

"What's wrong Namine? Kairi?"

"Sit down Roxas," Namine says. I move over and make room for him on the couch.

"There's something wrong, isn't there?"

"I need to tell you something Roxas." That pang of sympathy I felt for Namine before in the café has come back even greater. She's torn between two loves and she's got to tell her boyfriend.

"You're worrying me Namine."

"Its about Sora." I see anger flicker across Roxas' face.

"What's he done now?"

"Its not just him…its…its me too." Roxas moves back slightly, confused. "You see…I…I…" I see she's about to cry. I feel like I shouldn't be here. "I…I love him."

I'm sure I heard Roxas heart break. He doesn't move, he doesn't blink, its like he's frozen.

"But-"

"Please, Roxas. I love you, so much, please believe me. I just…I love him too. Its hard to explain-"

"It isn't," Roxas whispers. "Just tell me, how long?"

"Since he left."

"So you led me on, all this time?" I could hear the anger rise in his voice.

"No, never. I love you."

"You cant love us both."

"I can. But I'm not the only one."

"What?"

"I'm not the only one that loves you." Crap. Now its my turn. "Ask Kairi." I cant look at him. I feel his eyes on me but I cant face him.

"Kairi?" he whispers. "What does she mean?" The finale. Judgement day. Armageddon.

"I…I love you." I feel the weight on the couch lessen. He's standing up.

"I…" Your killing me Roxas. I look at him as he walks out the door into the rain, not bothering to pull his hood up.

"Kairi." I ignore my sister. I'm in a tank top and sweatpants and slippers but I don't care. I run out into the rain after him.

"Roxas!" He ignore me and keeps going. "Please Roxas!" No answer. "Why are you ignoring me?" He stops and I run straight into him. He doesn't make a move. Broken. "Roxas," I whisper.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"I couldn't."

"We're best friends."

"That's just it. Best friends. I couldn't risk that. I couldn't tell you and risk losing you."

"But still, I would've understood." I let out a shot laugh.

"Your best friend would've just told you she had been in love with you for the past 2 years."

"2 years?"

"But you love Namine. My sister for Christ's sake." I didn't think it would be this hard. Love seems so simple. It can be the greatest thing in the world or it can cause the greatest amount of pain. "I couldn't do that to her, to you, to me. I couldn't tell you and then risk losing you. It would've been too hard."

"And it isn't now? Didn't you think about how I would feel?"

"Of course I did, I-"

"No. You just thought about what it would be like for you. It takes two to tango Kairi. There's always someone else, you just didn't bother thinking about me."

"You don't understand, Roxas."

"Of course I don't!" I knew he'd hate me. It's all over. "My best friend, someone I trust so much, doesn't bother to tell me she's in love with me."

"Roxas! I'm in love with my best friend who loves my sister! That's why I couldn't tell you!" This is too complicated. I feel the tears in my eyes. The more this conversation goes on, the more I realise he probably doesn't love me back. "I love you! I love you! I love you! Please Roxas."

"I cant." A tear rolls down my cheek. "I cant do any of this right now."

"Roxas."

"I'm sorry, I cant."

He turns away.

He doesn't love me.

As he walks away, I feel like he's taken my heart with him, only for him to throw it away.

He doesn't love me.

The rain. I cant feel it anymore. So numb as the tears wont stop coming.

He doesn't love me.

"I cant."

He doesn't love me.

He's gone and my heart is broken.

He doesn't love me.

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