So, here is my updated chapter, get help a lot by my lovely Beta, R Bitch. And thank you for the review please let them coming..
Chapter 08
She is mine
He didn't know for how long he had been standing there and been blank from what he had just heard from his girlfriend, or ex-girlfriend (maybe). Dan Humphrey suddenly had the difficulties to digest (or the right word is to believe) what Heidi had just said to him. Blair Waldorf, his Blair, Chuck's Blair, is engaged to his buddy Nate, that Nathanial Archibald? Sure he was her first love, but it was a very long time ago, like Dinosaur's long time ago, before the Chuck-Blair Inevitable relationship happened.
How? How could that happen? She was engaged to Chuck when I left her, or she left me (whatever).
There were so many unanswered questions in Dan's head that needed to be answered ASAP (as soon as possible). But those questions were just making him more confused than ever or before. The chilled night of New York couldn't shake his feet, he just stood there, thinking hard. Big question is how, how come. Why had Nate never told him yet? Why did he hide the fact that he got engaged with Blair Waldorf!
Or maybe he was waiting to tell him later, or maybe when he was in his grave..
Then suddenly he remembered another fact, Aubrey. So, does it mean that Aubrey is Blair's daughter? But that didn't help him figure out the answer of his first questions, obviously it added up more to his confusion.
Dan Humphrey stayed up all night in front of his laptop crossing his own border and finally logged onto Gossip Girl, he just needed to know what he's been missing all this years. He searched and read all the news about Blair Waldorf, from the first time in his life he felt so low that he had to log onto Gossip Girl to stalk Blair Waldorf and get news or feeds on her. Without his realization, the sun was already up, but he couldn't find what he wanted to find. Since when does Gossip Girl become such a flat-out no help, it seemed like it lost all the juicy secrets. Then there was beeps coming from his phone, finally he switched his attention from his laptop to his phone. It was Mike, his new agent, the one that convinced him to come promote his new book in New York City.
"Where are you Dan? I called your hotel, and Heidi seemed furious at me for asking about you, did you guys have a fight? Well that's not the point, the point is where are you Dan? You need to come to the seminar!" Mike is younger then him, a chatter-box, and a demanding agent, but he is efficient and not a meddler. That's why he likes him and also hired him to be his new agent.
"I'm at my loft." Yes, Dan finally came back to his loft after he realized that Heidi would surely kick him out if he came back to the hotel, everyone he knew and close to were already moving out from NYC, except Nate, but sure he won't go to Nate. And it was all nostalgic coming back to his loft.
"Where?"
"In Brooklyn. I'll be there, and please bring me something nice to wear. And cologne. Thanks."
He showed up at the university where he was going to be a spokesman and greeted them with a suspicious Mike staring at him. The time he started changing and was getting ready for the occasion, the normal Mike (not the suspicious one) was giving him details on the seminar. Dan tried hard to be as professional as he could, and he decided he could do this. For his own problem, he just needs to ask explanation directly from Nate. Ok, that's the plan.
Dan hadn't wasted any time, when his part was over, he walked out right away and hailed a cab. He headed to Nate's office, to get the straight answer to all his questions. He stormed into the office asking where Nate's office is. The receptionist was shocked but she told him where it was, but followed him right away, saying that Mr. Archibald is not in the office and in a meeting right now. But Dan kept walking, heading to Nate's office, and as she said no one was there. The secretary called Nate, furiously staring at him, and then. "He said you could wait in here, he'll be finished soon." she said in defeat, and then left him alone in Nate's office.
There were so many pictures of Aubrey and Blair (apparently, hanging there), and in all that pictures he saw how happy they were. Blair in particularly, she looked different, her face was glowing and she seemed so content. And there was one picture that he thought must be new, it seemed like Aubrey's birthday party, and in that picture, Nate and Blair stood happily and everyone was clapping (except Chuck), guess it was the time Nate proposed to Blair. It had been a long time since he had seen her this happy and content. His heart ached, knowingly that someone else could make her that happy.
"Dan, why didn't you tell me you were coming, I mean you can't just come bashing into the office, you know?" Nate came closer, but Dan put on the defensive mode, giving no sign that he came for a friendly chat.
"Why didn't you tell me that you were engaged to Blair?" he just needs to get to the point right away.
"So, you already know, I've been meaning to tell you"
"What was so hard to tell me that you were with Blair." without realizing he used his high pitch frustrated voice.
"And why are you yelling at me? It's not my fault that you left her, I wanted to tell you the moment I met you in Paris, but I saw you Dan, the moment I mentioned New York, you shrunk from your seat. It was like you didn't want to hear any news about Blair from me, so I kept it that way."
"And how am I supposed to tell you that I've fallen in love with her, when that woman is Blair."
He didn't have any other words to argue with, and he didn't know to respond to Nate. He was so mad that he had behaved like a teenager in a rage or having a fit just because someone was dating his crush. He was so frustrated that he could throw anything right now. And he made a clever decision not to act out, but turned around and walked away.
"Dan" Nate called his name and Dan turned looked at Nate and turned back, he didn't have any other thing to say to Nate.
He walked around Manhattan and couldn't stop himself, he just needed to clear his head out. And for sure he knew that he wouldn't be going back to his loft, it was all dusty and the fact that it's was so full of memories made it worse. And he didn't know where else to go.
After his feet felt numb cause of the walking, Dan decided that he should go back to the hotel and at least make peace with Heidi. Sooner or later he must deal with Heidi, plus leaving while in a rage of emotion wasn't good either. So he went back to the hotel and found Heidi there, watching her favorite cartoon. Dan apologized for everything and that what she said was all true, that it seems he couldn't forget this one girl even after leaving the city and moving out far away.
"I'm so sorry for everything.. You were right, I couldn't forget Blair, I even tried it the hard way by moving out of the city for 7 years, but yes, I still couldn't forget her. I'm so sorry." This is the first time he admitted his un-resolved feelings for Blair, it was hard but at the same time he felt relieved like he had lost a mountain of burden from his back.
She kept on staring at him, first with her annoyed eyes, but now those eyes slightly change into sympathetic and pity eyes, yes, she pitied him, what a sad man he must be, to try to forget the girl he loves and move out for 7 years and in his exiled he still could not forget about her. "Yeah, you should be sorry."
He didn't expect that, but those words eased his worry, he was afraid that she would start the annoying fighting like years ago when she found out about Claire Carlyle. "Okay then. Thanks" Dan turned his body and was ready to leave the hotel room. Because now, he would feel more ashamed of himself if he stayed longer.
"Dan, wait."
He was surprised and turned to find out what Heidi wants after she now knows about his failed love life.
"Maybe we could start over."
"As friends." She waited for his respond, in nervousness, she didn't know whether it was the right request or not. "I think we can start as friends"
"You seem to need friends now." She smiled at him, waiting for his response.
And he smiled gladly, that finally he has someone to keep him company. Maybe, Dan Humphrey wasn't ready to start a new relationship, but for sure He is ready to make a new friend.
Nate pulled Aubrey's blanket up, when finally his little girl fell asleep after 2 bed-time stories he read to her. He looked at her in awe, she is not his, but she and Blair are the world to him, and it all happened like it was really meant to happen. He didn't plan all this, but his path had lead him to fall in over and over for his first love and world, Blair Waldorf.
"Is she already sleeping?"
"Yes, after two stories. I think we need to hire a child author to make a new interesting story. Or else she would force me to read and read until its dawn." Nate chuckled imagining it. Aubrey loves to read and she demands bed-time stories before sleeping, and the common the story, the longer she would sleep, because she will ask for another one to be read.
Blair smiled knowing how true his word was. She took off her shoes and jacket, and came near to Nate's seat. "And what is worrying you so much, that you have to drink alone?" She took Nate's glass and drinks the wine.
Nate couldn't help but pull her on his lap, and plant a light butterfly kiss on her lip, not to his surprise Blair starts to kiss him back. And it tasted way better than his wine.
"What's wrong, Nate?" she looked into his eyes, and gosh, how he loves to look into those beautiful brown doe eyes. Whenever she looked at him like that, all of his insecurities of her feelings towards him is all gone. He knows for sure that her heart is all his, like when they were still in childhood, and he would cherish it more, keep learning from his mistake in the past. He would not let her go, and even if she gives up on him or left him he would fight for it until his dying breath, as long she keeps on looking at him like that.
He puts his forehead on her, so they could touch and so that he could see and feel those eyes closely, cause it was all he needs right now. "I met Dan" and she paused there, and searched his eyes. "He found out about us." she kept on searching his eyes, which made him a little bit uncomfortable. "I think he still loves you, Blair" and then she pulls out, now with her accusing eyes staring at him.
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"I'm just saying, Blair."
"He looked so miserable today when he came to see me." she started to stand up, now standing in front of him with her fierce eyes, accusing him for the meaning of what he did just now.
"Then what do you expect me to do? Cuddle him?" Blair glared at him, she almost yelled if she wasn't remembering that Aubrey was sleeping.
He was taken aback with Blair's reaction, he thought she wouldn't be that furious. "Maybe..." he would have to choose the right next sentences or else he would have to sleep in the guest room, and get up early in the morning to crawl back to their bedroom before Aubrey gets up, and then starts questioning them all day long or even worse for days. Because the last time Aubrey found out they slept separately was when he got a cough and didn't want to contaminate Blair or rather Blair didn't want to get contaminated, and she was so busy coming out with her new line, and she was questioning him for almost a week that he needed to bring her to his doctor to prove it. Waking up early before Aubrey is not an easy task either, since Aubrey is a morning person.
Blair was still furiously waiting for Nate's next maybe. "Maybe, we should tell him the truth about Aubrey."
Blair almost shot him dead with her glared that gave him, more horror than before, she turned around and walked away towards their room. Before she vanished to their room, she turned her back and looked at Nate with a sharp look, that he knew for sure, he would end up sleeping in the guest room and do the exhausting routine, without lighting up another fight in the morning when he crawled back into their bedroom, or else there would be two people that he loves the most that would be mad at him, and it would be a nightmare for him if that happened. He took a deep sigh, knowing that he would lose no matter what Blair's next sentence was.
And she finally spoke, to his relieve; he wasn't prepared to be stared at like that for a long time.
"I carried her for 9 months in my belly and raised her up for 7 years!" and she turned around. "In case you didn't notice, she is mine! And no one else has the right to claim her. Not you and not even him!" with that she closed the door, and he was just so thankful that Aubrey was asleep, or else, and he believed that Blair was going to hurt that door if it was human.
Nate took a deep sigh before heading to the guest room and setting his alarm for the early morning. One lady in this house is enough to be mad at him, he didn't want to add Aubrey and make her mad at him too.
