A/N: Hey you guys, My own computer has a major viruses right now. So I'm on my 'rents computer. I hate the keyboard right now. The space bar barely works. So any ways… THANKS SOOO VERY MUCH FOR ALL THE REVIEWS!!! Yall make my day! For realzz! So since it's a very boring Saturday, I decided to write, just for yall. =) PS. If you haven't noticed the chapter names are songs. Soo, I request that that song should be listened to while reading that serton chapter. The song for this chapter is Almost Lover by A fine Frenzy. Enjoy
Chapter 8. Almost Lover
TREV. P.O.V.
After our little talk we had back at the car everything has seemed to been going great now. She's holding my hand right now!!I am so dreaming this! I have to be; no way would she ever just hold my hand while in school. Or ever really…
I don't quite know what could have changed her mind on me, maybe it's the fact that she's giving my a chance, and wants to see how this will all play out. Or maybe that's just me…
As I walked I wore a huge grin on my face while thinking about what the rest of this day will hold for me; for us.
"Hello soccer boy…? You there?!" Raven practly yelled at me while tugging on my hand. I was too caught up in the feeling of all of this.
"Ummm, yeah. Sorry bout that babe. ""Ewe, don't call me that while we're here ok?"
As we walked by people gave me weird looks, while they gave raven glares. I shot them one right back. I could care less right now what people thought of this.
I looked over at raven and noticed her looking at the ground as we walked on to health class.
"What's wrong?" I asked her quietly.
"People are gonna make fun of you later for holding hands with the loser. Duhhh! Is it really that hard to figure out?!" she said to me in a hushed tone. She was slightly blushing too I noticed. Hummm…
"Hey, look at me alright, no one is going to make fun of me for this," I lifted up or hands. "Because if they do, I'm gonna kick their ass ok?"
"Fine… but after this project I will go back to hating you again. Just remember that soccer snob."
Health class
Just remember that soccer snob…
Those five words swam around in my head throughout the whole class. Was I really ready for this to end? I just started trying to earn her trust today. And I only had a couple more days left. I almost didn't notice the bell rang in tell raven kicked me from under the table.
"Okay, so since you weren't really paying attention in class today, we have to spend one whole day together with Ayden before the end of this week. Just thought I'd let you know."
"ohhhhh, Well I guess we better make the best of it then right?" Just as soon as we were walking out, jenny comes right up to my other side and gets close to my ear.
"Hey, how's it going tiger?" she whispers in my ear while she played with her hair. Ughhh, I always have to deal with this crap.
"Ummm, look… I'm a daddy for the rest of this week, and I would gladly like to spend my last few days with my family alright." I said a little too loud for everybody. "So go off and screw someone else today alright."
Jenny gave me a sworn look before she stormed off to the girls bathroom. HA! She's Probably crying her eyes. I looked to my right and saw raven looking at the ground again, this time I just let her even though it always bothered me when she didn't ever tell me what's wrong. She probably feels as if she can't trust me like she can with her little freak.
As we walked over to an empty table and placed Ayden in a seat next to me, I saw Matt and Becky in line. I waved at Matt, but gave him a look that said, 'Don't sit by us please.'
"So monster girl, I think we should do our report on the Ayden's baby update at my house tonight after school. What do you think?" She turned her head sharply at me. She seemed to be really thinking this one out.
"Well, I'm not so sure that would be okay with Alexander since we only get to see each other at night… when he's done with his school work! Yeahh, because you know… since he's homed schooled in all…"
"Alrighty then…? Well IF you can, just call me about it alright. And it has to be at 6 PM because I still have practice right after school."
"ohh, I forgot about all of that. Right, okay." After that she hurled off the seat and jumped in line with Becky.
I just sat there with Ayden next to me. After a few minutes with waiting for them to come back, I took out a notepad and started writing down some facts about Ayden for our project.
1.He likes to pee on Raven. =)
2.He likes to be read to before bed time or else he can't sleep.
3. Rocking motion also helps him sleep.
4.You can't ever leave him alone in a room by him self.
5. & He likes his mother more than his daddy at times.
After reading the last one I just sat there and stared at it for the longest time. I had the feeling that it must be some motherly bonding with all babies.
Just after that thought, I felt the table move a little. I looked up and saw Raven sitting down and picking up Ayden. It was such a sight to see. Raven smiling at him like he was really her child. I always wondered if she even thought of Ayden as OUR child.
"Can I help you…?" she said as she was now looking at me with a weird look.
"Ohh, sorry about that. It's just so cute to watch the two of you sometimes you know." I blushed a little while admitting this out loud.
"Well you really need to stop staring at people sometimes. It grosses me out snob." She gave me a wink. A WINK! Wait, what did THAT mean…?
The bell rang again, and we both looked at each other wondering who would have Ayden this time. Without speaking I smiled and took Ayden gently from her pale arms.
And with that, I walked off to history.
Raven's P.O.V.
'What's wrong with me?!'
This thought ran in my head all day long. But I never felt like trying to answer it right now. I walked to gym in a daze. I hardly noticed the looks I was getting from most of the cheerleaders. I was trying to understand why I didn't feel the urge to shove Trevor off me today, like I normally do. I wasn't the type to cheat, but I had to admit to myself that maybe giving him a chance was right. I blushed when I remembered walking to health class today, and how it felt so RIGHT to hold his hand.
But I couldn't be thinking these thoughts. It was beyond wrong! I am with the hottest guy in town! I'm with freaking Alexander!
'Just give him a chance raven…'
My inner thoughts began to take over me.
It was as if, I WANTED to give him more than just a chance.
After practice/At Trevor's house
I was walking up his huge rock steps to his nice glass front door.
He still had Ayden with him, and I tried to hurry this up because I wanted so badly to see Alexander and so that my inner thoughts would stop bothering me about that stupid soccer snob. I knocked on it only three times before Mrs. Mitchell answered the door.
She was wearing some nice fitted yoga pants with a workout tank top on. She must have been working out I see. She too like most of the Mitchells' has blonde hair, but hers' also had some dark lowlights in it.
"Oh, hello Raven. Trevor is upstairs right now, but you can wait for him in the living room with me if you want to." She was trying to be nice, I could tell. She opened the door a little more for me to come in.
I walked in quietly. I didn't really have much to say to her. I just walked over by the stairs and waited. She faked a smile at me than walked off into the kitchen.
After awhile of looking at his family pictures on the enter hallway walls, I heard someone rushing down the stairs. I looked up and saw Trevor carrying Ayden in his arms while holding his health paper in the other.
"Come on Monster girl. Lets go to the study room ok." He annoused a little too loudly. He took my hand with the health papers and dragged me up the stairs with him. When we reached the top, he took me to his room instead.
He opened his door quietly and sat Ayden in a soccer bean bag chair. Than faces me.
"So… lets get to work than."
Hours later after working on health, he just looks at me. He was about to say something when…
"What are you two doing in this room?! Trevor Ayden [A/N: Idk what his middle name really is, but I thought it would be soo cute if it was their baby's name.] Mitchell, you told me that you two would be in the study room!" Mrs. Mitchell screamed as she busted through the door.
I felt my blood rush up to my face, and I couldn't speak. I've never seen her mad. She just gave me a glare the whole time.
"Mom, we were just-""NO! Don't even tell me that crap! She's just some chick who you want to screw again, well I don't want it in my house, and since you're going to break her heart anyways you might as well get it over with right now!" With that she stormed out.
I've always heard this stuff from everybody, but coming from his mother just tore me apart right there in front of him.
I ran for his bathroom.
Before he could get tome, I locked the door. I slide down against the closet wall onto the floor.
I began to sob uncontrollably. My face was resting on my knees. I needed to get out of here. I knew this was a bad idea.
I heard a knock at the door. But I didn't dare answer it. For all I knew it could have been his mother ready to yell me out some more.
"Raven?" A shaky voice called out to me.
"Please Raven, just open up."
Still no answer…
"Raven, just….just tell me something. Anything that's on you mind right now please?"
I guess it would help. I was trying to give him a chance too. Well here it goes…
"I… I've been thinking about how stupid this project is lately.""Why? It's not stupid. I've… I've gotten the chance to be closer to you than I have ever been." He replied with a low voice.
I was so shock by that answer, but I guess I always knew deep down that he did really always have feelings for me. I just never wanted to think about me sharing those feelings.
After siting with silence for a while he finally broke the afoul silence.
"Raven? You have to promise me that you will answer this question with full honesty ok?"
He sounded so unsure about it though.
I didn't want to answer anything right now. I was lost in my own thoughts.
I love Alexander, but than there's that funny feeling I get when we held hands in the hallway today, and how every time I see him holding Ayden it makes me want to smile so big.
I quietly unlocked the door for him now. I just back against the wall again.
He slowly walked in and turned to me with a sureries look on his face. "I want you to choose right now ok? I want you to choose either going back to the way how we were before this "Stupid" project, or choose taking a chance and letting go of him. And you know who I mean. I'm tired of us just being like this. I want something more and I've never felt this sure about anything ok." He slowly sat on the ground in front of me. He looked me straight in the eyes. He took a hold of one of my hands. " I know there's a part of you that wonders what it would be like." He said this so slowly while holding my hand as if he never wanted to let go. With a unsteady breath he continued.
"I want to be able to give you what he can't give you raven."He took a small breath, "I've always loved you raven. Ever since we were kids. Please Raven… I've known you longer, I know what hurts you, I know what makes you smile, and I'm just better for you. I can always be around when ever you need me unlike him."
By the end of his little speech, I was close to tears. I didn't want to cry any more in front of him, but this was one of the hardest chooses I ever had to make. I wanted both of them in my life. And I still didn't know.
He looked close to tears too. I just couldn't do this right now; I had to get out right now.
I jumped up and ran all the way down the stairs with out another look back.
A/N: So tell me what you think! This took me well over three hours to write! I'm such a slow writer as you can tell. MAN! I really need to just carry around a note pad so I can write down some ideas during school. That's sadly where I get all of them at. IF I get enough reviews I might just add a couple more parts to the next chapter. And the next one is amazing, because Trevor tells his mother about his new found love for a much unliked person. I DO NOT OWN ANYTHING THAT ELLEN SCHREIBER HAS WRTIN THAT'S IN MY STORY.
