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CHAPTER EIGHT: HOW LONG...?
It's been a month since we made a deal to stay as we once were... I can't take it anymore... The longer we stay like this, the more it hurts... I'm leaving now... for the better.
*-Previously-*
When I opened the front door, I saw Natsu there...
"Please, Lucy..." He said.
"What?" I asked him, trying to act coldly.
"Don't go..."
"W-What if we... just stay as to what we once were? Just please give me some time..." Natsu continued.
Yeah... "some time"... how long is that time gonna be? It's... gonna hurt me a lot... if I agree with this... I thought to myself.
"..."
"Just this once, please..." he pleaded and hugged me.
Seeing him pleading like that, I'm unable to resist... So, I agreed... Even though that meant me having to endure...
"Fine... but just this once... I will..." I told him.
How long will his 'some time' be, I wonder?
*-Currently-*
*~Lucy's POV~*
It's morning already, huh?
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...
I wish I just wouldn't wake up.
I tried my best to close my eyes, but failed, since the rays of the sun coming from my windows were too bright, forcing me to stand up.
I rub my eyes, then go straight to the bathroom and wash my face. After that, I just sit down on my sofa...
I don't really want to eat...
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It's been... a month now.
I've been trying all my best... to be like how I was before.
It's been a month since we made the deal to stay as how we once were.
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It's hard... it hurts.
I lied down my sofa and did my best not to let any tears out.
The longer we stay like this... the more it hurts.
...I can't take it anymore.
...
He asked me to give him some time...
But then...
It's still the same... even until now he's still with Lisanna.
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How long am I supposed to wait?
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A month... seems like an eternity already.
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Everyday... I had to endure.
I had to pretend that I was happy.
I had to be strong.
I had to smile, to laugh, even when in front of me lies Lisanna and Natsu cuddling and laughing together.
I had to hide my tears and sadness behind my laughters and smiles...
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How long... would I still have to do it?
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I don't... want to be like this.
I want to be free.
I want to let go now.
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I don't want to be trapped in this wall of sadness for eternity.
I don't want to keep doing this anymore.
I don't want to be like this anymore.
...
I don't care now.
Whether he really loves me or not, it doesn't matter anymore.
...
I love him.
I've been doing all these for him.
I gave it my all and this is as far as I can.
- That's all I know now.
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I'm... leaving now.
...it's gonna be for the better.
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I'm gonna forget him.
I'm setting both of us free.
I'm leaving all these sadness behind.
I'm gonna let go.
And live.
Hoping for a better tomorrow.
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To be continued x3
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