thnx for the reviews, really! hope u still enjoy the story. and let me know what i should do with spencer! hhahaha
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(Spencer's POV)
When I got into my car all I wanted to do was just go to my house, lie down and try to forget about Ashley Davies. I turned my Ipod on and the first song that blasted into my car was unbelievable. I mean, what are the odds that between a thousand songs it plays this song! "When you're looking like that," from Westlife. Just in case you don't remember the chorus:
How am I supposed to leave you now, when you're looking like that?
I can't believe what I just gave away, now I can't take it back.
I don't wanna get lost. I don't wanna live my life without you.
How am I supposed to leave you now, when you're looking like that?
And just to add a more dramatic twist, Ashley was walking past by my car holding hands with Danielle in the exact same minute the chorus was blasting my car's stereo. Great. Maybe this is just G-d advice to forget about this. I don't even know why I still have this song in my Ipod, so mental note to delete it.
I drove to my house with lots of things in my head, which has been something normal for the past months. And now I'm adding my recently failed test. G-d my mom's gonna kill me, she always wanted me to be just like her, a great doctor and all.
So back to my room, alone as usual. I guess I've earned it. Thankfully I broke up with my boyfriend, you know, that idiot. He was not a bad person, but I wasn't in love with him anymore, so why make it more complex? So this time is for real. Aiden tried to come to me again, but somehow we both knew that it wouldn't have worked so we're just friends now. Ash and I are still friends, of course, because a friendship like ours is not something to just throw away to the garbage can. Maybe that's the reason why Danielle doesn't like me at all. Because she knows the whole story and she doesn't get why Ash still talks to me. Obviously I pledged dementia and pretended I didn't know that Ash knew that I knew… hmm, whatever that means.
But the truth is that the relationship between us is not even close to as it was before. I miss her so much, I miss hanging with her, I miss listening to everything she had to say… It would be fine if she decided she didn't want me as a girlfriend, if I could just have her back as the friend she was. But I broke any chance of trust between us when I decided to hide pretty much all of the important information of my life back when she wanted me. I managed to just push her away and I didn't even know why. I'm seriously resenting every single bad decision I made. Because now I'm friendless, boyfriendless, and most important, Ashley-less.
