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Its currently ten thirty in the afternoon and yet here I am. Good god help me.

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Cinder Luna- thank you very much for the advertisement, you really didn't have to. Your Annabeth remembers Percy idea. Yes that sort of got In you'll se later.

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PrincessOfAtlantis101- how did I... Never mind.

PicturePerfectMe- I actually think they know what Percy did, they just don't want to admit it. Like deep down, deep, deep, deep, deep down they know. The was Percy asleep or awake thing. Uhh, it was never outright said that he was there. Just little hints in chapter six. On the beginning Percy has quick flashbacks of what Nico said and Percy says that Nicos right, Nicos right. Umm I don't know about the blaming Nico thing. I'm glad you lied last chapter. Do I have a system for updating. Not as of right now. It's winter break where I live. So I have more time to write and I don't start writing a chapter till I upload the previous one. So as soon as I upload this chapter I'll start writing chapter nine. So yeah, I do it randomly but once schools back in session I'll go back to doing it every Saturday or Sunday. Tell cinder I say hi back.

POV-Percy

'You don't know what you're talking about!'

'Don't I? We've been down here for how long and you haven't come up with one counter argument! Admit it! You think I'm right, or at the least doubt your own claims!'

'He saved your life, that's why your ridiculous. If it weren't for him you would be dead!'

'I would have rather died with Bianca than now! Because at least then I would have felt one heartbreak and died quickly. Then keep living with Bianca's death, experience more death and fight a war we are destined to lose!'

'What if he heard you Nico? You'd crush him! You'd break him beyond repair! This is your cousin, he's your family!'

'My family!? If Percy never became a pirate, none of us would be criminals! If Percy never became a pirate then we'd all still be living our lives! It was Percy who decided to kidnap all of us! It was Percy who decided to be a coward and run away when Zoë needed help! Percy didn't save Bianca! Percy is the real criminal! If Percy never feel hard for the Princess of Athens, then Annabeth wouldn't have joined the crew! If Percy decided to be smart he wouldn't have let her join the crew! It was Percy she was writing to when she was caught! He's the reason we are at war! He's the reason Will went to Athens for Percys stupid potion! It's his fault Will got arrested! Family wouldn't let any of that happen! It's all his fault! It's wills life, or Percys. Why does everyone choose Percy!'


Is this the part where I tell you how I feel about that whole experience? Is this the part where I tell you my eyes are leaking two or so tears? Is this the part where I tell you my thoughts?

Well sorry.

I feel nothing about the memory. Just empty. My eyes are probably dull because I'm not crying or have any tears anywhere, period. I think I shed my last tear a long time ago. Have you ever had a memory and you couldn't think of anything? Like your mind is blank but you can't help but think of the memory? It's not working and every time you try to think of somethings you instantly forget what it is you were thinking? That's what I'm thinking. Nothing.

maybe trying to count to one thousand is considered a thought. But not to me.

I don't blame Nico. For anything. I had the idea for the plan before I heard Nico and Thalia and the rest of the crews argument.

It was a little different. The original was, I trade myself, for real, I go to Athens try and get Annabeth to remember her time on the ship, or, tell her about Athens. Tell her who I really am. She then, hopefully, got me out and we go to half blood palace.

I was up thinking about little details to the plan, when I heard yelling. I went downstairs to stop who ever was arguing, since that was my job. But then I heard Nico yell my name and I ended up listening. Mind you, against my better judgement too.

After Nicos last rant and everyone was dead quiet I went back to my room. Where I thought and I thought and I thought the whole night. Just replaying Nicos words over and over.

I went to breakfast that morning pretending to be my normal self but on the inside I felt as dead as a doorknob. That's when the real trouble happened I guess.

Though it's probably very selfish, for me to think it's my fault is one thing, for others to say it's my fault is another. At least with it just being me, I could blame it on my loyalty, dumb mind and paranoia. But with the others...

When I had that really bad nightmare, the one on the ship and everyone I know blame me for their death and Annabeth helped me with, I remember I told Annabeth, 'the guilt follows me like a rabid dog. And every single time I think about going to was or just the thought of someone I care about dying, it bites at me.' I truly think the dog has bitten me again. And this time it's bite was fatal.

When was it? I think it was around the time Zoë died, way after she died actually. I was depressed and yeah I thought about giving myself up to Frederick. But I also had a single thought. It was one time and it was random, kind of like when you joke with yourself but soon after I found myself being dead serious with the thought. It was stupid and I dismissed it and I haven't had anything similar to it since.

Until a few weeks ago...

My fault they died. My fault for the war. My fault for getting Annabeth brainwashed, again. My fault, my fault, it's all my fault.

I don't deserve to live. I never have. I never will, especially since I've taken so many lives myself. The amount of bloodshed that I've seen. The amount of blood that stain my hands. The ghosts that haunt me.

'The fields of punishment is in your future.'

I shiver at the memory. But gods it's so true. That's what I deserve after all.

'It's Will's life or Percys, why does everyone choose Percy?'

What did I do? I seriously don't deserve anything my crew has done for me. To be quite honest, I'm surprised they haven't killed me already. It was my fault they were stuck on the ship, it was my fault lots of people they loved or cared for died.

The gods worked in such a strang way, don't you think? The cruel, heartless, criminals who kill others are the last to die. While the good, brave, kind, spirited are always the first to die.

I always thought the best people had the rotted the luck. Gods it's so true. Look at me, I'm the last on the list of good people and my life has been roughly good. While good people like Annabeth just had lie after lie thrown at her. Then to be kidnapped and learn your best friend is a killer. To learn your father is a monster, then to learn a pirate has a crush on you, to return the feelings. To be brainwashed again.

I... I actually think her being brainwashed again was roughly a good thing now. I mean she has forgotten all about me. I'm going to die in roughly five or so days. Save her the little to none heartbreak. Besides she has always deserved better, as in any male on the earth who is not me. And I don't even know what I feel for the Queen of Athens anymore.

Do I like her? Do I not? Do I just like her as a friend now? Do I... Gods my head hurts just thinking about it.

'If Percy never feel hard for the Princess of Athens.' Dare I say it. Do I love Her?

No stop, Percy. You are going to die soon one way or another. Don't you dare do this to yourself.

May the gods help what little sanity I have left.

'Zoe, Bianca and Diana died so you can live. They died so you can continue fighting for your cause. Doesn't that mean something?' Maybe it did at one point.

But it means nothing to me now.


POV-Annabeth

I walk to the back of prisoner carriage as fast as I can.

I need to now who that man was, the one from my dreams, I can't live with myself not knowing. I have the man at my disposal who has to know who he is.

We have stopped quickly so we can switch the horses for the ride back to the palace. Just three more days and we'll be back.

I open up the back and climb into the carriage.

Perseus sits in the far right corner looking dead as anything. He has his knees close to his chest and he looks at the ground in front of him like its the most interesting thing on the planet. He has cuffs on his wrist and the cuffs are tied to the wall in the front. So he can't get out even if he tried.

his dark blue coat in thrown across the carriage in a ball. He has his shoes off sitting next to side and he just sits there.

His normal bright sea green eyes that I first saw four days ago are dull and lifeless. It's like all life and motivation has been used or thrown into a volcano.

His face isn't much better for it holds no emotion, just... blank.

It's like I'm looking at a vailian before he turn to a life of crime. It's unsettling.

I clear my throat but it doesn't them to bother him.

"You've been staring at me for a good five minutes." Perseus says in a flat tone. "What do you want? I'd like to get this over with." I feel a flash of anger go through my body at the knowledge he knew I was here and refused to acknowledge me.

I take a breath and fold my hands.

"As you know I was kidnapped by you six or seven months ago?" I say. Perseus nods refusing to look up at me it seems. "When I got back home, I took this potion so I forget everything that happened to me on the ship." Perseus nods again. It make me turn my head in confusion till I remember Apollo. The traitor.

"But I haven't really forgotten everything. I know I meet someone on that blasted ship." I say sounding desperate to even me. "I know I got romantically involved with this man. But I can't remember who he is, what he's like, or what he looks like." Perseus doesn't look up still. He continues to stare off into nowhere.

"And what does this have to do with me?" He practically spits. I stare at him. Can't he see? My eyes harden and I glare at Perseus with everything I have.

"I met him on your ship. You must know who he is." I say sternly. "Tell me who he is." Perseus sits there for a few minutes. He stares off into space.

"I just want to know his name and if he's still alive." I speak after a few minutes of silence. Perseus still doesn't look at me or anything for that matter. A few more minutes pass, nothing. A few more minutes, nothing.

"He died a few mouths ago." Perseus says after a good fifteen minutes of silence. My heart just stops. My mind goes blank.


A boy is pinned against the wall. His shirt is ripped and he looks tired.

A man has a dagger close up to the to the boys guys throat. The man with the dagger says something, before jabbing the tip into the boys skin on his left shoulder. The man drags it slowly down and ends at the boys right side. The boy yelled in pain but his cries where drowned by shouting from somewhere else.

The man lets go of the boy and punches the boy square in the temple.

The boys eye roll into his head and he drops to the floor.

My heart down right stops.

The man smiles before leaving back to wherever he came from.

The boy continues to lay there as blood from the gash starts to make a large pool on the floor.


"as for his name," Perseus's voice brings me back to the present. I gulp down the hard lump in my throat. "What does it matter? You wouldn't believe me anyway."

I suck in a sharp breath. Perseus hasn't moved a single muscle the whole time.

My anger rises. The person I know I'd give up my rien as queen for is dead. I deserve to at least know his name, that's all I want now.

"Tell me his name." I spit. "Or so help me..."

"What?" Perseus interrupts flatly, in the same dead tone. "You'll add another charge to my case. Honey, you can't possibly make my sentence any worse than it already is." I clench my fist, all rules of keeping your emotions in check and all get thrown out the window.

"Someone I deeply care about is dead! I deserve to at least know his name!" I scream. Perseus seems unfazed. He just blinks in return.

"Deeply care about? You don't even remember him." The captain mutters under his breath. I start to shake, I can feel my face getting bright red.

"Listen here you, cruel, useless, monster! All I want is his name!" Perseus stiffens even more than he already is. He finally turns his head to look at me, something in his eyes I can't tell you what it is. It just makes me question my choice of words.

"I'll tell you his name." He whispers, his voice sounding... broken. "An hour before my trial. Only then I'll tell you his name. But like I said, you won't believe me." Perseus curls more into himself and turns his head away from me.

At first I feel almost guilty. But the anger quickly takes over.

"Tell me now." I spit. Perseus doesn't say anything. He just curls into himself more. "I don't care if I won't believe you, I just want a name." He doesn't move.

This is one of the only reasons I took the risk. I have enough to deal with back at the palace and this is a two week trip. I had trials, laws to rewrite or sign, warrants to sign, I was still trying to figure out the whole my father was lying to me or keeping something from me thing. I didn't have to come here and deal with this infuriating piece of trash.

"You're a coward, you know that." I say with tears in my eyes.

Stop! Don't do anything else, just walk away! A little voice yells inside my head. I ignore it for once.

"What a waste of human life." I glare. I turn on my heel to leave the stupid carriage. I mumble, 'pathetic,' under my breath. I hop out and slam the door closed.

Why? The little voice in my head whispers. What have you done? I scowl at myself and walk back to my carriage.

I can't believe that blasted pirate.

What a waste. I think.

You don't even now anything about him? How could you?


POV- Malcolm

Something isn't right. Something just isn't right.

I growl as I turn around in my sleeping bag. I've been repeating that to myself for the gods know how long.

Why can't I figure this out? Why can't I find out what Percy really did? Some thing isn't right!

The other agree with me, they just don't know what.

Some stayed on the ship, but I went with Thalia, Nico, Will, Leo and Hazel. Thalia, Nico and Hazel are coming because Percy there cousin, they deserve to slap him into oblivion first. Wills going because Nico wouldn't let him stay. Leo's going because he's probably one of the only ones we don't trust to not stay on the ship without Percy or Thalia being there. I'm coming because I'm Annabeths brother. Maybe Annabeth will be there.

Jason didn't go because one of the first mates had to stay. Jason decided to stay.

I growl and sit up. Day four, maybe five of a ten day trip and I'm already hating my decision to go. It's not the hard ground or anything I just can't keep my mind to shut up for five seconds so I can go to sleep.

I get up and I quickly change into some warm clothing before going outside the tent. Yes we are traveling by foot. Because it's easier for a big group of adults with ADHD than sitting in a carriage for five days straight.

The campfire we made last night is still blazing all to a little Spanish boy poking at the flame with a stick.

I sit next to Leo me he doesn't seem to mind.

"Can't sleep?" Leo sighs. "Because of the Percy lying thing." I nod. Leo searches the ground till he finds and hands me a stick. Instead of poking the flames I draw in the sand.

After forty minutes or so, we hear a loud scream, of frustration. Leo and I both jump till we see Thalia storming out of her tent, eyes blazing hotter than the bomb fire Leo has made.

"I swear if the sun doesn't come up soon I'm going to go crazy!" She yells at the top of her lungs. Nicos and Will's tent opens with Nico poking his head through.

"Shut up Thalia. Some of us are trying to sleep." He spits. Thalia rolls her eyes.

"The fact that your still up says we are having the same problem." Thalia growls.

"Hey why don't you shout to the rest of the wolves around the area, Free meals over here!" I hear will mutter inside his tent. Hazels tent open up and she stumbles outside.

"Keep it down please. You aren't helping my insomnia." She whispers with a yawn. Thalia sits across from me.

"What's the point, none of us can sleep." Leo sighs. Hazel moans and sits next to Thalia.

"I know but what else are we supposed to do?" Hazel mutters holding her head in her hands. Nico grumbles somethings under his breath and walks out. Will follows minutes later and we all stare at the dancing flames in silence.

"We are all worried about Percy aren't we?" Will days in a tired, flat tone. We all nod.

"Percy lied about something." Nico says. "We all know that, we just don't know what." Leo hums.

"Especially since he's been acting so weird lately." Leo sighs. I stiffen at Leo's words. While everyone else seems to wake up or blinks in confusion.

"excuse me?" Hazel ask politely. Leo looks at each of the weird stares we are giving him.

"I'm not the only one who noticed that right?" Leo says loozing a bit horrified. "He's been distant, he has to force himself to smile, his eyes have become dull, he spends most of his time by himself, he's gotten large bags under his eyes even though he hasn't had a single nightmare, the fact he has no nightmares!" Leo looks at each of us, looking for any sign we have a clue of what he's talking about. "no one?" We all sit there for a while, everyone of us going back to our memory banks to try and find signs of what Leo claims.

It was so stinking obvious, it should be a crime we didn't see it sooner.

"He started acting like that... a few days after Nicos..." Leo trails off looking for the right word. "Outburst? Rant?" Leo stops when he sees the glares coming his way. "Shutting up now." Leo start twiddling with his hands.

Percy has been acting weird, add the fact of the weird deal.

What the heck is going on?

Should I start running?

Should I go get my shield?

Should I go hide in Mexico?

I think I do.

Ill just get going.

I hope you have enjoyed! I'll see you guys later!

bye

-Kayla