A/N: for reference, the asks are taken from Dean's blog (somewherelostinperdition at tumblr)


He kept checking in on Dean's blog, even though it had hit a lull for the moment. A few posts from Castle, and then there were two of the actor, Daniel Craig, that caught his attention.

His brother seemed to communicate his frustrations via tags, which made Sam laugh internally. 'I am a heterosexual…I am a heterosexual…' and 'That fucking smirk. …I think I have a type, and that type includes blue eyes. FUCK.' Both seemed to summarize Dean's feelings, and explain Dean's attraction to Cas in a way.

Funnily enough, it caught the attention of someone else too.

"Hello Dean. Welcome to the world of blue eyed life ruiners. :)" - whishawmaster

"I've been there since I met Cas.

"Help.

"How do I get out?"

He claps a hand over his mouth, stifling a laugh at the response that sounds so unlike Dean, yet so much like him at the same time. He keeps scrolling to see more of the conversation, thankful Dean is in the shower for the moment.

"You don't. That's just it." - whishawmaster

"I don't like it. Both Benny and Cas have blue eyes and worse Cas' eyes are as blue as Daniel Craig's, maybe bluer, and he has this way of just staring at me that I get lost in them. Then he just tilts his head like I'm some kind of puzzle that he can't figure out and I don't know what to do."

The entry is followed by a gif of a man locked in what appears to be a phone booth yelling 'I'm in a glass case of emotion'. Sam smiles at his brother's words, knowing just the look Dean is talking about. He had seen it enough that he is surprised that he had not noticed their love for one another sooner. At least not Cas' part. The angel fawned over Dean enough to make it obvious.

"I think you need a hug. Come here, hug time." - whishawmaster

"Okay, but don't tell Sam. I don't normally do this touchy feely shit." [Gif of Ian McKellen hugging someone.] The tags include; #how do hugs even work over the internet? #do I just #*hug*?

Rolling his eyes Sam tried not to think on that. Dean's avoidance of anything 'chick flicky' was annoying honestly. What was wrong with a little hugging? He was half tempted to shove Dean at Cas and have them hug it out, maybe Dean would be a little less stick up the ass about it.

"*rolls eyes* Fine. I won't tell your brother. Not sure what the problem with hugging is, but whatever. Hugging is good for you Dean. Makes people less angry." - whishawmaster

Whoever 'whishawmaster' was, they had a point. Sam made a note to look them up later, right now he was more focused on Dean's conversation and what he thought about this.

"But it's chick stuff. Touchy feely, girly shit. So is talking about your feelings, which is why I'm here instead of talking with Sam who wouldn't listen to me anyway. I mean, yeah I listen to people when they got shit going, because I care but I'm no good with talking about feelings. Makes you weak." Tagged: #What's that thing Bruce Banner says in 'The Avengers'? #We're not a team #we're a time bomb?

He scowled at that, 'I so would listen!' was the only thought in his mind, eyes darting from the laptop to the shower when he hears Dean step out of it. Only a little more time left with Dean's blog before he has to pretend he has not been snooping again. His brother might want something to eat so that will give him something to distract the older hunter with at least. Catching up with this was higher on his priorities than food right now.

"Except that it doesn't. Listen, take from someone else who is emotionally constipated to the point where they walked around for three years with a crush on someone and only admitted it after bodily harm was threatened by their best friends: talking about feelings usually works out for the best. And hugging is not girly! Seriously! Some of the best huggers I know are men! *does not approve of your stereotypes*" - whishawmaster

"True…I don't know about Cas, but Benny, Garth and Sam do give some pretty good hugs. Sam's the best since he just holds tight. Though he's kind of massive and towers over me so it's a little spine breaking…

"I just hate talking about feelings. Might be because Dad told me that shit made me weak and I couldn't be weak. Sam needed me." Tagged: #…Only hugs I can ever remember getting from a girl was Mom and Lisa. #Do I avoid hugs that much?

'Yes Dean, you do.' Is the thought going through his mind before he closes the browser, thankful he is caught up for the moment as Dean steps out, toweling his hair.

"Man they have a sweet shower. And the little shampoo and shit is awesome too. I don't smell too flowery do I?" he looks over to Sam before sitting down on his bed.

"More citrusy really." Smirking he stands, moving over to get a whiff of him, yeah citrus. "You don't smell like you've been rolling in burgers trying to attract angels."

The other sputtered at that, eyes wide as he stared at Sam. "Why would I do that? If Cas wants to come back, he'll come back. 'Sides, I can call him if we need him. So let him do his thing for now while we do ours."

Smiling Sam just shook his head, impressed by just how red Dean's cheeks were right now. "Sure. We have other things to worry about right? Tablet, hunts, all that shit." Without thinking he takes the towel, drying off parts of Dean that his brother had missed, actually enjoying taking care of him instead of the other way around. "You'll catch a cold if you don't dry properly you know."

More sputtering and Dean stole the towel away, his face so red that his freckles were showing off. "Yeah yeah, I can always turn on the heat you ass…"

Rolling his eyes Sam wrapped his arms around his brother, kissing his forehead. "I know, I'm just looking out for you. Someone has to take care of you…" since you won't take care of yourself. He only thinks of the last part, wishing Dean would look out for himself. Or at the very least let people look out for him. Because the more Dean kept up with this, the more Sam worried about him.

It was like finding out your brother was alien. Or someone else entirely, and it scared him. Just how different was Dean from the brother he thought he was?

Every reading of Dean's blog he was learning more and more, and it made him continually second guess everything.

"Hey, why don't we watch that show you like? Uh…Castle I think it was?" he looked down at his brother who looked tense, probably startled by the hug. He had not pulled away though, so that was something. In fact his head was resting on Sam's chest, arms loosely wrapped around the other's waist.

"Sure…Can I watch the latest Criminal Minds first?"

"Of course. I'm not as familiar with that one though."

"S'bout this FBI team who analyze killers by their behavior, and catch them."

"Yeah, that much I know."

"S'all you need to know."

Laughing he kissed the top of Dean's head, "I'll order something in and we can watch that."

He just got a nod in return, his brother's head not leaving his chest until Sam pulled away reluctantly, leaving a dazed Dean.