Chapter Eight – Slip Away From Me

My heart was hammering in my chest as I clammily fell back onto the bed, shaking. I knew that my face was pale, and my hands clenched tightly. I was breathing slowly, flipping through memories of what had just happened. I couldn't believe what I had said to him…

My heart shattered as I realized he didn't run because he was mad at me, no, stupid imprinting made him so he could never be too upset with me… No, he ran because he was disgusted with himself. This wasn't exactly a first time occurrence, after all.

He wouldn't, and technically couldn't, let this go. I could hardly believe how much I messed up. "Please, god please let all that not have really happened…" I pleaded, trying to reach whoever was listening to me. I sighed as I looked around the room, its depressing gray walls glaring back at me. It had happened, and now, I would have to try and fix things up the best I could.

"Angie, you okay?" Seth asked softly, his eyes flitting around the room nervously. I could tell by the slouch in his shoulders and the nervousness in his hands and legs that he had heard what I had said, well actually screamed, at Collin.

"Am I okay?" I scoffed at him as he stepped carefully into the room. His face was carefully blanked, as though his emotion had to be stored away. "I feel horrible, but I know that Collin is alone, sulking somewhere in the forest probably feeling a whole lot worse than me, so please don't ask me if I'm okay, I'm not the one you should be worried about." I whispered painfully, wrapping my arms around my knees.

"I can go look for him, tell him you really want to see him. He won't say no, you know he can't." Seth's words were gentle, yet, they hurt… a lot, he can't.

"No, don't say I ordered him to come back home. That won't make me feel any better; it would make me feel worse actually. Just… just tell him that I'm very sorry, and that he can come back… if he wants." I looked down, still feeling horrible. Jeez, this just wasn't like me. It proved in so many ways that Collin was really the only one who could change me, my mood and my attitude.

Seth nodded, averting his eyes from me as he ducked out the window. I stopped myself from groaning… was the window the new way to get out of our home? I crossed my legs, my mind trailing off to Collin.

I wondered with worry how long it would take me to beg for forgiveness… yet, I already knew the answer. Not even a second. He would interrupt, saying I was right, yada-yada, and then blame him for anything and everything.

With a huff, I stood up, making my way to the bathroom. I felt like I was going to puke again, my stomach turning uncomfortably. I passed by the mirror quickly flitting my eyes to my reflection for a quarter of a second. As my image slowly sunk into my brain, my bare feet skidded to a stop on the tile floor, and I gasped.

I backtracked slowly, standing sideways in the mirror. My throat closed up as I saw the small bump rising from my stomach area… I was beyond confused, emotions trampling through me like a stampede. How was this even possible? Yesterday… there was nothing.

The small bump wasn't even really a bump, and human eyes would hardly be able to distinguish it. It was more of a lump, really… but I could see it was most definitely there.

The bile rising in my throat suddenly shot up with more force than before, and I retched into the sink, my body shaking from feeling so lousy. "I have such a difficult life." I mumbled to myself, letting my head fall into my hands.

Shakily, I ran my hand across my mouth, tumbling from the bathroom to the bed again, sliding into its blankets. They felt cold against my skin, so cold I couldn't suppress a shiver from rolling across my back.

"Angie…" Collin's voice interrupted my thoughts and my head snapped up to look into his eyes. Ashamed, I ducked my head, red coloring my cheeks.

"Angie, are you okay?" that one simple, statement pushed me over the edge. Built up anger rushed up in me, and I sucked in, trying, for once, to control my anger and not aim it at the person nearest to me.

"Collin, please, I am freaking begging you, to not apologize. That was my fault. You did nothing." I whispered shakily. Guilt clouded his face as he looked off to the side, a faraway look on his face.

"But I did. Maybe it wasn't my fault when you blew up before, but I've screwed up so much, so many other times," he said sadly, still not moving towards me, "Everybody knows I'm the worst imprinter ever." He added glumly, his voice a coarse whisper. Anger engulfed me.

"And who says that? Because I will kick their idiot asses." I hissed dangerously. Collin shrugged a bit.

"It's more of a common knowledge. I mean, look at all the things I've caved into, and you ended up getting hurt. You sprained your ankle within the first hour of our imprint!" he growled, shaking his head. I scoffed, narrowing my eyes.

"That wasn't your fault, and you know it. I'm not an easy person to keep up with… And you realize I could have persuaded you into letting me doing a lot worse. Besides, you talked me out of a bunch of stupid stuff." I argued, glaring. I couldn't believe he was putting himself down like this! God knows what would've happened to me if he hadn't tamed me a bit?

"Right, like what?" he sighed, frowning.

"Well, you stopped me from murdering our neighbors at least a dozen times, and you've calmed me whenever I was about to phase. Remember that time when a guy took that last lettuce head? I almost exploded in the vegetable section!" I yelled, eyes flashing. He took a deep breath, crossing his arms.

"Fine, I did help you. But still, I almost lost you so many times, and I feel so fucking guilty that the possibility even came up. I mean, that filthy leech almost crushed your head before you phased, and then I let you… let you fight in the war that Brady, Leah, and Rickie died in. The Volturri attempted to attack, and almost got you… I mean, it all adds up!" he yelled back, looking crestfallen. I clenched my teeth, shaking my head fiercely.

"Right, okay. You know, even if you hadn't of imprinted on me, my blood would have helped me phase. And I still would have been important to Embry, but I'm definitely not his imprint, so he wouldn't have been as driven to get to me, wouldn't have run as fast as you did… And you just got there, just in time.

"Like I said, I still would have phased. I still would have fought in the war, I could have argued it out of Embry right away… But you were always there, fending off and tiring the vampires before I attacked them. I was inexperienced them, and maybe I wouldn't have been able to beat them.

"And when the Volturri were running after me… Unfortunately, I'm the smallest wolf, what they would believe the easiest target. They most probably would still have tried to capture me. When it happened, you were more driven than any other to run, like before. It was you who came to my rescue, attacking the bloodsucker before it could get me in its arms. You didn't put me in any danger, you saved me from it." My voice, which had been an angry yell, quieted to a hoarse whisper as I blinked at the floor, steadying my gaze so as not to cry.

And then, he was crossing the room swiftly, picking me up in his arms, and crushing his lips to mine. "You realize- you're- perfection- right?" Collin whispered fiercely into my ear in between kisses. My arms snaked around his waist, and I buried my face in his chest, breathing in his scent deeply. It was familiar, and comforted me like nothing else ever could.

"God I love you…" I mumbled, squeezing him tighter.

"I love you too, babe, I love you too."

Seth POV

I swallowed uncomfortably as I saw Collin tear away from me, no doubt eager as hell to make amends with his imprint. I had seen into the minds of imprinted wolves ever since I had first phased, and they would do anything to please them, anything to be on good terms with them.

Sighing, I shook my head. I needed to go for a run, bad. Angie was noticing my strange behavior, and I still refused to believe I was going to imprint on one of her babies. It was impossible… I mean, who even knew that those babies were fertile? Damn, what if they were boys?

Growling slightly at the thought, I shook my head once more. I didn't phase, just ran as a human. I knew that I wouldn't be interrupted in thought; I just didn't want to bother with clothes, which had become such a nuisance ever since becoming a wolf back in 07'…

I realized with force the impact of my thoughts… 2007 was almost twenty years ago, which meant it was almost twenty years since I had first phased. Shock took me over, because I was pretty much freaking out.

At the same time, I realized with dry humor that I had subconsciously started to run the border, as I had so many years ago. And then, her scent hit me like a boulder, and I stumbled my arms flailing as I fell to the ground.

It was the first time that I had tripped since becoming a wolf, weirdly enough. I was taken off guard, and even more shock piled onto my frayed nerves.

"Seth…" her voice spoke to me as if in a dream, and I looked around wildly.

"Abbie! Abbie, please, please come out!" I was begging like a dog, I knew, but I didn't care. I needed her so bad, I wanted her so bad. It was like all my heart was calling out to me.

"Seth!" her voice still seemed faraway, in dreamland.

"Please, Abbie. I'm pleading you to come out, please…" my voice cracked as I spoke, and tears threatened to push over my eyes.

Crying wasn't something I would usually do, of course. But with Abbie, I would do anything… become anything. And now, I knew with all my heart that I needed to cry to her to be with me. I didn't care if I come off as desperate.

She was my everything, I couldn't live without her, I missed her body besides me, her beautiful face smiling lovingly at me, her angelic voice calling my name, I needed her…

She very well may have left me, but I would forgive her, because she meant everything to me, and I would do anything to be with her. Her smile, so bright and warm, her hair, so long and flowing, her heart, so big and compassionate. She was perfection, and I didn't deserve her.

I realized she might have known that, maybe that was what caused her to leave. But, like I've said, I love her, and need her to be with me… And I knew that she wasn't mine, I was hers.

"Please, Abbie. I love you." I whispered, shaking. I closed my eyes tight, whishing with every ounce of my body that she would answer me just once.

"Seth…" this time, I could hear it plainly. Her voice seemed to be right in front of me, and my heart skipped about seven beats as it sounded.

My eyelids lifted slowly, every part of me praying that she would be there, right there. And she was.

Her face seemed drawn, tight as she looked at me, but a smile so big it made me smile was lighting her face, and I ignored her exhausted look. I leapt to my feet, but she didn't move from her stop.

We both knew that this time, she had to come to me. She took one step forward, her beautiful golden eyes never leaving mine. This shocked me, golden? Which meant… she had been feeding vegetarian? A feeling of happiness swelled in me as she suddenly took a couple more steps forward, until she was running, sprinting at full vampire speed as she suddenly slammed into me.

"Oh Seth, oh my Seth… I'm sorry! I'm so damn sorry!" she sobbed, hands reaching into my hair and dragging my face down to give me a soft kiss, "I was so stupid! I completely understand if you never want to see my face ever again!".

"You're forgiven, you're forgiven Abbie, you're completely, one hundred percent forgiven." I whispered coarsely, holding her tighter.

But I was afraid… afraid that she would again, slip away from me.


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