"Owen!"

"What? D-Dan?" Owen looked around him seeing nothing but white infinity light. "Am I dead?"

The tall sturdy black man who used to be his commander and friend back in Iraq who died in his arms just looked at him kindly, saying nothing.

"I am dead am I?"

"Well you did point a gun to your head"

"Oh" He looked around hearing nothing but silence "It's nice here, quiet finally"

"Is it? Is that why you wanted to blow your brain out? You just gave up your entire life for some quiet? You can fly to Thailand or something for that you now ,you don't have to-"

"It's a little more complicated than that "

"I'm sure so"

"I went crazy Dan , It's not me it's not who I am I just..."

The man nodded his head and seem to be drown in a thought for a second before he shook his head and looked back into Owen's eyes

"And what about her?"

He frowned feeling sharp pain of guilt in his chest "I don't know..."

"You don't know"

"I-"

"You are just going to leave her alone in this world? Let her feel what you felt as some kind of what? Revenge?"

"No no no It's not like that I would never hurt her again I promised her that I'll never-"

"And what do you think this will do to her?"

"No she'll Understand ,I-I think eventually she'll understand , Yes, yes she has Meredith and she'll move on and she'll be ok. Cristina- she's one of the strongest person I know, she always was the strong one,yes I think she'll be ok "

"Lying to yourself may make you feel better but it doesn't make it true. You now she loves you, and you know perfectly clear she will blame herself every day for the rest of her life"

"Well what am I supposed to do?" He raised his voice almost feeling guilty for ruining the silence even though he saw no one else there but the two of them. "I'm dead, it's done, are you trying to get me to feel guilty forever? "

"You're not dead Owen"

"I'm- I'm not?"

"No Owen you're not dead. You're just in your head. Your finger is still on the trigger, She's still there on her way to stop you. the pain is still there too. This is not death, god eternity here will probably drive me crazy " The two men smiled at each other, both thinking about their time together back on earth " This is limbo Owen, It's where you make a choice"

"I have a choice?"

"Of course you do" He placed his hand on his shoulder and stopped to give him a minuet to process "Sorry if I'm rushing but we don't have a lot of time Owen, You need to make a choice. But you need to think carefully. A life time of peace and silence without ever seeing her again or holding her, kissing her and getting old with her. Or you can come back to her. It's gonna be hard. maybe one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do and you will have to work hard and suffer but eventually you will get over this Owen"

The thought of never seeing her again made him feel strong pressure on his chest that he couldn't get off... But then again he didn't wanted to suffer, and he liked the slinced there allot "I don't know" He said almost whispering looking down.

"Let me help you. Well you already saw what it's like up here, but let me show you what it would look like down there if you do this"

Suddenly the endless wight around them disappeared- replaced by the set of the woods. He saw cristina standing in front of him, walking towards him with tears in her eyes "Owen!"

"Cristina" She did came. She did love him .He opened his arms to welcome her into his embrace as she ran to him but the second he was about to touch her she ran through him . He turned around, not understanding what just happened and then he saw his own lifeless , blood stained body laying on the ground . Meredith was standing there, her hands covering her open month as Cristina ran to him,and crushed down on his chest, bawling loudly . She screamed ,not being able to take this pain." Owen! How could you do this! how could you." She cried into his chest and pound on it desperately"

"Cristina! Cristina I'm here!"

"She can't hear you Owen. you're not here"

"Stop it stop it!" Her screams were tearing his heart apart. He shut his eyes and covered his ears falling to his knees not being able to see her in this much pain.

Suddenly they were back at the wight silence. he got back up and finally breathed again.

"Will you really be able to live- sorry bad choice of words. To exited even here in the after life knowing you did this to her?

he frowned and shook his head "No"

"It's time to make a choice Owen"

"Ok"

"Close your eyes and make a choice."

He looked at him for a second and pulled him for a short hug. "Nice seeing you again Dan. And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for the-"

"It's ok Owen. I've made my peace. Go now quickly. Before it's too late."

He closed his eyes and when he opened them he was back at the woods, It's only been a few seconds since he left to this limbo in the real world. The silence stopped and all the voices and all of the real world and his problems came back feeling like a slap on the cheek.

"Owen!" He suddenly heard her voice and it all became clearer. he felt like a huge ston is being dropped from his chest. She's finally here. He knew he was all messed up and damaged but now, seeing her here, he felt hope for the first time in a long time.

She walked slowly to him with a terrified look on her face, as if she was trying not to scare him off.

"Owen give me the gun right now" He almost forgot he had a gun pointed to his head. He slowly brought it down to her hand and she placed it on the ground.

they both still head tears in their eyes from the few minutes happened before.

They stared into each other's eyes for half a second before they both quickly embraced each other more tightly then they ever did before.

He cried into her neck saying "You came" with a shaky voice

"Of course I did" She too was crying but now her sad tears turned into happy ones, she got there in time, she stop him and it's not too late for them. It's never going to be too late for them. They'll always find their way back to each other because some things are just ment to be.

He buried his face in her curls that he missed so much "Cristina..."

"Shhh, I'm here. I'm here Owen and every thing is going to be ok. I promise. It's ok"

She pulled away just enough to look at his face shaking her head and pulling him to her mouth, Kissing him and trying to unsure him that she's here and she won't ever not be. Trying to show him how much she loves him and that she could never live without him. But then she felt rage floating up to her chest about what he almost did. she pushed him away and started yelling

"How could you do this? How could you even think about doing this?! How dare you just give up on your life?How could you be so selfish and do this to me, to your mother?!" She was screaming and pounding on his chest with her fists, still in shock that she had almost lost him.

He grabbed her hands pulling her back into his embrace, mumbling "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"

She kept yelling and tried to free herself from his hold on her "How could you think I could live in this world without you? How dare you leave me all alone in this world You selfish selfish son of a bitch. "She finally broke down in his arms and sobbed but he held her up not letting her fall "I'm sorry"

They both knew they will never give up on each other again. They had allot to work out but it didn't matter, they were willing to fight as hard as it takes to get their happy ending. So what will make this time work when they failed all the other times? This time they won't fight each other,but for each other and with each other.

Once you meet the love of your life you understand why it never worked with anyone eles. They were always connected .Even before they even knew each other. The faith just planed them for each other . The universe also planted some other suspires for them to come but that will happen later. For now they were just happy they got each other back.