Hey, guys. Finally I have an update for this story too. I am so sorry for the delay and thank you for staying tuned. I hope you're gonna like this chapter.
Enjoy.
T73.
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Maura steps onto the porch and can see the Italian sitting on the first step. She is sitting down next to Jane and places her head on the taller woman's shoulder, looking up at the stars. "I've always liked the burbs more than the cities."
Jane is glancing down at the blonde. "Really?"
Maura is looking in the distant and nods approvingly. "Yes, the silence always makes me think that we are not living in such a fast and impersonal world. It always made me think that -"
Jane is frowning deeply and pulls Maura closer as she trails off. "That what?"
The doctor takes a deep breath and smiles sadly. "That the people still care for each other, that the world is still in some kind of symbiosis. I mean, ten years ago, we didn't kept out eyes on the displays of our smartphones just to be up-to-date. We read newspaper and books, and somehow still talked to each other. Now we don't even apologize anymore when we bump into each other because the phone or whatever is more important. Today, some families are sitting in restaurants and don't talk anymore, they rather write messages and that's what they call a family day.
You can be happy that your mother is old-fashioned and holds every week a family dinner. That's almost exclusive."
"Now, you almost sound like my grandma," Jane replies with a smile.
Maura chuckles briefly. "I just wanna say that you should appreciate your family's dinners."
The detective is intertwining their fingers and furrows her brows. "I do, I really do, Maura. It's just … My mother really can be a pain in the ass." She pauses and licks her lips. "Wanna tell me what happened after dinner? After my mother told that cheesy story."
Maura smiles a little and shrugs. "No." She simply answers and squeezes Jane's hand.
Jane raises surprised her eyebrows . "Why not?"
Maura exhales slowly through her mouth and swallows hard. "Because … because it is complicated, Jane. It is so complicated."
"I love complicated stories," the Italian replies and looks at Maura. "I hear complicated stories everyday."
Maura is holding the gaze of brown eyes and smiles a little. "I will tell you, but not tonight."
Jane nods slowly. "I can wait." She is silent for a couple of seconds. "Do you really think that our society changed that much over the last ten years?"
Maura nods slowly against the brunette's shoulder and is listening to the silence of the night.
She's still remembering when the luxury of silence was normal and as the world seemed to come to a rest. She knew that there was always some kind of hullabaloo everywhere, but it always seemed so far away in the past. But she also knows that the pat is just that, past.
She hums and closes her eyes. "Yes, but it feels like ages since it all changed."
Jane is looking up at the stars and purses her lips. "I don't know, but the silence here always made me feel restless. I mean, I love the house of my mother, but I need to be in the city. I don't mind that I only need five minutes to my work, tops." She smiles wryly and sighs. "Maybe I am really married to my work."
The doctor is looking long at the detective. "You still can move to a burb. You're a young woman, Jane."
Jane laughs sarcastically and sighs. "Maybe that's the problem, that I am only thirty-five. I am not made for a burb just yet. I need to be in the city, close to my work."
Maura sighs heavily. "I know, Jane."
Jane tries to bite her next question but she knows that it is in vain. "What happened to you, Maura? I know that you are keeping some things from me and I hate it when people I care for doing that. I am a big girl already, so what is it?"
The doctor opens her mouth and closes it again, feeling tears burning in her eyes, but she knows that she owes Jane some answers. "Let's just say that I had lived a very similar life like the story of your mother was going. Once, I … Once, I loved a man that I was not supposed to love, and when my father found out about it, he wasn't very pleased about it."
Jane is turning up her nose. "Why weren't you supposed to love this man? You can decide for yourself with whom you're falling love with. You're a grown woman."
Maura looks at Jane again and frowns, cupping her chin. She smiles and kisses her like she never had before, humming.
Jane's eyebrows are shooting up, but she doesn't pull away. She kisses the doctor back and groans a little. "I take that like your parents wouldn't be very happy with me as well."
"Not the slightest bit," the blonde replies. "Not the slightest, they sent me to France so Ja - The man I truly loved couldn't see me anymore."
The Italian scoffs and sips her beer. "Haven't the two of you heard lf email or instant messengers?"
Maura smiles and wipes an undiscovered tear off of her cheek. "That's where it gets complicated, Jane."
"Why," Jane asks and shrugs with a sigh. "If I would have been in this guy's shoes, I would be following you all around the world and would be looking for you until I'd found you. I wouldn't give a damn about what your parents think. I love you and no one will keep me from doing so, unless you tell me that it's over. And even then I won't leave your side. I will forever love you until my dying day, and beyond that."
Maura is looking deep into brown eyes which are so familiar and a sob escapes from her throat, and she wants to tell Jane that she already kept the promise, but she knows she can't tell her that just yet.
Maura knows that Jane would think that she is crazy when she tells her about their previous lives, that they are meant for each other.
She looks up at the sky and tries to blink her tears back, sniffling. "I love you so much … Jane."
Jane sighs and leans her forehead against Maura's, shaking her head. "Maybe we should stay here, in my room."
Maura chuckles now. "Is that some kind of dirty fantasy of you?"
"No," The Italian laughs and looks at Maura. "No, but I take the risk with you. Well, and we drank and I am a cop."
Maura is licking her lips. "So we're staying?"
"For tonight." Jane replies and shrugs uncomfortable. "Unless you wanna leave."
"I rather would like to leave " Maura replies with a smile.
"All right," Jane chuckles and sighs relieved. "let's go, then."
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Jane groans and stretches her whole body as she is waking up slowly. She opens her eyes and looms down at a smiling face. "Hey," she says with an sleep-laden voice.
"Good morning." Maura replies and smiles like a Cheshire cat.
Jane is looking around and frowns deeply. "Where am I?"
Panic is spreading through Maura's whole body. "You don't know where you are, Jane?"
Jane rubs the sleep from her eyes and stretches her arms over her head. "Well, as far as I know that's my dresser, this is my closet, that's my uncomfortable bed." She kisses Maura gently. "And this is my beautiful girlfriend. I just needed a moment to wake up." She makes a face. "Jesus, why is my body so sore?"
Maura starts to smirk and traces the Italian's bare collarbone with her fingers. "Perhaps because we spent a lot of time in your bed without sleeping."
Jane hums approvingly and starts to smirk. "You're oversexed, you know that?"
"Me?" Maura laughs and raises her eyebrows. "You were the one who didn't get enough."
Jane kisses the blonde gently and still smiles. "Who can blame me? We have to make up leeway."
Maura chuckles and straddles Jane's hips. The sheets is sliding down her torso and reveals her full breasts. "You are absolutely right, Jane.
The detective wastes no tome and is cupping them, lifting her hips a little.
Maura leans down to the Italian's ear and smiles. "You have nothing down there to please me with."
Jane groans and turns her head a little. "I do, it's just not attached to my body."
A deep moan escapes from the doctor's throat and she is shivering as a chill runs down her spine.
Jane arches an eyebrow with a smile. "Is that what you really want," she asks and places f hands on the doctor's hips. "You riding me while I have my hands all over you?"
Maura is swallowing hard and her eyes fall shut as her brain understands what the detective has suggested. "Not today," she whispers. "Maybe another time." She smiles as Jane's hands find their way to her butt. All of a sudden, she starts to feel alive again and she tilts her head to the side as she feels Jane's lips on her shoulder.
Jane runs her hands over the blonde's sides and growls. "I like you on top of me."
"And I like your head between my legs." Maura counters with a smirk.
Jane lowers her eyebrows. "I like that too."
The smaller woman smirks again as the Italian pulls beer head down and misses her slowly. She automatically rolls her hips again and sighs.
Jane pulls away and furls her eyebrows. "Are you really trying to stimulate my imaginary dick?"
Maura is blushing and shrugs. "I am so sorry, it's an old habit."
Jane looks long at her and shrugs too. "Don't be sorry, it's working. I have an imaginary boner."
Maura chuckles amused and starts to kiss the Italian's neck.
Jane laughs but turns serious again as a warmth is spreading in her lower abdomen. She turn her head and connects their lips again. She whimpers as a phone starts vibrating and pulls away again. "Yours or mine?"
Maura frowns and looks at both nightstand. She rolls off of Jane with a sigh and takes the device in her hand. "Mine."
Jane leans up on her elbow and let her hand roam over the doctor's back. "I thought you'd have off this weekend."
Maura turns on her back and glances at the display of her phone. "I thought so too."
"Don't pick up," Jane suggested and smiles wryly. "We could stay in bed the whole weekend."
Maura is giving the Italian a peck and smiles sadly as she takes the call. "Isles."
Jane buries her face in her pillow and groans loudly.
The doctor sighs heavily and nods while she's listening. "Okay, I'll be there as soon as I can."
Jane makes a pouty face and furrows her eyebrows. "You sure that you're still able to walk?"
The doctor kisses her again and gets out of the bad. "Barely, but I'm gonna survive it. Can I take a shower?"
"No," Jane replies and chuckles when Maura is glaring at her. "The next door on the left." She sighs and closes her eyes as soon as the doctor leaves the bedroom.
She staring at the ceiling and can't understand why she barely can't spend an hour away from Maura and what is going on deep inside of her. She has the feeling that she bad let down the blonde a million years ago what is ridiculous because they know each other for little over two weeks now, but something is playing up inside of her.
She has realized that she knows Maura like someone who spent half of their lives together. It feels like a second consciousness is scraping on a very thick, locked oak door. In the beginning, it was a quiet scraping, but it got louder with every day. And the louder it gets, the more her head feels like it could explode any minute.
"The hell," she mumbles and gets out of the bed too. She enters the bathroom and frowns. "Maura, I have to go. My brother called me."
Maura is quiet for a moment and turns off the water. "Okay, I'm almost done. Just a minute."
Jane frowns and rolls her eyes. She hasn't thought about that. "No, take your time. I … I take a shower at the station, it's no detour."
"Are you sure," Maura asks after a short silence.
"Yeah," the detective answers. "I call you later. I love you."
Maura turns the water on with a smile. "I love you too, Jane."
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Caroline is entering the treatment room and studies the medical record in her hand. "I am sorry that I had no time to introduce myself. I am Dr. Caroline Spencer."
Jane raises an hand and shrugs. "Jane Rizzoli."
Caroline is freezing and almost drops the file to the ground, looking up from the file.
The Italian rolls her eyes as she realizes that the doctor has to be a friend of Maura. "And I catch a doctor who is a friend of my girlfriend."
Caroline stares at Jane and tries to smile, in vain. "Uh … I am so sorry. Yes, I am a friend of Maura."
Jane takes a deep breath and furrows her eyebrows. "Listen, Maura doesn't know that I am here and I would like if it stays that way. I don't want her to worry about me, and we both know she would worry."
Caroline nods slowly and swallows hard. "Maura didn't mention that the two of you have a serious relationship."
"Excuse me," Jane asks confused.
"You said that she would be your girlfriend."
"I did?"
Caroline smiles and looks again at the medical record. "Yes, you did."
"Well," the Italian states and shrugs. "we haven't discussed this little detail yet, but I am sure that Maura would agree with that."
The blond doctor raises her brows and tilts her head to the side. "However, you can call yourself lucky that you catcher me as your neurologist."
Jane's heart drops and she becomes serious again. "What does that suppose to mean?"
Caroline looks apologetically at the brunette and doesn't answer the question. "So, you said that you suffer from bad headaches. Since when do you have them?"
Jane rubs her hands and frowns. "Almost two weeks. It feels like my head is about to explode. I have tried any kind of pain killer that I can get in a drug store, but it doesn't get better. On the contrary, it gets worse."
Caroline is checking the reaction of the Italian with a small light and frowns. "Did your head hurt like this before?"
Jane makes a face and blinks a couple of times. "No. I mean, I am a Homicide Detective, headaches are a daily fare, but was never that kind of pain and I got a bit scared. That's why I am here now."
"That was a very wise decision, Detective." Caroline mumbles.
Jane's frown is deepening. "Why? Have I any reason to be worried?"
The blonde looks back at her new patient and smiles. "No, the reactions of your pupils are excellent, but to be sure I would like to make an MRI scan before I send you home."
"Today," Jane asks back and furrows her eyebrows.
"Yes, today." Caroline simply answers and smiles as she sees the unhappy face of the detective.
Jane groans and lays her head back in her neck.
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Maura is giving an male nurse instructions how he has to treat her patient when she isn't in purview as Caroline joins her. She furls her eyebrows when she sees the pale face of her friend. "Hey what's wrong?"
Caroline is hesitating and hands Maura the MRI scan. "You should take a look at this, Maura."
Maura sighs heavily and looks at the scan, frowning. "Have you shoved your patient a fairy light into their head? I've never seen something like this."
The neurologist licks her lips and furrows her brows. "My patient came in with bad cephalea and she appeared to be in perfectly fine condition. That's why I ordered an MRI scan and that's the result of this scan."
Maura looks confused at friend and furls her brows. "Her cortex cerebi is glowing, Caroline. Do you know what something like this can cause?"
Caroline shakes her head and sighs heavily. "I have absolutely no idea, Maura."
"Is that even possible," Maura asks perplex.
"I have never heard or read about something like that," the neurologist answers and looks worried at her friend.
Maura is staring at the scan and a smile is tugging on the sides of her mouth. "Wow, I would love to meet your patient."
Caroline swallows hard and looks long at the internist. "That's … It's impossible."
Maura's eyebrows are shooting up. "Please don't tell me that you have discharged her without an precisely diagnosis."
Caroline rolls her eyes and snorts. "Of course not, but you … You can't see her."
Maura is sensing that there is something off and scrutinizes her friend. "Caroline, what is going on for real?"
"Maura, I can't the tell you." The other woman replies with apologetically eyes.
Maura purses annoyed her lips and crosses arms over her chest. "Spit it."
The neurologist rolls her eyes and her shoulders slump. "It's Jane's scan."
Maura's hear drops and she can feel the color draining from her face as she nearly drops the scan to the floor. "Jane? Jane Rizzoli is here? You mean my Jane Rizzoli? Why didn't you page me?"
"She asked me not to tell you," Caroline whispers sharply, grabs Maura at her elbow and drags the other woman into a silent corner. "Maura, listen, something's happening with Jane and none of us know what or if it is damaging Jane's neurological functions. This scan looks like two consciousnesses are overlapping. Did Jane behave strangely the last couple of days?"
Maura blinks a couple of times and hopes that she won't start to cry in front of Caroline and to recall the last days with the Italian. "Uh … no. No, she acted quite normal. Well, this morning she seemed to be a little disoriented for a second, but then she was like always again. I didn't worry too much about it because it sometimes happen to me too." She buries her face in her hands and shakes her head. "Oh, God. Caroline, can you hospitalize Jane?"
"How should I explain that, Maura?" Caroline hisses with big eyes. "I have no medical reasons to keep Jane here. She has no medical issue that can be diagnosed. I can't hospitalize her in my department. The only option we have would be our psych ward."
Maura snorts and shakes her head. "Jane won't agree to that. She rather convince the psychologists that she don't have mental diseases, which is absolutely true."
"For now," the neurologist says empathetically. "We have no idea what will happen because scientifically it is impossible, Maura. We don't know if this is a short-term or a long-term condition. We don't know in which way this is gonna change Jane's personality. Maybe she gets the consciousness of Jacopo who is trapped in a female body, in a different century. Then, her family is going to commit her in a psych ward anyway."
Tears are welling up in Maura's eyes and her mind is running a hundred miles an hour.
Now, she becomes aware of all the side effects of her actions she has done ages ago. Now, she becomes aware that she probably has ruined a woman's life before the said woman was born. Now, shed becomes aware of the fact that she could lose the person that she loves once again.
"Oh, my God." She whispers to herself. "What have I done, Caroline?"
Caroline's eyes are softening and she takes Maura's hands in her own. "You couldn't have known that, Maura. Hell, maybe nothing's gonna happen at all and Jane's headaches disappear after a while again. But you should enjoy the time you got with Jane, just to be careful. But I'm sure everything is gonna be fine."
Maura is nodding slowly and takes a deep breath, wiping a single tear off of her cheek. "You are right. You are absolutely right, Caroline." She pauses and closes briefly her eyebrows. "Can I … can I see her?"
Caroline hesitates a second and starts to walk. "Come on."
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Jane is about to put her black leather jacket on as she hears the door opening. "Hey, doc. It's about time. I have to be -" She trails off as she turns around and glances into worried hazel eyes. "Maura? What the hell are you doing here?"
Maura is wasting no time and walks to the Italian, wrapping her arms tightly around Jane's neck. "Why haven't you told me that you're not feeling well?"
"Maura, it is just a headache." Jane laughs, but then she turns serious as soon as she sees Caroline's worried face. "It is just a headache, isn't it?"
Caroline nods approvingly. "Yes, it is just a migraine."
The Italian smiles at the smaller woman in her arms. "See?"
Maura pulls the detective's head down and kisses her long and slow.
Caroline is looking down at her feet to hide her smile.
Jane's eyebrows are shooting up as soon as the blonde is deepening the kiss, and she pulls the doctor closer.
The neurologist scratches the back of her neck and clears her throat.
Jane pulls away and grins at Maura. "Sorry, doc." She says.
Caroline chuckles and glances at Maura. "Well, the MRI scan doesn't show anything that is alarming me. You have -" She pauses and shrugs. "It's indeed just a bad headache."
Jane furrows her eyebrows. "But why doesn't the painkillers help then? You sure that you haven't missed an brain tumor?"
Maura huffs and swats Jane's shoulder. "Caroline is the best neurologist in Massachusetts, Jane. Don't sound so disappointed."
"That's an exaggeration but thank you, Maura." Caroline replies with a small smile. "You are perfectly fine, Jane. Sometimes only a lot of rest is the only thing that helps."
Jane arches an eyebrow with an smirk. "Did you hear that, Dr. Isles? I need a lot of rest, it's my doctor's order."
Maura is blushing and her eyes grow big. "Sssh."
Caroline chuckles and points with her thumb over her shoulder. "I'm gonna leave the two of you alone now. It was nice to meet you, Jane."
"Likewise," the Italian laughs.
Maura shakes her head with a smile. "You are impossible, Jane Rizzoli."
"I know. Are you gonna give me a call when you're done for today?"
The doctor nods again and kisses the brunette again. "I will."
"Okay," Jane says and heads for the door. "See you later."
Maura is still nodding, but drops as soon as the door closes again. She closes her eyes and licks her lips to compose herself again before she leaves the room as well.
