Yes guys it is the long awaited chapter and please in a review tell me what you think of the little song-ficky bit at the end. So sorry for the wait! Expect more frequent updates.
POV-Ahsoka Tano
"Get some rest, sweetie. I'll see you sooner than you think"
Those simple words echoed over and over in my head. I clutched my knees to my chest and rested my head on my knees, letting tears fall freely down my face. My hands were cold, my feet were cold and my heart ached ever more. Anakin was gone and none of us knew where he had gone but I had a feeling I knew where he went. As far as Admiral Yularen can tell is that the ship was put into hyperspace just before midnight as a shuttle left the hangar. I had tried coming him numerous times but it was no use he was blocking me out and it was hurting me, a lot. He probably knows that but whatever he's doing is for all of us and I really hope its worth it.
'Oh Anakin,' I thought helplessly in my head, 'Why did you have to go without speaking to me first?'
"Ahsoka!" I heard a voice shout from the door as my heart leapt.
Without any notice I sprung to my feet and ran to the door, hoping for it to be Anakin. I opened the door and swung my arms around the person standing there.
"Uh... Ahsoka, I'm flattered with your expression of feelings but I sense you weren't looking for me." Obi wan's voice said calmly.
I quickly released him and took a step backwards, feeling awkward and staring at my feet as I scuffed my foot at the metallic ground.
"Sorry Obi wan." I replied, clearing my throat.
"May I come in?"
"Y-yes of course." I said bewildered.
As Obi wan sauntered in I hugged myself, wishing that it was Anakin.
"What seems to be the matter, Obi wan?"
"I'm here to inform you that we'll be arriving on Coruscant within the hour."
"WHAT?!" I screamed in his face, "We have to find, Anakin. He could be anywhere! He could be in a ditch somewhere, dying! for all we know! He needs me now, I need him now."
"Ahsoka, there's no time to be thinking like that, without any leads or clues as to where he went we cant just go on the suspicion he's gone to Tatooine." Obi wan stated, in a calm tone as he tensed up.
"You're right, Obi wan. I'm sorry, my emotions are getting the best of me." I saw Obi wan physically relax as he stood, stroking his beard, thoughtfully.
"Have you tried signalling him through your master and Padawan bond?"
"Your a genius, Obi wan!" I smiled, my tone of voice held a glimmer of hope.
I grasped at the force and the soothing tendrils guided me to Anakin's Force signature. I tried speaking to him mentally but he blocked me out. All I could feel was his emotions. He was hurting, both physically and emotionally, emotionally ruling out the physical pain. My heart clenched as I sucked in a lungful of air, desperately trying to calm myself. My sweet, handsome Anakin was hurting and it was all because of me being disconnected from his side. I knew he could sense that I was in his mind and I knew he could hear me.
'I love you...' I whispered, trying to hide the pain in the Force.
Almost instantaneously I felt a wave of love and happiness flow through me as my heart skipped a beat. However, his emotions turned drastically as I felt a pang to my heart as sadness washed over and through the bond.
'I love you so much, Soka...'
That was it. That was all he said before he pushed me out of his mind completely and woke me up to reality.
There was a dip in the bed I was sitting on. Obi wan was staring at me with a highly concerned look.
"Are you ok? You were shivering."
"I-I'm a-al-alright...I think."
"Ok, well contact me if you need anything ok? I think we're docking now."
I nodded as he began to walk out, glancing back at me as he walked over the threshold.
POV-Ahsoka Tano
I'm so confused, confused more than ever, more than I was before. I only wanted answers and thats all I needed. It was raining again over the Jedi Temple and the situation with Anakin wasn't getting any better. The weather made me miserable especially for us Togrutas since the weather has a huge effect on how we feel. Right now I'd give anything to see Anakin or even hear him cause as matter of fact, sitting on his bed, cuddling his pillow and holding a photo of him in my hands just isn't working. Get a grip, Ahsoka. Maybe Anakin left a clue here, wrong the only way there would be a clue here is if it was on a holo-projector and I'm pretty sure Anakin wouldn't be that... Wait a second, Anakin has a holo-projector, his holo-projector and it never leaves his desk.
As quick as lightning I leapt off the bed, placing the photo down and throwing the pillow on the bed, racing to his desk. I scrambled around a few holo-pads and a pens and papers before I found it, blinking at me, beckoning for me to press the button to play the unseen message. Cautiously I sat at his desk and pressed the button, bringing my knees up to my chest.
"Ahsoka, Artooie sent this message to my holo-projector, and check my holo pad if you find it."
a hologram of Anakin stated as it popped up, my heart leaping out of my chest, it was so good to hear his voice.
"I'm so sorry I left in such a hurry, you must be so worried that the whole galaxy can hear you screaming it from the rooftops."
I smiled, continuing to watch.
"I can tell you that Artoo and I are about to land on Tatooine and that we miss your company very much and I love you and I promise to you that I'll come back to you alive. I sent the ship into hyperspace cause I just couldn't bare risk of losing all the people I love on that ship and I hope you respect the fact that I value the lives of even the Clones. You have no idea how much it pained me to rip myself away from you and I know you are hurting and that I've left you like this."
Artoo came into the picture, whistling something before rolling out of the frame as Anakin sighed, looking down.
"I know I promised, Soka but if it comes down to it, know that I love you and move on and be happy, just don't forget me as I will never forget you."
Tears fought their way to my eyes as I saw one drip from Anakin's chin.
"I'm so sorry, Soka..." He whispered, "I love you..."
The message ended.
I felt cold all over as I stood up emotionless and took switched the holo-projector off as my eye caught something blinking on a data-pad I hadn't seen before. I picked it up and realised it was Anakin's holo pad and there was a message on it.
'Snips, I know you love singing and don't deny it. I've heard you plenty of times in the shower and whilst I was waiting for us (me and R2) to reach Tatooine, I wrote this song to express my emotions right now and my love for you. Enjoy'
A/N this is not my song and I do not own it. Thank, 'The Script' and this is their song 'Breakeven'.
I got up and stood at the window, looking out as I looked at the lyrics in my hand before taping a sound file labelled, Soka-I sung it for you as well.
"I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing"
I placed my hand on the glass as he began to sing, staring out at the rain, traffic and glittering city.
"Just praying to a God that I don't believe in. Cause I got time while she got freedom. Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even"
I stared at the lyrics in my hand, crying slightly.
"Her best days will be some of my worst. She finally met a man that's gonna put her first. While I'm wide awake, she has no trouble sleeping. Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, no"
My heart began to ache as I sobbed quietly, listening and skimming my eyes over the lyrics, you know love is true when he writes you a song.
"What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you? And what am, I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces,yeah"
I looked at my reflection in the glass, closing my eyes visualising Anakin coming through the door and walking up to me.
"They say bad things happen for a reason,yeah. But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding,yeah. Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving. And when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, nooo-ooo-ooohh!"
Imagining Anakin turning me around and wiping the tears away, before hugging me.
"What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you? And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces, yeah. I'm falling to pieces..."
"I'm falling to pieces? One's still in love while the other one's leaving. I'm falling to pieces. Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even."
I opened my eyes as a zap of lightning flashed as I caught myself staring at the rain again, remembering the pain of Anakin not being next to me.
"You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain. You took your suitcase, I took the blame. Now I'm tryin' make sense of what little remains, oh. Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name,yeah...I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing. Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in,yeah..Cause I got time while she got freedom,yeah..Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no, it don't break even, oohh!"
And thats when I saw it, a reflection of Anakin on the glass except I could sense his Force presence. He was smiling at me with a tear in his eye, reaching out to cup my face, a shimmer of warm caressing my cheek as I listened to Anakin's voice.
"What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you? And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces, yeah. I'm falling to pieces, yeah"
I stared, mesmerised at Anakin. 'How is doing this?' I asked myself but it didn't matter. He had touched me, the touch I had longed for as I smiled back.
"I'm falling to pieces. One's still in love while the other one's leaving. I'm falling to pieces, Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break even. Oh, it don't break even, no. Oh, it don't break even, no. Oh, it don't break even, no..."
His voice faded out.
"No matter what, I love you..." The reflection mouthed but I know that Anakin was here and timed his mouth with the sound file before the reflection abruptly disappeared, no trace of it ever being there.
"I love you too, no matter what."
