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Jones was sitting at their coffee table with her glasses on Travis burst into the apartment. He threw his bag down the long hallway of the loft as he slammed the door shut. Jones sighed and pulled off her glasses. She knew he was going to be pissed, she had read the paper. She stood up at the same time he reached the great room.

" What the hell, Jones? How could you do that!" He snapped.

" I didn't. I didn't tell anyone. I must have left my notes at school in the office and Bryan took them. He choose to run the story." Jones said.

" Oh right! So you find the story out about her and it just happens to get published the next day? Do you know she won't even talk to me now?" Travis snapped.

" Listen, we will go and talk to her, explain it was a mistake." Jones said.

" You are going to explain it to her! You are going to fix this!" Travis snapped. " Let's go!"

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Jillian was sitting on the couch with Tiffany. Her best friend had her arm around her shoulders as Jillian cried. She had moved away from her hometown and changed her last name to hide her past. No one at the college knew what had happen to her but Tiffany. No one was supposed to know. In their town, people looked at her like she was going to crack and fall apart at any moment. She couldn't stand the way people whispered about her and now it was happening again. A knock on the door pulled her out of her thoughts.

" I will get it." Tiffany said before she walked away. She walked through the small apartment and opened the door. Travis was standing there, shifting his weight around and rubbing his chin.

" Is Jillian here?" He asked, making her head snap up. She stood up quickly and started towards her room.

" I do not want to talk to him!" She called out. Travis pushed passed Tiffany, dragging Jones behind him.

" Jillian, wait!" He said as they moved through the apartment.

" No! I don't want to see you!" She said. She tried to shut her bedroom door but Travis grabbed it.

" Tell her, Jones!" He said as they walked into her room. Jillian was sitting on her bed.

" She is your friend! Like I'm going to listen to anything she says!" Jillian yelled as Tiffany came into the room. She moved over to her friend.

" Listen, it's not Travis' fault. It really isn't, just hear me out." Jones said quickly. Jillian was frowning as she looked from Travis to Jones. " We felt like you were hiding something from Travis, he was upset that you wouldn't be his girlfriend so I...I decided digging into your past. I was looking for anything I could find and..."

" You had no right to do that! My past is mine! The reasons I can't be his girlfriend are none of your business!" Jillian said as she paled.

" I know, I know! But Travis is my friend and he was upset." Jones tried to explained.

" So you find out about Jillian's past and decided to spread it around? You're really classy." Tiffany spit out as the two friends embraced.

" I didn't spread it around. I got copies of the police files and I showed it to Travis. I must have left the files at school and Bryan, from the newspaper found them. I'm so sorry!" Jones tried to explain. Jillian had tears flowing down her cheeks.

" It was none of your business, Travis! I didn't want you to know the entire story!" She said.

" Look this is not his fault, it's all mine." Jones said as she started to come foward Jillian looked at Tiffany.

" Get her the fuck out of here before I flip out and beat her ass!" Jillian snapped. Tiffany nodded and walked towards Jones. She grabbed her arm and the two girls left the room with Tiffany closing the door behind her. Jillian sat on her bed but didn't look at Travis.

" I'm sorry, Jillian." He said. She wiped her cheeks and shook her head.

" It doesn't matter, Travis." He didn't miss that she wasn't calling him by her nickname. " How long have you known?"

" A couple of days." He said as he walked over to her. He slowly sat down beside her. She shook her head as she wiped her cheeks.

" Is that why you didn't want to have sex the other day?" She asked.

" No. I was upset with you. I saw you at The Coffee House with a guy. You were laughing and having a good time with him. I got upset. Jones did some digging and than I found shit out." He said. She looked at him than, her dark eyes shining.

" He was the lawyer that put my dad in prison. He has helped me deal with things that happen. He had become like a brother to me. We are working together so that my dad spends the rest of his life in jail. If you had asked me about him, I would have told you that." She said.

" I'm sorry. I just...I got upset. I felt like you liked this other guy." He said.

" So you got into my private business because you were jealous?" Jillian asked.

" I didn't. I told Jones not too but she did it anyway." Travis said.

" But you read the file and you didn't have too. Do you know why I said no to being your girlfriend?" She asked. Travis shook his head. " Because I'm not mentally healthy. I'm not ready to have a boyfriend, not until I have dealt better with my past. I'm scared, okay? I'm scared I will turn into my dad and brother and I don't want to have anyone around me in case I do go nuts. I don't want to turn on my family like he did." She said.

" You aren't. You can't think like that." Travis said as he took her hand. Jillian shook her head.

" You don't know that. I don't know that." She started as she took her hand away from him. " That is why I'm in counseling. So I can help overcome my fears about my past and have a healthy relationship. I didn't say I won't be your girlfriend because I only want to have casual sex. I like you, I really like you but I can not be with you right now."

" Why didn't you tell me that?" Travis asked.

" It was none of your business. I didn't want you to know. It's not a part of my life I wanted anyone to know about. I changed my last name because of the harassment I was getting and now I'm going to have to leave school." She said.

" What? No, you can't leave." He said quickly. Jillian sighed.

" I'm leaving. I can't stay here. You can't image the looks I have been getting already and tomorrow the looks and whispers are going to be worst. I know what people think, I know everyone thinks I'm just like my family and I can't take it. I called Mike, the lawyer you saw me with. I leaving tonight for his place. I'm moving in with him and his family until I find my own place. I have withdrawn from school and I'm going to start over again, somewhere else." She said. Travis took her hand again.

" Don't. Don't go. Come on. We waited a year to be together and now we can be. I don't think you're crazy, I'm not worried about it." He said quickly. Jillian shook her head and looked at him.

" You don't understand, Travs. It's not about what you think, it's about me and what I think. I can not be with someone until I can make myself happy. I can't put it on you to make me happy." She stopped talking then and turned away. She closed her eyes and shook her head, pulling her hand away from him. " You need to go, okay? I need to finish packing." Her voice had dropped again.

" Jillian, please don't go, just stay here. We will get through this, I can help you. I want to help you." Travis said. Jillian shook her head again.

" No. I have to leave. I'm sorry, Travs." She said.