He wasn't sure what woke her, but the second her eyes opened, he saw the panic set in. He watched her fingers flex and straighten against the sheets before she inhaled sharply.

"I'm right here." His voice hummed out of him in a way he thought sounded disconnected instead of warm as he had intended. She let the gasp out slowly anyway, and melted back against the sheets.

"Are you alright?" She asked quietly into the shadowy room, he smirked at her.

"As 'alright' as I ever am." His voice rose at the end and he witnessed the smile pull across her lips. She propped herself up on her arm and met his eyes, he watched her catch her lip between her teeth and let it slip out again.

"How long have you been watching me sleep?"

"Since I carried you in from out there." He gestured over his shoulder at the door to the suite. She smiled at him. "I checked on the kids. Everyone's okay." He nodded more to himself then to her. "Delgado's been blowing up your phone." He lifted her cell phone from the table beside him, rubbing at his eyes with the other hand. "I was going to order dinner but-."

"Todd." She called softly.

"I wasn't sure what to order, and it seemed like sleep was more important-."

"Todd." She slipped off the sheets and sat on the edge of the bed, pulling his hand from his face.

He pressed his lips together and swallowed hard, his eyes ticking from the ceiling to the wall, to the floor.

"I mean you're probably starving." He whispered, as her fingers closed around his. He shifted slightly in the chair when she brought her other hand to his face.

"Todd.." His eyes finally clicked to hers, and she winced at what she found. Her index finger slipped over his jaw as her thumb glided across the familiar terrain of his cheek. His eyes sunk shut and a tear slipped over her knuckle. She pulled his bawled fist to her lips and kissed it, watching his eyelids wrinkle tightly.

Her phone vibrated loudly against the wooden arm of the chair, Todd opened his eyes only to roll them back into his head.

"My least favorite ex wife-" He moaned, "is annoying." A wispy smile attempted to surface against Blair's pale cheeks, but it disappeared. "What?"

"Nothing." She exhaled shaking her head, her eyes going towards the phone. "I should make sure she's okay."

"She's not okay." Todd shrugged. "She's never okay. What was that?"

"What was what?" Her fingers started to slip from his face, he held them in place.

"Blair?"

"Todd.." She smiled at him for real this time and he released her hand. The phone sounded again, she raised an eyebrow at him. He passed it to her, holding on a little tighter than necessary. She pulled it from him with a fake scold.

He watched her carefully as she talked to Tea.

"Tea-." She shook her head slightly. "I'm sorry. I was sleeping. Well I'm sorry Tea, I have to sleep sometime. I know. I know. I'm sure you're worried sick. I know I'm sorry, but Tea this means he's alive. I know-." Todd watched her, his mind reviewing each new piece of information he'd collected since his latest miraculous return.

She continued to appease his least favorite ex wife, apologizing and validating until Todd was sure he was going to be sick. She did this now, acted so docile, so accommodating. She seemed not to have much fight left in her. Todd thought of her in her backyard, wine glass swirling sloppily as she stared at the picture of them. Wondering, he remembered, if he was the one great love of her life. Wondering? He suddenly needed to know what his evil twin had done to make her wonder. In all the time, and all the through all the trial he had put her through himself, his actual self, she had never seemed so broken. He stood up and walked to where she stood, looking out the window of the hotel room. His fingers curled around her waist as he took the phone in his other hand.

"Tea. Yeah. Look Blair hasn't eaten in like- twenty hours. We'll call you when we get back to Llanview." He told her, his tone more tolerant than most would find him capable. "If you get a chance check can you check and make sure the boys are being good for Starr? Thank you."

He hung up the phone, dropping that hand around her waist as well, holding her back tight against his chest.

"Todd she's going through a lot-."

"I'm not worried about Tea right now." He pressed his chin against her shoulder and her head melted back against his.

"What are you worried about?" She huffed.

"Victor."

"Victor?" Her face quirked up into a small sneer. "Since when do you care about what happens to Victor?"

"Hey." He feigned hurt, pulling back and looking at her face. "You saw how distraught I was when I thought I killed the guy."

"Because you were scared you'd go to jail." She snorted.

"Because I was scared I'd lose you." He whispered, pressing his lips to her shoulder and holding her tighter.

"You can't lose me." She pushed out with just a trace of breath, he let his eyes sink shut.

"You're right though, I don't care about Victor." He exhaled."I'm worried about Victor, the things he did." She turned in his arms, her eyebrows knit. "The things he did when you thought he was me."

"You didn't do those things."

"No.. but in your life, the last eight years of it anyway.." His voice faded and she ran her fingers across his cheek, her chin dropping to her chest. He lifted her chin back up. "I'm so sorry for all those things, Blair." Her chin shook, Todd pressed his lips against it gently.

"I should have known." The phrase exhaled softly out of her as she settled against his chest, the tip of her nose brushing against the skin of his open collar. He kissed the spot where her forehead met her hairline. "I keep thinking back, trying to remember, but it was so long ago and I-." He shushed her gently as her voice broke. "I know I didn't believe him. Not at first."

He didn't look like you, or sound like you or smell like you." The pitch of her voice rose with each new accusation. "But he was you, he knew things only you would know."

"I know." Todd pulled her back by the shoulders and looked into her eyes.. "I told him, and I'm sorry." He ignored her when he shook her head. "And I'm sorry I let all my bullshit get in our way Blair because if I had never made you think that you weren't the only one for me then you would have known."

"Todd, I don't-" The perfect vertical line between her eyes appeared again and part of him wanted to cry.

"I'd never choose anyone over you." He smiled at her. "Not Tea.. Not-." She watched him swallow hard. "Marty." Her eyes shut and her grip on his arms tightened. "No one but you."

She dropped back against him and he cupped the back of her head, holding her there. He could feel her shoulders start to shake. "I'm sorry he hurt you."

"I've missed you so much." She told him through her tears. "I've missed you."