Disclaimer: Rin, Len, Miku, Luka, Gakupo, Kaito, Teto, Meiko, and Neru do not belong to me, but wouldn't it be nice if they were?
'…' Represent thoughts. Not to be confused with dialogue. Note, if there are italics during thoughts, those are brief flashbacks. Don't confuse these either. Remember- dialogue, thoughts, and flashbacks.
Sinful Realizations
Len leaned on the outside of his sister's door, his fingers touching his lips. He glared at the ground, confused and angry at him self. Of all the women out there in the world to kiss, his first was stolen to a girl who shared his face and blood. He closed his eyes, savoring the flavor of her lips, knowing in his mind that this would be the only time he'll ever be able to taste it.
On the other side of the white door, Rin sat upwards on her bed, pressing her thumb to her lips. She gazed at the door intently, millions of thoughts going through her head. She was surprised at what her twin had done, and wished that she were more awake and energetic to react to his actions. His lips were soft, moist, and sweet. This kiss was like dark chocolate to her- bittersweet with sin and affection. Why couldn't she fight the urge to sleep? Why couldn't she kiss him back when she had the chance? Rin felt as though she needed to kick herself in the stomach that she did nothing in return to the only possible kiss she'll ever get from her beloved brother. She laid her body back out on the bed, her eyelids growing ever more heavy.
Len walked silently towards his new room, knees feeling weak with every step he took. What he failed to notice was from the shadows down the hallway, suspecting eyes glared at his back.
-The Next Morning-
The large chime of church bells signaled the start of morning mass. The Kagamine family entered the large, gothic-like cathedral. As Rin and her father reached to put holy water on their foreheads, the mother figure secretly and harshly beckoned Len at the doors, whispering so that only the two can hear.
"You will participate in this mass, and pray hard for our family's souls- got that, snake?" she hissed. All Len could do was grimace, breaking away his gaze towards the wall.
'Is this any way to talk in the house of God?' he thought sarcastically.
The tall woman walked away, applying holy water to her forehead while Rin and her husband waited for her. Len followed suit, then the four headed down the aisle to their pew. Rin went in first, then her mother, followed by her father, then her twin. The four kneeled down to pray their rosaries. While the parents had their eyes closed in prayer, the two gazed at each other from the corner of their eyes, not ever looking directly at each other. Images of the previous night flooded their memories until all the people attending mass stood up, watching as the clergy made their way down the aisle. The two were surprised when they noticed that their family friend, Meiko, was part of the clergy that day.
Meiko was a nun who randomly joined the church two years prior. Nobody knew where she had come from beforehand, minus the priest and one other nun. As Len put it, it was as if she appeared one day out of thin air at the church. Her beauty and kind behavior earned the family's trust easily.
After mass had ended, the family met up with the clergy members. While the twins' parents were of greeting the priest, Rin and Len approached Meiko. She smiled at them while removing her white and black veil.
"Hello my favorite little pair of twins!" she greeted. Len blushed a bit, displaying embarrassment, while Rin smiled her big pearly whites.
"Morning Meiko-nee-san," said the two in sync. Meiko squealed in delight.
"I love it when you two do that!" she hyped as she patted them both on top of their heads playfully. Her mood quickly changed when she felt a chill go down her spin. She removed her hands from their hair, examining their faces. They were normally chipper and had a warm aura around them every time she saw them, but now it felt quite the opposite.
Being around the church for two years, Meiko somewhat obtained the ability to feel other's emotions. She became excessively sensitive, it was easy for her to tell when people had doubt, were happy, confused, or depressed. Today, she seemed to sense confusion and depression stemming from the two, even though they hid their emotions behind a masked smile.
"Is something the matter, you two?" she asked concerned. The twins blinked at her question, fearing that she noticed something that neither wanted to reveal. Len parted his lips to speak.
"Nothi- " was all he could mutter before his mother cut him off.
"Good morning, Sister!"
Len sighed.
'She always manages to ruin my day…'
Meiko was suddenly occupied with conversation with the parents, leaving Len feeling abandoned. He figured he could never talk openly when his mother was around. He scanned the church, and then suddenly realized that Rin was no longer inside. He figured that she probably went outside to the chapel when nobody was looking. He made a secret dash towards the church entrance, quickly marking his forehead with holy water before exiting. This did not go unnoticed by Meiko, however, as she eyed his secret escape from the corner of her eye. She sensed that Len didn't want anybody to follow, so she continued her conversation with the parents casually. Meiko knew that it was best to participate in his little getaway; Len and Rin were not feeling well that morning, so they need to work out whatever was wrong, and she was going to help them any way she could.
-Inside the Chapel-
Rin walked up to the pedestal and stared at it. She closed her eyes and held up her hands to her chest as if she was going to pray.
'God…will I rot in hell for these emotions I'm feeling? No human is perfect…right? Isn't it sin that makes us human? If I were to give into my emotions, will you keep me from heaven's gates? What about my twin? Is he to become the devil's next lackey?'
She felt a tear come to her left eye.
She realized what she felt. She knew that she loved her twin, more than any twin should ever love. Even more exciting was that she knew that he loved her too. She was so happy, that she was scared at the same time. Scare of what people would think of her. Scared of being ridiculed. Scared of any and all possible bad things happening.
Her thinking was interrupted as she heard the chapel door open. Her eyes met a matching blue pair. He was panting a little, a smile spread across his face for the first time that day.
"I thought I would find you here," he teased.
No response.
He didn't approach her; instead he stayed in front of the door, approximately thirty feet away from her. He sensed that she was surprised at his sudden intrusion.
"Why did you run off like that? Tell me next time, okay? I worry about you, you know?"
Her expression changed to a blank one as she parted her lips.
"Sorry."
Now it was his turn to give the surprised face. Like their twin telepathy always had it, he knew she was troubled.
"What's wrong, Rin?"
She gave him concerned eyes, ridden with guilt.
"I know what you did last night to me."
Len's eyes dimmed. His heart stammered. His body tensed.
He was busted.
"I…I thought you were…" he stammered.
"Asleep?" she finished.
Len's world entered its apocalyptic stage. He was found out- and by his very own twin no less! His sister… his mirror image… his love…the main person who should never find out his secret. He swore he could hear the angels muttering words of rejection and disgust out at him. The statues above in the chapel came to life, pointing fingers at him, condemning him. Above all, he was speechless.
"Len…I'm not angry. Just…surprised," she mumbled. Len blinked. Now he was even more confused. Rin simply stood there, apathetic as could be, just speaks it so…nonchalantly.
"I thought you would never find out."
She gazed at the tile beneath her.
"How long have you felt this way?"
He took a minute to think. He dug his hands inside his coat pockets.
"For a while now…maybe even longer," was all he could answer.
Wait a minute. Why is Len spilling his guts out? Is it not Rin's fault for keeping him in her room all night long? Is it not her doing, wearing such an appealing night gown in front of him? It's because of her that his secret was exposed.
Len was going to turn the tables.
"Rin, why were you pretending to be asleep? You could have stopped me from…"
He stopped mid sentence as the memory of his first kiss blinked in his mind.
"Len, I couldn't help it, I was sleepy. Your touch…however...kind of woke me up," she mumbled.
This conversation was getting them no where, they both figured. This was too serious a subject for there to be any finger pointing. Len figured that if there were any time to clear this all up, now is it.
"Rin, now that you know how I feel, how do you feel?"
The question caught her off guard. Still, she knew that this was inevitable. She would have to think long and hard about what her response will be. The answer she'll give him will determine their relationship from this moment on.
She can be honest, and take her and her brother to a romantic level.
Or she can half-lie, and claim that she only loves him as a twin, saving their relationship as really close siblings.
Or she can completely lie, telling him it can be nothing more than siblings, and try avoiding him to prevent any emotions from growing.
Searching deep inside her heart for an answer, she gazed deep into his eyes. They were sincere, loving, honest, compassionate, and were there only to look at her, no body else.
'I want to tell you I love you…'
She felt her heart pacing faster each second.
'But I don't know how to say it…'
She did her best to hold her gaze on his, trying not to pull away.
'Please…give me some guidance…what do I do?'
Len felt her tensity rise without touching or asking her. He knew that it would be hardest question she'll ever have to answer in her life. He knew what he needed to do to help her. He had to do something that he never thought he'll be able do twice. He clenched his fist, inhaling as he came clean with her.
"Rin, I love you," he whispered. Rin's eyes widened. Hearing him saying those last three words hastened her decision. He gave Rin her favorite and most sincere smile; one that only she would be able to see. Her body melted, and her heart skipped a beat.
She made her decision.
She gulped hard and summoned all of her courage.
"Len…I…"
This was it.
"Yes…?" he mumbled excitedly. She swallowed again and raised her voice.
"I-"
Knock. Knock. Knock.
The chapel doors opened and in came the parents.
"There you are Rin! Don't scare me like that. Tell me when you're going somewhere," exclaimed Mrs. Kagamine.
Len cursed on this inside. Rin sighed and nodded to all of her mother's bickering. Their father stood behind with Meiko, worried. Meiko just examined the twins while they were giving attention else where. The brunette nun developed a theory of what was happening, but figured it was best to examine the pair of teens and come to a conclusion later.
-Later that Afternoon-
The family returned home to find that their made came in early and started on some of her chores. Being that the party was held the previous night, the mansion was still in need of some extra cleaning.
Len and Rin avoided gazes throughout the entire trip home. Upon arriving, Len quickly went to his new room and locked himself up. Their mother ordered the maid to cook her early-afternoon snack; she followed the maid to the kitchen to make sure she did her job quickly. The father figure bid Rin a good day since he claimed he was going to a work meeting early. Before she knew it, she was all alone, standing in the middle of the living room. Rin strolled to her room, which belonged only to her now.
When she entered, she noticed that her new night gown that she had gotten last night was lying out on her bed, already cleaned. She figured that the maid saw it and cleaned it as a surprise for her. She knew that if it was already clean, then it would be okay for her to re-wear it. She loved it so much; she would wear it every night if she could.
She went over to it and picked it up, holding it to her body frame. If she had a tiara, she would look almost like a princess. Her eyes widened at the thought.
'Princess…?'
Flashbacks of all the times Len used that nickname on her came to her. She closed her eyes and let his voice echo in her head.
'My Princess is saved!' echoed a much younger Len in her head. His voice became older and deeper.
'Okay, my Princess.'
His voice became soothing.
'What's wrong, my Princess?'
It was killing her. The owner of that voice loved her this whole time, and she was too blind to see it. She ran her hand on the silky texture of her dress.
She had to have him. She loved him. She looked determinedly out her window.
Tonight, she was going to tell him once and for all how she feels.
-In the Kitchen-
"This came in the mail for you, Kagamine-sama," explained the maid as she presented an envelope to the hunger-satisfied mother. The woman eyed the envelope curiously.
"When did we get this?"
"This morning, Kagamine-sama. A private letter carrier who works for one of your husband's fellow noblemen stopped by this morning to drop it off personally," she explained. The higher-class women grabbed the envelope and read the name of the person it originally came from. She smiled mischievously.
"My goodness. It's from Kaito. We've only met him last night, and he's already sending letters to our house. Isn't it splendid?"
The maid had no choice but to agree.
"Yes."
The woman opened the envelope and read its contents. Her smile grew wider with every word.
"I have a new chore for you." She demanded suddenly.
"Yes, Kagamine-sama," nodded the maid.
"I want you to get a paper and respond to this letter."
The maid did as she was told.
"What would you like me to write in it?"
"Tell him that I accept his dinner invitation. I approve of him getting to know my precious Rin."
Oh no! Mommy dearest is up to something! Will Rin be able to tell Len how she feels? So much to look foward to next chapter!
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