BELLA AND JACOB LOVE STORY

CHAPTER 8

JACOB P.O.V ONE MONTH LATER

We had been going to church every week for the last month and it wasn't helping me. Nothing was making sense anymore. I didn't understand it.

"Are we gonna go?" Bella asked.

"No. I'm giving up! Its not doing anything! I'm falling apart!" I yelled. "Literally we haven't even tried to have another baby! That's ten times easier than going to church! What the fuck!" I yelled.

"Stop it Jacob! Give it a rest. It was my baby too! I'm not ready to have another okay?!" She yelled back at me.

"Fine!" I yelled before leaving the house and going for a run.

*BELLA P.O.V*

I was not really getting Jacob. He would always yell at me and then he would leave. I wasn't ready to try for another baby and could possibly lose that baby too. I would not be able to live with myself if that happened again. I decided to just make some tea and relax because it wasn't good on my body to be stressed out all the time like I am.

"What are you doing?" Emily asked as she walked through the front door.

"Drinking tea." I said. "I think me and Jake need to take a vacation." I blurted out.

"Why?" She asked.

"He's a mess. All he takes about is the baby and he's always crying or flipping out and he leaves all the time and I have no idea where he goes." I tried to not let it bother me but I was falling apart.

"I'll talk to Sam about giving him a break." She said as we both walked into the kitchen. She placed bags with food in them on the counter.

"You didn't have to buy us food." I said. I hadn't gone shopping in a while. We just ordered pizza for lunch and dinner and ate the leftovers for breakfast the next morning.

"Yes I did. Jake said he was getting sick of pizza." She said. I wasn't sure why she was here flaunting her belly around like it meant nothing to me. Don't get me wrong I loved Emily and I was so happy for her that she was able to have another child, but she already had two. Now she is having twins. All I want is one. That's all I'm asking for. Just one.

"Why didn't he tell me?" I asked a little upset. I would have gone shopping if he said something about it. I texted Alice asking her to go shopping for us and I would pay her back when she got here.

'Of course I can' She replied and I knew she would be here as quickly as the person could ring her things. Jace came storming through the front door and right up the stairs. I sighed and decided to make some pasta knowing he would be hungry. I heard the shower turn on I stood in the kitchen as Alice walked through the front door carrying bags. Esme was right behind her.

"Carlisle said we needed to give these to you and Jake." Esme said. She handed me two pill bottles. One read 'Jacob Black- anger management' to dumb it down. And the other said 'Bella Black-depression' I wouldn't ever say I had depression but I knew I did. It was like when Edward left. I woke up screaming and no one was there to hold me like Charlie had done. Jacob was gone every night doing who knows what and I spent days and nights all alone. It had gotten to the point where I wasn't sleeping because I was afraid.

"Hopefully this helps." Jake came down the stairs then. He greeted Esme and Alice with an hello. I held a bowl out to him and the pill bottle. He took them both from me.

"Are these going to help?" He asked.

"Carlisle said we will see and go from there." Alice put away the food and I thanked her offering her money which of course she didn't take. I let it slide because I wasn't in the mood to fight with her.

"Okay cool." He said back finishing his bowl. "Can you get me a drink?" He asked. I ran the cold water before getting a cup. I filled the cup and handed it to him. "I'm gonna go chill with the guys. Be back later. Love you." He shouted.

"Love you too." I said back.

"Lets go. We are taking you to the spa." Alice said. I didn't object. I knew I needed it and I really wanted it and I needed to get out of the house.

"All right." I said. I grabbed my phone and some money and headed out the door.

*JACOB P.O.V*

"Why do you keep fighting with her?" Embry asked me.

"I want to have another baby. Or at least try to." I answered as I downed another beer.

"You gotta give her time. She's still upset. Girls don't bounce back like us guys do." He said. I knew he was right.

"But I miss it! My balls are so blue!" I yelled in my tipsy state.

"We didn't need to know that." Seth said.

"Well what am I suppose to do? I want her to feel special again." I said trading a beer for a water. I wasn't too drunk so drinking the water would help.

"You have to let her know that even though you lost something special, doesn't mean she's not special anymore. Go buy her something nice."

"Tomorrow. I gotta go get her back." I yelled running back towards my house. As I got closer I heard screaming. I heard Alice's panicked voice.

"What's wrong?" I asked as I barged through my bedroom door to see Alice standing over Bella trying to wake her up. She was tossing and turning. "I got this." I said as I stripped down to my boxers and laid in the bed next to her. I wiped her eyes from the tears. "Its okay. I'm here now." I whispered at her. I felt her relax at my voice and her eyes slowly opened.

"I'm gonna go downstairs. Night." Alice said. I nodded at her.

"Thank you for coming." Bella said as she rested her head on my chest.

"Just go back to sleep." And she did. And so did I.