Author's Note: Sorry for the really long time between updating (I know it's only been like a week, but for me that's ages.) Been doing a lot of school work and other things, but that's no excuse, so I'll try to have some more chapters up soon. I am not sure if I did this one very well. So let me know what you think, review please.
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A Love of a Different Kind
Everything's Changing
Bella's Point of View
Just to let you know, this chapter will be done in two different sets, this one will show you what happens from the Bella and Edward perspective, the next one that is up, hopefully tomorrow, will show you what happens from the Alice and Jasper perspective, just so that you understand fully. They will be in Bella and Jasper point of view only. This is a Bella and Jasper story and I don't want to do a Edward and Alice Point of view... sorry :)
I couldn't believe we were almost back, I wanted to see Edward, to make him take me back, to make him see how much of a mistake it was for him to leave in the first place. How could he think I could survive without him? I've been in danger since he left, the only thing that has saved me is Jasper.
I looked over at my companion now, as we darted through the forest towards the Denali home I couldn't believe that he had stayed, he had left the love of his life Alice, to protect me. He had kept me safe, even when the person who I love had left, he had stayed.
I closed my eyes as I ran, allowing my other senses to guide me through the unfamiliar forest, we were getting closer now, I could smell the scent of multiple vampires, I opened my eyes and quickly glanced at Jasper, he wasn't slowing, and there was no way he had missed the scent, that must mean this is the Denali coven, Jasper wouldn't lead us into danger.
I closed my eyes again, allowing my other senses to take over, to warn me of any danger that was coming up, suddenly a new smell enveloped my senses, my eyes ripped open as I heard the sound of movement just ahead of me, I glanced at Jasper again and he reached out and grabbed my arm, steadying and reassuring.
I slowed down to a walk, with Jasper matching my pace, as we approached a final corner in the trees, Jasper squeezed my hand and took a deep unnecessary breath, as we walked around the corner there were two vampires waiting for us in the middle of a clearing, I recognised them both for two reasons.
The first was their appearance, they were both godly beautiful, enough so that they would make any model jealous, they had pasty white skin and toffee coloured eyes.
The second reason, because I knew them, one was my best friend Alice, who I couldn't help but feel anger towards, she had left, with Edward and the others. She should have fought to stay, like any best friend would but she didn't she just walked out of my life.
The other one, I think I would have recognised in any state of consciousness, I would have responded to even if I was dead. Edward, he was here right in front of me, standing there, watching me silently. Yet after all the dreams about him, the pointless hours alone wishing he was back, all I felt was anger towards him right now.
I squeezed Jasper's hand silently, telling him to stay with me. He glanced at me and nodded, and I saw Edward's head snap up in response to Jasper's thoughts. His lip curled back in anger and I saw his eyes turn solid. Edward wasn't happy with whatever it was that Jasper was thinking of.
Jasper caught the change of emotion, and dropped into a fighting crouch, I was shocked. I couldn't believe they would fight each other, Edward must have been really angry for Jasper to consider a fight. They stared into each other's eyes for another four and a half seconds, before Jasper straightened from his crouch and nodded towards Edward, a silent apology.
Edward nodded and I felt Jasper relax, I hadn't noticed his grip on my arm was tight until it was gone again, I sighed silently and looked at Jasper, he looked in pain, no pain didn't describe it. He was in agony, burning on the inside as his gaze locked onto Alice's. I glanced at Alice and saw her pleading with her eyes, begging him to understand, to forgive. What? I couldn't even begin to imagine.
"Bella" his voice was the same as I remembered it, just like velvet, even my name sounded beautiful when spoken by him.
"Bella, can I speak to you please? Privately." Jasper instantly dropped his grip on my arm, and walked away from me without a backwards glance. I couldn't control my emotions and was instantly hurt that he would walk away from me so easily, he had promised not to let me get hurt and yet he was willing to leave me to the hands of this monster?
I was shocked, how could I think of Edward that way, for so long he has been my life, my whole world and now I looked at him as a monster, and for what reason? The only reason that I could think of was because he made Jasper leave my side, and not for the first time I was very glad for the glitch in my brain that made me immune to his mind reading powers.
Jasper swung around at the sudden change of emotions he must have been getting from me, and for a split second his face was a mask of pain, showing the guilt he felt for hurting me, and the agony he felt for walking away, I hid my face from him, and from Edward, looking down at the ground and wishing for the first time that I could be human, so I could cry the tears I so badly needed to cry.
Jasper turned away from me and continued to walk over to Alice, I couldn't see through him but I was sure he wasn't making eye contact with her, and when he got within reach, she reached for his hand but he pulled away, walking right past her and into the woods. Alice looked at Edward and something passed between them before he hung his head in dejection.
Alice turned and followed Jasper into the woods, I wanted more than anything to know what had passed between them. I was so curious. I looked up at Edward and found his eyes on me, but it didn't feel the same, not the way it used to.
His stare didn't make me nervous, he voice didn't make me week at the knees, and the way his eyes smouldered as they did now usually made me forget my trail of thought, but right now I couldn't forget anything except the fact that he had left me, to whatever fate Victoria had chosen for me he had left me, and now he had the nerve to want to talk to me?
"Bella, immortality suits you, you're beautiful. Even more so then the amazing young woman I held before." Edward stared at me, and I looked back into his eyes, but I didn't feel the spark, I didn't feel the need to be with him.
"Well Edward, I came here to tell you one thing, and one thing only, you failed. You left to keep me safe, and you failed. Laurent found me, and even if he hadn't Victoria would have. I was never safe in your world but I was in more danger out of it."
Edward was stunned, he stared at me as he comprehended what I was trying to tell him, I watched with satisfaction as his face twisted with frustration as he yet again tried to read my mind, and failed.
"Edward, I was almost killed, the only thing that saved me was your brother. Jasper did what you were too scared to do, he saved me, he turned me. To him, I will be forever grateful."
"Bella, please let me explain everything." Edward was pleading, Edward who had always had the upper hand in our relationship, was pleading with me, begging for me to let him have a chance to explain what had happened.
I glared at him and crossed my arms over my chest before nodding, telling him to go on.
"Bella, I never wanted to leave you, but how could we stay? Isn't it bad enough that my existence almost got you killed by the psychopath James? Doesn't it get so much worse when it's my only family I have to protect you from? And I can't even do that."
Edward sunk to his knees with his face in his hands, I could tell he was upset, the memories rushing back to him of everything that had happened. Everything that had tried to hurt me, but nothing had hurt me as much as him leaving, and he should know that.
"Bella, I never imagined that Victoria would come back for you, or that Laurent would attack you, he'd been staying here. Please Bella you have to believe you, I left you so that you could be safe, I never wanted to hurt you."
Edward still wasn't looking at me, and all my senses were telling me there was something more, that something worse was coming. I tensed myself waiting for the mental pain that was sure to come, I couldn't imagine that he was finished yet.
"And what about your distractions Edward, if you loved me as much as you claim, you must have been very distracted in order to stay away for so long."
I watched as he flinched from my words, so I had hit a nerve, he had been distracting himself, I felt myself flinch as well at the pain, however it wasn't as bad as I had thought. It wasn't as strong as the pain from when Jasper had walked away from my side. I took a deep breath and looked him in the eye when he finally looked up at me.
"Alice said, that I had to tell you this, that it was only fair. I have been distracting myself Bella, I have been hunting, I have been reading and playing my piano, I have tried talking to Carlisle and Esme, and I have even tried running to Canada and back a few times, but nothing worked. All I could think of was you, I needed something to get my mind off of you, something that would take me somewhere else completely, a full mental and physical distraction."
Even though I didn't need to breathe I felt my breath hitch at his words, was Edward telling me that his way of forgetting about me, the supposed love of his life, was to find a physical distraction... with another woman?
"Who?" It was all I could say, I didn't want to know the answer but I had to, I had to know who she was, and how was she better than me, how he could throw away everything we had, that I thought we had, for someone else. I had known all along I was never good enough for Edward.
Edward looked up at me, he seemed afraid, I knew he didn't want to answer this question, and he knew that he was going to have to. He took a deep breath, stalling for time and ran his hands through his already messy hair. Before finally looking back at me, dead in the eye.
"Alice." I let my breath out in a whoosh. My best friend. Alice. My best friend, who I had missed non-stop for the last four months, had spent that time, instead of missing me, sleeping with the one person she knew I was head over heels in love with.
I froze, every part of my body was still, I couldn't believe this. My best friend and my, soul mate? I couldn't believe that anymore, Edward wasn't my soul mate, if he was he wouldn't have hurt me like this.
Everything in my vision went red and the bloodlust kicked in, I was after all a new born vampire, and right now, I was a very angry new born vampire. I turned to the forest where Jasper had taken Alice, I was ready to kill, I wanted to rip her apart and I wanted Edward to watch, how could they do this to me, I thought they had loved me the way I had loved them.
Edward sprung to his feet when he realised what I was planning on doing, he grabbed my arm and swung me around, I pushed him hard in the chest and hissed. I was shocked I could make such a sound, I scared even myself, and Edward's eyes opened wide with surprise.
"Don't you ever touch me again Edward Cullen, if you and you little friend don't want to die today you'll let me walk away right now."
Edward stared at me for a half a second and then nodded taking a step back away from me. I spun on my heel in the opposite direction to Alice and away from Edward, I didn't want to be anywhere near either of them. I took off running back to Forks, I would go back to the house where I had been living with Jasper, back home.
My new mind and body gave me the ability to think while I ran, and it was easy for me to comprehend that I wasn't entirely in that much pain from what had happened, what hurt me most and upset me most was Alice being disloyal to Jasper.
Jasper was so sweet and kind, he didn't deserve any of this. I knew I didn't either but it hurt me to think of the pain that he was in right now, he would need a friend. So with that in mind I turned back. Jasper had been there for me and I would be there for him, no matter what he decided to do.
Sooo i hope you liked it, it was really hard to write, I was trying to stick with the Bella character as much as possible, but that's really hard because Bella would NEVER hurt Edward, or turn him down. Soo I did my best. Let me know what you think, review please.
Danii.
