An I am feeling so small
it was over my head
I know nothing at all.
A I will stumble and fall
Im still learning to love
Just starting to crawl.
Say something, Im giving up on you
Im sorry that I couldnt get to you
anywhere I would have followed you
say something im giving up on you
Say something- By: A great big world Ft. Christina aguliera
Sesshomaru was busying himself from his thoughts by helping the villagers bring in the crops. He didnt understand what the little snipit was. A memory? A fantasy?
Kagome was a beautiful woman, and to be honest, he would feel a little envious of the man who would make her a wife. But that brought him back to the little vision. He had felt complete and utter contentment, passion, adoration, and love. While looking into her eyes, he had felt a strange pull on his heart. It was almost painful to ignore.
Sesshomaru picked up the two baskets of vegtables he had just harvested and walked them over to the storage house. Winter was fastly approaching. And soon the fields would begin to freeze over with the first snows fall. What ever not gathered would be lost.
Setting the baskets down, he glanced at kagome In the herb garden. She was helping them gather the herbs before the snow as well. No doubt they would need many of them when the cold weather settled in, and the people of the village began to catch sickness from being out in the weather every day.
Children laughed and played around her. They would run up to her carrying different varieties of herbs. She would smile, nod her head in exceptence and place them in her basket with the others and repeat.
"Oh, Thank you dear for all your help." Sesshomaru looked down at the little elderly lady who had spoken to her.
"It was nothing." He replied and returned his watchful eyes to Kagome. She was walking with the children back into the village. Her basket held firmly on her hip with one hand and the other holding the had of the youngest child. The singing of the children could be heard as they passed him.
The old lady had noticed the way he looked and stared at their villages miko and smiled warmly, remembering the same look from her beloved husband. She stole a glance at the man working hard to bring in the crops before the first freeze.
"Oh, dear... I forgot." Sesshomaru looked down at the woman as she rung her little hands and smiled sheepishly at him. "Its my old age. I am such a forgetful woman these days." She laughed and grabbed a bag from the table behind her.
"Could you be so kind as to take this lunch to the Lady Kagome? She helped my husband with his joint pain last night with some of her remedies. She is such an angel. I made her a lunch, but forgot to give it to her this morning." Asked the lady with a smile on her face.
Sesshomaru held out his hand and she placed the bag in it.
"Thank you so much Dear. There should be enough in there for the two of you. For doing me such a great favor." She smiled again, then shooed him away from the small storage hut.
Sesshomaru spotted Kagome at the top of a hill still surrounded by many children. They were taking advantage of the few flowers left on the hill, making what looked to sesshomaru as flower crows.
"Kagome." He spoke her name. Unsure of how he was supposed to address her hear in this village where she was very well respected as the village Miko.
"Oh Sesshomaru..." She looked at him and smiled shyly.
"Ohhh... look at those claws... Bet they killed alot of bad demon huh?" A little boy asked smiling with a missing tooth.
"Hotaru! Thats not nice." Kagome jumped up, shaking her finger at the little child in a gentle scolding manner. "Now, please apologize to Sesshomaru Sama. Questions like that are not nice to ask." She explained to him, kneeling down to eye level.
The child's face fell and his little hands dropped to the hem of his haori as he turned to face Sesshomaru again. His feet shuffling from being scolded.
"Im sorry Mr. Sesshomaru Sama." He mumbled out an apology, and then turned back to Kagome.
"Very good, thank you Hotaru. Im sorry for being so hard on you. But I want you to grow up big and strong, and a very good man." She nodded up to Sesshomaru. "Just like Sesshomaru Sama... Ne?" She asked smiling softly at the child. A wide smile spread on his face and he nodded.
"Yes! Ill be big and strong! Just like Mr. Sesshomaru Sama!" He said turning on his heels. He stopped and looked at sesshomaru, a giggle leaving his lips as he ran down the hill and away from Kagome.
"Alright Children, I think Sesshomaru Sama and I need to speak alone. Go run along and play." She said smiling at the children as they ran down the hill to.
Kagome watched the children go, to make sure none of them got hurt from running so fast down the hill. When they were all saftly at the bottom, she turned to Sesshomaru with a small smile.
"Hello Sesshomaru." She said, looking up to him.
Sesshomaru held his hand out to her, and she stared at the bag in it.
"The little lady at the storage hut said she had made it for you." He, placing the bag in her waiting hands.
"Ah... Akiko. Yes. Such a sweet woman she is." Kagome said opening the bag and smiling again.
"Come, sit and join me Sesshomaru. There is plenty here and I would enjoy some company." She said pulling the food from the bag. She rested it on her lap while she lay the bag flat. The made a small picnic set up for them.
Picking up a rice ball, she handed one to Sesshomaru who graciously took it with a small bow of his head.
They ate in silence. It was comfortable. The crisp chilly wind blew her hair as she ate the lunch that was given to her. A few minutes passed, and Sesshomaru looked at kagome.
She looked happy, a smile on her face. But he noticed that no matter how much she smiled, it never truley met her eyes. The sparkled with underlying pain. And severly so.
He thought back to the vision. trying to conjure up anything else that he might be able to connect with it, but he came up empty. Sighing, he closed his eyes, trying to will the headache that had formed at his actions.
"Sesshomaru? Are you ok?" Kagome's small hand felt warm on his larger one. And a tingle set through out his skin. He quickly shook off the shock and nodded.
"Yes. My head just hurts a bit. That all." He said. She could see the frustration behind his carefully placed mask. Giving his hand a squeeze, she smiled reassuringly.
"I can see there is something else bothering you... If I can help in any way. I will." She said, catching his golden eyes with hers. She sucked in a breath as her heart skipped a beat. but continued to smile. "Its ok." She said a small nod leaving her.
"I cannot remember anything... Nothing about who I am and what I am. I know what I was told. But it still feels uncertain to me. To me, I have never been or even known that person. But to you all, I still am that person. I feel like I should act like the Sesshomaru you all remember and love so much... I just dont know where to start... I dont know how." he said. Kagome frowned sadly at him.
"I know... Everything must be so confusing to you. But we do not expect you to be him. We are happy just to have you with us." She said, looking out into the distance.
"Kagome, you seem to be hurt the most about my memory loss... Why?" He barely caught the tear that fell from her eyes before she batted it away with the back of her hand, then turned to him with an apologetic smile.
"Because, I knew you in a more personal way. We all are sadden by the cards that fate has dealt on this subject. But with me, its just... a little different." She said as if she were chosing her words carefully.
"Can you tell me about how we met? I might remember if I had something to start with." He asked. Looking into her eyes, he saw her hesitation before she nodded. Taking a deep breath, she began.
"Well, we met when you and Inuyasha were trying to aquire the Tetsuiga. You had tried to kill me because I was able to draw the sword from its resting place and neither you or Inuyasha were able to." She said with a laugh. He smirked. Inuyasha had told him this story.
"But I guess Inuyasha has already told you all that." She said, looking at him as he nodded with a smirk on his face.
"Well then I guess I will start from the beginning of our story." Sesshomaru leaned back and lay in the grass beside her as she did the same. Both looking up at the clouds.
"It all really started when your fathers evil sword Sounga somehow showed up at my house. Inuyasha had take hold of the hilt of it. But he wasnt strong enough and was taken over by its evil aura.
"After the sword released him, you and Inuyasha had come together to bring the sword and its new puppet down. Rin, a little human girl who used to follow you around, and me were taken by the swords walking dead soldiers. We would never have survived. it almost killed us... But you came out of nowhere and saved our lives. In that moment is when my eyes were opened up.
"You were still a frightfully strong Taiyoukai. One who was not to be messed with... and of course you still are right now. But I could finally see that in you lye a heart. One that was capable of love and compassion." Sesshomaru turned his head to look at her.
"You say I was capable of compassion... as if I wasnt before?" Sesshomaru asked, and kagome smiled again.
"Of course you were. But you were always a stubborn man. You didnt like to show emotion. Had said many times that it was a weakness, one you would never bow to. But even though you didnt show your emotion. You action that night had spoken of it for you." Kagome said, turning her head back to the clouds.
"Please go on." Sesshomaru stated. He listened to her talking in earnest. It was as if he could almost see the images play out in his mind... But not quite enough to be memories... almost as if he were imagining the tales in a good book.
"There was this man, well not really a man. He was... well disgusting really. He compiled his body of different body parts of different demons. And he was seeking a jewel. The Sacred Shikon No Tama, that I had shattered trying to retrieve it. Miroku, Sango, Kirara, Inuyasha and I hunted the shards down. By the time all of the shards were found. We had one half of the jewel, and the evil man had the other. His name was Naraku." Sesshomaru leaned up and looked down at kagome fast.
"The Naraku who was in the body of that woman? The naraku who is after me?" He asked.
"Yes, and that woman. She was your mother..." Kagome frowned. "I was hoping you hadnt seen any of that." She spoke quietly, looking away from his eyes.
"But do not worry, He will never get to you or the jewel again." Kagome said with confidence. A silent promise of death to Naraku if he tried.
Sesshomaru laid back down and waited for her to begin again.
"We fought him for a long time, and we would have killed him to. But every time we got to close to killing him, he would run and hide. Rebuild his body and come back again.
"Finally we got the upper hand. You gave up your obsession with getting Tetsuiga, and with it, you gained your arm and a very formidable weapon. The Baksuiga." He watched as Kagome's hand ghosted over one of the swords on his waist. It was in a white and purple sheath. And he could feel the raw power coming off of it in waves.
"Baksuiga is made from you alone. Its creats great distruction to any enemy. once the enemy is cut with it, the power from the blade creats a damage so powerful, it doesnt stop. It will continue to cut the enemy down until nothing is left standing.
Naraku showed up as a huge spider, and we all went in to defeat him from the inside out. You took your baksuiga and cut every piece of him you could as you went. And the damage spread. we were finally able to bring him down.
"Sesshomaru, if you had not have been there... I can almost say for certain. We would have all died. You saved us again."
Sesshomaru let the words sink into his brain. He still had no recollection of any of it. But she talked so highly of him. As if he was the hero who saved the day.
"After the battle, I took the complete jewel and made a wish on it. Inuyasha deserved happiness. So I brought Kikyo back for him. But I guess it wasnt selfless enough, because me, Sango and Miroku were punished for it. We are Immortal in almost every since of the word. We cannot age, and we will not die, unless struck down by an enemy in battle. The jewel dissapeared into my body and we have to protect it. We cannot let anyone get it again.
"Years later, We were on our patrols to kill rouge demons. I split from Miroku and Sango to cover more grounds. The first few years after the jewel was put back together... Many demons came in search of it. But they all fell at the end of my blade. I did my duty without wavering. But I cursed the fates and the elders who had cursed me with the responsability and Sango and miroku to. They didnt deserve this fate.
"I made camp one evening, and went hunting for my supper. I was staggered when I felt a very powerful aura rush over me. So much power that it shivered up my back like pin pricks and needles. I didnt know who it was, But in my mind, That kind of power was to dangerous to be left alone. It had to be taken out. so I followed its trail. There was a battle. Several ogre demons were on one Taiyoukai... You. The power I felt was coming from you. You were using your last ounce of power to fight them. They had came onto you like an ambush and injured you greatly. So without thinking, I jumped in and joined the fight. It took quite a while, but we took them down one by one. When the battle was done, you had hit your knees. Injured like you were.
"When I offered my help, you were so stubborn. Refusing help from a human. But didnt have the strength to actually keep me from helping. I helped you back to my camp, and nursed your wounds for several days. After you were well enough to leave, I continued my work.
"Then it wasnt long before you found me in the same situation. Im guessing it was your to make even your debt to me for helping in your battle. We had saw each other in passing battles quite often after that. Either I was seeking you out or you were seeking me out. We had both been curious about the other.
"We became alies in a since. Then friends, and close friends... You had once told me that my duty was not mine alone to carry. It was ours and you would help me. We would do it together... I felt safe with you for the first time in years... And you have never broke your promise to me. Through everything, you stood by me. Never once did you give up. You never backed down. You were strong and fearless.
"Years after that, Something went wrong. Your mother demanded something of you that you could not do... You didnt want to do it, but you also could not do it. You were placed under a very power curse by a dark miko... The curse was like a poison snake crawling within your skin slowly killing you. We broke the curse recently, but when you awoke after the ritual... Your memories were gone. All of them.
"Recently, I just found out some knews that is both relieving and heart wrenchingly frightening. Your mother was take over, her body and mind, my Naraku. Somehow he found a way to force his soul into her body. He wants you to have a full blooded heir to the western lands were he can slip into the babes body and take over as the heir. He wants dominance of all four corners." Kagome finished.
Sesshomaru opened his eyes. He hadnt noticed that he had closed them. Listening to her voice. Trying to jog his memories. But none of it came back to him.
"I shall not make an heir then." His voice was confident. And kagome frowned. The truth of his statement hung in the air... He would never make an heir because he did not remember that he even had a mate to make an heir with... and also... because he is not mated to a demoness... And Naraku wants a full blooded body.
"Sesshomaru. Naraku is very dangerous. If the time ever comes and we must fight him again... I need to know that you will be safe. He is targeting you. And I will not let him have you." She said forcefully.
The look in her eyes was one of pure fear. She feared to lose him? She had said they were close.
"I will fight if I have to. If what you said is true, then This Sesshomaru does not walk away from any challenge that arises. It shall be no different now." Sesshomaru stated cooly.
"But you do not know what he is capable of..."
Kagome could feel the tears in her eyes, but what happened next shocked her.
Sesshomaru turned to her, and she felt his hand grasp hers. she glanced down at the hands and then back up to him. The look in his eyes was one she had seen before, but then it was gone and replaced a comforting look.
"Kagome, I will fight. But I will live. Do not fear for me." He said, his eyes staring into hers.
He didnt know what this feeling he was feeling was, but he brought his hand up and brushed it under her eyes, catching the tears as they slid free of her eyes, and swiped them away. His thumb and forefinger holding her chin gently.
Sesshomaru looked down at her lips, slightly parted and trembling. They were so pink and perfect. He had an overwhelming urge to taste them and he couldnt understand why. But with one more glance at her eyes, he felt himself slowly leaning forward.
Kagome waited. Her heart pounded like a humming birds wings in her chest. He was going to kiss her... She could feel his breath on her face, and then on her lips as he got closer. He stopped an inch from her lips, looking up at her eyes, then leaned forward again.
She felt his lips ghost over her's for a fraction of a second...
"Lady Kagome!" Sesshomaru pulled back and Kagome looked down the hill. A little green blob was getting closer. Then she saw jaken.
"Lady Kagome I bring Grave news from the western lands... Ah... Sesshomaru Sama!" Jaken hit the grass in a deep bow. "My apologies My lord I did not see you there..."
Panicing my now, kagome pulled Jaken up by his haori.
"Jaken, what is happening?!" She asked almost yelled.
"Oh, Yes! Lady InuKimi have had her Mikos strike on the villages bordering the castle walls!"
Without further words, kagome jumped to her feet and ran down the hill and straight into the hut.
"The western border villages are in need of any medical Miko, and any help available... Friends... That is my home... Come with me please." Kagome begged, looking them all in the eyes. Kikyo got up and grabbed her bow and packed a bag.
"We will go with you." They all said, rushing off to pack their travel bags.
Sesshomaru entered the hut, and kagome turned to him.
"Sesshomaru... you can choose to stay here or come with us." She said. But Sesshomaru shook his head.
"I am the Lord of these lands am I not? I shall be with you. I shall help my people." Sesshomaru turned and waited outside the hut While everyone finished up.
Sesshomaru and Inuyasha ran, while Kikyo and kagome rode on Hiro, and Miroku and sango rode on Kirara. They needed to make quick pace.
Sesshomaru looked up at Kagome as they went... He could still remember the tingle he felt when his lips brushed hers... Kagome looked feirce. She didnt miss a beat when she kicked into action to save his people.
Where they her people to? Had she lived in the castle with him? Was she their lands Miko? That had to be the reason this was so important to her.
(A/N: Hi yall! Thank you for all of those reviews! I loved them all! Someone had asked me for their love story, and I cant exactly tell much about that. but I tried to give my best... I will try to clear up any confusion as best as I can. I just have to find a way to work it in it with also continueing the main plot of the story. I will do my best! but if any of you have any ideas of how I might be able to work it in, just let me know. I apologize for the confusion. Sometimes I go into a zone and just type for hours. it doesnt turn out the best. So I have to end up going back through and adding tiny details. I must have missed over that one. Alright yall! Here is the next chapter. I hope you liked it! Leave a review yall! Until next time!)
-CountryBaby93
