Sorry, it's taken me awhile to update. I've been so busy lately.


Finding him then Losing him

Walking out of the airport Lorelai feels excitement and nervousness bubble up inside of her. She was finally going to find Luke. Be able to tell him how much she truly loves him. Doubt clouded her mind also. Nightmares about the what ifs. For all she knew Luke could be dating or engaged. He may not even love her anymore. He could have dyed his hair or go into depression. Maybe he was walking around Dallas right now with a blonde hanging all over him. Fear showed itself in her eyes and if she wasn't so determined to confront him she would have turned back and taken a plane to Stars Hollow right now. Taking in a deep breath she called a cab. Sitting in the back seat she realizes she has no idea where she should go.

Taking a leaping guess she asks,"Is there a diner near here." The cab driver turns around and faces her. She can't help but notice how his mustache hangs over his lips. Bushy and overgrown she would have loved to cut it right off.

As he speaks with his deep southern accent the bush of a mustache moves and appears as if it is dancing, "Well, there is this place called Luke's, I think. My sister goes there all the time. She says he makes such a good coffee that she would sell our ol' horse, Nancy, for a dozen cups."

"Take me there." She relaxed into her seat. Laying there she couldn't help but whisper,"That's my Luke never changes." The ride takes nearly 15 minutes but to Lorelai it felt like hours. And those 15 minutes if it weren't for the letter she gripped in her hands would have given her enough time to back out of this plan of hers. When the man says their there she knows it is Luke's. From the cab window she can see the yellow cup sign swinging in the slight breeze. She pays the cab driver quickly then begins the walk across the street. Standing on the sidewalk she looks into the window and gasps. There inside is look and standing before him is a slim blonde. The woman is so then that Lorelai is pretty sure she is all bones and no meat. What hurt the most was that the woman sported a bump in her midriff. She was pregnant. Cautiously she puts one foot on the step. Then she is frozen. For inside Luke is no hugging that tramp. She can't take it and tears slid down her face and splash onto the ground. There was no way she was going in there now and try to get Luke back. He was with someone else and they were going to have a kid. Getting into another cab she is on her way back to the airport. Her vision blurred by the tears but instead of wiping them she lets them fall. Right now her heart was breaking.

Luke held Diana in his arms. She was like a sister to him and right now she was crying, again. But the tears were ones of joy not sadness. She had just gotten married to Luke's good friend Steve yesterday. They were going to leave for their honeymoon.

Pulling away he told her, "The wedding was beautiful. Don't worry I don't mind taking care of Rover for a week. Be happy your going on your honeymoon." Diana gave Luke a watery smile.

"Sorry, it's the mood swings." Luke's gaze had wandered to the window of his diner and he could have sworn he just saw Lorelai, the love of his life. No, when he looked back she wasn't there anymore. This had happened lately. Every brown haired tall woman looked like Lorelai, and when he was just about to go take her into his arms he would realize it wasn't her. Steve came out from the kitchen and Luke gave him a manly hug goodbye. But as they walked away he couldn't help but think that, that had been Lorelai. No she was in Stars Hollow with Chris, he reasoned with himself and got back to work.

Lorelai as she sat on the plane on her way home let the tears fall again. The letter is in her hands and her tears fall on its pages. There is nothing she can do or say to convince herself that maybe what she had saw was all her imagination. No. Only anger runs through her veins at the moment. Biting her lip she decides she is going to do it. In seconds the letter is just shreds of paper. Grabbing an envelope she places them in there just in case, she hoped, everything changed.

Once she is home she is bombarded with questions. Instead she decides to ignore them and tells Rory she went to Maine and still couldn't find Luke. Lies. Her daughter and herself had resorted to telling each other lies.

Lying on her bed with tears still flowing Lorelai tells Rory, "It's over there is no way possible that I am going to find him."