Andrea sat at the kitchen table, newspaper in hand. Her story was on the front cover and this was the first time which she felt truly unhappy about it. In the past she had doubts about some of the stories she had written mostly because she didn't want to be found out but it gave her more of a buzz than actually wanting to stop either of her careers. But this time it was different it was something personal to her. Her friend and it would hurt her probably more than she realised.
She listened to the murmur of voices coming from the lounge, as least their talking she thought. She had always thought that they would make a great couple but they were both too scared to admit how they felt about each other. Now she was unsure. Kerry had changed recently she wasn't the PC she knew when she had first arrived at Sunhill and now with her pregnancy it would defiantly put a lot of pressure on them, if they decided to give it a go.
She looked at the clock it was half past eight. She hated to interrupt them but they had to get going. She thought of how Kerry and Smithy were going to cope with their days. Everyone at the station would be talking about them, especially Kerry. Then the door opened and Smithy's head popped into the room.
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Kerry followed Andrea down the stairs and looked uncertainly at Smithy who in return produced a bunch of yellow daisies from behind his back. Smithy had made them all coffee whilst the girls where up stairs and had set two of the cups on the coffee table in the lounge and the other in the kitchen. Kerry and Smithy took their places and prepared for their dreaded talk. Smithy spoke first.
"How are you?"
Kerry didn't know what to say so she shrugged. She knew that everyone would be talking about them today not because they knew about them potentially being a couple but because of everything that had happened yesterday out side the station and the front cover of the morning's paper. She looked into his eyes. How she loved his eyes they made her feel safe.
"I love him so much but we can't be together now she. Not now. Not after everything I've done in the past few months what I've put him though and I though things were just coming together in my life was finally getting back on track. How wrong was I. Just as I thought things could work Gabriel had destroyed them yet again with a baby. What the hell am I going to do with it. I don't even know if I want it and Smithy certainly wouldn't.
"You don't have to say anything," she finally spoke, "it's ok, I get it." She lowered her head blinking back the tears. Everything was far from ok he and Andrea had to go to work soon. They had to face everyone, whilst she sat at home alone thinking, she didn't know which was worst. There was so much going on and she didn't know where she fitted into it all after all she was about to loss her job and probably end up doing time. Maybe Gina was right about David dropping the charges when he knew. But what if he found out the truth and he was bound to what would he do? he had nearly killed her and Smithy just weeks ago because they were cops she couldn't imagine what he would do if he ever found out or just how angry he would be. Kerry shuddered at the thought. This was a very bad idea but there was no going back now she just had to play her part and see how things panned out. She had secrets and lies to deal with and the burden was getting heavier and heavier.
Kerry suddenly remembered where she was and who was with her. He had been quiet the whole time and from what she could tell he had been studding her as she sat there thinking. He didn't look angry or sad just worried and it made her heart melt.
"Kerry, I love you, I have done for a long time now and well, I want us to be together no matter what. I can't promise that it's going to be easy but can we at least try?"
Kerry sat speechless, it was everything she had wanted to hear and all she wanted to do was say yes but part of her was screaming no. Her life was too complicated already what with the baby and Gabriel and even David; and could she really bear lying to him about everything. It wouldn't be fair. He deserved someone better.
"Smithy, I love you I really do I realised it today. I was so scared when I heard those shots that it was you who was hurt and I knew I love you." Smithy face was a picture he looked so happy he was almost gleaming
"But," that one word had brought his world crashing down, "you deserve so much better than me,"
"No," smithy cut across Kerry sharply, "I want you and you only; your all I need, all I want. Please."
Kerry knew she should say no but her heart lead her. She loved him so much and all she wanted was to be with him. Nothing else mattered and slowly a smile formed on her face and Smithy knew he had won her round and reached out and pulled her into him. They melted into one another savouring the feeling of each other in their arms they had wait so long for this moment and now that it was here they never wanted it to end.
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