Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight
Claimer: I do own Elizabeth/Izzy Anne Mason and Zack Cullen
I decided to do one more chapter before I left to hold every one off until next week
Just so you know this story is set twenty years after Bella is turned and ten years after they added Zack to the family.
Chapter five- Life. Never give, just takes.
IPOV
Ok…. so I need a way to stage my death but we are at a loss. We have three potential ways to stage my demise.
I take a walk threw the woods and get "attacked by a bear."
I get abducted and killed. Since I'm rich that is believable.
I just don't show myself anywhere for a couple decades.
So far that's all we got. I personally think the last one is good, but Edward says that since I'm from a wealthy family that that might leave a lot of people to go searching for me.
So here we were a day before November 21st, my birthday, (I just now choose this date.) when I have another attack. They have been happening more frequently now so I don't know what to do.
"Shhh…. It'll be over soon I promise." Edward said holding my hand while Zack held me in his lap. Edward didn't want Zack to bite me because Zack didn't have enough experience. I fought with him at first but soon thought it was for the best.
I felt my heart slow down again. It felt like my chest was gong to explode. Each attack it got worse and worse. I didn't know what to do.
"Only four more hours until midnight." Bella looked like she would have cried if she could.
"So how are we going to do this? My death that is." I asked.
"I think we will go with the bear attack. Carlisle. Do you think you could draw some of her blood so that we could put it on her clothes and spread it across the forest floor." Jasper said.
"How many baggies will it take?" Carlisle asked.
"Three." Alice said and I looked at her funny. "My vision."
"That's a lot. Do you think she will be ok?" Edward didn't even try to sound like he wasn't worried.
"She will most likely be out of it for a little while but I think she will be fine." Carlisle assured him.
Then I was in his office having the blood drained from me. Gah! I hated blood. It just smelled so…. so…. I don't know. It didn't smell bad, but it didn't smell good either. It was a salt and rust smell mixed with a different smell every time I smelled it. Sometimes lemon, others roses, just different. None smelled the same except for that salt and rust smell.
After the second bag I didn't smell it anymore. I felt really loopy and really sick. After Carlisle was done and I had something to eat an slept for a while Edward came to take me to my new room.
I loved my room. It was all black red and white like my old room but it was more…. me. The walls were red with black and white spirals that made flower looking patterns around the room. My bed frame was black with a red canopy. My sheets were white and black while my comforter was red. My dresser. Vanity, bedside tables, doors, and window frame were all painted black. I'm not Goth or Emo or anything like that but black looks better with red walls.
Edward set me down on my bed then pulled a black chair up to it so he could sit down next to me.
"Iz, are you sure you want to be changed?" he asked. I knew he wanted me to stay human; he had also wanted Bella to stay human also. That didn't work out like he wanted it to. "I don't want to take your soul." He wasn't looking at me.
"I would rather you take it then Mr. Grim Reaper who will come for me." He looked at me shocked. "Look, before I met you and everyone else I had no soul. No heart. No life. You, Zack, Emmet, Alice, Carlisle, Esme, Jasper, and as crazy as it sounds, Rosalie, you guys are my soul, heart, and life. As long as I have you I will always have them."
"You still wont be able to live a life." He was looking down again.
"I told you before," I grabbed his chin and made him look at me, " I don't need to live a life. I just need to have one. Its better then being six feet under decaying while in the after life I knew I had a chance to have a life with the people closest to me. We haven't even had that much time together." He looked like he would have cried if he could.
"I love you Iz." He said and have me a big hug.
"I wuv you to uncle Edward." I said it just like I said it the first time. I got a chuckle out of him with that. Then I looked at the clock.
"It's three minutes until midnight." I said breaking the hug. "Are you sure you want to be the one?" he nodded. " Then I'm ready when you are."
He kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes for a second then the second I reopened them I saw everyone.
"I heard what you said about you soul and stuff." Rosalie said. "Thanks." Everyone in the room looked at her. "What? I can be nice when I want to."
I smiled at her. "Thanks Rosalie."
"We all thank you." Alice said. I smiled at her.
Then I realized the one person that I wanted to be here wasn't. I must have made a weird face because Edward looked at me funny.
"what are you thinking?" he asked.
"Oh. Like you don't know." I said annoyed. He always asked me that when I knew he could read minds. Except for Bella's.
"I don't." I looked at him funny.
"So you never could? Like Bella?" I asked and he nodded. "Well thanks for the info. I could have thought a lot of things that I tried not to think because you were here. Now I know I could have thought them but I haven't. Now I don't need to think them. Thanks." Everyone laughed.
"So…. Are you going to tell me what you were thinking?" Edward asked.
"Where is he?" I asked sad.
No one spoke. I knew he didn't want me to change, but did he want me to die? I knew he loved me and I had just found that out. I wanted him here. I wanted him to hold my hand threw it all.
Thirty seconds until midnight.
"Well I'm ready." I said looking at Edward.
He just nodded and kissed me on the cheek. I smiled at him and everyone else.
Then it was time. Edward leaned down to my neck. Before he did anything he was forced away from me. Where Edward once was there was Zack.
"I'm going to do it. Experience or not." He growled at everyone. "Got a problem with it." He asked Edward.
"Yeah." Edward snarled back. Then his face softened. "But I will allow it. The second anything goes wrong though, I will hurt you."
Zack nodded and tuned to me. He kissed me lightly on the lips but didn't say anything. Soon I felt his cool lips on my neck as he bit down into my skin. Then I was burning all over.
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I woke up three days later. I knew it was three days because there was no pain, no burning, and I felt…. healthy. No one was in the room and I didn't here anyone at all. I knew that I had a vampires hearing now so why didn't I hear anyone?
Maybe just a side effect. I thought to myself.
I got up and ran down stairs. I wanted to get Edward back for the 'Uncle Edward' thing. I got to the living room and no one was there. I searched the whole house, nothing. I searched the woods, nothing. I searched everywhere in Forks, nothing.
After four days of searching and found nothing, I knew what had happened. They left me.
They all did. They left without me. They didn't even say good –bye.
I was walking through the house one last time before I left. I hadn't opened any of the room except for mine. I didn't want to see anything that might remind me of them to much.
As I was walking through the kitchen I found a note. It had my name on it but it was a little different form my name. It said…
Elizabeth Anne Mason-Cullen.
I started to dry sob.
Why? I thought to myself. Why did they say that? They left me. They clearly don't want me. So why? Why did they leave? Why did they take away my soul, my heart, and my life? Why?
I was in hysterics by now. I didn't want to think about it. Again, for the second time in my life, everything was taken away from me.
'Life. It took everything away from me, but all I ask for is a normal one. It just takes, never gives.'
I remember saying that along time ago. This time its different.
Life. Even in death took everything away form me, but all I asked for was to have. It just takes, never gives.
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(Just to clear it up some on the last sentence, just so you get it. This time she's not talking about her old human life but her vampire life. And when she says 'but all I ask for is to have' she is referring to the time she talked with Edward when she says 'I don't want to live a life. I just want to have a life.' But as she says 'you guys are my soul, my heart, my life'.)
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A/N: I was awake so I decided to write this one. It is now early in the mourning and I have to leave for camp in a few so I got bored and wrote this. I'm really tired so if this chappie isn't good enough tell me and I will rewrite it on the 9th along with another chapter.
